comfy feels thread

>>37527268
>be me
>white
>6'3
>brown hair and eyes
>decent shape for working
>work from 6am to 2pm lifting and moving scrap metal around
>had only on gf when younger
>hide powerlevel daily
>social with anyone
>trust issues
>almost every woman is unfaithful or not honest
>killme.jpg

tell me where i went wrong

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I'm not upset about anything but I wanted to let you know that reading your post made my day better. Just knowing someone out there cares makes me happy.

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>>37527365
it's okay that you feel that way today friend. i hope you feel positive or at least neutral in the near future. unless you don't want that, in which case i only wish you good luck.

>>37527617
you didn't go wrong anywhere friend, at least not according to what you're telling me. just keep trying. don't let your luck go to waste.

>>37527651
thank you friend. that means a lot to me.

I was raised in a secular household but I discovered Jordan Peterson and now I'm struggling with the idea of God.

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>>37527268
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-j9B0o9ArpE
I really like synthwave music. Call me a hipster or whatever, but I just really enjoy people singing about summer, chill vibes and a gentle optimism for the future.

I just woke up today and I have a long day at work ahead of me. I get really insecure that I'm not doing a good enough job and that my employer would replace me if he could. But I still wouldn't be around if I wasn't useful, right? So all I can do is listen to Cassette Riot and get the job done today.

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Haven't participated in one of these threads in a long time.

I hope everybody is having a good night.

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>>37527830
You shouldn't let anybody else tell you what to think, friend.

Whatever makes most sense to you, and whatever you yourself think is the truth is all that should matter.

>>37527268
>be me
>actual woman (inb4 fake femanon reeeee)
>average face
>above average with make up thank god
>used to be thicc now more just fat because of stress eating
>that's a bitch
>KHHV
>can't hold onto a school based friend for more than about a year

Wtf I go on here thinking I might find some comfort in my complete inability to be around others.
It seems like I have almost all winning cards, but something about me just isn't right for others.

I don't know I guess I just kind of feel lost now.

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>>37527268
My family threw me out last year when I turned 18. I was gonna leave anyway they were all awful, but being kicked out fucked with me. So I took a few months to myself to figure out life, and didnt talk to many of mu friends for a couple of months, and now that I try to reach out to them they don't wanna speak to me.
Any new friends I have made have either demeaned me every day I knew then leading me to cut them off or never speak to me.
I just want a fucking friend that wont hate me

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>>37528051
I'm sorry you feel this way. I think I kind of know what boat you're in though.

When I was in school (and even now for that matter) I was never really an "outcast" but I never really fit in either? My friends were only ever my friends for whatever period we were in together, and none of them really made an effort to get to know me better.

I don't know where I was going with this, but bottom line I hope you find whatever it is that puts a spark in you, and I hope you have a good night.

If you need to talk things out also, feel free, friend.

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Just got a new job after 3 months of neetlife, really want to get back into society. I noticed how awkward and dumb I was from doing nothing but wanking, drinking and getting high for that whole time. It was really jarring getting flustered and nervous in front of people. Sat at home really depressed, feeling better now. Going back tomorrow, hopefully I'll have a better time of it. sorry if blogposting but you offered. Thanks friendo, have a good night.

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>>37528054
I'm sorry you were kicked out and I'm sorry your friends all suck.

I hope things look up for you. How's being moved out for you?

>>37528054
How did you make those shitty old friends anon?

In college orientation right now and I'm the only social outcast here. Still have tomorrow to suffer through and talk with people I don't know.

>>37528170
Recovering NEET here. Idk what your relationship with alcohol is, but being *slightly* buzzed (talking BAC around.02-.03) really lowers my anxiety and makes it much easier to talk to people. I don't do it often, but sometimes before class or a club i'll take a couple of shots to get there

>>37527839
have you listened to Gateway drugs? we would be friends

>>37528146
Thanks for the kind words. I'm pretty resolved to pour myself into my studies and hopefully turn it into a decent job. Everything else will just happen as it does I guess

>>37528051
>Something about me just isn't right for others

Try to remember that this is your social anxiety talking. I don't mean this in a bad way, but do you have a therapist?

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>>37528215
Why not talk to these people and get to know them, then? It can be hard but if you put yourself out there there's bound to be a few takers.

>>37528227
I do feel the same about drinking. I'll do the same thing before family dinners or even dinner with friends. Makes me a lot more relaxed. However, I'll often get really tired if I don't continue drinking so I'll usually have to drink at dinner.

Along the same lines, anyone drink night caps? I like drinking like 2-3 glasses of wine around 10ish before I get in bed. Not a lot to get "drunk" but just enough to get a warm and fuzzy buzz on before I hit the sheets.

I was in a little private discord with a few people who I got close to and met on here and then one of them deleted all their shit and I can't contact anymore. The other day I find out that the other one is a girl and want to kill them self. They were my only friends :(

>be me
>6' 2"
>ugly
>semester ends
>casual buds never hit me up
>no friends
>/fit/ before dumped ugly gf
>no motivation
>food service wagie
>backpain.png
>try tinder
>no matches
>try craigslist
>no replies

nothing too tragic, but fml

>>37528268
>>37528215
Yeah take this advice. Just force yourself to be outgoing and find something, anything, in common with someone else. You don't even have to be friends but it's nice to have someone to give a nod to or something when you're walking around campus.

>>37528184
Similar here. My friends all said they hated some guy and I said some sit to him when he fucked with my friend, now they all hang out with him and I can't see them because he wants to hit me. but fuck them I'll find something

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>>37528294
I'm sorry to hear that. You have no other way of contacting them?

I hope that they and you are going to be okay.

>>37528227
My relationship with alcohol is rocky at best. Lost a few jobs due to calling in sick and coming in hungover. I like the stuff but I can't into moderation, so I'm trying to stray away.

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>>37528302
Sorry about your love life, friend.
What excites you? What are you passionate about?

You should try to seek out a job or a hobby doing what you love, maybe that'll make you feel a little more satisfied

>>37527268
>>>37528054
>I'm sorry you were kicked out and I'm sorry your friends all suck.
>
>I hope things look up for you. How's being moved out for you?
Its better honestly I like the freedom

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>>37527839
good for you, friend. i'm sure you'll do a great job. don't let your mind get you down. good luck.

>>37527854
i hope you're having a good night too friend.

>>37528051
making and keeping friends is hard, no matter your gender. i hope you find a real friend someday.

>>37528054
i hope you find a good friend someday too anon. i believe in you both.

>>37528170
good luck on your new job friend, and good night to you too.

>>37528215
sounds rough. you'll make it through though. don't give up hope.

>>37528294
that's a shame friend. i hope you get to meet up with them again or find someone else eventually.

>>37528302
at least you're trying, friend. that's a lot more than some of us here. always look on the bright side of things. especially when it's difficult to find the positives.

>>37528283
Heads up anon, although nightcaps help you fall asleep they probably reduce the quality of your sleep
>http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/features/nix-nightcap-better-sleep
>https://www.washingtonpost.com/national/health-science/a-night-cap-may-get-you-to-sleep-but-studies-show-it-will-also-make-you-sleep-less-well/2013/12/02/a126dc6c-56f9-11e3-8304-caf30787c0a9_story.html

That being said, sometimes I do it anyway because I'm tired of laying awake

>>37527268
>>>37528054
>How did you make those shitty old friends anon?
They werent like this till last year. I'm not too sure what happened. As for the newer abusive ones I guess desperate measures led to it

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>>37528393
I'm glad. Try not to pay any mind to those who treat you poorly. Your a strong person, you deserve better. You'll find better.

>>37528413
interesting reads, thanks anon. I don't do them every night, but if i'm bored or not really doing anything but listening to music sometimes I like them. That said, if I can't sleep I'll take benedryl. It puts me to sleep almost every time I take it.

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>be me the other day
>on Omegle with web cam
>First few interactions are pretty basic, guys looking for girls and as soon as they see you're not a girl they skip you
>Eventually come across someone who doesn't have there web cam on. About to skip because conversations with people who don't use web cam usually don't go very far, but before I can hit next they start typing
"Awe you're cute"
>I'm a bit taken back because this isn't a compliment that I receive often
>I say thank you and then we talk some more about music
>Still don't have any high expectations for this convo and I'm half expecting to find out it's a guy or something but then the web cam turns and I see this beautiful qt looking at me
>I'm a pretty surprised at how cute she was and that she took an interest in me. I start to feel awkward and can't think of what to say
"What's the matter something wrong?"
>I tell her no and that I just didn't realize how pretty of a girl I was talking to
>We laugh a bit and I tell her how I'm not very good with conversation she tells me its fine and that she'll help
>We continue to talk for a while and the hole time she's being extremely nice and understanding she also seems to enjoy my company
>As the conversation goes on she keeps dropping hints that shes into me even saying flat out that she thought I was a 10/10 (given my lighting was shit)
>We end up trading snap chats and she sends me a picture she took of me with hearts around it
The entire experience made my month but we haven't really talked in a few days and I know I'm probably sounding a bit clingy getting so worried so fast and I guess I am but I'm worried about what next. I want to talk more but idk how to start the conversation or if I did how would I make it sound less awkward than I'm imagining it?

>>37527617
Post a pic of you
Originalcomment8483929388

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>>37527268

neutral? what do you mean by that? at least it's not bad (i hope so)
i just feel really lonely. there's no one i can talk to about my problems and the last time i did that they just completely vanished

i hope you're alright though, you seem kind

Im very lonely and have no friends. I constanting thinking its better to die, but i always pussy out. Thats my current life since 2015

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>>37528578

i mean the last time i talked to someone about it said person left
the last few times actually

>>37528384
>>37528396
Thanks for the kind words. I'm having a hard time with motivation, but I'll keep this in mind and try to get back into my old hobbies or find something new.

>>37527268
>>>37528393
>I'm glad. Try not to pay any mind to those who treat you poorly. Your a strong person, you deserve better. You'll find better.
You're nice thank you

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>>37528490
just try to stay calm. do what comes natural to you. if you think too much you'll fuck it up. you'll be fine friend. just talk to her.

>>37528578
i don't feel very happy, but i don't feel very sad either. just neutral. it's not bad.
you can always talk about your problems in these threads. that's why i'm here. i'll be glad to listen, friend.

>>37528597
keep searching diligently friend. there's someone out there who will be friends with you. you just have to try and find them.

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>>37527268
I've actually been hanging out with a girl for a little over 2 weeks now. I am 29 and do not date. Haven't in years. She is incredibly nice to me but unfortunately I have a gut feeling it is going to fade. She seems more and more distant over the last week. Like she is losing interest.

In the end I am grateful for even having one week where somebody maybe even just pretended to give a shit about me even a little.

Well... back to reality.

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>all my friends are going to the same university without me
I don't wanna be forgotten

>>37528756
>keep searching diligently friend. there's someone out there who will be friends with you. you just have to try and find them.

Yeah i just tired sometimes of looking..

>>37528490

why she no respondy?

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>>37528756

it could be worse. i've felt neutral a lot and it's not the worst of fates
i can't easily talk of my problems on boards openly but thanks a lot, it's really nice

i hope you get to feeling good soon

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>>37528260
No, and I've thought about it. Something about seeing a therapist or taking meds seems like admitting defeat, even though I respect others who do it.

>>37528396
I hope so too. I keep daydreaming about some fictional 'perfect friend' who is funny and easy going but I dunno.

>>37528054
Same thing happened to me when I was younger. Got grounded and ghosted my friends for a few months, came back and they all ignored me. 4 years later, it's like a weird thing I laugh at, about how surface they were and how the friendship died to them without constant contact. Made me reevaluate what I want from friends. Hope the best for you

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>tfw the only person you've ever genuinely fell deeply in love with and truly desired was a boy
lads i think I'm gay i haven't ever felt this with any woman

>>37528878
It's not that she no respondy it's just that neither one of us has messaged the other since our last conversation. And it's not even like our last conversation was that long ago, just 2 or 3 days. I know I'm probably seeming a bit needy and I probably am it's just I don't want this to be something that just blows over

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>>37527268
I've mentioned this before but no one replied and I'm really looking for a response.

The gist of it is I'm only happy when I trip on acid. I don't think it's addiction cause I feel the same apathy/sadness (as in, it hasn't gotten worse since I've started to take LSD). It's just I'm so much full of energy and actually happy when I'm on it. I'm wondering if there's something underlying. Have I been depressed all my life and not known it?

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>>37528761
even if it doesn't work out, it's good that you're grateful. not everyone gets that experience, even if it ends badly. good luck anyways though friend.

>>37528793
i'm sorry anon. you could always keep in touch over the internet, even if it's not the same.

>>37528995
embrace your true self friend. if that's how you really feel, then go for it. i wish you the best.

>>37529028
possibly. that's for you to find out, not me. it sounds like it might be depression though.
and i'm off to bed now. feel free to keep posting, i'm sure someone will read it if not me tomorrow.

but before i go. let's try something.
if you have any questions, want to say something in a more private setting, or would just like to talk to me personally, here is my email address:
[email protected]
i will try to respond to any of your emails tomorrow when i can.

goodnight friends.

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>>37527268
>>37527914
>>37527854
Why can't I have this?What's wrong with me?why am I alone?

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>>37527268
op, these threads are great and honestly i'm starting to look forward to them. they make me feel warm and fuzzy and that's not something i get often.
i hope you get to feeling super nice soon instead of just neutral!
i'm not a very good artist and i haven't played undertale but i drew you a picture! i hope you like it haha

I've been pretty lonely and needy lately and I got lewd with an online friend. We didn't have cyber sex but I said some naughty stuff. Now I can't sleep because I'm starting to think I've screwed up and he's thinking I'm a slut.

>>37528051
>actual woman
>above average
>KHHV
If this isn't bait, you must be an immensely retarded cunt.

>>37529593
Probably. Tbqh probably over-exaggerated the above average with makeup. I do like to think I look okay.

Can't point to something specific, but I think I just have a shitty personality/demeanor.

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I like this girl, but I'm pretty sure I only like her because she's the only girl that talks to me. and I know I have zero chance with her... Life sucks

going out in like 20 minutes,just smoked a joint after sleepin 2 hours and im feelin p great

>>37529679
how old are you? just curious.

what interests you in life?

I've been in love with the same girl for almost 4 years. i knew her 6 years ago. she is the first female friend i've ever had, maybe even my first real friend in life, i'm almost sure i chose my uni just to be with her another 4 years, but i know my time with her is limited. she's the only that really cares about me and looks for me even if i don't ask for it, but also she's out of my leage, she is beautiful and have so many decent people around her. besides it's been so many years that it would be just weird if i declare my love now. i know i shoud move on, but i just can't bc i'm stupid

>>37530059
18

Science, art, music, sometimes gaming. Main life goal is to become a researcher and have a little vegetable garden.

It's confusing, man. There's a lot of exaggeration that goes on 'round these parts, and I'll admit that I approach every "my life is hell" post with heavy skepticism. But I still mean it when I say that my life doesn't really have pleasure or feelings. That tangible sense in your body you get when doing a thing that feels good rarely happens to me. Generally, it only occurs when I eat junk food (which I'm trying to quit), when I catch on to a song (getting rare), or when I approach climax (lasts for 2-3 seconds). I experiment a lot with new hobbies and stuff, but even when I accomplish something, there's no gratification that goes with it, so it's a waste of energy. All those comfy feels you get when it rains outside or when you lie down in the shower have disappeared for me. I don't feel bad - I just feel nothing.

And no one seems to get it. They confuse it with boredom and tell me to try something new, but it does anything, and I can even feel the lack of potential for pleasure inside of me. It's a very upsetting situation that I may never escape, but panicking never leads anywhere, so I wait my days out with patience. And they all end here, on /r9k/.

I don't expect you to empathize, but a little bit of understanding might be nice. Just someone to say "That's shitty", I suppose.

I've finally gotten a job and now have income. I don't know what to do now because my parent's don't make me pay rent. I know that I should probably go to school but I don't know what I would want to do as a career. I should learn how to drive but just sitting behind the wheel of a car stresses me out, much less having to deal with other motorists or exceed a speed of 25 mph. I want to find a gf but I hate social events and my only 'friend' is my ex-girlfriend/best friend from high school who asked me out and then broke up with me three months later because she realized she was asexual. I still talk to her because I still have feelings for her and if I stopped then I'd be a complete and total social recluse.

hey I love undertale.
I cried so much in this game, especially with toriel.
I want to be 5 years old again and have a mommy like toriel.

My nights are either spent alone or with someone I don't care about. I want to have a meaningful relationship with someone who is really special to me but I just can't muster up the emotion to care about women anymore. They're always manipulative lying pieces of shit and using them like trash is the only way I feel like I can kind of get revenge for all of my brother anons across the world who have been used and abused by women but can't speak out for some reason.

P.S. I'm not gay.

>>37530340
Well, that's shitty. At the very least, I like the feeling of when it rains. Keeps me going.

Kind of sounds like depression? Of course I'm no doctor yadda yadda but it may help to see a professional.

Hope something good comes from it all

>be me
>5'9 manlet
>Pretty smart, always straight As in schools
>Haven't had a single non-internet based good friend for like 5 years
>Constantly was and still am written off as a stoner wasting away his life due to long hair and just looking like one
>I only have long hair because it was the only coping mechanism for Social Anxiety I had as a child

I just want people not to take me at face value, I've literally only drank a few times and have never touched pot. I'm constantly hating myself for developing the habit, because it's near impossible to break.

>>37530555
Well. Letting go of your childhood ways could be a good way to get people to notice you. Cut your hair, volunteer for leadership roles more often. You got this anon.

>>37530639
Why would anyone ever want a leadership role? If anything goes to shit it's all your fault and people will hate you for it.

>>37528283
same story here, but drinking makes my face embarrassingly red desu.

Just lost the only "friends" I had
Now I'm just sort of here, existing. Trying to find out what to do, thinking too much and I started realizing that they never knew me, and I never knew them. I left someone valuable to me to play on the swing set with them, I'm stuck in her position now, just nobody in a broken home slowly falling apart in the background. (I don't mean to go into so much detail but this is what it feels like) And it's all my fault.

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>be me
>19
>brother is schizophrenic and possibly autistic
>has an insane obsession with weed
>has psychotic outburts if he doesnt get his fix
>moved back in with us for the 30th fucking time
>every other time he's been kicked out for either assaulting me or someone else
>im living the neet life, working 3 months out of the year

so tired of this endless cycle

>>37528490
i think you can just lead with a "what's up" here. If she says why'd you ask you can respond with "haven't talked with you in awhile, was wondering how you were doing"

>>37530683
If you want to remain underestimated and a joke amongst your peers then you have to show them what you are capable of. If you're confident in you're abilities you don't have anything to worry about from failing.

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charafriend #2 reporting as always

Saw my grandma in the hospital today, looks like she'll be fine and get out soonish. Also emailed some important people. Things seem to be improving.

>>37529047
I actually was gonna ask for your discord but that works

>>37529420
Cute!!! I'm sure the azzy thread would love it too if you wanna post it there.
Avoid /utg/ though.

>>37530555
5'9 isn't manlet.

Stop bringing yourself down with that word.

>>37530881
I don't care about my peers and I don't like standing out. All I want to do is find a girl who will stay with me as we pull away from society at large and go live in the countryside where there aren't as many people to deal with.

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>>37530922 again

>>37529506
Is he from here or somewhere else? He probably thinks highly of it if he replied positively.

>>37530206
Nah, it wouldn't be that weird. Long term friendships turn into romance fairly often. If you're at risk of separating then you've got nothing to lose by asking/trying and everything to lose by not.

>>37530362
I have a similar dilemma, but I think I'm filling it. You should try out new hobbies now that you've got spendable income. For me, I've picked up shooting/guns. Perhaps you'd like that, it helps with confidence.

>>37530389
me too
there's a lot of things i loved about it
there's a lot of things i want from it

>>37530524
I've also had an issue similar to this. Good girls are hard to find but in some places (far away from cities) they can be found.

>>37530807
If they never wanted to know you then perhaps they weren't true friends. But I don't know beyond what little you posted so I can't help beyond guesses

>>37530854
That's a bad place to be at 19. I've heard of people being trapped in situations like that for many years. Perhaps the military or college would be good? You need to get out of that situation.

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>>37531138
Its been 8 years since this shitshow began, and I have nowhere else to turn. Not fit enough or driven enough for military, barely got out of high school so college is a no.

I'd move to my dad's but he's a hoarder.

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I cut myself last night for the first time. I felt better after. I don't know what to think now or what to do, I just keep making worse and worse decisions the longer I am depressed.

The only girl to ever show even a slight interest in me has completely dropped me and I have no idea why. She ignores everything I send her, and it honestly fucking kills me inside. Did I do something wrong? I want to give up on her but the oneitis has kicked in already

>>37531461
5 stages of grief my friend.

You are in denial. You will get through this.

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>>37531293
I went through a self harm phase my self, when it comes to depression all I can really say is hold out from my personal experience but try and pick up something like a hobby. I started making games and without that I'd probably have killed myself by now. But with the self reach out for help, you don't have to do it and be silent over it and remember there's gotta be someone out there who loves or cares enough about you to help

my sleep schedule is all messed up so even though i get offers to hang out with people sometimes i miss them and feel like shit later for not responding. other than that things are okay

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>>37529047
Go away OP

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>>37528054
iktfb Lost contact with my high school friends for a year because I didn't have internet and when I got back in touch with them again they just brushed me off. I pretty much considered them my family.

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I know it sounds odd but I just want to make friends to get rid of the loneliness I feel but I'm also too scared that I'll come off as trying too hard and push people away. It doesn't help that I'm leaving for a different country in a few weeks.

I ended a once close and longtime friendship recently. After a few months of sporadically talking to eachother, he basically told me he holds contempt for me and the group pf people we hung out with, so i figured there is no point in trying to salvage the friendship but I left the possibility of reconciliation if he was willing. He didn't seem to care but i told him i still wanted to be friends and left him alone. Only until recently have I realized how much of a massive jackass he is and actually kinda hate him now and have cut contact with him and i dont want to be friends anymore. I think i can only say that im infuriated at the fact that he just flat out doesnt give a shit about anyone but himself.

Just felt like writing this out since ive talked or said anything about it to anyone, just felt like venting

>>37533713
**since i haven't

>>37531138
He's not from here but was acting very cautious. Just texted me this morning saying he enjoyed the time we spent together. I guess it was good, I can now pick the name of our second child together and how many pets we're having in our country house.

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>>37531204
Well, if any opportunities to get out arise, I'd take them.
And the military is less stringent than you'd think in regards to fitness, especially the Air Force and Navy. I just suggest it because it's what saved my ass.

>>37532451
Mine is equally fucked up so I can't offer any suggestions on it, sorry

>>37535147
I didn't think it'd be a problem, that's good.

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>>37527268
i want a place i can fit in
r9k doesnt like me because im trans
lgbt doesnt like me beacuse im not not a 6 foot tall ugly transbian hon

i dont even know why im posting i just have no where else to ._. literally get like 5 people yelling at me every time i post
i normally just shit post but people recognize my nonshit posts so i cant even type

Have serious mental issues but look like a low tier chad so everyone on r9k bullies me even though im a khv.
Anime posters hate me because i don't stutter type or erp and i don't even have the confidence to add anyone on friend threads.
Triangles

>>37528215
Go out and actually talk to people. College/University is not only about academic experience, it's also about social experience.

>>37535943
Sorry to hear about that. Have you tried joining a group based on shared interests?

Anons can I get some advice I'm in two minds
>Girl I've known for a while messages me want's to meet
>We used too have a thing a while ago that fell through
>Said she broke up with bf
>Have nice time catching up
>Go for drinks on the weekend she's all over me.jpg
>Go cinema had good time
>Plan more shit to do
>Then last night she's at bar her ex works at
>Meet her and her friend with my friend
>overhear her asking him to come round that night
>She's pretty drunk is all over me again when we leave
>Supposed to go cinema tonight
Should I no contact this girl or go cinema with her tonight and ask her about it? I don't wanna be a beta so I think maybe no contact.

>>37537168
Go for it, better to take the chance then to possibly regret it.

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>>37527268
I was too autistic realize how obvious it was that I didn't belong until just last week. I thought I was just invisible but they all know. I wish girls didn't smile at me in that condescending way when I probably have a scowl or am in thought and don't realize how I appear to others, it makes me want to not exist. I want to be a normie so bad. I've skipped almost all of my classes for a while and I'm getting really behind. There are exams soon and I don't know what I'm going to do.

>>37537359
Start revising now and start going to your classes. If you go to college/university it's possible that those girls are an outlier cause where I go, nobody gives a shit about other people unless they know them personally. Best of luck, anon.

1. I don't feel confident in my schoolwork which means I'm probably not going on with college because of the hell I had to deal with all throughout middle school to high school because I never had enough proper teaching. I'm not retarded or anything I just don't excel (shall we say?) in school. Most of the time I feel ever so stupid for not knowing an answer that is so obvious which is a main factor for my depression.

2. All 4 of my sisters accused my dad of child abuse because they were indoctrinated into this cult fuck of a church that Todd Bentley fucked most of the area of Toronto into becoming. Therefore I was alone most of my life except the occasional friend I would meet here and there that I ended up saying something they got offended by for no reason around them and they cut off contact immediately with.

3. Socially awkward, hate people aside from friends because after my sisters did this to my dad I realized that the world's a fucked up place and that nobody would care if I died. After all, my friends didn't. They'd constantly shun me saying how ugly I was, how much of an idiot I am (for being logical really) which set me on this long road of depression that is still going strong today.

4. Health problems, I constantly get sick for no reason which really interferes with my schoolwork which doesn't add to my education. I try to stay as healthy as I can but it doesn't work. Every year I throw up from being sick and it's quite often in that year, adding to my depression of not fitting in because no one else my age is like this.

5. It's just not worth it, life. It's a meaningless struggle that has no effect on anything, it's just people trying to make you feel unaccepted and life that strives on anything it can find from the higher power that has so much it doesn't know what to do with but is plagued with greed so it doesn't lend a hand to the weak.

Sick of it

>>37527733
>tfw I'm LITERALLY Chara
Soon....

>>37537592
h-how so?


originally murderloli

>>37537637
Chara:
>is a filthy liar/two-face (looks like a good person but is the total opposite)
>hates the living shit out of humanity
>criticizes people with the intention of trying to make them feel bad
>took revenge on the person "closest" to her because he messed up her plans
>planned everything so that things came out her way

>working 8 to 17
>studying 19 to 23
>depression and anxiety
Kill me please.

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>>37527268
I don't really understand what is with my existence, its really starting to scare me. Every-time I go into work people are really kind to me and think I'm cute for some reason but I feel like such a failure myself, like I'm worsening net productivity in the field even if I do a decent job. I guess I can never really be satisfied with myself, and this girl keeps giving me head-pats which sort of catches me off-guard and causes me to blush immensely and I don't know what to do, I'm not used to physical contact and I'm ridiculously ticklish so every-time someone touches me I nearly burst out into laughter. I suppose the year's really worn me out in general, I just want to sleep all the time and nuzzle my pillows so I always wear a huge dressing gown when I'm inside to feel like I'm in bed 24/7. I've forgot how to talk to people since I self-taught my way into university and talking to people makes me scream internally and feel sick, naturally I shy away from customer service and stick to the harder stuff in exchange.

>>37527651
Such a comfortable picture. You're a good person anon and I hope you have a happy day!

>>37528215
Good luck anon!

>>37533456
I used to know that feeling, there's always Cleverbot anon.

>>37537726
Damn, thought it meant you'd be a cute loli or something