comfy feels thread

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>>37479393
So I finally learned more of the culture of this board and am better off because of it. I too hope you have a good weekend. I lurked for like, a day or so. Maybe two without posting at all.

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>>37479440

WOULD YOU GO AWAY ALREADY?!!??!!?! I'M TIRED OF SEEING THAT SHIT-TIER CHARACTER SPAMMED HERE

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>37479393

Comfy Chara can stay, though.

>>37479505
I'm staying so get used to it dummy. Heh.

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>>37479393
Hope everyone is well, here is a comfy image for the thread

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>>37479440
that's good. this is definitely a place where knowing culture is important. "lurk more" is a common saying for a reason.

>>37479505
i would say they are both on similar levels of garbage. but it's still okay to like both regardless. don't be mean to our friends here, anon. everyone is equal in these threads.

>>37479559
thank you, friend.

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>>37479440
>>37479505
>complains about shitty characters
>posts shitty character with no personality whatsoever from shitty reddit meme game
Why do you keep spamming shitty characters? Do you not get enough attention in your tumblr hugbox?

>>37479599
I don't browse that site unless it's to get images to post here so.

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>>37479617
So is it a cry for attention? Are you lonely? Why do you seek individuality where you can be anonymous? You're very out of place and its very easy to spot posts you make.

>>37479680
I don't care for attention. I just have fun here, that's about it? Whether or not I'm easy to spot is irrelevant to me.

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>>37479721
If its irrelevant why do you attempt to separate yourself from everyone else. Or is it just a coincidence that every post you make is accompanied with a Stephen Universe picture from tumblr?

>>37479868
Totally the latter. Why're you so invested in me? It's different.

>>37479912
As I've said already its because you stand out.

>>37479991
Well umm ok, I guess. I don't know what else you want from me?

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>>37480036
What makes you think I want something from you?

>>37480092
The way you keep questioning me. I don't know or really mind so it's whatever.

I already posted this in another thread but the more I post it the better I feel (kind of). Just graduated today and it was the worst experience I have ever had. I feel fucking awful. The last week has been the worst week. I'm lost, i don't know what I'm doing, I fucked it all up, I've had oneitis my entire high school career and didn't realize it until last week and it hit me like a fucking semi-truck and in a bout of particularly intense stupidity I told her how I felt about her. I know this is nothing special at all to hear but this girl was my fucking everything and i didn't even realize until a week before i graduated. I always took part in the "le MGTOW le doomed to die alone and loving it xDDD" meme and i want to fucking shoot myself for this. Yesterday at graduation practice she gave me the good old "I don't feel the same way" talk. i just felt numb until 2 am then it hit me, fuck. I had to walk with her and my fucking nemesis too, my enemy throughout my highschool career, which means I had to sit next to them both the whole time. Fucking hell this sucks, and my family is over for a party too, I just want to cry and go to sleep. I learned yesterday within minutes of the conversation I had with her that I failed all the college courses I was taking and did not get accepted into the uni I was going to dual enroll in. My hypermobility is getting worse; I feel like I have the body of a sixty-five year old. I'm not meant to be here I'm a normie but I have to get this shit off my fucking chest.

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I'm a typical shut-in and borderline NEET (I only go to one class once a week at the moment). Trying to overcome my anxieties and finally find a job. I've already applied online to our local movie theater for a floor stuff position and at Winn Dixie (supermarket) for a bagger position. No answer yet but it's only been like a week. What are other good places to apply to have some low-paying part-time job. I want to also build up some job experience to get a better part-time job latter but it's not a requirement.

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>>37480125
I was just curious. I'm trying to understand your motives.

Something very odd has come over me lately. I've been struggling with depression and social anxiety for quite some time, but just in the past few days I've been feeling worse than ever.

I can't stop thinking about how I don't have a gf and may never get one. This used to never bother me, but lately I have become overwhelmed by it, and literally can't stop thinking about the fear of being forever alone.

I do have friends and a minor social life, but I definitely don't get out often enough.

I'm not sure if this is supposed to be a warning sign or if my brain has just gone completely fucked up (technically I have Bipolar I disorder).

Very odd and I want to go back to being normal and unphased by my lack of access to women.

>>37480239
>your motives
What're you talking about? I don't do anything. I just post here, it's no big deal.

>>37480137
it's gonna be alright, friend. just push through it. even if you don't want to. just do it.

>>37480165
i don't know much about jobs but i hope you find a good one friend. good luck.

>>37480249
for some people the pain does come in waves. as i said to the other anon, all you can really do is try to move through it. be thankful for the friends and social life you do have. not everyone has that.

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I am to a point in my life where I should be confident with women, I make good money now and love my job and have a great stable family

But I cant realistically transfer this new confidence in myself to dealing with a relationship/women because its a fundamentally different thing

So obviously the next step to bring up some "overall" confidence or something that just applies to everything I do

But then isnt it just me believing I am superior to other people? That I just deserve a woman? Because thats a foreign idea to me, I have never expected another human being to respect/enjoy my company

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>>37479393
fellow Charaposter here again

Finished the test and I'm feeling pretty good about it, won't know if I passed it well enough for a while. I don't want to have to retake it again.

>>37480425
I think what makes it sting far worse is that the likelihood of meeting anyone like her is next to none (I know, the line is pretty standard). I mean let's be honest here there is a million fucking Stacy's out there, but I have never in my entire life met another human being like her. She was raised as a missionary in Chad her entire life so when she came over here her freshman year she might as well have been coming from a different fucking planet; she didn't give a fuck about all the other shit western girls are into these days like partying and social media and selfies and whatever the fuck. Absolutely the nicest person too, seriously. Believe me I know how cliche and gross this all sounds because just ten fucking days ago I was on this side of the fence.

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>>37480523
you don't have to deserve a partner. sometimes it just happens. being confident doesn't mean you feel superior to other people, it just means you're okay with yourself.

>>37480556
i hope you made it friend. good luck.

>>37480425
doesn't matter how good she was. if she doesn't like you, she doesn't like you. you'll find someone else, anon. i know you can.

>>37481410
>>37480812
sorry friend, responded to myself accidentally.

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tfw the original chara poster

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>>37479393
I feel like I'm always running from depression. Either by surrounding myself with things that keep my mind busy from dwelling on my own existence and lack of girlfriend/boyfriend, support from my family, job etc.

Right now I feel good. But I know that I won't in less than a week. I'll just fall back into the hell my own brain has set up for me to experience. And it hurts. It really fucking hurts.

What to do?

I went minigolfing with a grill today and I was in-the-clouds happy after it, until I found out a lot of my old friends were all hanging out together. A few months ago they pretty much cast me out for being too asocial and weird..
I know I should just be happy I didn't fuck up the thing with the girl, but I can't stop thinking about how few friends I have.

>>37481773
Seems like you have bipolar desu. Do you have a discord?

>>37479393
My favorite person became that after a couple of days giving me attention but now I haven't know about him in two days and I am getting worried.

We could've met up on Wednesday but unfortunately we couldn't.

I'm worried. He did sound too good to be true to talk to me anyway, and I probably am being super dramatic. But I mean, he's a handsome guy who is very sweet, and I'm a fat femme fuck. I'm worried he stopped talking to me because of something I said or that he got into an accident.

My depression came back with a vengeance, it seems. Meeting him was the calm before the storm.

>>37481895
Yeah sure. What's your discord? I'll add you.

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>>37481484
it's nice to see you here. or not so nice. i wouldn't know. i've only interacted with you once.
i hope you're having a nice weekend though, friend.

>>37481773
you could keep distracting yourself, or try to get better. it's really no one else's choice but yours. start small. just a little goal every day. that seems to work pretty well for most people to improve themselves. good luck friend.

>>37481871
just be thankful for the friends you do have. that's all you can do. and if they cast you out for being too asocial and weird they don't sound like good friends anyways.

>>37481954
don't worry about it, friend. i'm sure he's fine. but i suppose all you can do at this point is wait and see.
try to distract yourself. don't think about it too much.

>>37479393
I havent done anything worthwhile in all my life and soon I will have to work, but I just cant, I am useless and it will be a failure just like everything.
So I am trying either to write an interesting story and get money for it or to spent two years making a shit game that probably wont sell, what do you think?

I just want someone to cuddle with RRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEE

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Looking up people from many years ago on the internet and realising that many of the other autistic students I knew from while I was in special education in highschool were more succesful than me kind of made me sad. Not angry, not incredibly sad, just not positive. I mean I am happy that they are doing well and starting good careers and getting recognition in the fields they entered but back then (and even now) I felt quite a bit more superior to them as if I did not belong there (I did not, really). I'm conflicted. I am glad they are doing well because I treated them badly but I am sad because they are doing better in life than me.

>>37481970
Sure it's zeroness#4968

>>37482036
I don't really have friends anymore desu.. I just have one irl and I'm glad for him but it's so lonely.
I want to try harder to become closer with my irl acquaintances but don't know how to. I'm awkward and bad at jokes. Not particularly good at vidya or anything I could use to make friends.

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Another night of drinking
Another night of being alone
Another night of shitposting on 4chan
Another night of fighting back the tears
Another night of regretting my past
Another night of wondering why I'm still alive

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>>37482056
i would do whatever feels like a better way to express yourself. if you like writing more, write a book. if you like video games and programming more, make a game. just follow your gut.

>>37482090
don't we all, friend?

>>37482120
feeling sad about other people isn't going to help anything. might as well feel happy so at least it's something positive. don't fall into the trap of getting angry at others for being "better" than you. everyone is in different situations. getting mad won't solve anything, improving yourself solves things.

>>37482149
the thing with social interaction is that it's pretty much just practice. most robots just avoid social situations, but if you just throw yourself in there and try your best, even when you fuck up at least you'll learn something. just keep trying friend.

>>37482253
just remember that you can always change that. doesn't matter how old you are. there's always a way through. you just haven't found it yet. i believe in you, friend.

well, i'll be leaving for the night now friends. feel free to keep posting if you would like, i'm sure someone will read it if not me tomorrow. thank you.

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>>37479393
Im lonely
If I go on tinder I get a lot of matches that want to have sex, but its just sex.
I dont want sex. I just dont want to be lonely.
I have nothing to do, and nobody to do all the nothing with.

>>37482036
He got online though and got a bit sick yesterday. I'm slightly less sad now, but ahh...

>>37482338
Thanks for the kind replies, anon. Don't see that much here.
>>37482340
You should also add me on discord, I posted it above. I'm not gay but I'm really lonely myself.

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i want to find improve myself and get a gf but it's hard because I'm a degenerate brainlet with anxiety

>>37482481
oops i was typing too fast sorry


originalio sorry

>>37482481
Why do you think you are a brainlet?

I really need a job. I want to buy a car. I need to graduate school. I lost all my friends. I'm stressed and lonely. What do I do? I really need help.

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>2 weeks since I last fapped
>Feel asexual
>No libido
>Can only barely maintain a boner
>watch favorite porn, feel nothing
>mfw

IT. WAS. ALL. I. HAD.

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I'm 21 and I don't have any friends. I feel like if I don't change this soon I will be stuck being alone for the rest of my life. But I don't know how to make friends. Uni is out and of course I didn't do shit to get to know my classmates, now and I'm about to spend another summer sitting on my ass rotting in lonely misery. I wish I knew how to correct this, how meet people, go to places, have fun stories to share, but I don't know where to start. I want to meet quality people, not degenerates at a bar.

>>37482521
because I'm bad at math and afraid of going to college

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>all the normies in this thread

You fuckers murdered r9k with your faggotry pushing all the real robots out. I honestly, truly wish you would all die in the most excruciating ways. Reminder if:

>you go to uni
>have friends
>have had sex

You are not a robot and don't belong here and that you only come here out of your spiteful need to not be excluded from anything you fucking normalfags. Leave this board REEEEEE

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>>37479393
>tfw won't be able to ever touch a ukulele until 3 years

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>>37482036
I don't remember ever talking to you before, have we?

I am not OP and I am bad at this, but I would feel bad if these last posts were just left there.
>>37482556
How urgent do you need a job and why?, You need to find a pastime, something you can pour your all into, is not like I can recommend you something special you need to try different things even if it is bothersome, cycling, painting, reading, sculping, climbing, writing. maybe you will like something and once you like something you could try reaching out to other people that like the same things as you do.
>>37482557
I had a similar experience and it lasted like a month, I just used porn as a form of escapism and tried pour all of my anxieties in the act of masturbation. I think you know this, but too much masturbation is never healthy, and if you did it and now you cant there must be a reason so you need to think about, but without pressuring yourself or consult an specialist.
>>37482638
I think that worrying about "I need to do this now" or "In the future everything is going to be shit" is just a shitty way of screwing up yourself. You are in a self-fulfilling prophecy, thinking that everything will go wrong and then when that happens you will said "I knew it" and sit and rot like garbage, remember to try to enjoy yourself, it is not like is impossible to do something by yourself to clear your head a little, try to go jogging everyday or something and then think of a way to connect with people, I am sure you know of some ways but are too scared, dont worry that happens, you could go to a convention or symposium and tips from random forums on the internet are not to be trusted 100% but you could try asking in different forums.
>>37482646
Intelligence is not something tanglible and absolutely defined you know? look up Gardner's theory of multiple intelligences, it is very hard to do so but not impossible. Dont belittle yourself or at least try not to because that is a sure way to failure.
>>37482970
Why?

I am sorry if what I wrote was crap, I tried my best.

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>>37479393
I really want to kiss a boy. If you're reading this, have you done it before? How did it happen

On the other hand, if you're reading this and don't want to do it, how would you react to a good guy friend asking you if you'd like to?

>>37483292
>>37482556
Thank you. I need a job to pay bills and also to get a car to actually go out and expierencd life. All my ex friends go out and get drunk and have all sorts of fun while I am stuck at home doing nothing. I'm getting fatter now. I just want to work to take it off my mind too. I need some sort of contact with people. Also a job to buy a car.

>>37483349
Probably would tell them thatwith me its not cool but I'd direct them to towards other people.

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re-played this indie game from 2003 twice this week, it strikes me how something that captivated me in my youth I can just sit down and easily beat in an hour or two. It also got me into chiptune which is good.

>>37482253
Just a friendly anon here, but this really hit me in the feels. I too often feel like my life is just Groundhogs Day. You're not alone though friend, whether or not you have people around irl, you're not alone in this world as there are so many of us exactly like you. In a way all those other sad lonely people are hurting together. Don't know what your situation is but if you have people in your life that mean something to you don't hide from them. You're not alone, everything is going to be okay.

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gonna bump this thread with a few gondola's if you don't mind

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i really enjoy these threads and the imagery

>>37479393
>Undertale in mid 2017
GET THE FUCK OUT NORMIE RREEEEEEEEE

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpOtuoHL45Y
>>37483349
Once I had a goo friend who said that he liked me romantically, I felt a bit grossed out and told him that I did not feel the same way, ever since then we just could not go back to the way our friendship was, it was like there was some kind of wall.
>>37483412
I dont think that a car is necessary to "enjoy" or "experience" life, dont limit yourself like that. Try to get accepted in whatever even if it is not something that you like and meanwhile you could search for a better job, maybe some kind of manual labor job would be nice (if you are not in terrible shape) working physically close with other people is not that bad.
>>37483486
Seeing old things like that again is nice, I have been trying to remember the name of some videos that I saw years ago about a bunny and cat who fell in love but I cant do it all.
>>37483691
Gondola is always welcome

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boule athbogie

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihyQf8mww3o
I really like this song.
It makes me happy and sad at the same time.
For some reason I think about my happy years when I listen to that song...wich makes me sad.
I have buyed myself stuff to make music but I'm not really using it..I really want to but I just waste my day with crying and playing games.

>>37483785
Thank you. I'm thinking about water fasting and losing a shit ton of weight. Trying to get fit again and hopefully get a call for a job.

youngfag here, how do people make it so far into life, especially if its bad. seriously my life isnt the worst of them and i dont really know how long im gonna last. just through all the social shit and holy fuck I dont even wanna think about life once i have to think about supporting myself.

>>37483846
I'm the same with this song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLjyJw3CYuE
same with the music equipment, except I have experience sequencing music with just a mouse and keyboard already.

Does anybody have any experience with repressed memories? I used to think that they didn't exist, but a lot of people on /adv/ vouched for them. What's it like?

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Have any of you ever had so many bad things happen to you that you just end up forgetting them because there are literally too many things to remember?

I hate this. I experience so many things, but at some point it all becomes some nebulous blur and I can't even talk to anyone about any of it because I'd have to struggle to pull something from back then that's been repressed for so long, while still trying to be relevant to the conversations people have in front of me.

All I do remember is that it whatever happened to me, it felt really bad.

>>37479393
The world sucks life sucks people suck even more everything sucks in general and nothing can do about it until we die and fall into a black hole and oblivion and cycle into it for eternity we can only make if suck less

>>37483960
This is a beautiful song anon
I also have some experience not much but eh...

>>37484163
How old are you? Have you ever been to therapy about your repressed memories? How many of them do you think you have? How long have you had them for? How good is your memory in general?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1KvGd3hXgq8&list=RD1KvGd3hXgq8
This is my favourite song, its lyrics are really beautiful
>>37483847
I am not sure about water fasting, isnt only drinking water bad for your health? you should not do it, but I suppose you will do what you think is better for you, so good luck with that.
>>37483911
"Make it" is really vague, there is a lot of people out there that are just living corpses or living amidst vague anxieties not really knowing what to do with themselves. For most life is not something wonderful and they are just like you thinking that the future is gonna be terrible, it could be, or maybe is going to be wonderful, all it comes down to how you feel about it and what you do about those feelings. Only the ideas that we actually live are of any value, dont live with constant fear of suffering and uncertainty embrace those emotions because of them is born a seed called love.
>>37484013
Like a year ago some things happened and I remembered about my mother crying herself to sleep when I was a child for a moment I doubted that they were real, but It really happened and I had not thought about it for more than 15 years.
>>37484163
Something like that happens when I am feeling extremely sad or lonely and feel like killing myself, but I am not sure if I would consider that repressed memories, if it happens constantly to you going to a psychologist might be a good idea.
>>37484297
I am not too sure about that, as long as we can enjoy things living may be worth it. I think that not everything sucks

>>37484852
How did you learn that it really happened?

>>37484999
I have a brother
I talked with him about it and told me that I was a really shitty experience for him too and he remembered it clearly

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My heart has been broken so many times i lost count.

21 years old and i haven't been in a relationship at all. Then i met the most wonderful girl in the world but she's taken.

We had an "adventure" for a few months but she decided it was time to stop since she wanted to change, she is an amazing friend and wouldn't trade her for nothing in the world.

But i love her, i can't sleep because i love talking to her, i enjoy the very few times we get to spend together and we share all kinds of secrets between each other. But i spend every day living with the fact that the first person who finally understood me and cares for me is not available. I want her so badly but sadly that will never be the case

My heart hurts every day, i have to spend the day either sleeping or working to distract myself

I can't even cry anymore....
I'm numb

>>37485203
Are you worried that it makes you a psychopath to be unable to cry?

>>37484681
I'm 21. No, I haven't been to therapy, let alone ever talked to any kind of doctor about any of my issues of out fear that I'd look like an autistic loser.

I've lost count. I've held onto shit that's happened to me since I was 4 and from then on, I just kept piling them up until I couldn't keep track anymore.

I might actually just be retarded and I can't articulate what it is I want to say.

>>37485285
I don't know what it make me

>be working on improving self
>Lose weight, get good hair cut etc
>Go shopping one day fit in to more attractive clothes, jeans
>Excited and happy, confidence boost
>Decided to celebrate, go to local bar/music venue, have a decent snack and some beers
>Only people who talk to me is a young married couple my age
>Guy gives me his business card "In case I'm looking for work"
>He works for the Bosch racing team
>I'm employed, but in IT like a typical idiot bot
Kill me please.

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I just got off of playing a video game. While I was playing I started thinking about how in like 5 years of playing the game I dont have a single person on my friends list. then I began thinking about how often Im up at around 3 playing video games in a half-assed manner. then I started thinking about how I was not having fun and Ive never had fun playing any video games. video games are the closest thing ill ever get to escaping reality and I dont even enjoy it anymore. existence is just the worst thing that could happen anywhere to anybody

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too many words to read when i'm intoxicated but i can't handle life anymore and i just wanna die. anyone know any pics for this feel?

>>37485167
>21 years old and i haven't been in a relationship at all. Then i met the most wonderful girl in the world but she's taken.
I know how that feels, fell head over heels for my oneitis last year at 21 and she's taken too. I wake up thinking about her, I go to sleep thinking about her, and I spend most of the time in between thinking of her. She seems to genuinely like me too, maybe if I'd met her earlier somehow we might have had something more. I'll probably spend a good part of my life wondering if we could've.

>>37481484
Piety needs to be deported ASAP.

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I'm really sad.
My past is long and difficult, lots of bad things have happened to me.
My current circumstances are quite painful and lonely.
I don't like living like this

>be neet loser
>no future
>decide to make an attempt to escape this hell
>get ok job
>start working out
>attempt to find more hobbies other than sitting in front of my computer
>try to fix my relationship with my mom and brother
>flash forward a year and i've got a steady source of income, hobbies that keep me focused, i'm in ok shape and I have a good relationship with my mom
>still lay awake at night thinking about blowing my brains out

I did so much to change myself, to change the reality I lived in, but nothing inside has changed. At any point I'm not currently involved in something, I still feel just as bitter and hopeless as I did a year ago. It makes me wonder why I bothered in the first place. Can a robot ever become human, or will I always be like this, no matter what I do to change it

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pretty much everyone hates me
parents just dont care and see me as a complete failure
tried going to college but a couple of my professors were really mean to me and i ended up failing
completly alienated from the few places i thought i could fit in on the internet
got no friends
feel suicidal a lot
theirs nothing fun to do, no good games are coming out to escape in
one of the few things i like to do is paint and draw by my room is so cramped and small and my computer and monitors take up the whole desk so i cant really do it easily
grandma that would give me 50$ a month got moved to a old folks home so i have zero income and the 1,000$ i had saved up is dwindling down. i have to get a job soon and get a drivers lisence which is hard because my anxiety is really bad. my therapists arent helpfull and they just cant understand me

The only girl I've ever truly envisioned a life with says she can't trust me. It's my fault since I hurt her pretty badly years ago, and to top it off she actually likes me (or so she said). We had our first real conversation, beyond mere phrases, since high-school (I'm now done with a M. Sc.) this easter, and thats when she told me all this.

I just have to find a way to create some trust for me in her, and I can't see a straightforward foolproof way to do it. I'm clinging to the hope that with time, and a lot of talking, we can overcome her attitude, but our lives are almost completely separate with our hometown as the only real overlap.

Right now my life is in limbo and will remain there aslong as she's not with me. I have all the tools to set up a great life, but there is no meaning in it for me in doing it alone and there's no other person for me.

I'm never, ever giving her up, but the uncertain future shakes my faith in myself from time to time, and now more than ever I need to be steadfast.

nice thread OP, not the most comfy, but it feels good to express my situation in writing

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I listen unironically to songs like "Katyusha" or "Korobeiniki"(and many other countries but i only know the ussr names), i like it a little bit but i just wanted to be normal in what i listen and not an autistic weirdo

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I only just started working last year but both my parents are already retiring before the end of next year. I'm anxious as it means I'll have to earn a lot because they have cushy well-paying jobs in government and there's basically no way I can even match a fraction of that. I don't even have an idea of a career path that lets me earn progressively more and they're suddenly throwing this shit at me. I'm worried that I'll be dirt poor after giving them the majority of what measly income I have because I'm such a failure.

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>>37486618
Anon I think it's nice that you're motivated enough to do something you like (drawing). I'm stuck even before I've started due to overthinking. Even if the people around you don't, I'm sure there will be someone in this world who can appreciate your art.

Can I share a story that's been on my mind for awhile today?

I don't wanna talk if no one cares

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>>37488347
thanks :)
i overthink things a lot to so i end up putting things off for months due to being too nervous
i post my art online but even after like 100 images uploaded i havent had a single person like or comment any of my drawings. i think i do an ok job and have been getter better :c
>>37489171
im not going to be up too much later but ill listen to what you have to say

>>37489249
Thanks, I appreciate being given time

I've had several encounters with psychiatrists, therapists, and mental health professionals all in different settings ranging from offices with the lay down couch to asylums. I went to all of them for a variety of different things, from anxiety to depression to what I believed was schizophrenia, to bipolar disorder. Each time I went they'd ask me questions and we'd talk for however much I paid them for. I told them all several days or several weeks into therapy and whatnot that they're not helping, I'm paying them to listen and they're just making money off people who have no one else to talk to. They never got offended, thankfully, but they did point out something to me. They've each said the same thing, different phrasing every time though, but what it usually whittled down to is "I don't think this is helping you because you don't need help. You're very intelligent, far more than others I've spent time with and I don't understand why you came here in the first place."

I've seen therapists and psychiatrists for years, taken their advice, taken the medicine they told me to unless I didn't like the desired effect (like the one I took for bipolar which made it feel like my brain was in a box) I've spent nights at mental institutions where my roommate next door screamed all night about demons in her head, spending mornings talking to rape victims who needed help and instead of being an ear for them to talk to, I ended up helping them cope and feel like they're accepted more than any of the doctors there ever did.

What I wanna know is this. I carry an incredible sadness that I can't explain, with various mood swings and intense anxiety. Yet no "professional" can figure out what's wrong with me, they themselves say I'm just fine and functional. Any medicine I take does nothing or makes me feel worse than I did before.

What the fuck am I? What's wrong with me? Why can't I get help, but I can help others just fine?

>>37489378
I think your having too high of excpectations from therapists.

They are their to help you cope, to be an ear that you can tell your darkest secrets, to try and help get you medicine(i know not many medicines work, i had no luck with medicine for depression and anxiety). They are there to help you come to terms and to accept things that have happened to you in the past. And yes they are definitly there for people that have no one else to talk to

Their is no way for them to cure the problems with your mind, they are there to help alleviate some things, to tell you what they think is wrong with you, and how you can try to move forward in your life.

Prehaps it takes someone that suffers mental issues to truley understand what another persons like them is going through. Maybe you should look at finding a support group for other people that have mental issues similar to yours. Prehaps their would be someone else like you there that can help you or relate to you.

Hey. I've never been on /r9k/ before, but I logged on because recently, everything's been going to shit.

I stole $100 dollars from my family to buy games, and lost their trust. I was too ashamed to say I'd wasted it on games, so I said I used it to party out and apologized/ I have a pretty good social life, many friends; but, you know how you can be lonely, even when surrounded by other people? That's how I feel on that aspect. I have a partner, who we'll call N. They're very kind and supportive, even when I have my outbursts of rage, and I can't help but feel she doesn't deserve my bullshit, to the point where I hope they breaks up with me at some point. I've realized they are a main source of my stress, mostly out of paranoia and expectations we have for one another.

I got caught plagiarizing. It doesn't bother me much, but it did ruin my reputation a bit in a small online community I visit often.

I've read about this thing called Weltschmerz. It's a German word that means 'world sadness', and it's a sort of sorrow that has no explanation. You just feel sad. Weary about the world, and melancholic over your existence.

>>37489378

I think that's what you're suffering from, Weltschmerz. I remember first hearing about it and moving on to read more of it, and I understood myself way better. Try to look into it; words have more power than you'd think. Sorry for being all poetic, but it's true.

Anyway, that's my life so far. How are y'all?

>>37489763
Why do you cheat so much? Are you a psychopath? I'll assume that you mentioned the stealing and the cheating because you felt bad about it, but in terms of expression it really seems like you're lacking in guilt.

Also, were you trying to disguise the fact that the significant other is a girl? You used "they" in many places but used "she" once.

I want people to just get along with each other, is that too much to ask?