who else /stilllovingher/ this one is gonna be long >be

2/3
>every day we spend toghether fall more in love with her
>she kinda starts flirting with some other guy of our online friends
>think "ok anon, here we go, time to suffer for another girl"
>spend week with friends, have a great time, but have to see her flirting with the other guy
>everyone returns to their cities, ok maybe now I can have a chance
>ask kevin and natally if we can go out with her cousin some time
>natally figures out I like here, so she gives helps me
>natally's cousin (let's call her Lily from now on) is in a relationship with some asshole that treats like crap, doesn't love her and is way hotter than me
>become Lily's close friend over a couple of months
>meet one day with kevin, natally and lily at natally's place again
>go to natally's room, she and kevin start playing games Lily and I lay in the bed talking and shit
>first laying looking up, just like friends nothing more
>after some time we are facing each other
>start spilling some spaghetti "i-is she fl-flirting with me"
>she starts caresing my leg
>spaghettioverflow.jpeg
>literally shaking
>"holy fucking shit anon is this happenning righ now?" think to myself
>she comes closer to me and we kiss
>maybe best thing I've ever felt
>we kiss for some time and I finally have to leave
>happiest day of my life
>after a week or so she leaves her boyfriend for me and we start dating
>she actually loves me wtf
>she's just amazing and I'm completly in love with her
>after a year and a half or so her personal problems start to really mes with her
>she has kind of a shitty life besides me, she's poor, familly all messed up, her grandpa dies, etc.
>relationship goes on, but it's not quite the same now
>flash forward another 2 years
>relationship has gone worse over time, even almost broke up a couple of times
>we meet another couple through a friend of lily, don't really like them but lily does so we spend some time toghether
>lily starts hanging out with the guy, think it's kinda ok, he's with a girl

3/3
>2016 new years eve, i'm going out of town with some friends and spend a couple of days out
>lily tells me that that guy has invited her to spend new years eve with him and a couple of friends, think that's fine
>come back after spanding those days out, she seems weird and distant
>she tells me everything is fine
>later that day find out that guy left her gf before newyear's eve
>"ok now I don't like any of this" think
>literally 8 days after new years eve she tells me that she wants to break up
>tell her to think about it for a couple of days, think we can save the relationship just like a couple of times before
>worst two days of my life thus far, we didn't talk
>after two days she tells me she wants to talk with me
>she comes to my place
>she breaks up with me
>worst day of my life
>literally screaming in pain, crying while hugging her like the beta I am
>ask her if that guy has something to do she tells me that he doesn't
>"yeah, how long do you think is it gonna take you to star dating him?"
>"anon I've told you he has nothing to do with this"
>2 days after that she starts dating him
>tfw she did to me the same that she did to her previuos asshole boyfriend
>depression kicks in, don't talk with anyone, spend nights alone getting drunk at home, even if I go hang out with friends, just be there silently and get drunk
>cry myself to sleep every night
>don't talk to kevin or natally almost ever
>eventually start getting better after some time, friends making me go out had a huge role in my recovery
>flash forward a year and a half
>today
>gather the courage to text her
>waiting for her to answer

I'ts been a year and a half and I still love her, anyone else relates?

>>37468376
You have terrible taste in women. she was spewing red flags from the start

>she's going through some rough times
>she kinda starts flirting with some other guy in the friend group
>invited to spends new years with him and a couple of friends

to me, it sounded like a train wreak from the start.

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>>37468347
>Be me
>20yo wizard
>meet online 9/10 redhead girl
>we fit each other perferctly
>she fell in love with me
>tfw we are 400km from each other
>"broke up" with her.. she was too good for me.. she deserves alpha chad, not fuck like me
>realized I loved her all along and I still do this day
>after half year she added me on fb and she wants be friends
>now she have bf
>dont know if I should cry or be happy for her
>show her genre called Synthwave
>she likes it
>she is now 11/10
>suicidal for past 2 years
>now its stronger than before
>need to pretend to be okay before her

Why she doesnt hate me OP? It would be so much easier..

>>37468363
>>37468376
>relationship has gone worse over time, even almost broke up a couple of times
>lily starts hanging out with the guy, think it's kinda ok, he's with a girl

How did you manage to ruin the relationship like this? I've been in a relationship for 4 years and we've never "almost broken up".

>>37468608
Be a man and tell her to fuck off, that you are not intrested in her as a friend, the only way to stop suffering is getting away from the person that is hurting you

>>37468563
yeah, I know, but I was in love, couldn't help it

>>37468608
>"broke up" with her.. she was too good for me.. she deserves alpha chad, not fuck like me

I think that's where you fucked up

>>37468670
as I said, her life outside the relationship was full of shit, she was depressed and the relationship went downwards over time

And of course I didn't do everything I could because it was really tiring in the end

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>>37468717
I wish I had balls.. but somehow I cant tell her this.. I want to talk to her but at the same time I dont
Even so, If I had a balls I would finally kms
>>37468725
Letting someone go because they deserve better is fucking up?

>>37468347

Too many red flags.

1)flirting with other guys

2)going though tough times (chad dumped her)

3) you are physically ugly (based on your description). Why do you think the cute girl is flirting with an ugly guy? Red flag. (typical slut behavior to acquire white-knights and orbiters)

4)leaving her boyfriend for you "after a week" (implies she'll do the same when she meets a better guy. Biggest red flag.)

>conclusion
She was never attracted to you in the first place, anon. You are just a pawn in her game.

Leave this place. You're a normalfag and a kid. Neither belong here.

>>37468608
>synthwave
my nigga

I introduced a girl I liked to vaporwave and she said it was really good, we listened to HOME on a comfy bus ride through a rainy day
>tfw only held hands
>tfw there never was a gf
>tfw there never will be a gf