Feels thread. Feeling like you've missed out sorta stuff.

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>tfw relationship of 2 years ended a few weeks ago and it's really stressing me out because I gotta move states because of it

It's a lot of shit to get into so if anyone is interested I could blog post about it because to me it's interesting how we met and ended up and finally demise

>>37350540
sure, post it
>listening to my friend's dumb relationship problems so at this point I might as well listen to something more interesting

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>>37350604
Alright. I'll try to make it short. Don't wanna give unnecessary details unless requested

>Back in late 2014 start streaming in twitch
>Not big but decent views and fanbase
>Have qt3.14/10 girl watch me
>This goes on for months until April 2015
>She's not one of those twitch whores who sell their body (doesn't even show cleavage)
>We dm each other on Twitter and do mild flirting
>Add each other on Skype and get into a call
>She's gushing over me how """""""famous""""""" she thinks I am and says she's my biggest fan
>Tells me how she found me and started watching me
>She'ssodamncutehilyshit.png
>Start talking more and more on Skype messaging while I'm at work
>Really digging her and find her super interesting
>After a few weeks we felt romantic for each other, but we were both hesitant if long distance would work (me being in California and her in Texas)
>Say fuck it let's give it a go
>Thingsaresmooth.swf
>After a few months I take the leap to visit her
>Nervous as fuck
>Momspaghetti.webm
>Never been so nervous and excited in my life
>See her and couldn't help running and kissing her (her being my first kiss ever)
>Spend a few weeks there
>Lose my virginity to her on my birthday
>Shit was so cash, not just the sexually suff but being able to be around her finally
>Naked cuddling and late night early morning movies and food
>Go to six flags, get taken to her favorite food place
>I don't want to go back
>On the day I was supposed to go back here was a convention for anime
>Really wanted to go planning was terrible at the time
>She spend over $500 to push the flight back to a later date in order for me to stay long and have that time with her at he con
>Jawdropped.mp3
>Immensely in love with her
>Prior to visiting her I received a care package box from her with my favorite candy and an 8 page live letter about how she feels
>This is my 3DPD waifu I just know it

1/?

>>37350856
sounds too good to be true, are you still posting?

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>>37350856
continue you faggot

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>>37351076
Ya sorry I'm noding off here. Haven't had much sleep so my typing can be rough right now

CONT.

>After visit we really start to miss each other
>This results in me being angry and inadvertently taking it out on her
>Feel like shit because I'm mad at the situation of being away from her
>Start planning second trip
>Stay there for 3 weeks got in trouble with my work over it but I was a shit job so fuck em
>Went to the beach for a few days with her and her mom.
>Stay late watching cringy straight to DVD horror movies
>Fug like bunnies whole time
>Trying to make it all work out
>Hits home that she won't be done with her education for another few years
>We're determined by love to make it work
>Flash forward after second trip I get a call from her late at night
>She's crying and in the parking lot
>Uhoh.format
>Tells me living with her mom has gotten so toxic
>I understand I've witnessed her mom being such a handful and argue constantly
>She moves in with me in California in October of 2015
>Things are great
>Money to spend on each other
>Thanksgiving and Christmas with each other
>I'm living the life her it's too good to be true
>Anger issues arise again
>Take it out on her and viciously apologize and tell her I love her
>Arguing
>Arguing
>Arguing
>Tell her at one point to "shut the fuck up" and she runs to the car
>Crying her eyes out saying she wants to go home
>Don't know why I'm acting this why and I hate seeing her hurt. I have no intention to hurt but to love
>Work things out
>Brother is getting married in January
>Plan to fly out but there's different plans
>Says she miss Texas because of her free education she gets because her dad served
>Huge benift and opportunity so don't wanna take that away from her
>Say fuck it and live with her at her mom's in Texas
>Still happy because we're finally not long distance anymore and we can finally bring our relationship to it's full potential

2/?

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>tfw will never get on crammed yellow school bus
>tfw will never get refused a seat every time and be forced to stand or sit next to weird kid
>tfw will never get shoved into lockers by seniors for no reason
>tfw will never get your lunch money stolen
>tfw will never get shot by spitballs
>tfw will never trip over in the cafeteria with all my food and get laughed at
>tfw will never sit by myself at the cafeteria and get laughed at for sitting alone
>tfw will never get an 'F'
>tfw will never walk down the idyllic halls of ten thousand lockers in a school of four-hundred students
>tfw will never chant the pledge of allegiance
>tfw will never play incredibly dangerous game of dodgeball with absolutely no teacher supervision
>tfw will never experience a summer break
>tfw will never nervously anticipate a prom, then cry because no date, and just sit at home and eat pizza with nerdy friends
>tfw will never get called a nerd or a dork

>tfw will never be an American

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>>37351255
CONT.

>Packing up my life to move to a state I know nothing about
>Don't care cause I'm with my 3DPD waifu
>Literally the day before we leave we fight and not even sure if I should go cause we're so mad
>Smash through a cabinet I had that held things
>Hulk.onion
>Why am I getting so angry
>Not only to her but things around me
>Next day fly out
>Things are well but still arguing constantly
>I don't know what the fuck is going on with me
>Scream at her, lied to her over mundane shit
>(Oh ya l forget to mention after the first visit we took a 3 day break because of a completely different thing idk if I should get into) but that was stressful especially over long distance let me tell you
>One point... Yell at her that I hate her
>I'm not myself
>Had a job at the Amazon warehouse so the stress work from that didn't help me
>No excuse to take it out on her
>To this day she will always have me saying "I hate you" stuck in her head
>Feel like shit
>She keeps crying because I'm being an asshole
>Why am I ruining this perfect thing I have get it together
>Our one year comes up
>I normally think it's cheesy and kiddy but I got her a promise ring
>Not only to vow to the relationship but to vow to treat her right
>Eat chicken that night and fug
>Dasitmane
>We get an apartment of our own
>Lucky enough to walk in and get a apartment when it's know that place has a 2 year waiting list
>Thinking at this point if I'm on the Truman show because of the luck I've had he past year
>Fighting commences in the first few weeks moved in
>This time I lay hands on her
>Wasn't the first time either i layer hands on her
>Don't hit her hut grab her wrists really hard
>Forget in the moments she had a broken wrist that never really healed
>I'm literally hurting the person I love he most
>Crying for forgiveness
>I'm not perfect but something is wrong with me

There's a lot of additional details I'm leaving out for the sake of shortness so forgive the interjection of things

3/?

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>>37350470
>OP's pic
>fucking faggot anon who can't go without shitting up something good can't even finish his story
fuck you, fuck this thread, fuck everything

>>37351709
man this story is so sad. keep it up though anon.

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>get into relationship with guy who I share a lot in common with
>twisted sense of humor and kind of nice
>break up with him because I can't actually handle relationships
>they make me stressed and I don't know how to communicate
>I still regret it
>haven't had a boyfriend since

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>>37352372
Hey big boy I've been laying in bed after a long flight last night I've been nodding off
>>37352485
Will do

CONT.

>After the fight and putting hands on her, she starts to regret moving in with me
>Obviously feels bad man
>Things get better
>July my birthday comes up
>Sneaky beaky decided to throw me a secret birthday party
>Gets her friends and mom involved having me get pizzas thinking we were gonna have a small gathering at her mom's
>Then we get 12 churros
>Thinkingemoji.png
>Come back to the apartment
>"SURPRISE ANON!"
>I'm at a lost for words
>No one has thrown me a party like this especially to ruse me so hard Hideo Kojima took notes
>Party it up
>Pictures and videos
>Friends get me silly dollar store gifts which was great
>Makes me appreciate what I have
>To have someone care about you and your birth to throw such a party and ruse
>Makes me want to marry the girl right then and there
>Second year of that anime convention comes up
>There were more arguments and it's clear she's distant
>Argue and fight during the con at the hotel
>Overall fun time
>Ask her why she seemed distant.
>"Did you not have a good time?"
>"Ya. I had fun when you weren't mad at me..."
>Fuckmemate.webm
>More arguing happens
>Haven't had sex in months because all the abuse has gotten to her to not do that
>Have first break up in September
>Devastated
>Get back after a few weeks because she still loves me and we wanna make it work
>Things are going good for a while
>Each day is a bit better
>Kissing and cuddling after stressful situations with your partner is pure kino
>Thanksgiving time comes spriningup so her and I fly to my mom's in California to say hallo
>Great times
>Says she misses California
>Says she's more at ease and not stressed
>Apartment rent and bills we scrap by
>We talk about moving back there more seriously
>Suggest I'll help pay for her school because I want her dreams to come true and just be a supportive boyfriend

4/?

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>>37352845
CONT.

>We wanna wait until our lease ends in June in order to get things going
>We hate our jobs so we want things to hustle
>Christmas time
>Flew out to California by myself because she wanted Christmas time with her family
>Get flash backs of the hardships of long distance
>She feels it too
>Starts being super clingy and missing me
>Says the same thing I'm thinking about it being like long distance
>Her friend got proposed to and the next few days hear nothing but just that
>Hear nothing but "I wanna marry you so bad babyyyyy"
>I feel the same way
>Keep feeling pressured though because she goes on about it
>"Well buy a ring there ;)" "come back with a ring"
>Gets a bit overbearing
>Reassure her that I do want to propose in my own time when it's right
>Says she doesn't care how the ring looks or costs
>Inside I know it's a money issue
>Sure I could get a cheap ring, but for a beautifully amazing girl I want to wow her and want what's best for her
>Gets over bearing to the point where I say I need space
>It's the new years now
>Get into a fight which leads to her locking the bedroom door. Me calling her a bitch and a cunt
>(It also hasn't been the first time I've called her these hurtful words)
>Second break up
>Says this time she's done
>She instantly dropped feelings for me because of all the abuse and that she's done with me
>Most stressed out few months I've had.
>We get along after a while
>Time that the Nintendo switch comes out although not together we kiss here and there and cuddle
>We bonded more through those weeks and she rekindled feelings again
>Had some nice make up sex and got back together
>I understand it took a lot of strength and trust to give me another chance
>We sat down and had a very long talk.
>VERY slow process of trust and reassurance in order to really make this right
>She wanted to make it work
>This was the last chance.
>A chance you'll see ultimately destroyed by my animal behavior of anger and stupidity

5/?

>>37350470
>Implying this shit makes me feel

There has never been a 'her' in my life. I have never had a crush or been in love. Fuck off normalslag

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Anyone still interested in my story? Running on fumes right now. I've been slowly posting I apologise. Phone posting while tired in bed makes me slow

>>37354091
I'm still here, bro. But if you wanna go to sleep I won't be offended. Just let me know if you're gonna stop posting so I can stop refreshing

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>>37350470
https://pastebin.com/ay7HyKsq

Something and anon posted here few weeks ago.

>>37354146
Hit me right in the feels. Sounds kinda fake though.

>>37354091
I'm interested, why didn't you go to counselling the first time you hit her though?

>>37351258
yea americans take those things for granted and dont really think about them but every country with their downsides and upsides . There are probably a couple of things that you can do that americans only dream of

>had self worth issues of significant severity regarding basically everything since losing my job last year
>be disgusting worthless NEET with nothing of value to offer
>no desire to actually fix this or any of the other issues I have with myself since working life was awful, I don't care about how I look etc.
>try not to think about it, do what I need to
>essentially became background noise to all my thoughts

>see a particular character I happen to have strong feelings about for the first time in a few years, probably my personal equivalent to normalfags seeing someone they once had feelings for
>seeing her amplified the background noise a hundred fold and it hasn't backed away

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>>37354107
Alright. Then I will finish. I think we're closing the doors here. Hope you've enjoyed

CONT.

>Everything is going fantastic
>Sexual activity resumes after so long
>I do my best to cool off whenever I get mad now
>Proved myself when we were broken up the second time I can change and she say
>Easter comes up and we make more memorable moments
>She always looks so radiant when she dresses up for special days
>Planned on going to California to visit my mom since she was getting married
>She was supposed to come with me
>Over a month until we were supposed to officially back and bring new life again
>She still wants to marry me
>Her dream was to always go to Disneyland since she's never been
>Was gonna take her when we officially moved back
>Our 2 year is coming up
>More FUCKING arguing
>It's always me fucking up and causing it
>She's so fed up with it all she calls me a piece of shit and an asshole
>Maybe she's right
>Maybe I'm a beast who couldn't take care of the beauty
>Break up a few weeks before we had to go visit my mom for wedding
>Now I have to move by myself
>She's really done this time
>Drops her feelings altogether and to be left alone
>Anytime I try to talk about get pretty much yelled at
>"ITS OVER LEAVE ME ALONE"
>"I WANNA STOP TALKING ABOUT IT"
>"THERE IS NO ME AND YOU"
>It was the day before our 2 year
>I finally bought an engagement ring
>Despite the past and how much of a piece shot I was ready to plunge into each other's lives forever
>She calls it off because she says it's not what she wants anymore
>Stress and have a breakdown because in a few weeks now I have to move my life again
>I'll never get to see her cute face ever again
>All the memories feel dithered to her as if they don't matter

So that's where we are now. Just got back from my mom's wedding visit and things are still uneas

She didn't even miss me. We talked during that time but very little

She wants to remain friends but after everything. I don't know. I gave her my all

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>>37354597
thanks for posting your story anon, I hope things go well for you..

good night

>>37354597
Good read, I just can't figure out why your so angry.

>>37354597
ty for telling us, maybe the stress from trying to please her was part of the anger?

>>37355367
I don't know, dude. But it got in the way of something perfect. If it wasn't for my anger and having hat bounce back at her everything would be good
>>37355559
Maybe part of it. There were a lot of factors honestly but again it's no excuse to lash it out on her. She's sensitive and I kept doing dumb fucking shit

>>37355667
Sucks man, hope you sort it out for the next girl that likes you

>>37354597
>when robots are awarded their dream waifus they abuse the till they break down and leave

why is this so fucking funny? could it really ever go any other way though?

>>37355740
I appreciate that. But I sternly believe there won't be anyone else for me quite like her. She was the whole package and more
>>37355755
Ya it's quite dumbfounded. I should have learned long ago to fix it better. She was crazy about me and I to her

>>37350470
>Implying true robots can feel anything anymore other than basic survival instincts

Get the fuck off my board normie trash

>>37355839
There won't be another like her, you fucked that chance, but there will be someone you can share something different with

>>37351115
>pic
That there be a gut puncher.

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>>37355911
Fucking a chance like that at my age is depressing. 22 now with this immense lose like that. The love opportunity of a lifetime from how we met and how everything worked out. I messed up

Anon, and to the others lurking. Long distance can work. Even though things ended with my lady doesn't mean you guys don't have a chance. Be an open book and honest. Communication, communication, communication is the key to make long distance work.

I know there's many afraid to be dropped from someone they love because of distance. I went up from distance to living with her for the remaining of the relationship

It's a very delicate subject to approach but I believe in you. Maybe I'll write some faggy book about my experience because it's rare for long distance to get to where I was.

I was a heavy robot and suicidal before I met this girl. She changed me. I'm reverting back to being a robot and truly depressed that I'll be away from her. Not sure what to do.

>>37356126
I'd say fucking the chance at your age is reassuring, there are 7 billion people, if you found one person you loved like that you can find another easily in the next 10 years, and still have time to get married and have kids. 10 years time you'll only remember the feelings as well, not even face of her

>>37351709
get fucking help you fucking idiot. you honestly deserve this

>>37352485
whats sad about it? its about a girl who leaves her shitty abusive boyfriend. good for her

>>37354597
She's getting blacked by two 6'4" niggers with 9 inchers RIGHT NOW!

>>37355667
how can you be so unself aware? every damn time you are violent towards her you regret it, then how the fuck can you let it happen again? do you not realise in the moment youre a being a fucking idiot? waht the fuck. i will never understand anger issues. you must be on fucking auto pilot at all times with 0 thoughts. the fuck. how the fuck can you be like this

>>37350470
>third meme arrow is already pucci worship
Man, fuck all of you. I want to feel hopeful about life as I did against all odds as I did as a teen. I don't want this apathy.
Fuck women and fuck your breeding worship.

>>37356472
>do you not realise in the moment youre being a fucking idiot?
Ya I don't realize it until it already has happened. I kind of just snap without any control. I did all I could for myself at the time to keep it under wraps and better control because I knew how much it hurt her. You don't have to understand, anon. I'm merely telling my feels and my experience. I regret it and still learning to better my issue

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>>37350470
fuck man, that really hit home, like way too fucking much.

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>>37355755
Because we're being punished. Life is a big lesson in letting go. You have to let go of your desires, dreams, will to live even.
I passed an important exam for me today and you know what? I don't really give a fuck, I'm glad it's out of the way, but I will not celebrate it. I know all too well punishment for such acts will come mercilessly, so I just do my shit and hope I won't wake up in the morning one of these days.

>tfw it only just hit me today
>I am completely worthless
>Even if I attempt to improve, I will not amount to anything anyway
>grades were mediocre in school because I couldn't find the energy to give a shit
>college isn't any better, I simply can't care no matter how hard I try
>actively avoid social situations because i'm terrified of becoming an actual outcast, to the point where I'm afraid to find a job because I know I'll fuck that up too
>No woman would ever even think to look at me, I'm just a loser to them
>literally planning my suicide as I type this
>I'm simply not cut out for life in this world and I've accepted it

No one would miss me. My family doesn't dislike me but it's not like I actively try to connect with them. I don't know what to even say to them, it's not like I have anything to talk about anyway. My life is fucking boring, nothing is going on. I'm fucking sick of being a leech. I don't give a god damn about anything anymore, I literally have to force myself to even play video games with my friends now. I'm just never in the mood anymore. I'm just going to end it. Oh what the fuck am I kidding, I'll probably pussy out of that too. I just wanted to vent and I didn't want to just lay all this on some unfortunate person in DMs or whatever so I thought I'd just dump it here. Sorry.

>>37356668
I feel the same way, nothing has any meaning, you haven't done shit with your life because you're a loser and the only option is suicide, but you're too much of a faggot to pull the trigger. Only thing left is just to wait for the inevitable end.

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>>37350470
>tfw no friends (even though I tried for years)
>tfw no job
>hiring managers ask "Why don't you have work experience? What were you doing? :^)"
>tfw completely rejected by society outside of family
>tfw uncle with hope in you asks "how's your social life?"
>"what do you do anon?"

I used to be angry once. I wish I could feel that much at least.

>>37356668
yea thanks to this post it just hit me too. im just a total fucking nobody

>>37356668
Aye, I think those are the only times were people like us literally have no reason to live.
The world is oversaturated with hard working extroverts, nobody cares about us, not even ourselves, so we live in some limbo, which can be neither described as living nor death.

Just the hand we've been dealt.

>>37356791
>Someone asks about my life
>I'm forced to open this can of worms I call my life
It's like you finally forget about being an amputee and then somebody asks about that.

>>37350470

I'm a lzy cunt today so those four lines of greentext are all the feels I'm selling

>tfw 19 yr old newfag
>tfw the meme corresponds to your exact situation
>tfw oneitis is going to Austria for studies while you're failing senior year
>tfw you imagine how many cute, educated austrian Chads she'll meet
>tfw you had one single chance

>>37356933
fuck bro, you still got a shot, 19 is young.

try dealing with this shit when you're 37....

>>37356925
I'm actually starting to care less about how it looks these days. It might be easier just being open about it. I'm a terrible liar anyway. The only drawback is actual normalfags reciting that shitty advice that never works except for people that don't need it.

>>37357070
I just don't know man. I wish I could be like a spectator in Counter-Strike. Being self-aware is enough of a bother lately, talking about myself is like describing my last turd.

>>37357038
>fuck bro, you still got a shot, 19 is young.

I know that but I can't sort myself out. I have nothing to look for in life, this shit with the girl just made it worse. Makes me feel even worst to know time for me is slowly slipping away and I could *still* get out and be a normie.

>>37357144
Yeah I hear you, most of my hobbies are indoors shit (reading, video games, videos). The only outdoor thing I do is walk once in a while. Nothing exciting conversation-wise. Best thing a person can do is rip that question off like a band-aid when answering and ask them about their life. Asking questions seems to be a more enjoyable method of approaching those social/hobby life questions than answering them.

>>37354515
Are you... talking about a fictional character? Like a cartoon character? Bro?