What caused me to fall in love with a meth-addicted escort with

Same thing that got me involved with a heroin addicted vagrant who was staying with her mom and working with me over the winter who's ex(not so ex) was still in contact with her while in another state

It's called thinking with your dick .

Get the fuck out of that asap

>>37282696
It's already over. I just can't get over her and I can't get my head around why I can't let it go. There are so many things that I hate about her but I just want to be with her.

>>37282696
Also to add I'm assuming you have some self serving motive where you feel the need to be a shining beacon of light to her and save her from lying in the bed she made.

She doesn't care about you, she doesn't wanna change , you can't save her, she's gonna leave you for the ex.

>>37282712
Ahh, well that's the stage I'm in too. well until she added me on normie book last night and messaged me. Can't wait to see how she tears me down this time

Anyways as dumb as it sounds just give it time, time heals all wounds, even if it's just a shitty patchwork of a job . You'll think about her here and there but less and less slowly it won't hurt as much

We're all gonna make it

>>37282760
I don't know how to meet women though. I'm NEET as fuck.

>>37282784
Whelp that's how we ended up in the situation, we grabbed on to the first thing that showed us the tiniest bit of affection.

Choices are to either work on yourself and your life, or idle and wait for another ounce of affection you can latch onto like a leech.
But look where we are, we know our answers .

>>37282938
I think you're right. She engaged with me like no other escort and I have been stared of female attention for years. The thing is though, she is so fucking good looking and so sexy. I can't imagine sex feeling the same with someone else.

>>37282961
Probably no, but remembering all.the insecurities and anxieties she put you through, does it really seem.like something worth going through again?

>>37283038
I don't even know anymore. Even someone like her, with all her problems, wouldn't really want to be with a NEET. I never thought I would get this hung up on a female. It makes me think that she is "the one" but I am not known for living in reality.

>>37283053
They're all gonna seem like "the one" when you're with them and you're making excuses left and right for their behavior . Really look back on it and you know she was trash, and even though you might not be quite the catch, you do deserve better.

Your mind is just deceiving you. That feeling you get from female companionship is just as much of a drug as the meth she's on, and like so, one taste and you're boned .

>>37283097
But she is in rehab for a month right now. She will get back and be clean. Plus she isn't an escort anymore as well. She is trying to become a normie again. She has left me behind but I can't let her go.

I feel like I will never have these feelings for anyone again.

>>37282671
Because I have nothing to go on but the fact that you're on /r9k/ and your post... and based on those I'd say loneliness is the reason why you fell in love with this bitch you know what I mean

>>37283132
>Clean for a month.
M8 the heroin junkie ex I told you about left me , left the state, I told her she'd end up dead in the streets like half her friends during a drunken phone call. She ignored me for a month then messaged me spitefully saying she's been clean, like I wanted her dead. Anyways fast forward to last night she sends me a friend request and a "wave" on Facebook . I looked on her profile and saw her back with her ex that got her into heroin .

Don't worry bro her life is gonna remain shit , but don't use that as a way to weasle yourself back into her life. Just watch it burn from a good safe distance

>>37283247
I don't want to watch her burn though. She isn't the kind of junkie that you are thinking of. She handled it really well. I didn't even know she was on it until she told me. She has managed to keep half custody of her daughter the whole time. Her ex is a normie and I think she is back with him anyway.

I just need a way to let her go. I feel like killing myself because all I do is think about her and how I fucked everything up between us.

>>37283311
My ex was the same way I didn't even know she was on it for a while and neither did anyone at work, but in the long run shit like that takes your mind or your life.

Anyways how long's it been since the split? It's going to seem nigh impossible for a while but its more manageable with time. I was a drunken mess for months after she left me , with this tight heavy feeling in my chest 24/7 . Eventually one day you wake up and just decide you're not gonna feel.like that anymore and that they weren't going to be any good for you
in the long run. Not that you won't have bad days, but there's days where it seems easier that you can catch a glimmer of hope from.

Hang in there robot

>>37283448
Almost 9 months. I still kept paying to see her at the brothel after we split almost 9 months ago lol.
I don't know why she agreed to keep seeing me. It could have just been about the money but I doubt it. I have my part to play in this whole things. I sperged out and used to send her like 20 texts in a night, sperging out and saying awful shit to her. She still agreed to see me at the brothel for months until I went too far and pressured her into getting back with me and becoming really jealous of this other guy she had been seeing (not her ex). She then finally refused to see me any more. I know it's more than over between us but things were kind of getting back on track before I fucked it up in the end.

This is a long story so if you want to read some more, I will be back in half an our or so. I need to lay down.

>>37283311
You are way worse off then her, if she hasnt left you already, she will in a week

>>37283506
You can share if you want but try to think if it's gonna help or hurt you to.bring it all up.

Either way I still think that it's better for your mental health in the long run that you're not in a relationship with a meth head prostitute, just like it's better I'm.not with a smackhead seasonal vagrant

>>37283564
Sheeit speak of the devil, heroin junkie is spamming me messages and trying to call me on fb.
Should I just ignore robots?