ITT: singular mistakes which absolutely ruined your life I'll

>>37220917
You couldn't have known.

>>37220955
Statistics say otherwise. I should have known.

>>37220917
See if the oxford offer is still up and try to get in another semester if you can't transfer now.

So.... Go now? What's the issue lol

>>37220917
>shitty university
And what uni would that be?

well a similar thing happened to me. except we're studying in the same place (I'm 2 years ahead of her).

I was going to finish my diploma, work like a wagecuck in my uncle's factory (almost begged him to get me a job lmao) in this small town and stay here with her for those next two years she has left.

and she left me.

so the situation I'm in right now is this - low wagecuck job, cheap appartment (doesn't have warm water, I'll have to shower in the gym) for the next one or two years.

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>>37220917

>slacked off in university
>wind up getting kicked out for bad grades

that's what you get normalfag
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>>37220917
Could be worse, you could've done what my friend did and knock a girl up in the first few months of uni. He now has to drop out of his physics degree to look after the baby with her.

>be me
>one of the best students in my highschool
>Class goes on school trip one week but I stay.
>One week free
>Spend it doing nothing
>They came back but I stood slacking
>Don't even go to class
>Repeat 4 times the last year of bachelor and get kicked
>Kicked out of home too
>Work for 14 hours everyday to survive with no friends because all of them gone to college
>

>>37220917
If she asked you to give up oxford for her, she wasn't gonna be worth it. Lesson learned.

>>37220917

That is retardation for a guy who got into Oxford. It's true, you make decisions based on how they make you feel and you justify your actions with logic afterwards.

>>37220917
>trusting my parents' judgement over mine

>>37220917
Don't blame you, OP. I was very close to making a similar mistake

>>37220917
No, you didn't. No one smart enough to be accepted by Oxford rejects their offer for a girl.

Maybe you got into another high-tier uni, but not Oxford.

>>37222771
>tfw I know someone who would be guaranteed to get into oxbridge/any uni (truly 1 in a gorillion maths autismo who did well in global competitions) who didn't even apply to any uni
>is literally a 22yo NEET who cycles up and down the my street on a tricycle

>>37222871
That's really strange, I bet he has awful parents

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>>37220917
>be edgy 15 year old
>buy what I think is cheap weed from a friend of my friends brother
>turns out be synthetic
>smoke way too much
>absolutely horrible high that is essentially a two hour long panic attack
>over 5 years later
>still don't feel right
>constant feelings of disassociation and anxiety

Haven't been able to live life because of this, it's all I've been able to feel and focus on for the past 5 years.

>>37222953

He's SEVERELY autistic. He's happy how he is and obviously wouldn't cope with being away from his parents or ever getting a job.

>>37220917
>started browsing 4chan

>get a degree in web design (+ debt)
>health gets fucked up something rotten
>develop great compassion and want to help others for a living instead
>degree_disposed.gif

>>37222986
Yeah same thing happened with me. I never stopped though

>>37222986
You deserve that for smoking weed man SEEK YOUR wax to allah than you forgivn.. By he

>>37222986
Tell me how you feel. I had a similar but much less bad experience, and I'm hoping it won't last... I just want to see if it's similar to mine, which I can't find much info on.

>>37222986
>literally smoke one weed
>life ruined
You do understand that you're a meme?

>>37222986
I got fucked up on strong weed 2 years ago myself and I've had derealisation since, but I've kept it very mild for about a year. It's all about subtly noticing the thought that says "things seem weird", and then disregarding it entirely by focusing elsewhere rather than on the thought and getting sucked up into a shitstorm.

Check my thread out: http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/54425-what-causes-dpdr-and-how-to-break-out-of-it/

>>37220917
If they gave you an offer before then it's not unlikely that they'd give you an offer again, especially if you explained the situation, admissions officers are human too

At least tell me you attempted it again?

>be me
>get accepted into a couple prestigious theatre programs at major universities with a substantial amount of financial aid. (Im white but mom died young)
>planned on double majoring
>decide my gf of 2 years was more important
>go to community college
>break up after 6 months because I have no drive

AIN'T THAT A KICK IN THE HEAD

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>>37223172
Obviously you haven't smonked some of that synthetic shit. It's actually fucked.

>>37223207
Dude, I've been through the same thing except I was fucked up on some strong ass MDMA and shrooms. It was one of my first party drug experiences and I literally thought I was going crazy for 3 months after it. Had to go to counselling. I still don't feel 100%, but you know, we just have to deal with it, I guess.

>>37220917
You deserved it. Now leave this board, you literal faggot.

>>37223172
Synthetic cannabinoids are unironically as bad for you as meth or heroin, they're devastating the UK (not only just dumb kids, hardcore lifers in prisons are going batshit or offing themselves because of it)

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>>37220917
>get expelled from Eighth Grade
>never take my education seriously again and stop completely in Ninth, become a dropout NEET.

>>37220917
>good grades in local high school but lazy
>transfers to posh privilege high school
>leaves home
>realizes you're shit
>slacks off for two years
>big exams come up to go to college
>mentally prepare myself to lose them & double the year

Singular mistake: Going to that fucking school.
I should have stayed cozy in my old one.

>>37221806
Did this too, took 4 years of bouncing around jobs but now I do the same marketing job that I would have if I'd graduated so meh

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>>37220917

1.) Having a girlfriend during the first 2 years of college is a terrible idea. The first two years are when women hoe around the most.

2.) Nobody you date before 25ish will be your wife more than likely.

3.) Plenty of hoes in this world

>>37221750
>>37220917
How does this shit even happen
>Sacrifice potentional future for someone
>Lol soz it wont work

But then again, its women, why am I even asking right?

>>37223276
I too thought I lost my mind for a few months. It's terrifying beyond words, especially the first few times. But you can largely prevent it just with thought control so it's hardly an issue anymore, check my thread out. The only things that help in my experience are good sleep and solid thought control.

>>37223531
If I was a girl and the guy I liked was stupid enough to reject an offer from Oxford to stay with me then I would dump him on principle for that alone.

>>37223599
Actually that kinda makes sense. Guess it looked pretty desperate from her viewpoint?

>>37223572
Same, I did lsd once and things feel permanently "changed" sometimes in a way I can't describe. I usually only get very depersonalized when I'm alone (especially at night) but I start to panic because something just feels so off, and it's such a strong feeling and I have no way to describe it.

>>37223686
What's with you faggot

>>37223149
I just have this constant feeling that everything around me isn't "real". I know for a fact that it is, but it's difficult for me to completely immerse myself in my surroundings, I feel like I'm stuck in my own head most of the time. Places that should feel familiar, like my own house, feel strange and almost alien. I'm a lot better than I used to be, how I feel has definitely gotten better over time, but like >>37223276 said, I'm still not quite 100%, and it's difficult to focus on important things in life because of that.

>>37223276
Fucking pussy. first time doing 2-cb, was already on 400mg mdma and 3 lines of coke

>>37223747
You're the worst kind of person to do drugs with

Not running away when I thought I wanted to but didn't because I was scared
It could've been a learning experience or something

>>37222625
I know this one
They didn't even have bad intentions

>>37223750
Get out faggot maggot

>Try to shoplift snacks from Wal-Mart
>Get caught, they take me back, I don't resist so they say they might be leniant
>They aren't. Call police, arrest me, I go to jail for a day and get bail.
>Petit theft charge on my record, had to do community service. Face on mugshots.com, first result when you google my name

Since then I haven't been called to a single job interview, not even grocery stores or shitty retail. Family is disgusted at me for it, too. Nothing will ever make up for this.

>>37223683
I know exactly what you mean with things seeming off at night when you're alone, specifically in bed for me. Again, it's thought control. Don't entertain the thought, simply recognise it and carry on with whatever you were thinking or doing before. It's tricky at first to recognise such thoughts, because they have no form and are like instant miniature mental explosions rather than a streamed sentence you hear in your head. It's like an impulse. Notice it, disregard it by focusing elsewhere. But don't resist, or it will persist.

>>37223804
Peace out, anon.

>>37223722
The same thing happened to me but I embraced it and basically made it all happen willingly. A bunch of weird unexplainable shit
that I still maintain was totally worth it (mostly) went down that I can't say I even truly remember and I'm left with really fucked up hallucinations 24/7 and really, really strange thought patterns that emerge when I'm not fully conscious (like right before going to sleep).

It feels as though I'm constantly defending against this "corruption", like my mind is going through some kind of fucked up cascade failure in slow motion, and it's a losing battle because I have no idea what the fuck to do. Also can't kill myself because muh family so it looks like it's only going to get worse. I hope I'm wrong.

The dissociation part has petered out a lot for me too, though. It all happened very suddenly. One day I just wasn't dissociated, after it being extremely severe, and from then on I haven't truly been except mildly.

I'm also stuck in kind of a weird loop because of it. Been about three years now of me obsessively replaying shit in my head in the hopes that I'll be able to get back "in touch" or something, scouring my past for some kind of answer.

In my current state of mind it feels as though things like compassion and truth don't even exist and I'm being walled in or buried in trash. Maybe not a result of all of this but when I was derealized I didn't have to worry about what the world around me was like.

>>37220917
Holy shit, Anon. I'm so sorry......

>>37223722
Mate read my thread (>>37223207) and take my advice ITT. I had it just as bad as you, but it's very mild now because of how I handled it. It's the solution.

>>37222871
Good to know that he's literally 22 and not figuratively 22, thanks for specifying that for us.

>be psychotic
>cut my face up
>have bunch of scars which arent very aesthetic
cant really make up a reason which doesnt make me sound like a fag either

>>37222625

Damn straight, fuck that. I would have gotten myself hormones ages ago if not for that and living the dream for at least the last 8 years if not the entire decade.

>>37220917
>girl starts jacking me off on the bus
>says I should go fuck her at her house
>stay on bus and go to work instead
haha, now i'm 33 and never had a gf

>>37224063
What type of scars? Say you were attacked by a mountain lion while hiking/ searching for ancient ruins. Something cool, dude. And be confident, come up with a great back story.

Say you fell into a crevice while exploring the wild frontier in search of a lost gold mine

C'mon, ass hat! Make it sound kick-ass!

>>37223987
Try EFT. Try all kinds of alternative therapy. And possibly get meds for the hallucinations. Don't just do nothing about it and let it fester. That's a bad idea.

>>37222986
very similar thing happened to me. this is just another reason weed needs to be decriminalized and regulated like alcohol. when people other than the types of shit heads who normally sell drugs grow and sell weed in a proper business environment, this shit is far less likely to happen.

i decided learning and working wasn't for me when i was a teenager.

i'm 35 now and have been NEET since 16.

staying comfy and not being a slave feels pretty good

>>37220917
>drop out of medical school
>now aimless

>>37222871
Doesn't sound too unusual for a mathfag.

>>37223227
>gave up a PAID FOR BFA in theatre for some roastie

fool. you could've lived out my dream for me. instead you're stuck in your hometown doing shitty musicals at your local community theatre

>>37224161
how do you stay NEET without working? there an easy way to do it?

>>37224031
Thanks a bunch, anon. I haven't really talked about this to anybody these past few years, it's nice to know other people have dealt with this exact same thing.

Didn't ruin my life but I'm thinking about it, inb4 normie

>gf breaks up with me but still talks to me a lot
>I tell her about a tinder date that I'm going on
>girl drives out from a town about an hour away to meet me
>seems like we like each other and she wants to see more of me
>asks me for a hug before she leaves
>tell ex gf about how it went
>she says that the girl probably didn't like me because she didn't kiss me, this makes me sad because I really liked her
>says she thinks this girl is a slut and is going to hurt me
>I schedule another date with her anyways, I'm going to her town this time
>tell ex gf about it
>she tells me not to go, has a bad feeling about me getting on the road, wants me to trust her
I should have just not told her anything why am I dumb. I was so close to having another gf who was perfect for me. I haven't gone on a date since and I've spent the better part of the next year sitting in my bedroom. I guess I will just have to learn from that one.

>>37224079

That can't be the worst decision you have ever made. The fact you haven't had an encounter with a woman besides her is proof that you fucked up more fundamentally somewhere else.

i quit high school in the final year to stay home all day and play video games and smoke cannabis
now im 23 with no direction or goal in life and i'm so stuck in my ways it doubt it will get any better
i just hope someone will come come and cave my head in while i'm sleeping

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>>37220917
>Get accepted into University of Houston
>Don't want to upset my dad, so I'm likely going to JUST fuck my life up

I'm 20 years old, and I can't bring myself to hurt the people that mean the most to me.

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>>37222986
>Synthetic weed

I'm so sorry.

>>37222986
fuck i know this feel dude, the exact same shit happened to me
after that happened i developed visual snow that never went away

>play dota 2
Stopped after 3,3k hours in 18 months, just late enough to be to late to save anything. In 4 months I have to either: run away to another country, destroy documents and go homeless, submit myself to psych ward or kill myself

>>37224276
No worries m88

sdfsdf

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>>37223324
That's a weird way to kill yourself.

Also, trade school is a kick away motherfucker

>>37220917
>Not sleeping with high school slut Kayla when I had the chance to
>Labeled as gay for the rest of the year
>That was 10 years ago and I'm still a virgin
>I realize that was the turning point of my life and I chose wrong

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going to college

[THIS IS AN ORIGINAL COMMENT BROUGHT TO YOU BY ANON(TM) INDUSTRIES]

>First college party
>Got drunk and lost my v card to a black girl
>She got pregnant with triplets from that one night stand

>>37224535

Wow, you spent one quarter of those 18 months playing DOTA. A little more than 4 and a half months, incredible.

>>37220917
i should have been a normie

i turned down sex with two girls when i was around 14 because i was so awkward, and then everyone said i was gay, and the resulting bullying destroyed my confidence and it has never come back

when i think i should have been having sex and physical contact and dates and a social life for over a decade, it makes me depressed, so i do my best not to

>>37220917
>declining one of the best universities in the world
>thinks we'll believe him
I'm tired of bait threads. This is the nogf version of /b/.

>>37222986
Kill yourself, Tanner.

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>>37225469
What do the kids look like?
Are they half white, half black?

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>>37225577
Why was the cool kid that fucked up in middle school/mid teen years always named Tanner?

>play in my nan's dining room when she told me not to at age 7
>trip over grandad's shoes and smack my face into their big a e s t h e t i c fishtank
>it doesn't scar
>it just looks like a shaved a strip out of my eyebrow like what fags do
>never grows back
JUST

>>37224161
That isn't living

>>37223890

Hire some cheap pr firm to get your name bumped off google

>be attractive enough to have girls interested in me
>some flat out ask for sex
>too autistic to do anything

I could have a wife if I knew how to talk to women.

>>37225736
Post strip

>>37220917
Trusted the vet. Lost a life.

>>37226639

Pretend you're the guy from Drive

No need to talk

>>37223599

Your a fucking cuck mate. Get necked.

>>37220917
Surely if you were accepted into Oxford you're smart enough to get accepted again.

Ofcourse if you admit that story on your letter they'll probably have you fitted for a tard helmet.

>>37223324
The bullet leaves the gun at the highest point of the recoil...

I can't decide if this is realistic or not giving his bent arm.

>I think I'll take a year off after highschool
>Ten years later still a NEET

>>37223227
nice song reference mang

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>>37220955
Faggot OP really should have when it ended two months later anyways. Jesus Christ, declining a place in the Oxford University - even I wouldn't have done that when Proxy Paige would offer me to be my life-long sex slave instead.

Let me guess, you are now pic related?

>>37224138
All drugs should be illegal and their users exterminated.

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>>37227309
Maybe you should be exterminated.

>>37221880
fuck man sometimes staying in isn't such a bad idea when shit like that happens

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>Browsing R9K when I have entrance exams for EE

The uni isnt even that good(300 in QS) but its the best one for its field in this nordic hellhole. I hate this shit as theyre even cutting the fucking funding.

Fuck Finland, at least the exchange student programs are free. I really should go on those to get better education.

At least BioMedicaltech sounds fun desu

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>>37227136
>Took 2 years off of High-school to work with dad
>Too frustrated from laboring 10 hour days to bother with learning how to drive on weekend
>Now have no one that can teach me how to drive

>>37224375
Stockholm syndrome at its finest.
>caer so much bout muh famly iven tho tey not caer bout me XD

>>37227798
That's where you're wrong though. My father handed me the property we live on the other day.

Maybe if you didn't come from shit you'd be more understanding.

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>discovered porn
it's amazing just how much a singular thing can absolutely obliterate the quality of your life

>>37220917
fell for the FTM trans meme. it was a phase, i was beaten severely for it, and now im a fucking emotionally damaged cripple that doesnt know how to function because my teenage years were spent in fear.

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>>37227878
Good, good, he got you on the hook now. There's now turning back now. Enjoy your prison life.
Your father sure know how to pull the Jew on ya.

>>37224034
i used to think this too but you can say literally as actually so it makes sense

>>37227958
>He's got you on the hook now

If there was a conceivable hook, my dad would've never put the land in my name.

He could literally just say "Go to college or I'm kicking you out", and I'd have no choice but to attend.

He just wants to use me to help him retire, but I'm totally fine with that. I don't intend to leave my family destitute; that's why I've been entrusted with the family property.

I don't know what you're trying to observe here.

>>37227901
porn ruined your life? How? Were you too retarded to hide it properly?

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>>37228052
>so insecure that he will reply seriosly to some shitposts
rly makes u think

>>37228134
I'm just enjoying the gift of logical reasoning.

>>37223829
were you a minor when this happened? should be illegal

>>37220917
This is the third post I've seen today on /r9k/ referencing Oxbridge >>37227345

Is it the same anon making all the posts?

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>>37223829
You should've ran the minute you had the chance.

You're some fucker, and worse, you're a thief on top of this.

I'm sorry you didn't have the red-pill as to how the vast majority of man-kind operate. People are stupid. They don't see some dude that stole snacks; they see a potential future burglar; they see someone that violated the law and deserves (not needs) punishment, etc.

World is full of people that want order. They'll use you to sate their needs.

>>37228129
i am extremely addicted to it and the porn i watch does not match my natural sexuality at all. it cripples my self esteem, energy, concentration, and social skills. i've tried quitting for three years but i can never go more than two weeks without it.

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>>37223829
>>37228344
You might be able to join the military.
A criminal record doesn't bar you from accessing the army (especially a petty theft like that), and you could easily learn a trade (that's not a grocery job) while you're there.

It's an easy fix if it ever gets hard on you.

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>>37220917
>hs credentials for full ride scholarship to good uni, ROTC trying to recruit me
>tell them ill think about it bc I'm trying to get into the Air Force Academy
>Don't get in to AFA, miss deadline for ROTC scholarship
>End up paying out the ass for school and working through college with mediocre grades when I could have been getting paid to go to school.

I fucking hate myself

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>>37220917
I applied to Cambridge instead of Oxford because I thought I'd have a better chance of getting in. I regret it every single day. I am haunted by Oxford's superior prestige everywhere I go. Your post triggers me.

>>37222222
doot beep boop

>virgin hunter prowling around at friends birthday party
>go home to vidya
>here she fucked most of party
>actually cry about it

>>37228512
Please respondez friends

>>37228490
L.E.L.
(loving every laugh)

now you will learn to live like the rest of us!