How do you feel about yourself? Hows your self-esteem?

sober me- whatever

drunk me- fuck im such a useless shitfuck someone kill me i shouldnt even use oxygen like what the fuck

I feel like a void. Not as in an empty person, but like everything I invested in myself went to nothing.
I keep trying to improve, to get a kick off good habits, but it amounts to nothing but self pity.
I feel dead, I feel like nobody will ever love me, I feel like i'm not worth anything, I feel exhausted.

>>37198010
>How do you feel about yourself?
Nobody ever loves me. At least not for very long.
>Hows your self-esteem?
Self esteem? What's that?

>>37198010
'bout a 4.5/10 for both

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>>37198010
>38
>approaching mid-life crisis
>possibly well under way
>gf of 4 years breaks up with me on w/e
>tfw

>>37199515
lol wait, tfw doesn't stand for 'that feel when', does it? i keep forgetting that

>>37198010
I feel like shit.

My self-esteem is non-existent.

>>37198010
It's like shit. I just repress my own feelings and desires, I want to be a filmmaker or an actor or something but right now the only thin that really cares is going to med school to learn things i don't want to know to become a guy i will hate. Also i am becoming more antisocial, don't go out (not because I can't talk to people, i just dont want to), dont see friends, dont ask a girl out, dont go to the gym, etc.

I haven't been complimented by a non family member for as long as I can remember

Far too comfortable in being single, never made a single effort to get a gf. Never had any effort expended on me by others

I'm just drifting through life until I get a soulsucking job that I can busy myself with between jacking off and sleeping until the day I die, lonely and empty

Well I don't hate myself anymore. Even working on learning to love myself but that is a slow process. One day I'll get there.

>>37199545
>tfw gf of 4 years breaks up with me on w/e

newfag

>>37199935
yeah, yeah, i know you're all supposed to be completely undateable. i'm a fake robot. fuck you too, friend.

I have just enough self esteem not to act on my gay urges or let myself go, but I'm basically a leaf in the wind.

>>37199951
there are some times I really want a dick up my arse, or to suck someone off, but the rest of the male form is an instant turn off. will never find a trap. buttplugs for lyfe.

>>37199985

Yeah, but its undoubtedly a bad decision. Imagine a bad gay experience, your orientation won't matter, you're gonna feel like a straight guy getting raped by a degenerate diseased faggot.

>>37200109
yeah, well it's been something i haven't bothered to act on for 20 years, it's probably easier just to keep it that way

>>37198010
I feel completely worthless. I placed all of my self worth on the girl I loved who is bow dead. I don't feel like I have any self esteem but I pretend I do because I have to for now. I don't hate myself but I hate how much I fucked up and where I've ended up. It's an odd feeling. I wish someone would hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright. It would be a lie, but a sweet one.

>>37200277
I'd hug you, but I don't want to.

Also, I'm in the same boat.

>>37200421
Blunt, but it's okay. I would only want someone who cared about me touching me anyway.

>>37200163
>yeah, well it's been something i haven't bothered to act on for 20 years

couldn't resist the cock huh>?

>>37200547
20 years ago being when i hit puberty. as i said, the rest of the male form is a total turn off.

>>37198010
I feel just bad