Come laugh at my misery before I an hero. I'm going to post

oh my god anon...
.HAVE YOU THOUGHT OF KILLING YOUR MOTHER AND STEPDAD??

sorry caps

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Go on, I have something of fascination with these kinds of stories.

Oh, man, OP. I am so sorry you have had such a horrible time.

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>>37168132
>this

Why the fuck are you killing yourself when you could kill your mom and step dad?

>>37168209
you really gonna this and not give me the you's??

is this just some deep fantasy or delusion, because if not kiol the steo dad so you can save someone else before you go

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>>37168132

>living in shitty roach infested apartment
>going to 1st grade now
>my mother likes to beat me with anything she could get her hands on including her shoes, a belt, her first, open palm, extension cords or her favorite, a belt that's been sitting in the freezer for hours
That belt really hurt
>she also loved screaming things at me
>like how much my face reminds me of my father's, how she wishes I was never born, or that they only reason she keeps me around is because the government gives her a check each month
The most hurtful thing she ever told me was when she called me a monster, me being a kid had no idea what the definition of a monster was, so I opened up a dictionary at school and it said "someone without a heart"
>go to class one day
>someone notices the bruises and calls CPS
>CPS comes to talk to me, ask me a bunch of questions
>next thing I know I'm in a strangers car, going to a place with tall buildings
>they ask more questions
>tell me to take off my clothes and they start taking pictures of me
>show me the pictures with purple bruises on my back, my arms, the back of my thighs
>I don't look so happy in these pictures
They do have some good news for me though...

>>37168243
did you at least rape your mom??

Post more op, I wanna read more about your life.
:)

>>37168222
I don't give yous I give good advice.

Nice trips. If you die you can't have trips. Sad!

>>37168181
immediately thought this as well. they sound like pieces of shit, better them then you

>>37168181
Seriously. If you're gonna kill yourself fucking try to paralyze all 3 of them.

>>37168308
you should learn some respect and give you's when you this

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>>37168243

For anyone asking about the step dad, I found out he died of cancer last year. My sisters aunt told her and invited her to the funeral, his sister was shocked to find out that he was extremely abusive to me, so much so that she ran when I told her what he did to me and I haven't seen her since.

>CPS found a family for me
>they introduce me to a couple
>they meet me
>both the guy and girl have glasses, dress very conservative, seem kind of dorkish but I can tell they're very kind people
>they ask me if I want to go home with them
>I trust them and go
>their place is so clean
>they set up a room just for me
>I've never had my own room
>the room was fucking awesome for kid me, they had a bunch of legos, sports equipment, a large clean bed and sheets
>showed me the backyard, it's huge and there's plenty of place to play
>these people were so nice to me
>tell me that they can't have children and always wanted one
>they ask me if I want to be their child?
>I genuinely do
>then I get a visit from the same CPS lady as before
>she tells me that my sisters miss me, they cry for me and that they're always asking me
>she ask me if I want to leave the great people I'm staying with to go with my sisters
>I have to decide between these great people who have been nothing but nice and kind to me, kindness I've never felt from anyone else before or choose my sisters who want to be with their older brother
>as much as it pained me, I chose my sisters
Here's where things get double the fun from now on

>>37168368
you had to be at least fucking half brain dead to choose that holy smokes bro

>>37168350
No lad just fucking kill them

>>37168368
I hope your sisters appreciate you, anon.

>>37168404
It should be painfully obvious that is not going to be the case

>>37168418
kek how bad can someone be at recognizing subtle foreshadowing

>>37168368
Keep going, I'm having a wonderful wank to your life's misery's

>>37168368
>I haven't seen her since

How long has it been?

>>37168440

Get the fuck out of here with that shit. Don't be an asshole to OP.

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>>37168368

>my sisters are staying with an old man and his wife
>the place looks like a dump
>I learn very quickly that the only reason they keep me and my sisters is because the state gives them a check to foster kids per child
>I know this because they tell me that's the only reason they keep us around
>before, only my mother would beat me, now I get beat up by an old man and woman
>they lock me up in a room, not nearly as bad as a closet but it still sucks
>start acting out in school
>so much so that I spend all of my breakfast and lunch periods sitting outside the principals office everyday
>none of the kids at school like me, nobody talks to me and I spend all my time by myself
>every day is just beatings mixed in with isolationism
>one day remember that I'm in court
>the judge is speaking
>I tug the female lawyers arm
>tell her to please tell the judge that the man and woman couple are abusing me and my sisters
>says she promises she'll tell the judge
>she never told the judge
Thanks to the state I live in, all you need to do to get your children back after being an abusive piece of shit is to take some classes for some time, my mother eventually got us back. Do you think things got better after her classes and getting us back? Try and guess...

>>37168483

please dont be a hero, i care about you

>>37168483
Holy shit OP you're a dumbass, how could you think moving with your sisters was a good idea?

>>37168513
shut the fuck up, imagine being a vulnerable child that has been abused at every turn. Can you actually imagine him having an understanding of everything around him?

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>>37168483
if we're being absolutely and completely honest

>>37168513
have you thought that he was a child at the time?
at that age you cant expect him to make informed decisions

>>37168513
He was like 7 years old or some shit kids are dumb as hell then

>>37168368
Aaand that's where the protagonist lost the audience's sympathy. Brought this upon himself at this point. Now I'm only continuing reading to find out what happens.

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>>37168483

It doesn't take long before things return back to normal, it turns out those classes don't do jackshit
>returning to Ass Beatings 2: Electric Boogaloo
>something about your own kid ratting you out to CPS just makes you want to give that kid beatings with more gusto
>at least my sisters aren't being abused, I guess
>now my mother's favorite line is, if you kids are going to get taken away by CPS for abuse, I'm going to show them what real abuse looks like
>school sucks, I'm a straight A student but during breaks, all I do is get my food and eat by myself, apparently that's a problem to the school
>I have to see a counselor at school
>I don't remember what I said to an adult female counselor as a kid but all I remember is she told me to get out of her office and never come back again, to a highly abused kid
>don't have to see the counselor anymore
>it's my first Christmas since she's gotten me back
>I remember we go with some families to their house
>had to be at least 10 families getting together
>there's a HUGE Christmas tree at the center of the house
>there's tons of presents there
>it's midnight and I see plenty of kids my age with their mom's and dad's all happy for Christmas time
>time to open presents
>I just sit there and watch other kids open their presents
>a lady taps me on the shoulder and tells me "what are you doing, there's a present there with your name on it, go on and get it"
>I feel like a kid, well, on Christmas
>I'm super excited while I look in the pile of gifts for one with my name on it
>next thing you know, it feels like my ear is being torn off
>my mother starts yelling at me while pulling my ear asking me what the hell do I think I'm doing, there are no presents there for me
>everything is suddenly dead quiet
>all the adults and kids are looking at me with disgust
>I look at the lady that told me about the present and she looks embarrassed
>mother drags me out of the party
I got my ass beat pretty bad that Christmas night...

>>37168671
what the fuuiiiiiicclllllkkkkk? did she hit you with her fist to face?

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if ur mother isnt dead already and you an hero without wasting her first, youre a dumb dumb

>>37168671
continue this shit already, wanna hear more

>>37168770
This. She deserves to die.

>>37168671
kill your mom, not yourself dumbass.

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>>37168671

Apparently one of the teachers noticed bruising on my body and called CPS. Guess where me and my sisters ended up again? Right back with the abusive old couple.

>things are a blur during this time
>just remember they kept up the abuse and barely feed us anymore
>I remember some kid bringing a loaded gun to school and me telling the teacher, police got involved and I never saw that kid again
>turns out if you're an abusive parent and have had your kids taken away TWICE, all you need to do is take some more classes and that makes everything better
>I kid you not, at the courthouse my mother comes to give me a hug and this is the same person who once slapped me across the face for trying to hug her before, pulled me in close and told me "you won't get taken away a 3rd time"
>even as a kid, I knew exactly what she meant
>get back to school, grab my food and eat by myself like usual
>as I'm taking my food tray, I get surrounded by 5 kids
>I forget what they say but next thing I know they smack tray and all the food down to the floor
>then I feel the wind knocked out of me, as they proceed to kick me while I'm laying on the floor
>nobody steps in to help me, everyone just stares and watches
>I tell my teacher but she tells me to just try to make them my friends
>they really don't want to be my friends
>so now not only do I get my ass kicked at home but I also get my ass kicked by a group of kids at school too
>lucky me
>one day it was really hot and I just came out of the shower
>I don't know what set off my mother but she told me to get the hell out of the house
>I was only 8, wearing shorts, sandals and no shirt
>told her to let me change at least
>she grabbed me, threw me out and locked the door
>8 year old kid with no shirt just walking around town for a couple of hours
>I honestly had no idea where I was going to go or what I was going to do, I was just walking around aimlessly
>police officer stops me...

>>37168671
Join isis or become a trap

Seriously, don't an hero. Your shitty, abusive cunt of a mom shouldn't make you feel like you shouldn't be here. you know who shouldn't be here? Her.

Don't an hero. If you choose to do so under your own will power then at least stream it on twitch.

>>37168985

That's kinda fucked up though.

>>37168942
I don't believe any of this shit

>>37169080
There are some really big cuntbags out there, I believe it.

>>37169080
neither do i, this mofo didn't even pre write his shit and we have to wait for him now

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>>37168942

>Apparently there was a report of a half naked run away
>which is funny, seeing as I specifically remember being kicked out half naked by my mother
>cops return me back home
>I get a lecture for running away and a beating
>I'm starving but I don't get the privilege of eating so I'm sent to bed just like that
>I turn off the light before I feel something "FUZZY" on my hand
>turn it back on to see a HUGE cockroach on my hand
>I FREAK OUT and it starts FLYING
>I DIDN'T KNOW THEY COULD FLY
>I didn't sleep that entire night
>all I did was think about how shitty my life has been and I was wondering if I was cursed or something?
>next day, at 8, I decided I couldn't deal with this anymore
>when no one was home, I grabbed a thick rope in the closet, used a chair to tie it to this large thick wooden pole that was high up, tied the other end to my neck and jumped off the chair
>at 8, I was extremely small for my age and really skinny due to malnourishment
>didn't matter, when I jumped that large, thick piece of wood splintered in half, I fell on my ass and the piece of wood ended up hitting me on top of the head
I'm such a fucking failure that I failed to kill myself
>feel a deep sorrow and abject failure that I never felt before at that age
>determined to kill myself still
>try to drink rubbing alcohol, taste terrible and ended up throwing it up
>tried drowning myself in the tub, I'm a dumbass
>went to my window, I lived on the 2nd floor
>pushed the screen off, climbed half way out, sitting on the ledge
>think about possible scenarios
>okay, it just rained last night, the ground should be a little muddy so the impact won't be as hard
>this is only the 2nd story
>if I fail and don't die, I might end up paralyzed for life, making things much worse
>climb back into my room, realize how much of a coward I really am
My biggest regret will always be not killing myself as a child. So many things that should have been avoided.
Things start getting worse...

I feel like a cunt now, I used to think my life was shitty.

>>37169212
Please end yourself already and stop typing shit. No one cares and nobody ever will.

>>37169322
fuck off i wanna know how it ends

how much more is there OP i'm getting sleepy

also do >>37168181

>>37169322
You're a huge cunt, you would probably never understand what this person feels like.

>>37169322
Stop being a retard please

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>>37169114

I'm sorry for not pre typing but today was just the straw that finally broke the camel's back. I'm sure no one will have any sympathy for my dumbass at the end of this.

>>37169212

>end up moving in with a woman and her son
>this guy is really cool, he's like an older brother
>his mom really cares about him and he cares about his mom
>one day he just doesn't show up
>some people stabbed him when he was coming home late from HS
>he was never in a gang, did drugs and had no criminal record
>his mom was devastated, I felt like I lost a brother
>It's Christmas again
>I've known Santa hasn't existed since I could remember
>my mother tells me that Santa might be able to get some Christmas gifts this year and to make a list and place it under the tiny fake tree
>we're even worse than dirt poor
>so I ask "Santa" for some socks or shirts seeing as the socks I have tend to have holes in them from all the walking I do and you can buy tube socks for like $5 even back then
>3 weeks passed and it's Christmas day
>I go to the small tree foolishly expecting socks
>all I find is the Christmas list I made addressed to Santa still sitting under the tree
Even when I put my expectations set to embarrassingly low levels, she STILL managed to find a way to completely disappoint me. This is how Holidays were, especially Thanksgiving. There wasn't a single Thanksgiving that didn't end with her yelling, crying and making us cry, not one....

>>37169322
Please end yourself already and stop typing shit. Nobody cares about your edge.

>>37168468
fuck you faggot whiteknight cocksucker

>>37169465
this is why antinatalism is the only position that matters and breeders should be executed

>>37169481

Here, you lost the thread you were supposed to be in
>>37163770

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>>37169322

That is the plan

>>37169369

So am I, maybe I should just go to sleep? I have work in a couple of hours and I'm tired from all the forced walking I had to do. Maybe I should skip to the parts where people will start hating me?

>>37169465

>Take the Standardized Testing and Reporting or STAR test in 5th grade
>it was a really boring and long test
>start middle school
>same thing as Elementary school, except even the roasties are getting in on the bullying now
>but especially a roastie that has a bf in class
>get bullied for being the shortest and skinniest guy in all my classes
>basically I'm a very easy target
>still eat by myself and try to stay out of trouble
>get called into the principals office one day
>my mother is sitting there too and she looks pissed
>I'm a straight A student and I don't think I've done anything wrong?
>Principal tells me that I'm not in any trouble
>apparently I placed in the top 2% of all 5th graders nationwide
>he talked to my teachers and they think I'm bored, that the classes are far too easy for me
>he ask me if I want to skip 2 whole grades?
>remember, I'm already the shortest and skinniest guy there and they want to move me 2 grades ahead which means that the following year would have me transfer to a HS notorious violence, a rat problem, teen pregnancy and a person getting stabbed on campus
>me being a scared abused kid, I pass
Big mistake, this one still haunts me ...

op thanks for sharing your story.
and why not to kill the whore first? or better yet, make her suffer and then paralize her

>>37169658

>I'm the black sheep of the family
>my mother is constantly talking bad about me to our family
>they take the side and believe someone who got her children taken away, twice
>over a straight A student who has never done drugs, never stolen from anyone, never joined a gang or sold drugs
>yet I'm the worst of the worst
My uncle actually challenged a 12 year old me to a fist fight because I didn't want to let them take the one thing I had control over in my life, my hair. They ended up holding me down and using a machine to trim my head near bald, all because my mother said she didn't like my hair long
>one day walking back from Middle School
>some gang members stop me and asking me what I'm doing on their street
>this is the same street I take to and from school everyday
>roasties bf is with the group
>all of them proceed to jump me
>go home bloodied and bruised
>hate my life and want to die

Things got better during HS, I still got punched here or there but for the most part, people left me alone. That's also where my life took a turn for the NEETdom...

>>37169465
Wait so you're living with this woman whose son was stabbed, yet have Christmas with your abusive mother? huh?

Kill the whore

>>37168132
kill those 2 pieces of shit before you an hero, they deserve to die

I'm listening OP. Sad story. Don't listen to these people saying evil, nasty things.

I'm listening too OP, stay strong

>>37169773
Where is the rest of the story you cunt?

OP don't kill yourself, even if it's just random internet strangers we care about you

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>>37169780

Remember how I said I never had my own room before? Roommates, my mother got enough money from all 3 of us from the state but she's a whoreible person with money or without it. It was me, my two sisters and my mom in one room and her and her son in another room.

I have so many stories about the different "roommates" we had. The most was 2 bedrooms, one for me/sis/sis/mom and the other room was /lady/son/daughter/daughter all living in a roach infested apartment. We've had roommates who dealt drugs in the apartment, those guys were huge assholes. A lady who abused her husband, an illegal immigrant with a cock eye who would blast Mexican music at 4 am and bring strange guys over every week. Like I said, it's not like she didn't have the money, she just rather spend it on herself.

>>37169773

>meet a guy my age at teen job fair named T
>mother got us kicked out, about to be homeless
>T offers to let me stay with him and his family
>his mom is really nice and accepts me into her home just like that
>T and his brother are home schooled
>they offer to get me home schooled as well
>take the offer
>spend all day and night with T, his brother, and their friend playing 4 player games on the Game Cube
>have a blast playing Double Dash, Melee and a bunch of other games from sun up to sun down everyday with 3 other people
>spend my Junior and Senior year at their home
>eventually T's mom breaks the news that I'm going to have to move back with my mom
>I cry like a little bitch
>now I'm a little too big for my mother to beat up, so instead of hitting me, she just calls the cops on me
>cops are huge assholes and always take her side, guess they never bothered to look into her criminal past
>eventually graduate but don't have plans for future
>end up living with someone who has a serious case of autism, not the kind that gets thrown around here all the time but a really bad case
I cook, clean, manage the bills in exchange for living like a NEET there...

>>37169983
not that bad of an ending.
you should just kill her if you gonna end it.

>>37170067
that's not the ending obviously

>>37169983
You are stupid if you are gonna let your past affect your future even further.

Move someplace else and start over fresh.

You have little to lose.

>>37168368
I felt sympathy for you but if you chose to stay with your shitty family you are a cuck that deserves all you pain. Fucking idiot.

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>>37169983

>I didn't have a car or even knew how to drive so I just stayed home all day on the computer
>he would buy the groceries, I'd pay for the bills online with his credit card
>his dad used to be the mayor of the city and left him and his brother his wealth
>his brother took most of the wealth
>I ended up spending 6 years of my life without stepping foot outside the house
>6 years of playing vidya and browsing 4chan along with r9k
>24 at the point, no Driver's License, never had a job, NEET shut in
>I can't live like this anymore
>decide I need to do something
>sign up for Community College and FAFSA
>don't know what I want to do but I just don't want to be a shut in forever
>need to enroll in classes in person
>live across the street from HS
>walking to College and get near HS students
>they have the latest cell phones, they're taller than me, some of the guys have gf's who are gorgeous hanging off their arms, nicer clothing, better looking and just better than a shitty 24 year old NEET
>have a panic attack, feel like my shirt is choking me, almost pass out
>go back the next day and push through my feelings, end up signing up for classes
>get straight A's my first semester
>don't really talk to anyone but I'm used to it
>getting money from the school so that's nice
>start practicing how to drive from R (guy with autism)
>eventually get my license at 25
>saved up my money and bought a shitty car but it takes me places
>R eventually gives a friend of his father control of his money, this ends just like you'd imagine it
>R loses his home, guy didn't pay any bills and took the money and ran
>I need to look for a new place, R ended up moving in with his brother who he hated
>find a place but end up spending all my FAFSA money to afford it
>It's a garage converted into a tiny room with a bathroom
>it gets the job done, live there for 2 years, landlord is great
>sisters end up living less than a mile away, they both live together
Here's the beginning of the end...

Okay, no racism, no /pol/, just an honest question: are you black?

>>37170158
How did you manage to get straight A's while constantly being abused suicidal?

>>37170158
it seems like you can get out of it man, the last lines are pretty promising. Don't do it man, stay strong

>>37170136

I said you will all hate me in the end, I meant it.

>>37170158

>things are quiet and peaceful for once in my life
>other than grades there isn't much to worry about
>FAFSA gets cut off due to have taken too many units because I've taken a boatload of classes and changed my major halfway through
>decide I need a job ASAP
>apply everywhere
>end up getting an interview at a coffee place
>even though I have ZERO work experience, manager hires me on the spot
>tells me it will take some time before the background checks to come through
>meanwhile, my sisters want me to move in with them but I love my privacy and affordable rent so I tell them no
>it took 3 months for me to finally start working after getting hired
>a lot of bullshit happened
>burned through most of my savings paying rent, bills and food for 3 months without making anything
>finally start working
>they only schedule me for 11 hours a week for the next 3 weeks
>this is BARELY enough to pay my rent but I just started

This is where I go full retard and deserve to kill myself...

>>37170189
Nope

>>37170220

Paying attention in class? I mean, we're not talking Ivy League here, it's a CC.

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>mfw this is a long windup to a bel air end

>>37170220
Bad social experiences usually lead you to focus on studying, reading, and other things that you can do alone.

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>>37170248

Not happening

>>37170246

>Get a call from my sister A that she is moving to another state
>Sister B can't afford rent on her own, wants me to move in
>tell her I like where I live and can't help her
>get calls from Sister A and other family members telling me she's going to be homeless and can't afford it on her own
>how can I be like that to my own sister? etc...
>against my own better judgment, cave in and tell her I'll move in with her to help her pay rent
>it's a bigger place, has a stove and kitchen, and I'd pay the same rent
>spend 3 days moving everything by myself
>already regretting it
>when I move the final things and open the door, I hear a loud hiss?
>water is spraying everywhere, the kitchen floor and living room floor is flooded with water
>ask neighbors to call landlord
>he comes and fixes it
>tells me that he knew I was moving in and was okay with it
>then ask me if I knew that my sister was getting evicted?
>wait, WHAT?
>Sister A who already left to another state brought a cat in, that's against the leasing agreement so he evicted Sister B and me by proxy
>I haven't even spent a full day here and the place is flooded and now I need to come up with first and last now or be homeless
If you think that I'm a retard, you're right but it only got worse today

>>37170339
Wow. This is a massive test of your mettle OP.

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Kill everyone who abused you before you kill yourself. Killing yourself will probably just make them happy.
Some people just deserve death.

>>37170339
Im going to sleep, dont an hero op. Take some time and figure out what the fuck you wanna achieve.

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kill them all anon, just do it, just buy a gun and a shitload of bullets, kill every single one of your relatives, it's what they deserve

>>37170339

>go to work today
>there are two bosses, female and male boss
>female boss is pretty chill
>male boss pretty much wants me to work at the same pace as him, someone who has been working there for 5 years as opposed to someone who only started 3 weeks ago
>was insulting me through the whole shift openly
>pretty sure he's going to fire me
>get home
>get a call from a guy who I shared a class with
>pretty sure this guy browses here, he's a total bro
>we're both overweight, him much more than I am
>we both want to lose weight
>he suggest we go for a walk
>I agree and drive to his place
>he lives about 8 miles away
>park where there are a bunch of cars parked outside
>we walk for about an hour
>get back and my car is gone, like completely gone
>call the police
>they call me back, my car has been told
>call the tow trucking place
>they charge $350 for same day pick up of car
>every day left in storage is an additional $50 a day added on
>I just got paid and it was only $250
>I am scheduled to work for 11 hours for the next 3 weeks, including today at 10 am
>At 11 hours a week, x $12 an hour for 4 weeks = $528 BEFORE TAXES
>$350 + $50 a day x 35 days they can legally charge me = $2100 they can legally charge me for the car. which is about what I paid for

Even if I pay for the car by selling what little I do have, that still doesn't address the first/last and being homeless issue.

This is it, there goes any semblance of fight I had. I can't do this anymore, life just keeps beating me down and I don't want to get up anymore, I'm done. I tried to be a good person, follow the law, treat people well, even people who didn't deserve it all the time and this is what happens to me all the time. I was going to kill myself at the train tracks but right as I was walking towards the train, guess who stopped me? The officer who called to tow my car in the first place, he "apologized" and told me to be careful as I walked those 8 miles home. Guess what was in my car as well

>>37170472
Some robot will come along and achieve the same thing or better, what's the point? Fuck humans

>>37170520
Dildos with shit on them

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>>37170520
Go out and get your revenge.
Kill them all OP.

>>37170520
you should give some justice to the world m8.

OP read up on the rare bridge jumping survivors and their stories. Each and every single one says that as it was happening their minds started flashing with how they could have solved everything wrong with their lives, except for the moment they jumped.

>>37170585
They're just saying that so people won't watch them too closely and they can attempt suicide again. If they said "Gotta try it again" they'd be on suicide watch.

>>37170520
If I was in your country I'd probably take you in until you got back on your feet.

There are /homeless/ generals on /out/. Being homeless isn't all that bad. The main reason homeless people are trashy is because they are addicted to drugs/alcohol. Get a tent and a Gym membership. Tent i little outside of town and shower at the gym

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>>37170520

That's right, my work uniform. I can't show up to work without it. So now I'm going to be homeless, I'm carless, and soon to be jobless.

If there is such a thing as a God, he HATES me and that evidence is clear throughout all my life experiences. I tried to do the right things and get my life back on track and this unholy trifecta has befallen me.

I just can't anymore, I can't handle anymore.All the fight has been kicked out me, all I want to do is die. No more fighting or struggling, only peace now. Thank you robots, you guys are the only people I could ever relate to in all of my pathetic existence.

>>37170631
rest in peace anon my man, i'm very sorry for you and everything that happened to you, you didn't deserve this

>>37170631
Please kill your mom and sisters before you kill yourself. They deserve it.

>>37170631
op don't do it, living out of your car/a tent isn't that bad. you have options, fucking limited ones but still. suicide isn't your only option.

>>37170520
Can you not get a loan at the bank or something?

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>>37170631
How are you going to do it?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=puB9I90Aj0g

>>37170631
Although I never suggest you should an hero, at least give your mother a beating before hand if you are serious

You're a smart guy. Maybe move someone conplety new and try start a fresh

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>>37170631
Go on a rampage before you kill yourself. Give the human race what they deserve.

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>>37170680
>living out of your car

You guys never fail to make me laugh

>>37170688

No bank is loaning a NEET with only 3 weeks of work experience anything.

>>37170631
OP, I can definitely understand why you feel like your life isn't worth anything anymore. Your story is very sad and you persevered through so much. I don't know if it will get better, but I don't think you should kill yourself. I really don't have any suggestions as to what you should do. I wish a nice person would take you in, but only robots who live far away have heard your story.

Find a homeless shelter. Look up services in your state. Something.

>>37170631
Honestly, dude, I'm sorry about your exceedingly shitty childhood, but your current situation is nothing compared to it. If you could get through your childhood then you can get through this. You're in a much better position now than you were then and you can grow out of it and ultimately succeed.

>>37170631
please anon, get a loan and kill the rest of your family take revenge on them then end yourself.
rip my nig

>>37170631
Where do you live, OP? Maybe I could help you out.

is op rip?

>>37169983
>cops are huge assholes and always take her side

This. My abusive narcicisric mother had stalked and attacked me and the cops that I thought were finally gona save me instead took her side and made me move back in with her.

OP, if you decide to not anhero, get a psychologist. A therapist whos trained in abuse cases can really help and if you get on a medical insurance system like obmacsre (trumpcare now), you can get it for almost nothing.

Your mom deserves to die, not you. Im sorry this happened to you. You deserved so much better. You can try to rebuild if you want, I know how horrible that is. Suicide is never cowardly, you can put out the light at anytime you know that.

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>>37170631

PLEASE OP IF YOU CAN DO ANYTHING RIGHT IN THIS WORLD AT LEAST TAKE REVENGE ON YOUR RELATIVES

PLEASE

THEY CANNOT GET AWAY WITH THIS

>>37170631
Why don't you just ask here for money? If you could get a donation, things won't be as bad.

>>37168132
>>step dad knocks out my remaining baby teeth with his fist, he likes to beat me pretty bad

Why don't you just shoot your stepdad?
Anyone who beats 5 year olds deserves death.

You want to kill yourself anyways so why not at least take revenge?

>>37170869
Step dad is already dead

Bump, Feels bad man.
If you are going to kill yourself though, take the people who did this with you

OP's bad day could literally be solved with a $400 donation and application to local homeless services yet there are anons here seriously proposing he become a murderer. There's no doubt that /r9k/ breeds a wholly needless toxic mentality.

>>37168379
>>37168636
>>37170136
He did the right thing. His sister's were extremely young and abandoning them would have been fucked up, especially in retrospect since their living conditions

>>37170831
this

if anything OP, getting revenge on your relatives should be the one thing keeping you going. After that you can kill yourself, it will be the ultimate fuck you.

If you have nothing left to lose then you are free to do anything. Atleast before you kill yourself get revenge. Fuck rob your mother, burn her house down and move state at this point what does it matter. I've had shit financial situations, selling weed and ecstasy can be easy money. Just go outside for a "cigarette" at 2 am in any club and you can make some ez money selling tabs or weed that you bought in larger quantities.

>>37170708
>>37170715

All I hear is "struggle, struggle, struggle" I don't deny that I share the majority of the blame for my problem but I'm just so tired of struggling for things that are pretty basic for most people. This is too much

>>37170785

I'm trying to think of what I'm going to tell my nice female boss about why I don't have a uniform and can't come in today?

>>37170797

If I told a therapist about my life, they'd lock me up for 3 days for a psych evaluation. This would give me a record and make my life even more difficult than it needs to be.

>>37170854

I don't think I can ask NEETs for their NEETbux, it just wouldn't feel right.

>>37170885
>>37170831

I'm all out of fight, victory has defeated me.

You beat the dead horse for far too long. It is time to let it go. Take your first step into the great unknown, and rest of us will follow

OP would you consider sex work?

>>37168132
I got to like the 4th instalment and couldn't anymore.
Sorry OP must hurt bad, but you're still a human, you can go on to live a meaningful life and help others.
Don't an hero cause of them, it means they won, fuck that.
Success is the sweetest revenge

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if i don't see on the news that you brutally murdered your mother imma be fucking pissed OP

>>37170926
>I don't think I can ask NEETs for their NEETbux, it just wouldn't feel right
And yet you think it's rational to commit suicide before all else has failed.

>>37170926
Considering you started your life with an abusive mother, you really should stop laying this all on yourself. Sure, you made some mistakes, but who can blame you for that? I've been far luckier than you, but I too make mistakes, we all do.

You got dealt a really shit hand in life anon. It really fucking sucks. Thanks for being on /r9k/ with us, I hope you enjoyed your stay, and I hope it won't hurt.

>>37170886
$400 dollars isn't gonna not make him suicidal. The next situation like this will most likely be a repeat of this thread and how likely is he to get two anonymous donations. I still think the best option is to pull through and survive. get rich and as an ultimate fuck you rub it in your mother's face until she crawls on her knees begging for the money. Then spit on her and never look back. but if he's committed to suicide he might as well have his revenge before.

>>37170631
I understand. I have seen the most scummiest people in this shitty existance, and noone deserves to suffer like you have. It is always the kindest that suffer the most. You gave everything, whenever you could. Let your kind heart shine in the afterlife or lack of it.

Do what you feel is right in the bottom of your heart. I would never encourage suicide, but I completely understand anon. This world breaks people like you. If you continue to live on, I'm not going to lie to you no matter how much you try, life will always be shit. But maybe one day there will be light. Who knows, in the end.

Do not listen to those that are pure scum. This world does not deserve you and it shows. If you choose death, let it be your choice - not theirs.

>>37170926
Listen, OP. I hate normals. I really do. And they way they are in this thread telling you to
>just keep going
>it probably won't get better but who cares at least you're alive
>just be yourself and things will get better
Really, really makes me sick. Now, I'm not the most sympathetic person but I have to be on another high realm when compared to these assholes. You have no reason to believe that life is going to get any better.
I'm no trying to be an asshole with this, but it's true. My life is objectively not as bad as yours and I want to die. I cannot pretend to know what you're going through and I think instead of wallowing in this life, eternal peace would be better for you.

Obligatory fuck off normies

>>37170926
Tell her the truth. Your car got wrongly towed and your uniform was inside. I'm sure they have spare uniforms

>>37170958
>and how likely is he to get two anonymous donations
On a forum of selfish sociopathic fucks like /r9k/ highly unlikely. I'd do it.

>The next situation like this will most likely be a repeat of this thread
Fate has something special in mind for OP. His life is no different from your average African in terms of difficulty. Perspective and time is all he needs, and you get the perspective with the time you keep from not fucking killing yourself.

>>37170926

>I don't deny that I share the majority of the blame for my problem

I deny that on your behalf. Basically everything you did was fairly reasonable. If what you say is true, then I'm telling you right now, no, it's not you, it's them. "Them" being your family but also this sickeningly dysfunctional society.

Believe it or don't; doesn't change the facts.

It's not your fault.

>>37170926
Life is but an eternal struggle. This is the reality of life, anyone who tells you otherwise is so full of shit that they should become a politician because no other job would do for that level of bullshit.

It is up to you what you do. Do not let others influence your mind, if you want to live, even if only slightly, then live. If your time has come and you are ready, then so be it.

This world is corrupted and cursed in any sense. If god exists, he's literally equivalent to the jews from fucking /pol/ - make sure to take back heaven with lucifer when you get there if that's the afterlife.

>>37171015
This type of shit creates holocausts.

>>37170930
>You beat the dead horse for far too long. It is time to let it go. Take your first step into the great unknown, and rest of us will follow

These are the most calming words I have ever read, thank you.

>>37170935

I'm not attracted to men in the least, I'd rather die than be some human doll with holes just so I could survive.

>>37170945
>>37170958

Even after the set back with being evicted next month, my plan was still to work at the coffee shop and apply to become a real estate agent. Save up money as a real estate agent and buy up assets to the point where I'd become rich and would only work if I wanted to.

>>37170949

It's not their fault, they shouldn't have to pay for my mistakes.

>>37171024
>It's not their fault, they shouldn't have to pay for my mistakes.
It's called 'charity' and 'good will'.

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>>37170707
Just find a way to get your car back and live in it, it's really not that bad

>>37171015

>Do not let others influence your mind

Think about how nonsensical what you're saying is. It doesn't make sense. Your post is little but an attempt to influence his mind. That's what all of our posts are.

>>37171024
It's not your fault. Some people are cursed, and have what I call a kind heart. No matter what happens, it will always be bad. They will always try to help others even at their own expense.

To all of the people reading this blaming OP - You'll never understand what it is like.

>>37171024

>It's not their fault, they shouldn't have to pay for my mistakes.

Yeah well, all the crazy bullshit that happened to you wasn't your fault, so you shouldn't have to pay with your life.

>>37170631
F my man

>>37171047
I am aware of this, I simply make him aware of it so he can make the best choice. Fuck off. Seriously, people like you need to die.

>>37170993
I'm seething. As in genuinely angry. This is what it comes to now? Have you people not an ounce of understanding? Can you not see why someone would want to die?
>le Africans have it worse
>keep on living man you might get a gf or something XD
>keep working for the (((man))) and maybe you'll be rich one day
>don't worry about your tax dollars going to welfare queens and into Jewish pockets
>if you kill yourself they win

Really some next level psychopathy going on here. It boggles my mind. Op, I do think you should kill your mom, but even if you don't, you deserve better than this. Death is the ultimate gift. Shit like this is why I refuse to have children. Think of how much suffering would have been avoided if he had been aborted/his parents never had sex
>inb4 it didn't have to turn out this way
>things could get better
>any other pronatalistshit

>>37169983

What state are you in OP, id take you in.

>>37171024
No, don't kill yourself :(
My parents are abusive and I want to become successful so that my suffering wasn't for nothing. I think you deserve happiness.

>>37171056

I remember in the old stop motion toon "Gary and Mike", they talked about the phenomenon of "crap magnets". Some people just have incredibly bad luck.

I don't think there's a conscious intention behind it. People have been around for hundreds of thousands of years, and there have been billions of them.

Out of a sample size that big, with all the crazy combinations of stuff that can happen to a human, you're going to get some big deviations from the mean. Most people will have lives that are average good (by definition).

But there are going to be some people who are just Mr. Lucky and other people who are crap magnets. It makes perfect sense that it'd be that way if you look at how this world is inherently and then just think about how many people are out there. Not all of them are going to have the average-good life...some are going one way, others the next.

>>37170631

Don't let them win anon, pls

>>37171076

Now you're trying to influence my mind. Hah.

>>37171077
>le Africans have it worse
Not what I said.
>keep on living man you might get a gf or something XD
Not what I said.
>keep working for the (((man))) and maybe you'll be rich one day
Not what I said.
>don't worry about your tax dollars going to welfare queens and into Jewish pockets
>/pol/
>if you kill yourself they win
>>>/pol/

Your mind jumped to so many conclusions pre-molded by your sponge action of all kinds of bullshit on this site. I'm not a normalfag, but you assumed someone who disagrees with you is one. My point is OP's suffering has a meaning to it that hasn't been revealed yet, and ending his life prematurely will cut of his one chance he has for any kind of fulfillment, whatever that will turn out to be.

/r9k/ as a whole suffers from a lack of perspective.

>>37171109
>you deserve happiness
>deserve
>happiness
Both very subjective words. While you say, objectively, that he "deserves" something, the idea of deserving and what you say he deserves are both very subjective. Perhaps he doesn't want happiness? Maybe he has seen life and wants eternal sleep, which when growing up was probably the only time he had some peace and maybe a glimpse at something better.
Maybe you are delusional but please contain it to yourself

>>37171077

>inb4 it didn't have to turn out this way

If you look at it logically...it did have to turn out that way. Otherwise it wouldn't have.

Even if you believe in that whole multiverse thing, that just means there are going to be some universes where you win and some where you lose.

But I don't want OP to kill himself. It seems like he has a sound body if nothing else. That's a really great asset. You can do things with that.

>>37171130
Yep. Objectivity is only deserved by the suffering.

Seriously, nobody would miss you. OP will be missed, you won't. Go die.

>>37171041
>>37171063

Even if I somehow got the money for the car I'd still be homeless at the end of next month. There's still a good chance I'd get fired by that guy boss, then what? More questions and more struggles. I might get some financial aid but that won't be till September of next semester.

>>37171109

Good luck anon

>>37171118

Trust me, I try to be positive. Even after the eviction news I tried really hard but this hit me really bad. I'm afraid to think of how this could get worse? Will I be arrested? Raped? Put in a wheelchair? I don't even want to know

>>37171162

You only influenced me to be angry with you for about ten seconds.

>>37171164
I'd a least take everyone who made me this way down with me.

>>37171157
Stop being edgy, idiot. I can't believe people are encouraging him to commit suicide.

>>37171164
You live out of your car or go to a homeless shelter. These are legitimate options you are leaving off the table because you have some misguided notion of being above it all even in your darkest hour

that's really gay

>>37171164

>Even if I somehow got the money for the car I'd still be homeless at the end of next month. There's still a good chance I'd get fired by that guy boss, then what? More questions and more struggles. I might get some financial aid but that won't be till September of next semester.

One option would be to say fuck it all and join a commune or something. It certainly wouldn't be easy but it would be something.

>>37171156
So how do you want him to reach that potential? It's not like he can lay on the floor of his room drinking his own piss... and yes, as much as you want to ignore it, a group of large noses individuals do own most businesses and have a massive influence on public opinion/politics.

You do just want him to be himself and get a job, suck it up, and maybe, like I said earlier, find a used up whore who will take 1/2 his money and then leave him.
Seriously, fuck off with this shit
>Ima robot, as me anything guise

>>37171202

Living in a car is illegal in many places, and can get you thrown in jail.

Most homeless shelters are very dirty and dangerous places.

>>37171164
>>37171211

Also you could probably make your life into a memoir, kind of like that guy did when he wrote "A Boy Called It". It might sell. Worth a shot.

If I were in your shoes I'd go for the commune idea--go meet up with some hippies and live the bohemian lifestyle.

But I'm not you. I don't know if you would hate that. I'm just saying what I'd do.

>>37171194
Well, what do you encourage him to do? All your virtues signaling and no advice. He can just live as he has been which is obviously the fulfilling life every normie dreams about or he could end his life and not have to worry about earthly pains.
Hmmm
Also
>edgy
Wow, really gets me thinking

>>37171214
You're almost too retarded to seriously reply to.

>>37171230
>Living in a car is illegal in many places, and can get you thrown in jail.
And? Being dead is better than taking a risk with a comparatively lesser penalty for failure?

>Most homeless shelters are very dirty and dangerous places.
This again is but a risk / chance.

revenge quest?

>>37171202
>>37171211

It's not about being above it all, it's about more suffering just to get to an eventual place where I suffer but just a little less. I didn't even write everything I've been through, that was just a sample of some of the shit I put up with. How long am I going to have to continue to suffer just so I can reach some baseline most people are born into?

>>37171256

Nobody would believe me, hell, most people in this thread don't believe me. I completely understand why they don't and I wish I was making this up but it's all true.

>>37171267
>it's either normie life or suicide
You know that's a false ultimatum

>>37171274

A lot of people would rather die than go to jail. I would.

>This again is but a risk / chance.

A risk he might not want to take.

Some people fear suffering far more than they fear death. OP seems to be one of those people.

At a certain level of suffering I think everyone is one of those people.

>>37171294
It's not even an ultimatum, suicide is a good option here.

>>37171274
>And? Being dead is better than taking a risk with a comparatively lesser penalty for failure?
Yes, actually. Life really has no reward that justifies the shit you have to put up with, especially if you're poor. Sorry bud, not everyone is a happy-go-lucky fellow like yourself
>too retarded to respond to
This normie maneuver is a very common one. To call the truth stupid because it doesn't benefit their world view. Typical

>>37171289

>It's not about being above it all, it's about more suffering just to get to an eventual place where I suffer but just a little less. I didn't even write everything I've been through, that was just a sample of some of the shit I put up with. How long am I going to have to continue to suffer just so I can reach some baseline most people are born into?

No one can say. Maybe you'll hit it big and end up having a lot of luck in the future. Maybe things will just get worse. Or maybe you will reach something like the mean-life-decency-level.

None of us know, man. That's why I'm not going to be one of those guys who tells you "it'll get better", because I can't know that.

But you seem like you have a good heart and I feel a ton of sympathy for you. Your idea that no one would care was totally mistaken.

>Nobody would believe me, hell, most people in this thread don't believe me. I completely understand why they don't and I wish I was making this up but it's all true.

A lot of people would believe you. You can go back and get the records of what happened to you; they're probably still out there.

People will believe all kinds of inane and incoherent bullshit. Your story makes sense and it is believable.

>>37171267
chaturbate/craigslist blowjobs/take student loans/ask for donations here and get car back, get uniform back and find cheap shady person renting out a room

>>37171294
It's not a ultimatum, more so an exaggerated. What, honestly do you propose that could make his life less shitty and possibly worth living? He could crawl into the woods and drink from a stream and eat bugs but this illegal and not really fulfilling. Once agin, I ask, what do normies propose this poor soul to do and will that make his life worth living to him? I'll be waiting.

>>37171345

Now you're suggesting that he prostitute himself, get into debt, and rent substandard housing.

You're doing nothing more than making suicide look better and better. You're doing more to kill OP than the people telling him to kill himself.

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>>37170926

>victory has defeated me.

Forgot i told you to kill your relatives or whatever. Its okay man, you were a victim of this cruel fucking universe, it was an asshole to you.

Its okay to give up.

>>37171371
It's supposed to help him get on his feet. Many women do sex work. I hope he can finish school and get a good job in the end, but he needs to consider struggling for longer.

>>37171345
Wow, that sounds like a great, great life. Haha, maybe one day he'll just realise all his feelings of suicide weren't genuine and call himself an idiot for not wanting to die. The brain of a normie is astounding.

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>>37171289
Again, you honestly would rather be dead?

Considering that you've lived in the same place all your life and probably have very little in the way of extracurricular education, your view of life's possibilities is extremely limited/restricted. As I have stated multiple times before, you need a broadened perspective.

I've said all I will. Before you off yourself, do pic related and see if you still feel no life in your future is worth pursuing, no matter how close or far away it may be.

>>37171400

Many people have to do all sorts of shit to survive.

Your suggestions suck. A lot of the rest of us are reading them and basically seeing "you can suffer, then suffer, then do some suffering, and then suffer, and set yourself up for more suffering, and then it'll get better!"

I am hesitating so hard to speak for OP but my perception is that's how he read your post too. Maybe he'll chime in and we'll see if that's the case.

>>37171400
To what end, though? What could this creature get out of struggling? Does that outcome justify the struggle? Remember, he is alrsady well below whatever it is you are telling him to work towards. Sometimes life has different ideas for people. Maybe this guy's life is just Thor messing with him so that he will kill himself so he can join Thor in killing a long lost ice giant outpost. You never know, what could happen, but you do know what has happened and history tends to repeat itself

>>37171344
>Maybe things will just get worse.

Right now, that seems more than likely.


>>37171345
>>37171371

This is just to survive. I've survived all my life, I've survived being locked in a closet, being punched, kicked, spit on and treated like pure shit. I don't want to survive, I want to live and do things that most other people take for granted. Living>Suicide>Surviving

>>37171418

I'm already dead, on the inside. You're seeing the glass half full here, when in reality it could be half empty. Do you really believe things can't get much worse for me? What happens if I get in an accident on the way to retrieve the car with money I don't have?

>>37171418
>need
There's that word again
He could also kill himself and not have to worry about needs. Yeah, fuck off cunt

>>37171454

Maybe you could try the commune idea. Living with hippies doesn't seem that bad as long as they're not the weird Manson-type hippies. It might even turn out really well.

Again that's just what I would do. Maybe it's not your style at all. But if it sounds even vaguely appealing, I mean, it could be worth a shot.

>>37171494
To me, having girlfriend sounds vague appealing. Duh, which haven't I just gone out and got one!?! Well, shit man, thanks for opening my eyes

>>37171408
I'm not a normie. I haven't struggled nearly as much as OP, but I have a story too.
>>37171425
Then what suggestions do you have aside from killing himself?
>>37171444
He needs a degree so he can make decent money and not minimum wage.

>>37171494

Did you miss the part about me never doing drugs and being a straight A student? I'm a huge stick in the mud, these people would never accept me.

Besides, think this through logically. I'd magically get to some commune that I don't know where it's at and they'd willingly feed me their magic food while I live out in the cold with drug addicts that are full of STD's? Sounds like a great life to live.

>>37171521
>need
See
>>37171464

>>37171517

>Did you miss the part about me never doing drugs and being a straight A student? I'm a huge stick in the mud, these people would never accept me.

I don't see how not having done drugs and getting straight A's makes you a stick in the mud.

You'd be a stick in the mud if you gave them shit for their lifestyle, but you might meet some other people who don't do drugs and who are academically inclined too.

>Besides, think this through logically. I'd magically get to some commune that I don't know where it's at and they'd willingly feed me their magic food while I live out in the cold with drug addicts that are full of STD's? Sounds like a great life to live.

None of this is magical, man. It's just numbers and physics. There isn't a magical force screwing up your life; the problems you've faced that you've shared with us are pretty much all the consequences of previous problems.

If you cut ties and begin a new life as far away from your old one as you can, it's unlikely the people who screwed up your life will follow you.

>>37170631
Please don't do it
Life is kicking the shit out of you like it used to me
But fuck man, please keep going
Just from experience alone, you fucking get it
You know how horrible people can be
Society needs more characters like you
Not depressed people but people with some fucking humanity and perspective
The fact that your cunt mother is still living should be reason enough that you shouldn't leave this earth yet

Hang in there anon ;-;

>>37171631
>None of this is magical, man. It's just numbers and physics. There isn't a magical force screwing up your life; the problems you've faced that you've shared with us are pretty much all the consequences of previous problems.
>If you cut ties and begin a new life as far away from your old one as you can, it's unlikely the people who screwed up your life will follow you.

How exactly would I get there? And where is there? Would I walk there? Uber there? Even if I cut my ties, there are no guarantees that my life will get better, much less that it won't get worse.

>>37171637

I'm really tired man, even if I were to get my car back which is 99% gone at this point. I'd still have to deal with the eviction by next month and then I'd deal potentially losing a job I just barely got. The closest relief would be September at best but that's a long time from now.

>>37171703

I don't know where there is.

But maybe someone here could help you out somehow.

http://www.ic.org/directory/

I don't know whether they could or not. I think it's worth a try.

>>37171637
Life will always kick the shit out of you, life is eternal suffering. Nice delusion there. If things feel good, life's just playing a game with you.

>>37171703
building bombs us pretty easy especially if you live in the us
so just look up how to build fertilizer bombs, take out a payday loan and bomb your mom and your local police station
after that blow your brains out with a shotgun

>>37170631
I hope you find peace OP, good luck in the next life.
You were too good for this cruel world.

>>37171824
90 percent of the replies to OP are strategies on how he should kill his mom


I love this board

>>37171784

Again, even if I found this place, what if I hated it and wanted to leave? Where would I go without money and skills?

>>37171890

I hope there is no next life, I don't think I can go through half of this bullshit one more time around.

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>>37170631
Goodbye retard my childhood was pretty much the same as yours except i wasnt a manlet so i wasnt bullied in school. I'm 22 now and in the same situation you were in at that age I'm just being a neet I plan to kill myself as well when I'm no longer able to support this lifestyle.

>normies btfo
There really isn't a more disgusting act than virtue signalling. It's also quintessential normie behaviour so let that speak for itself. I would gas all of humanity if I could

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>>37168368
>I have to decide between these great people who have been nothing but nice and kind to me, kindness I've never felt from anyone else before or choose my sisters who want to be with their older brother
>as much as it pained me, I chose my sisters
You're stupid as fuck bro.

>>37171703
Any chances of getting at least uniform back?

Hey man, if you are telling the truth, then listen: you are talented. You said you got straight A's, killing yourself would cause the world to lose a great brain. I'm sure you have other skills as well, but because you are feeling so bad, you aren't thinking about them. Think about all the things you are good about, and the things you could do if you just stayed alive. Talk to your family (and maybe your coworkers) about it, get some support.

>>37171077
>Shit like this is why I refuse to have children.

Are you trying to imply that you would end up being an abusive scum to your child like OP's?

Yeah, don't have kids, I agree.

>>37172297

They want to charge me $75 just to retrieve any property in the car because it's a weekend.

>>37170631
it's too late to give up faggot.

>>37172388
Can you function (work in this coffee place) without car? Do you have those 75 bucks? If yes, why not get back uniform and screw the car? I mean you were living in hell (from my normie, fairly wealthy family, good parents point of view) for the most of your live and you give up because some retarded cop who took your car? Dude, at least wait for someone to burn your buisness down, rape your wife and kill your son and then kill yourself okay?

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funny how i ended up being in a worse place then you, im 27 living with my mom in a single room studio due to her poor life decisions like getting into a huge debt pretty much ruined my life more than years of child abuse

>>37172343
>talk to your family
are you such a braindead normie that you give the same advice to every suicidal person regardless of context?

>>37172466
I meant his sisters

>>37172388
Didn't bother reading anything after the story finished. Isn't there someway you can be given some forgiveness/reduced payment for the car retrieval?

Like show the tow company you have no money left and you will literally be homeless in a month if they don't cut you a break. I'm sure that if you gave the tow company manager a strong case for how fucked you were, maybe, just maybe, he might come to an agreement with you? I'm almost certain he will laugh in your face like the sociopathic business owner he is, but shit the worst he can do is tell you to fuck off.

It's worth a bloody shot mate. That is if you don't just end it.

>>37172401
>it's too late to give up faggot.

It's too late, I just called the tow company. Apparently in the very few hours they had my car the price jumped from $350 to $390. When I called them out on it they said it must be an error on their machines that update in an hour and the price should be fixed soon but I don't trust them.

Besides, I don't have $350 and they charge $50 per day in storage fees. I don't even make $50 a day in my current job.

>>37172453

Not only would I lose the car which I paid $2,200 for but they can also legally bill me $2,100 on top of that plus sell my car and if they sell it for $500, I'd still owe them $1,600 for the price of them selling me car.

>>37172490

I looked at the reviews, these people are complete scam artist and apparently it was the cop who got my car towed. Unless I can come up with the money, and I can't I'm fucked.

>>37172245
This whole thing is kinda op's fault.
>Gets life fucked up for dumb roasties twice
Muh morals doe

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>>37168132
Don't kys, you have so much potential, anon. So much to live for!

Apply to Bang Bros.

>>37172548
Welp, that sucks. I don't know what to well you. I'd like to help in some way but i don't know if i can do anything from highschooler perspective from, probably, different continent.

>>37172385
No because either if I died then the mom could turn into an abusive cunt, or, more what I meant, that no matter how much you try you cannot guarantee a good life for anyone. No matter how good of a person you are, you are not guaranteed a life without suffering

>>37172548
just sell one of your kidneys

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>>37172883
>mfw I hope this a joke but I really can't tell any more to what depths Normies will go to get someone (who would objectively be better off dead) alive
Just end me please, before I have to deal with normies more

>>37172548
>Unless I can come up with the money, and I can't I'm fucked

Talk to the cop perhaps? You've got to at least try, you aren't left with any other option here.

Reviews are just for people to vent their worst experiences anyway, they give a skewed perspective to the company and how they operate. Think about it, they're a towing company, they make money by keeping your car in their lot. Anyone would be livid if they had to pay $350 to get their car back, and those same people would easily accuse them of being scam artists. Reality is its a business, they aren't going to break bank if they give one schmuck a break. Like don't ask for total forgiveness, just ask if you can come up with the $350 im a week and if they can waive the daily costs. There's gotta be some agreement they can come to, you really need to make your case and show temperment. If you do it correctly, you could pull at their heartstrings enough to get them to cave.

I dunno, that's just me though. I try argue and negotiate with anything that ends up being a total loss for me. If you have nothing else to lose, the best you can do is try. From my experience, a lot of the time if you present them a case and don't just cuss them out, they will be willing to compromise.

>>37172929
>you've got to
Or he could end his life? No point in dealing with this shit. OP, if you're looking for help, go ahead and look elsewhere. I honestly believe, however, life isn't for everyone. I would have ended it if I was you a long time ago.

Normies go fuck off

>>37172924
Fuck off moralfaggot, he was fucking joking. And beforr you say anything yes, OP life is shit and he should end it.

I want le empathetic redditors to leave.

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>>37172548
why do you act like your car is imperative for your survival?

since you're so poor I imagine your car isn't very valuable - just let the car go. when they bill you for it, which will probably be in a few weeks or even months, ask to set up a payment plan. explain the uniform situation to your coffee shop boss, I'm sure you'll be able to laugh about it together unless they're complete assholes.

basically screw your car, focus on your job and getting some cash in.

also I'm sorry about your childhood but if you kill yourself your mom wins. dont let her win.

>>37173006
Go fuck yourself you colossal normie. I said he could fucking end it. Read my previous reply. At the end of the day I don't fucking care, it's just my nature to try solve a problem. If he doesn't actually want to end it, the least he can do is try not be homeless you piece of shit. He has options to fucking exhaust, and that includes suicide. I wouldn't hold it against him if he did kill himself, he deserves eternal peace for what he's been through.

You however? You're a braindead normalfaggot with no analytical abilities that thinks the solution to everything is giving up. Please off yourself, you don't contribute anything of value. Yes I am fucking pissed off right now, I would beat you to a pulp if I saw you in real life. Fuck you.

>>37173125
You could try to beat me, but I don't think you'd win. I am just as pissed at normies and yes, in this thread, I haven't been paying attention to previous replies so I apologize, but it's pretty normie to try and suggest life. Ever

>>37173006
Oh and don't give me some bullshit that you have some enlightened empathy that only you can give because you think suicide is the only option. You didn't go through what OP has gone through nor has anyone else here. Just because stacy told you to fuck off doesn't make you some higher form of intelligence you faggot.

OP if you wanna suicide, do it but on your own terms, not because this faggot said so.

>>37173179
For fuck sakes suggesting to push through doesn't make you a normie. A normie will make it an exercise of narcissism by convincing someone to not kill themselves by bragging about it to their normie friends.

Suggesting life and fighting has nothing to do with being a robot or a normie or a chad. It's when you think of yourself as some gift from god that's giving advice is when you're a normie.

If OP really wanted to die he wouldn't have posted this fucking novel.
Swallow your pride and go suck some dicks for cash

>>37173115
poor ppl are poor by choice
the reason op only has a job that pays this low is cause he was ok with living as a neet and changing his major halfway through which caused him to drop out
he couldve seen this coming and could be working a decent job now but he isnt
sure some ppl get forgiven more fuck ups than op did, but you have to play the hand youre dealt and not the hand you hope for
op is at a crossroads now between doing some shady shit like selling his kidney in mexico or commiting suicide
he wont get out of this by listening to the same corporate shills that got him into this

>>37170926
>>I don't think I can ask NEETs for their NEETbux, it just wouldn't feel right.
FUCKing hell, nigger. It's only a few hundred bucks, you don't think we can afford to help you? You know there's a bunch of rich kid NEETs on this board, right? Post a link, faggot.

>>37173115

It's my most valuable asset at the moment. If I let it go, I'd be out -$4,400 on top of not having a car anymore.

>>37173518
>FUCKing hell, nigger. It's only a few hundred bucks, you don't think we can afford to help you? You know there's a bunch of rich kid NEETs on this board, right? Post a link, faggot.

Link to what?

>>37171230
>being homeless is illegal
So what? Commit a crime and go to prison, at least you'll get a bed and free food for some time.
Find your mother and see if murder is punished by death in her state. If not, go murder her and take the prison sentence. Free food and shelter yo.

>>37173612

I'm a manlet, prison is guaranteed rape for me. Doesn't matter if I'm in there for stealing a pack of gum, everyone will pounce on me at the slightest chance. If people have been that cruel to me growing up, what makes you think prison folk are going to be any nicer?

Link your paypal or something we could help.
r9k could do something nice this one time right ?

>>37173734

I've only used my paypal to buy shit on eBay. I honestly have no idea what I'd even do?

>>37172548
this reminds me of the gangsta nigga talking about "gangs" and how the police and other law enforcement units were just another type of "gang". That towing company sounds like some real mafia shit.

I'm a wagie who would like to help get your car out

>>37173638
If you go to prison for beating someone to death with your bare hands, NO ONE will dare fuck with you. You'll be top of the food chain.

>>37173779
>this reminds me of the gangsta nigga talking about "gangs" and how the police and other law enforcement units were just another type of "gang". That towing company sounds like some real mafia shit.

The Tow company isn't even located in this city. It's several miles away while there are several tow truck companies located within the this city.

I've parked there several times before without any incident. The people on the phone informed me it was the cop who called. When I called the number on the sign, a cop answered and told me he didn't know if it was stolen or towed. That same cop called back half an hour later and told me it was towed. While I was walking back the 8 miles, he stopped me in the middle of the street, I recognized his voice and he asked if I was the one who called earlier. He said in a half smug voice "sorry for calling". He was the one that called the tow truck company on my car, played dumb when I first called him and then confirmed it was my car.

Now the tow truck people are giving me different prices. Cursed

Mind if I share my feel of the day?

>girl at work having a night out for her birthday everyone invited
>I'm working 5pm-12am so can't go
>all work friends and onitis is going
>go into work next day
>apparently it was the best night out of the year
>onitis comes up to me and starts rubbing my arm "I missed you, why didn't you come out? We could have done shots and danced together"
>oh well, could have been the best night of my life so far but I'll get over it
>work friend casually mentions he fucked her (he doesn't know I like her)
>also on way into work my motorbike broke down and I had to leave it in a rough part of town until I can get it tonight
>garage booked up for next two weeks so can't get it fixed in time for college exams so cant get into college (it's 30 miles away in the countryside)

Sometimes feel like I'm in my own personal episode of peep show.

Luckily I started studying stoicism a few months ago so I don't feel sad so much as weary, numb and physically sick

>>37173845

I don't even know what I would do? Would I leave my paypal email or something?

>>37173849

I'm a manlet, even with brass knuckles I don't think I could even if I wanted to. I'd rather hang myself than go to prison.

>>37173907
Did you try negotiating with them and telling them you don't have the money?

Like shit if they refuse, tell them they can have your car and they can sell it?

Like how do they expect you to come up with the money if you literally don't have the money and never will?

>>37174098
Yes you fucker

>>37174159

The email i use for paypal is
[email protected]
Lame name, i know

I'll pay to get your car back to you. Do you know if I could call the towing company on the phone and pay by credit card?

op you need to make an example of your story.
write some shit and then give some good pub like killing your family or something.
be brave op the ride never ends

OP, if I lived close to you, and with your discretion, I would personally track down your mother, drive you to her home and arm you, and help dispose of the body afterwards. But alas, I live in Europe.

>>37174652

I honestly have no idea, these people don't seem trust worthy though

OP... I'm in tears.
I've never ever fucking cried over someone elses abuse story, I was abused all to high hell as a kid and as an adult I became sociopathic tier fuck head about everyone elses story or problems or fucking retarded issues but this is just, way way too real.

If you want or need someone to talk to, I'm here bud. I might not be what you expect but I'm here.

You sound like a good guy OP. Im not gonna tell you to not kill yourself but just know that things can get better. If I had the money Id get your car out. Dunno what else to say man but just know I wish the best for you. Where do you reside?

>>37174652
Please take him up on this.

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i will never forget you anon
if there is an afterlife i hope you get a seat in Valhalla next to thor drinking mjod and eating pork til the end of the world for your struggle
god speed my man

>>37174951
email [email protected] with Tow company, Phone number, your car's make/model & license plate number, and your name

>>37170520
well, youve been fucked to much by life already. what are the odds it can even get any worse? from now on everything will get better. if you ever need any help with something just ask us and im sure we will all do what we can for you

>>37170520
buy a gun and kill your mom, or hitchhike to Florida and I'll let you stay with me

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>>37174652
>>37175556

I called them and they said this isn't possible. The card holder has to show his/her ID, sign then and there

>>37175309

I'm sorry to hear that anon

>>37175373

People keep asking me so I'll respond, Commiefornia

>>37175537

Thanks, I appreciate it, I really do

>>37175884
>well, youve been fucked to much by life already. what are the odds it can even get any worse?

Please don't say that, I said the same thing when I got the eviction notice and look what happened

>>37175905

Like I said, I live in Commiefornia, they can deny you a gun without even giving you a reason.

>>37175959
but now IM saying it. have some faith on your fellow robots dude. dont give up

>>37168132
Kill them instead, OP. If you view your life as over anyways, you might as well dish out some justice before getting locked up or being an hero.

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>>37175959
and if it let's you some peace
i have saved you're story on a text document so you will alway's be remembered by me
may you live forever in our hearts
-malthe(my actual name)

>>37176120
DUDE BECOME A MURDERER, SINCE UR GONNA KILL URSELF ITS FINE LOL. Jesus Christ, these fucking retarded normies

I doubt a bank would offer you a loan, but there's a strong chance a credit union would give you enough to pay for the car.

I hope you get what whatever you want and more with the shit you've gone through.

>>37175959

I don't really feel comfortable sending $400 to a paypal account based on only a story... I'm just skeptical and paranoid that someone could be taking advantage of me using feels. I'd prefer at the very least to have some evidence that your car has been towed.

>>37176298

It's okay, don't worry about it. I'll just let it the car go, not like I could do anything about it anyways.

>>37175959
Where in California? I would be willing to help

>>37175959
Why not make your peace with your sisters, as if you were going to kill yourself, and then just wonder off and start again someplace new? Maybe move to another state? There's a pretty decent screenshot that some anon posted ages ago about how being in your position, with no will to live, can be a force for good. You can do whatever you want, like rob a bank or something. If you fail, you're in jail where you have free food and accommodation, maybe make some friends there? Or you could suicide by cop if jail doesn't seem like something you'd want

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>>37176405

It's being held near South Gate

>>37176494

When I found out that I was being evicted, I was actually considering selling everything and starting over in another country. The only problem is, I was planning to sell the car for most of the money. The car was in decent shape and could sell for about $1900. That's some pretty decent change to start anew somewhere else. I think that other anon is right and I'm a bad luck magnet.

>>37176564
Would it happen to be Mr C's Towing?

>>37168132
Hey Im not gonna read the whole thread but i want to tell you not to kill yourself. I had a friend who did it he was severely fucked up and rly wanted to die and thought no one would be sad but i was. THere is always at least one person you can reach out to. i know we dont knnow each other but i legit love you because i have love and empathy for all things. Doesnt matter if you are a serial killer or childmolester or what.

be happy.

>>37176564
Youre not a bad luck magnet without a reason. Youre too honest. Im sorry but youre going to have to learn to take risks and become a piece of shit in order to get put of this rut. You're a target because you live a too honest of a life. Im telling you this because You already know life isn't fair so perhaps me saying this you should understand.

Remember that girl eliza who scammed money from anons? That's the kind of initiative you need.

>>37176564
It's killing me that we can't find a way to help you, Anon. If you were in Toronto I'd just head over to the towing company right now and take care of everything myself.

I'm trying to think of a way we can get money to you without placing ourselves at risk and I'm drawing a blank. Does ANYONE have an idea how we can help set things right?

>>37176564
So, what else can you sell? You shouldn't need that much to start over. What about that Amish shit?
Think of it as a start to an adventure! You've been through some tough shit, and death no longer scares you, so there aren't too many other bad things that can happen to you!

>>37176609

No, but you're close. Anon being a cybersleuth is always scary.

>>37176665

I've never cared for 3DPD waifuslut threads, I just ignore them. The first one I remember was that girl Ashleigh? Some Canadian tripfag whore who wouldn't stop posting her asinine opinions. This was a long time ago.

>>37176834
>>37176881

I told my brother in law my situation, I ended up just getting a call right now from someone who can lend me the $400. Care to take a guess who called me?

>>37176914
>Care to take a guess who called me?
It's not that shithead cunt of a mother, is it? Next guess is one of your sisters.

>>37176914
Your brother in law or some anon cybersleuth?

>>37176956
>It's not that shithead cunt of a mother, is it?

B I N G O, she said she could lend me the money so long as I pay it back soon. What "soon" is to her could be anyone's guess?

>>37176977

Mother, that one!

>>37177005
Be real here. Take her money and dont pay it back to her.

>>37177025
I don't think he could do that, if he does the human disgrace of a mother might buy a weapon and threaten him. Any new way to abuse him, people like that don't change.

>>37177005
Take it and run anon. Use it to start your new life, and for the love of God don't respond to her afterwards

>>37177079
>Any new way to abuse him, people like that don't change.
On the bright side, if he kills himself her reign of terror comes to an end. So he at least has that over her.

>>37169658
I ended up sleeping but I read the rest. I don't think your current situation is a big deal. It's just that you went through so much shit that you're freaking out at this new situation.

But sell your shit, get your car, go back to where you went to college, and kinda just exist around college living out of your car until you save up more money. Asking professors/counselors/staff at your college for help will produce results I guarantee this. I've done the same shit before: showered at college locker room/lived out of my car/working/using WiFi at college. Really not bad all things considered.

>>37170520
Anon , you are the strongest human i ve ever seen , its your will that even universe could not break , live on my friend see that glory that u have earned, u live for honor i feel thankful just being able to read your story , may Allah grant u fruit of ur sabar, please dont lose hope u r my hero, u r the only living human who i think is a hero , if u are living to this moment it shows that u have defeated failure and i dont think much humans have done it , you are the proof of a humans greatness , we wish for your happiness brother, i will pray for you

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>>37177025
>>37177079
>>37177128
>>37177131
>>37177139

Like I said, I should receive financial aid in September, so I should be fine then even if I get laid off by the boss. The question is here and now though.

It's funny that so many people kept saying it couldn't get worse, and then it did. I honestly can't afford to hesitate right now, each day is another $50 that I can't afford. I might just have to make a deal with the devil.

She offered to pick me up, pay and I would just drive back home but she told me to call her if I made up my mind. Right now, I don't think I have a choice.

All that's left is for me to accept her offer, get the car and get in a crash on the way back home.

>>37177221
>All that's left is for me to accept her offer, get the car and get in a crash on the way back home.
At least you still have your sense of humour.

Go for it, OP. Do what you have to to get through today. Once you've regained the car and the job you'll be in a position to catch your breath and examine your options.

You are a hell of a survivor and we are all behind you here. Godspeed.

>>37177221
but what if you survive the car crash?

>>37177221
Why not just take a donation from one of us instead of digging a deeper hole with that cunt who should be long cut out of your life? You weren't annoying me before, but now you're just being a dumbass setting yourself up for more misery and abuse by letting her in. Take the fucking help that several people have offered or just kill yourself you stupid worm.

>>37177221
What's stopping you from taking the money, freeing your car and leaving for good?

>>37177356

I posted up my paypal email but anon's were saying that they don't feel comfortable sending money over stories without proof which I completely understand. What else am I supposed to do with a ticking timeline?

>>37177361

Nothing really, I could just tell her that she owes me money from 7 years ago which is true.

>>37177336

Knowing my luck, I'd probably be paralyzed from the neck down.

if youre gonna an hero, we cant stop you. But why not join the military dude? Boot camp will be easy for you, you finallynget to leave your family, you get wagebux, and if you still wantto an hero, you have a gun with you.

>>37177498
Just in case this thread 404s soon: OP, best of luck with whatever you decide, and please come back when you can and let us know how things worked out.

Damn that's messed up. Even though I have experienced real fucked up shit I feel fortunate in comparison

>>37177498
You don't need to tell her shit. You don't owe her anything anymore. She took your childhood. Take it, say goodbye and leave it at that. Leave your town along with your shitty life and start anew.

>>37170631

My dude, dont kill yourself. Cut yourself loose from your family and start a new life. Only trust the people you know you an trust. You gotta choose yourself over others now. You can do this.

>>37170977
>>37168132
reminder that the great stoics held that a person could commit just suicide as master of his own body. If you want to commit suicide that's your decision. No one can fault you after reading that whole story.

>it's a "mother abuses and ruins her son and gets away with it" episode
Yay feminism.

>>37171107

This. OP please notice

>>37177498
If you get your car back sell it and come live to Tijuaba. With 1k you can pay rent for six months or six months and get a job in a call center, with no experience needed and make more than decent living in here.

>>37170631
You've made it this far and haven't given up. Don't let them win. I believe in you anon, you're stronger than anyone I know.

>>37177498
>People are offering me free money, but not without posting some kind of proof
>Oh, whatever will I do?
Gee, I dunno boss

Well, at least you've got your health, that's good right?

>>37177498
Can you have the towing company send you an email and forward it to charitable anon's throwaway or something? Or go in and record your convo with them confirming its 400, etc and record it? Please anon. I want something good for you.

I'm pretty sure this story is fake. It's been half a day of OP's bullshit and he's refused all help and reasonable advice. He just wants to weave a sad tale and and garner all these sympathy posts without incurring big consequences like stealing someone's $400. Fuck this guy if he's lying, or if he's telling the truth, then let him fucking kill himself if he wants to be such a miserable woeful cunt as to go down without taking any risks or making any effort to get himself out of this situation.

Life might be full of little more than suffering but it's inherently valuable, our most priceless possession.

Good night from germany

How shall I put it... I read through all the thread and honestly I don't belive that OP will commit suicide. He went through all of these truly horrific things that still comes to him day by day and yet... He is still alive. There so much will to live that only few percent of people actually have. What I'm trying to say is that you OP actually a very strong person... I dont't know how you suppose to overcome these new troubles but if there will be some good happy rare event for you and you will finally manage all the way through... You will be a Man for the last day of your life.

>>37178981
I shouldn't be too hard on roleplay threads actually. But this kind of roleplay thread, where you invest emotional effort into it, is more irritating than, say, a mystery thread on /x/.

>>37169322
I care. Please fuck off and die.

>>37173382
you're an idiot by choice

>>37179148
for the life time* i mean

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>>37168942
Ok buddy, just OK.
Where was your anger at this point? What emotions where you feeling? I had a chillhood full of strife, strait A studeant just like you, and at one point I started getting bullied by a kid 3 years older than me and I just snapped and left him with a bloody mouth. I just cant understand how can you take so much abuse and just bend over.

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Ok guys, I'm back after making a deal with the devil. I blanked out certain information because I like my privacy and I know how easy it is for some anons to find your info and spread it like wildfire.
>>37177769

I'm a midget, dead weight and would just get in the way.
>>37177780
>>37177788
>>37177822
>>37178081
>>37178211
>>37178326
>>37179148
>>37179357

I got my car back, I just don't know what's next now?

>>37178312

I've been to TJ, shit is scary, wouldn't want to live there.

>>37178403

How exactly was I supposed to prove anything again? I went to go to my car and it was gone, no note or anything. All I had as proof was the phone time stamp of the police calling me but everyone would say it's fake and gay.

>>37178935

Some kind anon did send me something, I will send it back. I ended up using the Devil so it's not right if I keep the money.

>>37178981
>>37179148

Sorry for the wait, had to wait for her to pick me up, take me and had an awkward car ride to the place.

>>37179504

I did beat up some of the kids when they were on their own. By themselves, they weren't so tough. We actually became friends for a little bit, then I moved away a couple cities away and never saw those guys again. Even though we left on friendly terms, I'll never forget how they first treated me. Even if I'll get my ass kick by 6'6 Chad, I still have to fight back anyways.

>>37179737
What's next? You decide. Leave your mother alone. Leave your sisters alone, but talk to them before you leave. If they think you're alive afterwards, they'll tell others. Make them think you're dead. Maybe in 20, 30 years you can visit them again but you need to focus on yourself.
Alternatively, you could try take them with you but I don't know.
Leave your past behind and try start elsewhere. You have your car, you can live in there now.

>>37179737
You have no reason to kill yourself now. I wish you the best of luck and I hope things will get better for you.

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>>37179737
You mentioned that you're straight edge. You can try donating blood for cash at a CSL Plasma center near you.
https://www.cslplasma.com/

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>>37179737
you have a stronger will than half the population. if it makes you feel any better, your determination is inspiring to everyone here.

>>37179737
If I were you I would have taken money from here rather than the bitch, but that was your choice.

>I got my car back, I just don't know what's next now?
You either stay and live how you were going to live before the car was stolen or you make like Raymond K. Hessel and figure out what it is that you really would rather do in life other than die.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdwyAcJ8j2U

>>37179956
>>37179991
>>37180241

I feel like a large weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Also feel like a sucker for not killing myself but I'd be lying if I'd say you guys didn't make me feel better. Now I have to worry about rent

>>37180413

I placed my paypal info and one anon did give me an amount and I feel grateful for it but other anons wanted proof and there was no way for me to prove it. I'm not opposed to getting help but there's only so much I can do.

>>37180742
Best of luck in life. Keep us updated

>>37180918
>Best of luck in life. Keep us updated

How would I let everyone know it's me? I wouldn't mind doing an update?