anything about a psych ward you'd like to share, doesn't

>>37127564
are there cute skelly girls in psych wards?

>>37127593

sometimes, you can't fuck them though

>>37127564
Weren't you supposed to be dead

>>37127623
soon anon

desuorig

>>37127641
Soon was yesterday iirc

But thanks for taking over the only good thread we had in weeks, sure makes you more welcomed with your attention whoring

>>37127658
you're welcome

senipaiorig

>>37127606
i just want a cute skelly gf

atleast change the fucking pic from thread to thread. too much attention namefag pic whoring

>all others were guys my age
>they looked kinda common
>they acted kinda normal
>I felt like shit and they served us food that looked like it had been left outside for several hours before served
>I pretended to feel better to grt out
>I met one of the other guys while shopping for food the other day
>he looked like he hadn't slept for two or three days
>mfw we both had bought frozen pizza for dinner

It was pretty cash. Caught up on a month of sleep, free ativan 3 times a day, Decent food, made friends who actually cared about my wellbeing, kicked a really long running drug habit just by not being able to get it for so Long. Sure it had it's bad parts like when one of the crazies from E hall (the super mentally ill people ward) stole my sweat pants and the staff wouldn't let me take them from her because she wpuld have am episode if someone did. But over all it was pretty good

>>37127564
i committed myself for 4 nights many years ago.

it actually helped

I was told by a fat red haired chick to check my cis white male privilege. That's the last time I ever leave my room at a psych ward

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>>37127762
>>mfw we both had bought frozen pizza for dinner

but there is no face anon

>>37127793
I hate women too

il have two number 9, a number 9 l4rge, a number 6 with extra dip, a number 7, two number 45, one with cheese and a laaaarge sodA

>>37127877
Eh a few of them are OK. Especially that Californian chick who likes me
Feels decent man (I'm emotionally stunted how the hell do I deal with this please help)

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there is nothing good or fun about this place
i want out right now
someone please save me

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im an outcast even in here

>>37127985
Whatcha in for? When I was in for severe depression they didn't let me take any electronics with access to the internet because some absolute fucking normalfag was taking photos and putting them on social media
>>37128022
Have you tried not being a total faggot?

crackychan is back!

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>>37128050
>Have you tried not being a total faggot?
i cant stop experiencing the symptoms just like that

I used to work in a psych ward for a bit. It was pretty shit, there were loads of people who were just massive fagets who didn't need to be in there and the ones that did would really get better.

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>>37128050

im both >>37128022 and >>37127985 idk why my stupid ass didnt reply both questions in one post

i've said it before and i'll say it again; im here for severe depression and social anxiety, ptsd and bulimia but i get no treatment besides useless meds and restrictions

>>37128372
Then just be an outcast. You get used to it eventually you don't, life sucks, you should kill yourself

>>37128470
yeah i know and i will eventually

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Enjoy your time in the ward roastie.

>>37128505
leave her alone ass

>>37128611
fuck off white knight go back to facebook you beta

>>37128703
>fuck off white knight go back to facebook you beta
Go back to redit faggot desu

>>37127564
I use to work at a hospital as security, we had 3 wards in it some people were ok just needed help others needed to be executed ironic I ended up as a patient in one years later..

>>37128883
Kill yourself numale you don't belong here

>>37129570
Go die roastie

> teehee i'll totaly kill msyelf guys it's over
> oh it's not on THAT day, hehe
> I just don't feel like it now, ya know? :)

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I work in a "Behavioral Health" ward (aka psyche ward) in Florida. 90% of our patients come in under what's called a Baker Act (72hr involuntary hold for psychiatric evaluation and treatment). Many states have similar laws.

Ask me anything.

I'll start off by saying there's a negative stigma about being in or going to the psyche ward. We get plenty of normal people that are just having the worst day of their life. Break ups, divorces, death in the family, MULTIPLE deaths in the family, etc. Some people are just there because of a chemical imbalance and need to get right again. Fucking Dr. Jekyl Mr. Hyde transformations in behavior after 3-4 days of being back on their meds.

Plenty of cops dump drunk people off in our ER on a Baker Act just to avoid the paperwork of taking them downtown and letting them sleep it off.

Plenty of homeless drug addicts come our way as well in hopes of getting pain meds and a hospital is better than a homeless shelter. I hate the homeless druggies the most. So fucking entitled and needy.

Not gonna give my location for obvious reasons. But shoot away with any questions you might have.

>Pic not related. I just formated my computer and this is literally the only picture i have on my computer right now.

>>37130121
how often do the patients have sex each other?

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>>37130155

In my particular ward there are 24 beds total. 11 rooms with two beds a piece, 2 isolation rooms fitted for restraints (reserved for our more unpredictable, violent, or agitated patients).

No locks on any doors for the patient rooms, cameras in all the common areas and only in the isolation rooms. We do 15 minute rounds to check on patients.

All that being said in the year I've been there we've only had one incident. A male patient took advantage of a female that was in a state of psychosis. It was in one of the common rooms, and he got head from her briefly. She came forward 4 days later and said she vaguely even remembered it. The guy was discharged by the time she brought it up, camera footage confirmed it. Not sure if there was any fallout for him.

>tl;dr Not very often at all. But patients DO hook up with each other on the outside fairly frequently.

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>>37130121
Hey fellow Floridian. I was in a three different psych wards, two were Baker Acts IIRC.

The first was fine since it was the underage area (I was...12 or 14) second was awful and jail-like--meds made my face twitch and I blacked out for the first time in my life--third was okay since it was low-risk only, though the high-risk were down the hall.

Personally never going back to one, though there was a homeless man who frequented since it was free housing and medication, can't blame him for it.

Do you work in the more prison-esque kind or do you stick in the low-risk area? Have you worked in different kinds?
If so, I'd be interested if you could compare/contrast the work ethic of the people working in different severity wards.

(also, I like the quote, saved it)

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>>37127564
Wow still alive eh? Guess I made this pic for nothing

>>37130314
twenty sixteen

desu

>>37130275
was she hot

originalsenipi

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>>37130300

I don't work in a pediatric ward (<18yo) so I can't speak on that experience. Our patients have ranged from 18 all the way up to a 98 year old once.

As far as prison-esque? Nah, our shit is pretty comfy. Like I said earlier about homeless people coming in because it's way sweeter than a shelter. Some patients actually fucking LOVE it here. They're trying to come back every other week or month it seems. It's like their little escape to a safe place. 3-4 day vacation away from all the bullshit in their lives. All too often their living situation or family is the major stress factor in their life.

Walk into the ER, say, "I want to kill myself.", get a free 3 day stay in the hospital. 3 hot meals a day, snacks whenever, showers, get to socialize with some people, TV, and you get the added benefit of me (the comic relief).

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>>37130429

She was aight. Skinny black chick with a shaved head. Banging body though. I'd have taken her to pound town on the outside if there were no legal repercussions (HIPAA shit, healthcare ethics, restrictions on contacting patients on the outside).

Appointment in 20 mins

Do you think I will die if I don't go and get my stitches removed?

it's either that or the interstate

pretty drunk desu

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>>37130495
>blackrifican american

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>>37130498

I'm the psyche ward worker guy. Please kill yourself. Or at the very least make a decent attempt to. I hate the attention whoring snowflakes that come in with their weak sauce "suicide attempts". If you're gonna be about it, be about it, nigga.

Don't Facebook post about it, don't Tweet about it, don't call your ex in a drunken rant about killing yourself, JUST DO IT. All it takes is a shoe lace and a doorknob.

Quit wasting everybody's time just to get the attention you desperately want.

>>37130597
OK thx

origindesusenapi

>>37130498
Where did you end up sleeping in the end?
Also get yout fucking stitches removed.Original post

>>37130626
>Where did you end up sleeping in the end?
At a squat house occupied by people I know, we call it "jungling" that means "it's a jungle but we look out for each other" they do drugs and are rowdy but look out for girls and the weak.

I have decided not to go to the doctor's appointment, I don't want anyone else in my vag.

I think I am pussying out on the interstate though, I am going to wait and see if not getting my stitches removed kills me and go from there

some girl from yesterday said I might have post pregnancy psychosis and I think that may be accurate, I think I should give it some more time

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>>37130708
>some girl from yesterday said I might have post pregnancy psychosis and I think that may be accurate, I think I should give it some more time

kek. "some homeless drug addict gave me a psychiatric diagnosis and as a fellow piece of shit, i concur"

>>37130708
DOUBLEYOOH
AYY
ARRR
DEEE

>>37130708
>I think I am pussying out on the interstate though
Good call since that's a pleb way to die. Also did you use to live in birmingham before or did you have to move there because of the whole ward thing. just curious

>>37130892
it is all i have

previous threads

>>37099382

>>37105165

>>37130980
I lived near bham before but got dumped out of the ward and had to find shelter and downtown is really the only place such things exist around here

you get into rural areas (10 miles out of town) and ur fucked unless you know how to fish and hunt and stuff

>>37131047
There we go. you probably lived your whole life in buttfuck nowhere alabama and never even got to see anything out-state. I'd be depressed too if I had to. Many such cases, sad

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>>37131014

I'm too lazy to read thru any of that and get a synopsis of your life. Care to TL;DR it? I'll give you my opinion besides the obvious attention whoring.

>>37131105
well, yeah

the rape didn't help either

The thing is I have to be careful, my parents have my birth certificate and Social Security card and I don't have any ID, so traveling is dangerous for me

the local PD knows me and leaves me alone

once they even gave me a ride

>>37131126
>got admitted to ward, spent year there, family disowned me
>got let out
>became homeless
>got raped
>had abortion
>wan to kill self
>avoiding surgery on girl parts today because i hate it

>>37130597
based
crackers

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>mfw cute skinny sassy girls with a dark sense of humour are trying to kill themselves.
FUCK THIS SHIT. This is isn't good for us guys

>>37131142
Don't kys I laughed at some of your jokes yesterday and you sound like you're not an irrational mentally ill loony like most suicidals

>>37131269
with benis

>>37131287
thanks, I am going to see if I get infected and die from that, if not I might just go on living

A girl told me yesterday I'm all irrational and hormonal from having a recent late term abortion and that made a lot of sense to me

why did that guy delete his post

>>37131381
Do you want to be my gf? Don't kys and become attached to me instead to keep your will to live.

>>37131390
why would you want me, I have a broken vag and HPV I'm a hobo and I live in alabama

>>37131170

I feel like you're omitting a lot here. No substance abuse history? Nobody in your extended family that you can reach out to? No friends? Are you committed to taking your psyche meds at all?

From my experience with dealing with drug addicted homeless people is that if you have no family or friends willing to help, THEY aren't the assholes, YOU are. They usually cut you off after the 50th time you've lied, cheated, or stolen from them and they've had enough.

Drop the victim complex and shoot straight with me.

>>37130442
You sound cool as fuck. Now i kind of want to try a psych ward before i die.

>>37131420
>HPV
Oh shit I didn't know this... I'm sorry man. Wait for medicine to advance so you can be cured one day.

I would have flown you into my house and provided for you and made you a consenting sexslave. But that kinda ruins it all.

>>37131447
>asks for tl;dr summary
>complains it's short

read the other threads

>>37131502

Touche'

Can't be arsed right now. Out and about doing responsible, contributing member of society things. I'll pop back into this thread in a bit. On the mobile now.

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>>37131480
>I would have flown you into my house and provided for you
Thirsty cuckold detected
>>37131420
Don't listen to that guy, he's not good enough for you. Try to find a guy like me instead. You're thousands of miles away but if you were in europe I would've bought you some fries or something (ironically because i'm not a beta provider)

>>37131609
do ironic fries come with ketchup?

>>37127564
not much just
>in ward
>tried to kill self
>did it because lonely and nobody loves me
>meet girl there
>in for same reason as me
>exact same reason
>decide to love each other
>both of us start feeling better
>we kiss a few times
>one time we got caught
>they separate us
>move me to a different ward
>in for another month
>get out
>go to old ward to try to visit her
>she got out early because of the emotional improvement she had
>try to find her
>find out she killed herself shortly after getting out

hope is madness

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>>37131669
How tall are you d.e.s.u? I like small skinny cute girls that weigh literally nothing

>>37130597
>All it takes is a shoe lace and a doorknob.
How exactly do you do this? Do you make two loops, one for the head and one for the doorknob? Also what type of knot do you use?

i remember it being cold. the nurse i had was cute she didnt talk much tho. the girl across the hall would scream. when she wasnt crying her face was kinda cute.

>>37131754
5'3 under 100 lbs, I weighed 105 when I was pregnant but I think killing the baby and the aftermath have put me down at least 5 to 10lbs

>>37128502
don't kill self!
you have things to do before you die!

>>37131420
Answer his question roast

>>37131955
>Answer his question roast
how the fuck would i know if i want to be the gf of someone I have never met or seen or interacted with or know about

>>37131420
>broken vag
How exactly?

Old dude who looked like Mark Hamill started masturbating in my room once and then he called me gay.
Other than that I made the most friends I've had since I was in school (2). It kind of makes me want to go back but I don't want to take my chances getting shacked up with one of the fuckers that's completely off the deep end.

>>37132014

see this post desu senapi

>>37131014

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>>37131748
Holy shit dude, that fucking blows. I hope you find someone before you reach your limit.

>be me
>kill self
>body placed in psych ward
>haunt staff
>rape children

feels good

>>37131269

Up the bum.
No harm done.

I'm going to a mental hospital like place next month. I'm looking forward to it. I thrive in places like that.

>>37132656
>I'm going to a mental hospital like place next month. I'm looking forward to it. I thrive in places like that.
why, why not now, what's wrong with you

>>37131748
Fucking hell. This is fake, right? It must be.

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>>37131782
You're cool by the way, just making sure you know.
Also if rape and abortion trauma is a real big deal for you and it keeps you up at night, there's a substance that can fix exactly that (Tabernanthe Iboga root bark powder). It's an extremely strong psychedelic that's being studied for stopping drug addiction dead in its tracks, and it has reports of trauma patients feeling much better after it. You drink one bowl of infusion and you get two days of feverish, vivid, cathartic dreams where you go over your memories and all your pent up emotions. After that you're supposed to feel brand new and have the same feelings of optimism and awe at the world that kids have before it gets snuffed out by shitty adult life. Great stuff, you should try it before killing yourself at least, though it's kinda expensive and really hard to find, but maybe an option once you fix your life and have some money to spare.

>>37132703
I'm on a waiting list. Autism and psychosis

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>>37131757

Tie one end to the doorknob. whatever knot. square knot if most common kind of knot i guess.

form a loop on other end, tie that shit off, insert head, sag to the floor. fuck, man it's really not that hard. make sure there is pressure on the neck to stop blood flow to brain.

>razors are cheap
>lay your head on a train track, wait for train
>buy a helium balloon party set up and respiratory mask
>buy single shot 20g shotgun

too many ways to kill yourself. even if money is an issue, be creative.

>>37132862
i wish it were. sorry friend.

>>37131748
No one deserves to go through this...fuck, why the hell did they sepparate the two of you?thats counter productive if they saw improvements in both of youbeing together. This just pisses me off if true

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>>37133436

legal liability for the hospital. Can't just have a bunch of crazies fucking each other silly. While in the hospital under a Baker Act they're physical well being is the responsibility of the hospital.

One party can claim rape (you have a bunch of crazy roasties under one roof, it's not a stretch) the family can sue the hospital for millions. With people suffering from bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, schizoeffective or schizophrenia, it's not uncommon for them to make false rape allegations.

If i were the charge nurse I'd have done the same.

Anon doesn't get his dick wet, I keep my job and my licenses, the hospital avoids a multi million dollar lawsuit. Everyone is happy besides anon. Tough titties.

>>37133436
It's not a good idea to fall in love with someone you met at a psych hospital. A healthy, stable relationship can never come from it. It's easy to bond with other broken people but it's never a good idea. You just develop a false sense of camaraderie and closeness based solely on the fact that see each other daily, you're both locked up it a place together, and you're both mentally unstable. Additionally, psych ward relationships are discouraged and frowned upon because they're almost always detrimental to recovery. Love doesn't cure depression. Also, legal liability, like that other anon said.

somebody just love me please i will give you all my money

i have $3421 dollars

>>37134158
Are you a grill?
onagero

>>37134158
sorry anon, but before somebody can love you, you have to suffer more.

>>37134185
>Are you a grill?
no :(
>>37134191
>sorry anon, but before somebody can love you, you have to suffer more.
how much more

>>37134246
you have to get to the point of being too sad to continue, but having to continue anyways.

>>37134280
>you have to get to the point of being too sad to continue, but having to continue anyways.
what if I sell my car, then i could give more money

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Is killerchan still around? Or have the beta orbiters and white knight faggots abandoned ship since she stopped posting?

>>37134483
she's still around

>>37134599
Tell me more about your rape. I'm jerking off and raping someone is my biggest fantasy.

sigh

what will become of me desu

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>>37131502
>>37134599

Just got done reading the other threads. Please go ahead and kill yourself.

There is nothing wrong with being sick. The problem comes when you don't do anything to fix the problem.

You seem to have no desire to want to stay sober, want to stay on your meds, or want to get your shit together. Plenty of resources available to you ESPECIALLY as a female. There are literally hundreds, if not thousands of more options for you as a female. Shelters, halfway houses, rehab centers, state or government funded work and social programs designed to get you off your feet, get a job, and become a contributing member of society. You make enough money panhandling or whatever you want to call it to pay for your SS card, birth certificate, and whatever else you need. That's not an excuse.

Most of these places only ask you to (1) make curfew and (2) stay sober. Do that, follow the program, and you'll be aight in a matter of months. But the DESIRE to do that has to be there. If you can't do that, then you deserve the nigger rape.

I live roughly 7 hours away from Birmingham. I will gladly put a bullet in your head then take pics of greasy, dirty hobo tits for the fellow anons.

>>37134710
>want to stay on your meds

I have not been prescribed any meds anon, where are you getting that from
>>37134710
>I live roughly 7 hours away from Birmingham. I will gladly put a bullet in your head then take pics of greasy, dirty hobo tits for the fellow anons.
bring it faggot you know where I live

>>37134807
Read bitch >>37134633 I'm still hard.

>>37134823
post timestamped pics and then we'll talk

When I was in psych ward last year I met Stoya and I didn't even know it was her.

>>37134842
You'll only tell me about your niggerrape if I post timestamp pics... Stupid bitch doesn't listen.

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>>37134807

So then you're just an alcoholic, lol. Not even a mental disorder? Just "Waah! I'm sad all the time?"

Hate to break it to you, sweetie, but there's no pill to cure being an alcoholic lazy piece of nigger raped shit. End you life and stop shit posting on /r9k/ for attention. If you were about suicide, you'd have done it by now. But here we are.

>>37134912
>Waah! I'm sad all the time?"
>Hate to break it to you, sweetie

Kill yourself you neet fedora faggot

srsly

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>>37134963

NEET fedora faggot? I'm the healthcare professional that works in the psyche ward. One less homeless, alcoholic, roastie with a dead nigger rape baby in the system would be a blessing.

>>37135026

Stay mad, sweetie

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>>37135046

I'm not mad. Nothing to be mad about. I'm in my house, posting from a comfy chair, comfy computer, with my 10/10 Aryan qt gf in the next room.

You're in an alley posting from a flip phone dreaming of nigger dick?

>>37135094
>I'm not mad.
yes you are

yes you are, sweetie

>>37135094
THIS BOARD IS NOT FOR YOUR KIND NORMIE GET OUT
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>37135103
YOU TOO ROAST BEEF GARBAGE
LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>37127762
sounds kinda romantic. how was the pizza?

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>>37135103

I like how you didn't deny dreaming of nigger dick.

But nah, it takes a certain level of patience, professionalism, and discipline to work in behavioral health. I've been threatened, spit on, attacked, verbally abused in the most colorful ways. One homeless, nigger raped, alcoholic roastie can't rustle my jimmies. While you're in that alley dreaming of nigger dick, I'll be comfy in my house, in my bed.

Please kill yourself. Everything will be better that way.

>>37135414
Not her but you seem kind mad anon, kind of REAL mad!

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>>37136051

>Literally my face right now.

Original comment, niggers

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>>37136051
This
>>37135414
I have it on good authority that Killerchan is actually a world-class QT.
APOLOGISE NOW

Disclaimer: not whiteknighting, all posts by this IP address are ironic and/or satire

>>37130314

kek'd at that filename friendo

stay gold

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>>37136171
thanks buddy

origin of all posts

>>37134854
Who the fuck is Stoya again?

>>37136277
honestly that filename is making me realize how it would be if i did it and your photo pretty much accurately reflects where i would have to do it, my plan was to kind hang of the side after climbing up and dart out into the path, but really is that a good idea? and someone else was telling me it would hurt the driver emotionally and now I kind of see what he was saying, i was not thinking about it that way before

I don't want to emotionally hurt some random guy (especially if he was a nice guy with a family and kids), but I fear hanging would hurt or I would fuck it up and the government wont let me buy a gun...it's all kind of sobering

>>37136382
sorry im drunk right now not sure if this isgood

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vagrancy_(people)

>>37127762
You two should get together and fuck.

>>37136743
penisfuck

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>>37136382
>your photo pretty much accurately reflects where i would have to do it
yeah I took a look on google maps and figured that's pretty much where i'd do it if i wanted to splatter my brains real well.
Also don't kill yourself in general. You lived in rural/suburbal alabama your whole life and you've seen pretty much nothing of the world. You're still young and you're kinda funny and not an idiot. Give it a chance to meet cool/interesting people and do stuff you like.

I watched this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9z-eQrvjEmg documentary a while ago about homeless kids in russia who lived in sewers and trainstations. One teenage girl in particular sounded really smart and chill for her age, a lot more than your regular middle-class teenager. she died of pneumonia though and it pissed me off a bit. You give off more or less the same vibes and you shouldn't give up and fuck everything up so early. actually try and get your shit together step by step and enjoy your life.

If you do kys though I promise i'll make memorial threads on r9k for like 3 days

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>>37134710
>Most of these places only ask you to (1) make curfew and (2) stay sober. Do that, follow the program, and you'll be aight in a matter of months.
>But the DESIRE to do that has to be there.

I don't care to read a bunch of tl;dr attention whoring from the tripfag so I'll just take your word for it that she's a piece of shit. Hell, the multiple threads of attention whoring she linked to, and desperate "gib attention pls" posts ITT alone basically confirm that.

But I do have to say that getting sober, getting off the streets, etc. isn't as easy as "having the desire to be clean/sober/change". I've been addicted to quite a few different substances for the past 6 or 7 years, and I've been in and out of rehab programs for about half that time . But I've always kept a job, I graduated college, I've never lived on the streets or been anywhere close to that, etc. So I know what it's like to be a drug addict, and also what it's like to be a functioning contributing member of society.
And it's not as simple as wanting to be clean, man. You know how many people want desperately want to be clean, but they can't? Go to an NA meeting and you'll hear from dozens of them. You may not buy the disease model of addiction, and that's fine, I can see why some people don't. But there's a lot to be said for the insidious and pervasive ways drug addiction manages to fuck you over and over, again and again, despite your best efforts.

You might think it's as simple as " just not using" to stay sober/clean. If it was that easy then millions of drug addicts who want to be free of their demon would be really happy to hear that, because that means they could just stop right now.

I'm just saying try to have a little empathy for people who are stuck in a really shitty place. It's easy to judge homeless people and drug addicts from on high. But not all people who are dependent on substances are horrible human beings.

>>37136382
I hope you'll eventually lose your motivation to do it and drop this bullshit. Just go get some help, you're so young and you have a whole life in front of you.
You're experiencing tunnel vision along with many other mental issues because of the traumas you had. Tbh I'd kill myself too right now because my life is boring as fuck, I'm a worthless piece of shit and all I see is a black future in front of me. Still, I think life has to be lived till the end, unless you're in some really deep shit. I don't think you are the case since you are safe and posting here.
Hopefully you'll reconsider it, you seem to be a nice person and you deserve a better life.

>>37134018
>>37134089
im sad story anon

yeah, i totally get why they did it. its just
in this one instance it could have turned out okay.
im not even upset over being alone. im just sad that she felt that she missed her chance at happiness. sometimes i think that she would have turned out fine if she hadnt met me, that she would have just gone through the ward normally, gotten out, and eventually found happiness

i feel like i provided her a little spark of hope like she did for me. having that spark taken away is devastating. the only reason i didnt end myself when i found out is because she had some goals for the world that i feel like i need to fulfill before i pass on

so because of those goals she had and that i feel her death is my fault i need to press forward and achieve them in her absence

she was very passionate about them so i feel like if there is an afterlife and she can see what is going on in the world that she will appreciate it, that it will give her some post-mortem happiness

i dont even believe in any of that but i hope im wrong

>>37138599
This is one of the saddest things I've read in a while.
Don't feel guilty for what happened, it wasn't your fault. And It doesn't really matter what you do for her now, she's gone and you should move on with your life.

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>>37138599
>sometimes i think that she would have turned out fine if she hadnt met me, that she would have just gone through the ward normally, gotten out, and eventually found happiness
>that i feel her death is my fault
Nah man, you can't think like that. Her killing herself after she got out is not your fault. Seriously. It is not your fault. You are not responsible for her choices and I really hope you believe me on this. Because it's true.

It sounds like she had a lot going on in her head prior to entering the psych ward. And you meeting her and forming a connection together for a few days or weeks would not have changed how she felt when she got out. Her killing herself had nothing to do with you and everything to do with the demons she was battling on her own. Her suicide doesn't have anything to do with you and you are not responsible for the choices she made on her own.

I'm not saying that to try and trivialize the spark and hope you two felt together. I think it's beautiful you were able to find some happiness together when you were both in a very dark place. What I'm getting at is that you shouldn't feel responsible for her suicide, because it is not your fault. Sorry if repeating myself is annoying but I think it can be helpful to hear it a few times to let it sink in.


>>37138881
>And It doesn't really matter what you do for her now, she's gone and you should move on with your life.

Eh, I wouldn't listen to this advice. At least not the first part. Yes, it is healthy to "move on", or at least, to not dwell endlessly over her death. But - I think the idea of carrying out the life goals that she wanted to fulfill in her stead is a nice idea and it could will you find some closure and peace. If the goals are feasible and relatively short term I think the experience could be healthy, cathartic, and rewarding.

If you don't mind me asking, what are the goals she wanted to accomplish?

>>37137662

I'm not some squeaky clean, straight edge moral fag. I've done weed, coke, mdma, pain killers, opiates, and currently drink on a regular basis. I know what moderation is. I know when to say this is my last drink, I know when I can't do a bunch of blow and fuck all night, I know I can't just sit at home smoking weed and playing vidya.

Why? Because I'm not a complete piece of shit. I have responsibilities. I have more self control and self respect to ever let anyone pick up my slack. Addicts make the decision every day to do what they do. There are addicts that abandon their children, their families, their jobs, and their friends. For what? Just to get high, drunk, doped up, whatever.

I have no sympathy for drug addicts. I do drugs. I'm not an addict.