Comfy Psych Ward Experiences thread

>be last time I went
>in came a very autistic 22 year old
>looked like he was 15
>one of the nurses asked him what he's doing here again
>says he's feeling suicidal and needed to come back
>nurse said that he got better just a couple weeks ago
>he didn't stay long
>don't know if he got used to the place and it was comfy to him or if his parents just wanna dump him there when they can't deal with his shit

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>get moved from a small ward to a big ward by ambulance
>mad because nothings allowed
>refuse to put on the belt just to annoy the nurses
>nurses hold hurts me when trying to put it on
>get violent
>they hurt me even more than they should or need to
>getting tied up
>screaming, resisting, kicking and crying
>everything hurts and my tummy and face are exposed
>sure they are laughing at how fat and disgusting i am, they are assaulting me, going to rape me, take pictures and make my face a new meme
>screaming and crying revenge
>still resisting and trying to hurt the nurses
>the ambulance turns back to the small ward
>get diazepam, a blanket to cover me up and a pig plushie
>calm down and be comfy for the rest of the trip

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>be psychotic me
>get admitted to psychward
>want to escape as soon as I get there
>about ten people have to wrestle with me to drag me into the isolation cell
>inject me with something strong
>I loose conscioussness for about two weeks and become catatonic
>two weeks later I come to my senses again
>staff is still scared of me, carefully places food at the door real quick, closes it again right after
>whathaveIdone.jpeg I don't remember shit
>I'm calm and back to my former self again for the most part
>ask for water as I'm thirsty as fuck
>they get me water and let me out of the isolation cell eventually
>I get to hang out with other patients for the coming two months
>it's mostly boring, but I get to meet some interesting folks, some of which I still see now and then and greet and have small talk with
>they have interesting stories to tell, how they broke out of there for example, how they got in there, how they got fucked over by police etc.
>I befriend a psychiatric nurse who plays ping pong with me when she has time
>I have to go to group sessions which are stupid
>I still want to get out of there asap, it's like a prison
>only way is to behave and follow the rules, they let me out for an hour, I have to be back at the exact time
>I'm always back on time
>then for two hours, then for a trip into the city, a whole afternoon, then I can sleep a night in my flat
>then I finally get released and I'm more or less sane again
>still kinda hear voices though, and still kinda think the whole world has hidden messages for me, but I lie to the psychiatrists about it, because I really want to be free again after months of being locked up
>they believe me and let me go

Psych wards aren't comfy anon, only go there if there's no other way around it. But maybe there are different kind of psych wards out there, the ones I've been in are the locked ones, you can't escape from, and those are basically like prison. Wouldn't recommend/10.

I got a foot job underneath the table in the group room during down time from a BPD chick wearing the hospital booties.

Believe me or not, it happened.

She later became my gf because I sure know how to pick the good ones

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>>37099563
this is the comfiest though

>getting freed from the ties after several hours of panic attacks, pain and crying

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>placed on a 1:1
>means i'm monitored 24/7
>watched while i watch tv
>watched while i eat
>watched while i sleep
>watched while i piss and shit
>watched while I shower

Wasn't gucci.

>Have this neighbour in these housing commission units when I was 19
>Pretty cool guy. We'd smoke weed sometimes
>He'd spend all his NEETbux on weed
>be broke for another week
>totally freak out and yell about how satellites were reading his thoughts
>go kick some lights in the courtyard and rant about how they were "looking at him funny"
>then he'd break off some fence pailings and stick them in the ground like stakes around his front door "as fortification, incase they come"
>cops would come
>take him to the psyche ward
>he'd get paid
>suddenly sane again
>then he'd back home and smoking weed

He usually did this once every second month or so. I asked him why and he said he likes the food there and it's free and he usually gets laid while he's there. There was apparently nothing wrong with him.

Sounds like a pretty /comfy/ plan desu.

>>37099563
>>refuse to put on the belt just to annoy the nurses
>w-why are they hurting me more than they have to?
fuck you I hope it hurt a lot. You annoying fuck

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>>37099563
>acts like a big obnoxious faggot
>gets upset when treated like a big obnoxious faggot
Wow SAD

How do you even end up in a ward?

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>>37099382
> try to kill myself
> get placed into a ward
> start to freak out because I imagine i'm gonna get locked down in some fucke dup place with needles up my ass
> start freaking out and saying i'll kill myself
> taken to the ward by ambulance, my doctor joins in
> he's a good man, talks with me along the way, didn't need to come, but said maybe it will feel safer
> calming down slightly
> we exit the ambulance, the place is on the outskirts of the city, tons of nature
> big fence, the building is old, but clean.
> go inside, i'm escorted and my hand is being firmly held. "just in case" I suppose
> they file my papers, my doctor explains the situation
> The interior looks modern, clean and white, very silent, music is being played
> The nurse comes up to me and asks how I feel and if I want they can give me something to calm down
> I tell them i'm okay, but wouldn't mind something mild
> they give me some pill
> Give me a small tour
> tons of rooms
> tons of therapy areas
> we go to the wing with the more "extreme" people
> it's basically jsut a locked out wing with more rooms
> nurses and doctors that are there 24/7
> the room is comfy, everything is soft.
> there are plushies, balls, soft toys
> ask me if I want any of them to be removed
> say no
> get sleepy
> they lock me up and leave, take a couple plushies
> they all smell nice, clean and recently washed
> Cuddle up with a cute dragon plushie in bed

It was amazing. After that I spent weeks in therapy there. Used to play games, draw, watch documentaries about animals and nature. We also had basic assignements like write a short summary of what we watched, write a diary. Was also able to cook together with other patients, while being supervised. Learned to make simple pies and other treats. We all also had to wake up and work out based on a schedule. You were allowed to skip any of it if you felt bad. If that happened, a therapist would come during some time during the day to interact with you.

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>>37099912
>gets locked up for trying to kill yourself
>tries to get them to let you go by threatening to kill yourself

>>37099905
You have to be somewhat crazy or on drugs

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This was my second time of being locked up in one:
>>37099566

First time was much more chill though:
>get to share room with big black guy who is convinced of being the messiah
>I'm convinced of being the messiah too
>we get in kind of a friendly competition of who is more messiah like and become good friends
>we're both sane enough that we can go in and out of there after a week, we just have to be back on time
>hang around all the time, smoke a lot, talk a lot
>he gifts me a Compton jacket he really likes and some nice Hiphop pants and shoes that are pretty expensive
>I gift him a little moped he wants to cruise around the clinic areal
>I buy cigars to smoke in the evening
>only problem dinner at night is only cold food, what the fuck
>my new black friend can't stand it
>he gets every patient to sign a petition for the cooks to serve us hot food, gets it to the kitchen
>it actually works and we get hot food for dinner afterwards
>there's also this crazy chick in there that can't stand us being friends cause she's jealous
>she admires the black dude cause he was a rapper once and she's really into rap, and later she tells me she had kinda a crush on me
>she always rips up my paintings I make and destroys my pencils
>one time a depressive dude breaks into the locked chamber where I keep my razor to shave and slits up his wrists with it
>means I can't shave anymore, but hey, at least he got discovered and saved before he bled out
>meanwhile the meds slowly start to work, and I get released after a month, but again, I'm still technically psychotic when they let me go, I just lie about it and tell them that I know that this was a psychosis I experienced
>they copy me a psychiatric book about schizophrenia, and set me free
>I still see the black dude once in a while, helped him move once, and gave him back his jacket and pants years later, because I didn't really wear them and he had a emotional connection to it back from the days he was a rapper

>>37099894
its not sad, i know I deserve it, im not gonna defend my actions.

>>37099806
>There was apparently nothing wrong with him.

Anon, spending all your money on weed, and then faking mental instability to get committed to a psyche ward, so you can sex the people there, suggests to me that there is a good deal wrong with him.

>be me
>war vet
>scarred from the shit I did
>mostly just drift from town to town
>go to some town in the middle of nowhere
>sheriff gives me ride
>think he's being nice
>drops me outside of town
>um no
>go back to town
>arrested for "resisting"
>in jail, meet a really sadistic deputy
>he tries to dry shave me
>reminded of War (was tortured)
>freak the fuck out
>other deputies restrain me
>REALLY Freak the fuck out
>get out of their hands
>run out of the jail, occasionally beating up a deputy on the way out
>vanish into woods
>hide for days
>they send a heli to look for me
>throw rock at it
>door gunner falls out and dies
>not meant to happen
>eventually they bring in old commander to talk me out basically
>break down crying to him
>surrender
>sent to psych hospital
>the names John Rambo

>>37099932
Hmm I see.

I was only asking because I see a psychologist often and was diagnosed (as an adult at 29) with autism and a few personality disorders.

Despite all of that I've never had a ward suggested to me.

>>37099928
I know it was stupid, but I was panicking and had no idea what to do. I didn't like the feeling of being forced by others into the unknown. Nothing makes sense when you feel like that.

>>37099949
figured out the movie at "Sheriff gives me a ride"
good one anon made me smile

>>37099981
Thanks it's my first try at greentext

>>37099856
>implying not putting on your belt makes hitting okay

>>37099912
Sounds like regular American college

So far I'm glad you've all had somewhat good experiences and no crazy shit like you see in movies about psych wards

>>37099970
yeah I'm just teasing you. I understand you were going through a psychotic episode

>>37099495
>>37099563
>>37099566
>>37099654
Why did you end up there in the first place?

>>37100021
i am >>37099563 i am not allowed to live alone because i have severe depression, aspd, social anxiety, ptsd and bulimia

>>37099938
No you deserved it because you have shit taste in anime reactions and also that too

>>37100051
> shit anime reactions
if youre the one who posted >>37099894 then you really shouldn't be talking about others posting shit tier anime reactions. If not, then carry on since both were garbage.

>>37100021
For being psychotic. Diagnosis was paranoid schizophrenia, although I was never paranoid, it was always pronoia with me.

First time I got admitted for setting (a little) fire in my flat.

In my psychotic mind, little things I did symbolically would translate to big happenings in the real world, so by setting fire to my flat I would start Armageddon and ultimately save humanity. Flatmates weren't amused when they woke up and smelled the smoke, called the police but I was already gone..

Later that day my friends lured me into treatment though, said they wanted to meet me infront of the hospital and I went there and they just guided me to the psychiatrists from there where I signed some papers and then I was in.

Second time I came into contact with police about four times before getting admitted. In my psychotic mind I broke into other peoples houses, or tried to, cause I thought I lived there now. Only got into one freshly abandoned mansion to which I got the keys somehow though. Police had to let me go there right after arresting me, but they already knew I was psychotic. Then finally I vandalized in my own flat again to get some ritual done, with the same thought process of doing symbolic shit that translates to the real world, and I smashed a window in the process, neighbors called the police, I struck them as highly insane when they got there, and had reason enough to get me admitted.

>>37099949
I'll bet you're some Air Force pog

T. Marine corp infantry oef vet

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>>37099382
>in psych ward because of severe anxiety attack and general depression and stuff
>first few days spent in a closed ward with no ability to go outside
>start talking with this really ill schizo guy
>he asks me what my dad does
>"he works with computers"
>he instantly gets paranoid because he thinks that must mean he's CIA
>say stuff to me like, "Seeking permission to initiate program sir! I-if you know what i mean.." trying to out me as CIA as well
>can't stop myself from laughing at this craziness
>this of course confirms his suspicions
>start yelling at everyone and running in circles
>staff have to belt him up in his room for the rest of the day

Good times tbqh

>>37100178
Nice try blending in CIA. Better luck next time. You didnt fool him and you aren't fooling us, either.

>>37100228
FUCK

>>37100178
He also got locked up the next day partly because of me

>be the day after this incident
>he's out and about in the ward again
>asks me if I want to play a game on the computer with him
>don't really want to, but tell him I'll watch him play something
>this guy was there so often that he had installed steam on the ward pc
>load up Half-Life
>talks throughout the intro about how much he loves this game and how Gordon Freeman is the coolest person on earth
>the second he meets the first enemy/alien/whatever (wasn't really paying attention and haven't played the game) he screams at the top of his lungs
>starts hysterically crying and yelling for help
>locked up again

Literally got scared shitless by his favorite vidya. So glad I got transferred the next day.

>>37099912
That's the cutest, comfiest greentext I read. Glad you're ok now anon.

I refuse to believe any of these stories are real because that would make me dangerously satisfied with my own normal life

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>>37099912
Sounds like heaven tbph. Sucks I'm sane enough to stay out of the psych ward, yet still not sane enough to be a normie.

>>37100121
You are crazy

no offence

>>37100322
Maybe he just thinks the game is really immersive and is why he likes it so much?

>>37100525
no offence taken, that's kind of the point of psych wards too, to be there for crazy folks

also medicated I'm sane enough

>be me
>be virgin rostie
>nobody loves me
>decide to kill self
>take all the pills in my parent's house... aspirin, vicoden, antibiotics, allergy medication; everything. Probably literally 15 bottles of pills from the medicine cabinet prescribed to everyone in the family
>go lay down to die
>wake up in hospital, doctors are forcing a tube down my throat
>injecting charcoal into my stomach; there is vomit everywhere, everything hurts
>fuck I'm not dead, what does it take to kill me?
>get put in ward, pulled out of school, everyone knows
>people come to visit me, are very uncomfortable
>everyone else in the ward is insane to some degree and out of contact with reality. I am perfectly sane I just don't want to go on living anymore
>tell them I don't want to kill myself anymore, nobody believes me
>stay for 4 months
>every day become slightly more insane as the only people I have to talk to are disconnected with reality and there is nothing to do
>realize this is not good for me
>try to end it by jumping out window, get caught trying to pry perforated metal plate from window
>6 months later family has given up on me
>they let me out, don't tell anyone
>live in and out of homeless shelter for a while, lots of crazy people there too
>one night while out at night just before curfew get raped and beaten
>don't tell anyone because I fear I might get committed if I go to the hospital
>am pregnant but don't realize it, have to find a doctor who will kill my baby at 6 months along
>get depressed
>have only a cheap phone with no plan but I can get wifi at a coffee shop near the shelter
>be there now posting
>going to do it right this time, there is an interstate near here and I am going to jump out in front of an 18 wheeler
>ill be out of wifi range though, but if you want me to stream it you can send me $5 for a tmobile LTE day pass and I'll do it on cam
>I have a second follow up appointment because of complications for my late abortion on Friday.... I will do it before then

>>37100046
You can't get PTSD if you have ASPD. Sounds like you're a self diagnosing pussy or you got diagnosed by some 22 year old liberal psychiatrist.

>>37100712
All this because Chad rejected you.

>>37100712
I guess this was not very comfy sorry

also I never saw a plushie anywhere during my year in the wards

not fucking one

>>37100753
>chad

I would have taken a robot or a friend or anyone

>>37100712
Why not hang yourself? Can't find rope?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Official_Table_of_Drops

>>37100712
just curious why do you want to die?

Also did the rapist (very sorry that happened to you) take your virginity?

>>37100121
Must be rough, or? How do you feel about having this disorder? What's your outlook on life? How do one even develop paranoid schizophrenia?

>>37100784
>Why not hang yourself? Can't find rope?

I feel I would fuck that up somehow and wake up in the hospital again, I can't imagine jumping in front of a semi truck going 80mph not working, I have been up to the on ramp where I am going to do it and there is a good place with a guard rail to crouch and watch for a truck to come then jump out and run in front of it, the driver won't have 2 seconds to react

>>37100795
>just curious why do you want to die?

Because I just spent a year in and out of a psych ward, have no prospects for a job, have been abandoned by all friends and family and just had to kill my unborn baby who I could feel kicking because I had no way to provide for him and because I hated him for being a rapist's baby

>>37100795
>Also did the rapist (very sorry that happened to you) take your virginity?

yes

>>37100832
>>Also did the rapist (very sorry that happened to you) take your virginity?

>yes
nice

>>37100813
At first it was though, I was in medschool and wanted to become a psychiatrist myself when I got psychotic.. my life changed drastically, had to drop out of uni, quit my side job, get on neet bux, isolated myself socially, gained a lot of weight from the meds, etc..

Now after years of living with it I'm on track of getting my life back in order. I have a small job now again, some friends still that I see every week, so something like a social life and daily structure at least, already lost 20kg of weight.. but yeah.. really fucked my life up.

I still believe in some of my delusions back then tbqh. Like I still feel like there's more to it than just too much dopamine in my brain, and it made me a religious person, despite being raised as an atheist.

One does develop it by being genetically vulerable to schizo, schizo runs in my family, and one triggers it by smoking weed, having stress, too little sleep, mindfulness meditation also helps.. I did all of above and having triggered it once it's enough to go off my meds to become psychotic again.

But yeah, as long as I take this little pill in the morning each day, I should be fine more or less, and now that my body got used to it, I don't even have any negative side effects like weight gain anymore, but in the beginning it was though.

>>37100832
>Because I just spent a year in and out of a psych ward
well you wanted to die before aswell. Why was that I mean

>and just had to kill my unborn baby
well you did the right thing. It was a rape baby and would've grown up in squalor.

>yes
damn that's fucking harsh. Again sorry this happened to you. I wish you'd pressed charges

>>37100832
>I feel I would fuck that up somehow and wake up in the hospital again
Well, if you follow a guide on how to make a hangman's noose and go well above the length given in the table of drops >>37100784, there's really no way you will live. You'll break your neck, sever your spine and die.
>I can't imagine jumping in front of a semi truck going 80mph not working, I have been up to the on ramp where I am going to do it and there is a good place with a guard rail to crouch and watch for a truck to come then jump out and run in front of it, the driver won't have 2 seconds to react
You've no antipathy to causing someone a shit-load of trouble with your suicide then, I assume? You could lay your neck on a railroad track in that case as well. Less trouble for the conductor in the long run (might even be used to it, it's a surprisingly grissly job) than for the truck driver, who almost certainly isn't used to it and will be shocked to all hell.

>>37100832
greentext your rape so we can all have a good fap

>>37100832
I remoend against that. You might get the driver killed aswell. Think about his family

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>>37100864
>one triggers it by smoking weed, having stress, too little sleep, mindfulness meditation also helps
So I should stay away from weed then, yes? Did you mean that mindfulness meditation helps trigger it, or keeps it away?

>>37100881
you are a retard if you think conductors get in less trouble
they have to set their trains into emergency braking if they hit someone, which could derail the train and possibly kill even more innocent people
kill yourself instead of relying on others to do it you pathetic faggot

I love psycho ward posts.

Im pretty sure there is tons of things wrong with me but im not too far gone yet that id find myself in one.

>>37100902
only triggers it if you have inherited those schizo genes.

and yes weed and mindfulness meditation are both triggers of psychosis.

I would stay and answer more questions about it, but I have to go to my job now. Take care anon, should schizo run in your family there's always a small chance that you could trigger it in you no matter what you do, and most probably even if you stay away from weed and meditation it will break out sometime in your mid twenties, IF you have the genes.

>>37100877
>well you wanted to die before aswell. Why was that I mean

I don't know, I just didn't want to go on living. Lots of people kill themselves, Plath, Hemingway etc...

You know how it is when you want to go on living?

well it's not like that for me

>>37100952
ok interesting. So are you content with that or are you depressed over it?

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>>37100899
>You might get the driver killed aswell.
Highly unlikely. If anything, the truck might veer off and kill a bunch of bystanders, or other drivers, but the truck's driver himself is quite safe.

>>37100916
>you are a retard if you think conductors get in less trouble
I was speaking mentally, but reading about it I think I might've underestimated the amount of shock mentally healthy normalfags get from stuff like this. I forget not everyone is as edgy as me.
https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation/2014/08/11/train-engineers-track-deaths/13929491/
>they have to set their trains into emergency braking if they hit someone, which could derail the train
Do you have any examples of that ever happening?
>kill yourself instead of relying on others to do it you pathetic faggot
I was advocating hanging, you know, but there's not much convincing you can do online, especially so with a negative attitude like that.

>>37100932
>only triggers it if you have inherited those schizo genes.
My grandma was schizophrenic and I'm schizoid. Probably got them.
>mindfulness meditation are both triggers of psychosis.
Shit, really?
I like mediation, feels good and gets my mind somewhat under control, leaving me better off than before.

>>37100916
Wrong. I worked on a train for 8 months and can tell you protocol for hitting a person.
>radio it in with time/location/how many
>keep hauling until the next stop
I have heard stories when I worked on it that people have jumped in front of the train, splattered all over and they had to stop at a crowded location with body matter all over it. This is why most trains come in a dark color nowadays.

>>37100952
> comparing yourself to some of the greatest and most talented minds in our history
> some roastie that got a fucking that she "didn't like" think she can compare herself to them

okay. Just do it then.

>>37100976
I am a railroad worker, it happens all the time, usually into a farmers field where nobody gives a shit.

>>37100985
there is not a single class 1 railroad in north america that lets a train "just keep rolling to the next stop" after it hits a person.

>>37100723
Much like 80% of r9k.

I'm glad this thread exist at least.

>>37100881
There are no trains within walking distance of here

I would be afraid the rope would break or one of the two knots I would have to tie (top knot to a fixture, bottom knot for neck) would come undone or the fixture would break or come loose or someone would catch me buying rope or setting up and turn me in to the ward

The truck thing is 100%, there is no way I will live

I tried to buy a shot gun from a pawn shop but they called the government and the government told them I had been in a psych ward and would not let them sell it to me, I was terrified someone would call the cops right then and have me committed again. I am not buying anything or talking to anyone IRL about this again.

I am a homeless baby killer rape victim with a year in a psych ward on my resume and no education or job prospects who has been abandoned by all friends and family.

i just want off this ride

>>37100899
>I remoend against that. You might get the driver killed aswell. Think about his family

The driver of an 18wheeler is not going to die because some 90lb girl is stuck in his bumper

get fucking real

>>37101035
If the driver brakes hard or panics from hitting a person and goes off the road he could.
No wonder you want to die, you are a thoughtless retard.

>>37101023
Just od on heroin you idiot
Sell your worthless puss for a couple pins and just float away

>>37101035
> roastie kills herself by jumping on some random family man drivers bumper
> he's scared for life with the image of running over some girl
> blames himself for doing it, ends up depressed
> most likely ends up losing his job and unable to support his family anymore

> all because some random girl had a hissy fit.

sounds comfy I guess. But I mean you murder a kid, rather than giving it up for adoption, so hey. Hell already awaits.

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>>37101023
>There are no trains within walking distance of here
40km is a day's march. Easily more if you push it at all.
>I would be afraid the rope would break or one of the two knots I would have to tie (top knot to a fixture, bottom knot for neck) would come undone or the fixture would break or come loose or someone would catch me buying rope or setting up and turn me in to the ward
Just gotta head innawoods for that.

>people are actually feeding this larping attention whore
and people thought /pol/ was easy to troll

>>37101023
You are just attentionwhoring and you know it.

There are plenty of beta providers dying to find a young skinny whore to orbit.

You dont even deserve to be on this board.

>>37101070
>But I mean you murder a kid, rather than giving it up for adoption
rape babies should be aborted tough

>>37100964
>ok interesting. So are you content with that or are you depressed over it?

I don't care anymore.

I can't sleep at night now because I relive the rape in my mind and even more the day I went to the clinic and in the morning felt my baby alive and kicking inside me and being sedated then feeling empty and his death afterward

you don't know how that feels

I had to find a special doctor to do an abortion so late and he did it for free because he felt sorry for me

When I cam to (half sedated) I asked the doctor if he would bury my baby for me, and he openly cried in front of me

>>37101080
Do you mean the people getting pissed, or do you just think of suicide as something bait-worthy? Are you a normalfag?

>>37101009
You do know it takes on average over a mile to stop a train, right? It is protocol for the train to head to the next stop after radioing it in. The rescue/police people will go where you hit them. You then have to fill out a description of what happened.

On the plus side, you by law get 2 weeks paid vacation for grief.

>>37101093
>On the plus side, you by law get 2 weeks paid vacation for grief.
Man, I need to look into engineer work if other things fail. Sounds like a pretty comfy job.

>>37101087
You sure you can't go back to your family? How was life before you tred to kill yourself the first time?

>>37101087
Yeah you're definitely full of shit with your last post you wrote.

>>37101116
Depends where you live
Only get three days off over here for smacking a ped

>>37101061
I tried drugs once before and woke up in the hospital

I have no idea where to get heroin nor how much it would take to 100% kill me

>>37101131
You literally live in a hobo shelter and cant find heroin?
Now I know you're trolling

>>37101073
what is the difference between a train and a truck, what does that distinction matter in the end really

>>37101092
>all these stories
>haha im a gurl xd life is hard
>everyone keeps replying to it

>>37101070
Why would the truck driver give a shit, it's not his fault

>>37101147
truck driver might veer off the road and kill somebody or himself.

just do suicide by cop if you live in murica

>>37101163
Oh. I'll talk to anyone who keeps replying. I just got into the thread late and nobody else is posting stories, so I'm talking to this one.

>>37101147
Truck suicide might cause truck to ram into bystanders, killing people. Train suicide will blow up your corpse and maybe leave the engineer traumatized, but no real threat to bystanders and it's statistically likely each one of them's going to hit a suicider at some point in their career anyway.

>>37101121
>Yeah you're definitely full of shit with your last post you wrote.
why do you say that
>>37101118
>You sure you can't go back to your family? How was life before you tred to kill yourself the first time?
Emotional abuse, lack of care. They stopped visiting me in the ward after a few months and didn't bother to contact me. As far as I know they have not looked for me at all.

You don't understand what being suicidal is like, it does not mean you want to go back to your family, it means you want to not be alive anymore

>>37101137
>You literally live in a hobo shelter and cant find heroin?

You would be surprised, everyone here drinks but hides it. You have to be in by 9pm every day and sober or they kick you out, this is the "good" shelter in town. Most people here are mentally ill, nobody smokes crack or does needle drugs and most are regulars

anyway I keep to myself and don't talk to people much, I try to just show up and get my cot and not talk to all the men there or try to find recreational drug connections

>>37101169
Someone who is as emotionally damaged as psychotic as you wont understand obviously.

Also don't worry, a rope wont snap from a 90lb girl. All you need is the most basic rope and look up the simplest knots on the internet. Pre-school kids could tie a knot that could work,so you're more than fine. After that go anywhere in the woods. Can be very small woods, it wont matter. And hang yourself. Nobody will care one way or another.

>>37101198
>Emotional abuse, lack of care
so you have no one? Seriously if you showed up at your parents or relatives house what would happen? greentext please

> a comfy thread
> ruined by a roastie that wants to "le kill myself xDD", but does everything to gain attention.

classic

>>37101171
>truck driver might veer off the road and kill somebody or himself.

I doubt a professional truck driver would just snatch the wheel over and run his truck into the guard rails because he hit something
>>37101195
>Truck suicide might cause truck to ram into bystanders,

it's the fucking interstate, there are no bystanders, just concrete guard rails

>>37101260
to be fair, if it weren't for beta enablers asking a thousand questions, this thread wouldn't have been derailled.

Also, sage.

>>37101260
Whining doesn't improve the thread, you know. Instead of crying about it, how about creating some of that comfy discussion you claim to want?

>>37101286
>implying he didn't post some of the comfy stories listed above.

>>37101239
>so you have no one? Seriously if you showed up at your parents or relatives house what would happen? greentext please

>be in psych ward for nearly a year
>nobody, i mean nobody comes after 3 months, not even a call
>be homeless for months after that, nobody is looking for me, homeless shelters have lists of people families are looking for

what would happen if I went "home" I don't know I guess they would look ashamed and barely talk to me but probably feed me

I don't even really know if they live in the same house by now

I only went to a military one.

Was a vacation from stress of work, though also depressing, putting 4 depressed, alcoholic and hateful assholes in the same room for 8 hours a day isnt healthy.

Was better when I said i had a cold and got some dxm, watched movies while spaced out on pams.

>>37101286
But I already did post some of the comfy stories

> someone enters a room full of people talking
> starts throwing shit around
> expressing that you'd prefer the person to stop throwing shit everywhere in the room is whining

another /r9k/ classic

>>37101329
>expressing that you'd prefer the person to stop throwing shit everywhere
Has this ever worked for you?

>>37101349
Sometimes, but it's generally done as a way to shame people who enable this kind of behavior in the first place.
I know it doesn't work 99% of the time

>>37101316
>I guess they would look ashamed and barely talk to me but probably feed me
good, sounds liek a plan try that before going for the an hero option. Go home

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>>37101370
>but it's generally done as a way to shame people who enable this kind of behavior in the first place.
Yeah, but that shit doesn't work anymore. It's too sparse these days. Used to be retards would get told off by most everyone and faggots told to lurk more, but these days the entire site's culture has changed. For the worse, if you ask me.

>>37101349
you're right lets just all bow down to the shit flinging retard thats clearly the best way to do things

>>37101237

I feel like hanging would hurt more than being hit by a huge truck

>>37101402
I would prefer for 4chan's servers to be submerged into water while on and this site to be put out of its misery, actually.

>>37101382
but then I would be alive and I don't want to be

also I have to go open my pussy on friday and have more surgery and I would rather not go through with that, it's just a continuation of the rape and abortion trauma

>>37101400
That's also true. I have no idea how /r9k/ basically became /soc/ for the 2nd time in its life. I really hate how 4chan became mainstream over the years, especially this year. I miss when this site was relatively "small" and comfy. Now it's turning into a generic community that you could find anywhere else.

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>>37101450
It happens to everything, I fear.

>>37101465
This hits me too hard, since I can relate it to so many things outside of this imageboard aswell. Depressing.

What's more depressing is that those people have an absurd amount of communities where they could do the exact same, but they choose to enter the small circles. As the pic describes, to basically become to "dominant alphas" of the niche circle.

>r9k has always been about bitching about being neet and being alone etc...
>someone asks for psych ward stories
>provide one
>be asked questions
>answer them
>everyone bitches because an on topic discussion is happening about being depressed and neet and alone on /r9k/
>OMG THE SITE HAS CHANGED I WANT OLD R9K BACK!

you guys are retarded

>>37101445
>but then I would be alive and I don't want to be
well you might discover you want to. You can die anytime why not take a chance. If not to just say bye to your family one last time

>also I have to go open my pussy on friday and have more surgery and I would rather not go through with that, it's just a continuation of the rape and abortion trauma
won't you be sedated? Anyway see it as conquering the trauma

>>37101523
It was never for roasties whining for attention. Well it was, but it was shut down because of it and then /soc/ was made where you could do it and have your orbiters.

Don't fucking pretend you know what the original r9k was about

>>37101523
People are bitching because you aren't depressed you are a FEMALE you could do anything. You have no need to be depressed. Fuck you. kill yourself

>people in psychosis posting works of fiction

Explains a lot about /r9k/.

Also I'm a 32 year old virgin who has never had gf or a job or friends and I'm still not broken enough to be comitted lmao

>>37101523
>be a woman
>think you have any right to post on r9k
>complain when people call you out

Never change, roasties. Day of the truck can't come soon enough for you.

>>37101523
> she thinks the original r9k was about reeeing and only NEETs whining

How FUCKING new can you be? Abort yourself

>drinking watered down Powerade with the buds
>kid who we called autistic comes and sits down
>say he has an inverted dick
>he freaks out and rages
>grabs a spoon breaks it
>tries to kill himself

It was not very comfy
People were constantly fighting and screaming at night

>>37101605
>People are bitching because you aren't depressed you are a FEMALE you could do anything. You have no need to be depressed. Fuck you. kill yourself

man what are you even talking about

You think females can't be suicidal? You think the ability to go get dick cures depression? I mean do you honestly think that?

anyway I literally can't have sex right now due to medical complications

it's not quite so wonderful to me in my homeless shelter palace with my destroyed pussy as you might think it to be

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>>37101522
>but they choose to enter the small circles.
Because the small circles are always best. They get attracted to the original content and community the select few have created, thinking they can just join in on the fun, but they inadvertently ruin it as they come, bringing in their outside cancer into the community.

>>37101647
So he tried to kill himself with the spoon?

>>37101676
It was a plastic spoon he broke it in half and started slashing at his wrist with the sharp part

>>37101696
>and started slashing at his wrist with the sharp part
Oh, that's a lot tamer than the image I had of him stabbing himself in the throat with a spoon.

>>37101316
It's pretty much impossible to find lost family at homeless shelters. They were most likely trying because that's how it was for me trying to find my brother. Just go home.

>>37101717
>It's pretty much impossible to find lost family at homeless shelters. They were most likely trying because that's how it was for me trying to find my brother. Just go home.
don't want to go home, want to jump in front of truck

>>37101735
Then stop posting here and do it you worthless whore. Stop feeding on the attention on being oh so "damaged".

>>37101735
Why.

I'm >>37101609

It's not really a big deal. Also truck method is fucked since you'll hurt people/make people crash/create more depressed people.

I live in Birmingham Alabama, I am going to do it by the I-20 corridor just north of 26th street by the Jimmy Hale mission

I will do it before 1pm on Friday (tomorrow)

watch for it on the local news at al.com if you want, i won't do it during rush hour to reduce the chances of a multi car crash, gonna wait till just a truck is coming and hop out in front

maybe ill hand draw a pepe as a suicide note

I honestly don't know if this warrants a new thread, so I'll ask here.

I've been hearing voices since I was 16, and it's said to be a common symptom of psychosis, but I basically am trapped in a telepathic network, where many delusions come and go as I learn more information about telepathy, either through the super-conscious itself or through shit I read. Basically, it's gotten really convincing, and I don't want to believe it, but the voices (everyone in the world) tell me it's real, yet when I confront people about it, there is no connection, people seem bewildered. Have been to a hospital, checked in for 6 days and was given a shot of Haldol, which almost completely took away the voices, but I couldn't stand the akathisia and dyskinesia so I stopped about a month ago. Now I'm sloth, can't bring up the motivation for my hobbies, can't even get into dwarf fortress

Are there any ways to test this telepathy? If it turns out to be psychosis, can I get SSI and Section 8?

>>37101793
>Why.
have you read the thread, I have given reasons multiple times

what part of my reasons do you not understand

>>37101816
Good. Goodbye. If you wont do it, hopefully some mod range bans your homeless shelter.

>>37101818
You are classic schizophrenic.

You don't have telepathy.

Enjoy life in and out of psych wards and being heavily medicated and never feeling quite right due to nasty side effects of meds or your condition for the next 50 years

>>37101847
>hopefully some mod range bans your homeless shelter.

what does this even mean

>>37101818
>Are there any ways to test this telepathy?
It's not telepathy, nigger. It's sczhiophrenia, almost certainly.

>>37101860
>>37101882

I'm not in a position t believe ether way, I just want a good test.

>>37101838
why are you posting on r9k instead of just jumping in front of the truck right now?

>>37101900
Here's the test: there is no such thing as telepathy thus you don't have it.

end of test

enjoy ur meds

>>37101838
Well I've been on 4chan for like 10 years and I've seen people go through 8x worst shit. But most never cared that much in the end/kept on living.

People idolize suicide it like it's one big great meme and that's dumb as hell.

>>37101905
Because retards give her attention and that's all she wants. There wont be any suicide and all of what was said was bullshit. Threads like these pop up on a weekly basis.

>>37101907
That's not a test...

>>37101905
>why are you posting on r9k instead of just jumping in front of the truck right now?

it's 7 am, too close to rush hour

I am either going to get away and do it late tonight when there is less commuter car traffic and more commercial trucking traffic (at higher speeds) or do it at about noon tomorrow as a final escape from the hospital appointment I won't be going to

got to work up the courage, I have walked up to the ramp before to find a good spot and it's kind of scary being there

>>37101405
I hope you find peace in what lies after this systemspace.

>>37101930
yes it is
>>37101911
>People idolize suicide it like it's one big great meme and that's dumb as hell.

I don't think that, I think it's awful but it will put an end to my life and that's what I need

Who here on SSI?

>details of disability
>you're economic standing

>>37101952
>I hope you find peace in what lies after this systemspace.
thx

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>>37099382
>Everything is going alright except getting really amped up
>Just walking through halls with my cup
>Nurse says hi to me
>Say hi nicely back
>Do a few more paces
>Snap and throw my cup down the hallway then walk off
>Nurse knows something is up and comes to find me
>I was in pure tunnel vision
>Nurse leads me to the isolated cell
>He describes me to the other nurse: "hands clenched, unresponsive and eyes completely glazed over"
>He's nice and tries to tell me to just let out on the mattress and demonstrated some punches
>Tell him I'm not going to do that
>Tell him to stand the mattress against the wall and maybe I'll hit it
>He asks permission from the head nurse and I get to stand it up
>Never been so angry in my life
>Hit it as hard as I can with punches and kicks
>The course fabric rips up my knuckles
>I spend a few minutes on it then sit down
>Another nurse comes in later with my valium and bandages my hands
>Feel like I'm insane

>>37101523
>>someone asks for psych ward stories
someone asks for comfy psych war stories*
ftfy

>be me
>try to commit suicide
>get taken to hospital, discharged two days later
>try to commit suicide again
>get taken to psych ward
>deal with absoloute nutcases
>get let out because it's making me worse and doctors see that

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>>37101975
>psych war stories
Can you tell me more about the Psych War, anon?

>>37101967
you're motherfuking hulk

>there are failed normalfags on reddit9k that are too stupid to hide themselves from society

>>37101967
>>Feel like I'm insane
wonder why

>>37101990
How do you fail offing yourself twice in a row?

>>37101818
Anon there's no such thing as super-consciousness, we aren't connected through a web of telepathy. We are connected metaphorically only. There is an underlying chaos wave and that's pretty much it, maybe you should get into that instead. It has more to do with what you're experiencing than what people really tell you.

>>37101818
Here's your test:

Think in your head: "I'm going to slit your throat unless you yell stop," while staring at the person in front of you.

If they yell stop: then congratz, you have telepathic superpowers, and can use your gift to become the leader of mankind

If they don'y react: then you better lube up your asshole for a dildo full of Haldol, cause you're about to get fucked in the ass by the psych system!

>>37101995
>Can you tell me more about the Psych War, anon?
watch Indiana Jones and the Crystal skull

>>37101967
Why are you there in the first place, Anon? Do you often get angry like that?

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>got put on runaway because I tried opening a window because it was hot in my room
>got sick but the staff thought I was bullshitting then started puking up blood so I got sent to my room and had a sleeping med put up my ass
>met a kid who killed his mother by strangling her with a shoelace, became best ward friends
>laughed at code oranges being called on this one little girl who always needed to be restrained by three fully grown men before she calmed down
>skunk wandered through the children's playground and we all sat by a window to watch it fuck around
>pissed off all the tards by being confrontational 24/7 even during chess matches we had to kill time

Place was like prison, but better. Honestly wanna slaughter every orderly in that place to this day.

>>37102101
>Honestly wanna slaughter every orderly in that place to this day.
What was so bad about them?

Got nothing to share about my experiences in a . ward, but i should have been because I was literally insane in my first ten years or so, no joke.
I find it really weird that I was /not/ locked up

>>37102083
>>37101967
Here's the story

>Living as a shut-in since high school (about 4 years)
>Recently started self-harming
>One night got really carried away
>Drank a bottle of vodka and started cutting into my arm randomly with a steak knife
>Ripping my keys across my face quickly
>Throw up a lot
>Not just regular vomiting
>Feel like I'm going to die
>Stumble inside and tell my dad to call an ambulance
>Don't talk to anyone
>Ambulance comes and don't talk to them
>End up in hospital and kept overnight
>Early morning I'm taken to the mental assessment area
>Talk to psych
>Completely socially inept after years of isolation
>looking back at it I probably sounded nuts
>Asks what I've been doing
>tell her I've pretty much not gone out much
>Asks if I do impulsive things
>Talk about how I've been going out recently and climbing buildings and cranes at night
>Impulses to be violent constantly and how life is just like a blur where I barely remember anything each day
>She thinks I'm developing schizo
>Sends me to the ward
>It's pretty comfy and I got to have some time to myself to read and stuff
>Only a few violent issues
>Made a shiv out of a spoon to cut my arms and face again

How do you guys get sent to these things? Some stories sound comfy as fuck. I wouldn't mind trying I'm a 33 year old virgin with nothing to lose. I'm not suicidal though somehow.

>>37102169
my mom made me go

>>37102169
Don't go anon you won't have internet and if you do something slightly weird you can'r argue with them, they'll dope you at the drop of a hat since the workers there don't risk things. Stay with us on 4chan please

>>37102167
Do you self harm because you're depressed, or for shits n giggles?

Does the nurse wash your pee pee if you pretend to be too sedated to move?

>>37102220
That depends.

I would say, if you live in Europe, definitely go into the mental hospital.

If you live in America though, then for the love of god, please don't agree to go into the mental hospital.

>>37102169

Just walk into a psych ward and tell them you heard the word "thud" clearly in your mind with nobody around

then enjoy ur free stay in the wards for as long as you like

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosenhan_experiment#The_pseudopatient_experiment

>>37099382
I once managed to wrestle out of full restraints like that, just an arm though, but once you have that free the rest follows. Nurse spotted it in time though. 'Course I wasn't sedated

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To anons who have been in a psych ward: Can I use my severe depression to get thrown in one and when one of the qt nurses asks if there is anything she can do to calm me down can I ask for a hug, kiss and m-maybe some lewd things? Can I ask her to snuggle with me? Is this a foolproof plan or is it merely fantasy born out of desperation for female contact and love?

>>37102292
Maybe if you cried you'll get a hug, maybe. Pretty sure they're not allowed to

>>37102292
That will never happen

I am a cute girl and I could not get any orderly or male nuse to fuck me the whole year I was in, they look at you as broken and want nothing to do with you

:3

>>37102292
also the female nurses are almost down to a person never cute

they all look like fat middle aged lesbians in sensible shoes

22yo skinny qt nurses don't work in psych wards

>>37102244
Oh yeah. I've had a nurse touch my peepee once. Usually they'd ask a male to do it, but if it's busy only female around you might get lucky

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>>37102327
Hahahahahahah get fucked whore

>>37102327
they probably just didn't want to lose their job and ruin their career

>>37102362

^_^

At least I am Kawaii

>>37102223
It was primarily out of apathy. I didn't really care what happened. I would break into a construction site and climb a crane and I didn't feel anything. I'm come home that night and forget about it. I'd cut my arm and I'd feel pain and excitement but there didn't exist any other emotion. I'd cut my face and it was the same. I didn't see any future. I was diagnosed with OCD though which explains why I would do hundreds of little cuts all over to try and make things symmetrical from side to side.

Cutting my face is something I've always wanted to do. If I never had to leave the house again or be around people I'd probably seriously fuck my face up.

>>37102373
>they probably just didn't want to lose their job and ruin their career

But they could have had my virgin teen puss

>>37102112
Just general cockbags. Never got to do anything that gave me an ounce of comfort. (I liked to kill bugs by smashing and rolling my finger over them) Always had to watch out for myself because they moved me up to the men's ward so I had less of a chance of successfully killing someone. (I was 12) Never moved me up to level two on the chart so I could play some games even though I was the best behaved except for when I accidentally hit an orderly in the face.

After the whole experience I figured out that I just had to learn the right time and way to sate my urges and never ever say how I felt and they wouldn't send me back. If they do catch me I'll be back forever more than likely. Or I'll go to prison. Probably would just fess up so I could go back.

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>>37102386
No you're not, 3D is really disgusting.

>>37102316
I'd cry for a hug. I'm so lonely. Spending a bit of time in a ward and getting to feel soft boobs against my chest would be worth it.

>>37102327
If you're cute be my gf. Please. I hate this.

>>37100773

No you wouldn't have. You could've accepted a robot any time, but you were too butthurt about Chad rejecting you.

>>37102398
>types stuff like this
>just talked about how her life was ruined from being raped

Can you fucking not?

>>37102427
You don't need to go to a ward for that. Plenty of places you can get pity hugs

>>37102394
Man, that sounds rough. I'm sorry you have to deal with that. Prolly makes everything else a pain in the ass. Do any meds help, at least?

>Live in a shitty immigrant part filled of England.
>Start developing signs of schizophrenia at 21.
>Institutionalised at 22.
>Spend two months at the nearby psychiatric hospital.
>Majority of other fellow crazies are female Muslim women.
>Most memorable one was a super fanatical, but obese Muslim woman.
>Without fail, every time we got served food, she would ask the chef if the food was prepared Halal.
>"You're eating vegetable noodle soup." the chef would say.
>Fatty Muslim starts screaming and rrree'ing about how her soup is not halal.
>Always throws the food away.
>Always starts crying when she gets so hungry, and eventually crawls back to the kitchen for food to reluctantly eat the non-halal soups, chips, biscuits, etc.

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>>37102453
Where can I get pity hugs, pity kisses, and pity sex? And not a prostitute. Literally all my problems can be solved by a girl. Watch, >>37102327 won't respond. Sick of rejection. This is how men snap.

>>37102488
>Literally all my problems can be solved by a girl.

But anon, that's a saviour-complex. You need help.

>>37102447
sorry anon just dark humor

also I just started drinking, the liquor store opened at 7 and I gots me a bottle of aristocrat and some lemonaid

>>37102427
>>37102488

You don't want me anon, I am a week out from aborting a 6 month old nigger rape baby and still have medical complications from that and I am a suicidal drunk who won't be alive in 36 hours

and worst of all I live in Alabama kek

>>37102524
not him, but if you're gonna die anyways, and you're already not a virgin, you may as well give him a quick pity fuck before you go. Its the least you could do.

>>37102540
again, I have just had a late term abortion and my uterus is fucked up and I am bleeding and it's fucking nasty and painful, you don't want this

also I have HPV for which there is no cure

>>37102499
W-what's a savior complex?

>>37102524
Idc about your past. ALl I want is a girl to love and take care of. You're probably larping but I am serious. I can't go on much longer without a gf. Also don't condescendingly tell me what I want and don't want. I hate that fucking shit.

>>37102540
Thank you, anon.

>>37102560
HPV and you were made pregnant? How many hours were you raped, describe it

>>37102576
I think I used the wrong term. Not saviour-complex, because that's actually where you feel the need to save others.

But rather, feeling like your problems can be solved by the acquisition of a GF is an unhealthy attitude. Unless your problem was you needed a child.

>>37102602
protip
she wasnt raped
its some idiot telling lies on the internet for attention

>>37102602
Anon please think before you type, I'm not going to think too hard about it just please.... that's a traumatic experience, they wouldn't want to describe it relive it.

>>37102560
So? You've still got a mouth, don't you roastie?

So anon will put an oral condom on his dick, and you'll get to sucking, right?

>>37102602
>HPV and you were made pregnant? How many hours were you raped, describe it


I don't want to get into that because you will all say it was my fault but let's just say "several"

>>37102465
There no point in pity. I'm actually doing just fine now and go off any meds months ago. Sometimes I'll break down randomly if I have too much time to think OCD means you can never relax.

>>37102499
I'm >>37102167 and psych team at the ward pretty much concluded that the best thing for me was to experience a close relationship. They even organised a therapist for me to see every week so I could develop a close relationship with another person for once in my life.

But of course that didn't work out. I now realise that I genuinely hate having any kind of commitment

>>37102480
Some fat whore always took 2-3 plates at lunch which means I would miss out since I was always late to eat.

>>37102630
>not wanting roasties to have to relive being raped.

Jesus christ, when did r9k get so full of white knighting pussies?

>>37102598
I am incapable of having vaginal sex at the moment

What about this is not clear to you

>>37102640
>the ward pretty much concluded that the best thing for me was to experience a close relationship

Pretty sure by close relationship, they meant someone you can trust and confide in, like a best-friend. I don't think any doctor would tell you that putting your donger inside another person will be therapeutic.

>>37102637
how is it your fault? My friend was raped and a group of men basically pulled her into an alley

>>37102598
This. I want a girl to love and take care of, but with this girl all I want is to pound her pussy. She's an attentionwhore and nothing more. Her pussy would at least hold off the suicidal thoughts.

>>37102617
Well, I'm not opposed to having a child. But all of my problems can be solved by getting a gf. Feelings of inadequacy, of not being worthy, depression, anger. All of them. I would be all better.

>>37102631
I love all the anons coming to wingman for me. Thanks guys. I'll put in a good word for you all with the qt ward nurses if I ever end up in there.

>>37102665
Then what about your butt? We can make it work before you off yourself. At least you'll give me some happiness before you die.

>>37102676
>how is it your fault? My friend was raped and a group of men basically pulled her into an alley

people on here will always say it's the girls fault or try to make it out to be not a big deal or a desirable experience no matter what the girl says

ive been around enough to know that

>>37102700
>At least you'll give me some happiness before you die.
because i give a fuck about your happiness

>>37102676
damn, that shit sounds hot!

Can you greentext that shit for me anon? My cock is already dripping precum

>>37102712
Just greentext your rape story fully you whore and tell us how it felt to have some hobo fill you up to the brim or get lost

>>37102712
Typical roastie. Unable to feel compassion. This is why you deserve to be used like a fuckdoll. You're gonna die anyway. Why not help an anon out? I can be in Alabama quickly.

>>37102703
you're misunderstanding the reasoning behind this.

the reason why women can't be raped is because they're all effectively prositutes by default, so any """"rape'""" is really just theft.

>>37102703
since you wont tell us
in guessing you did something retarded and asked to get raped

>>37102747
Not her, but are you really so thirsty that you'd drive all the way to Alabama to fuck a mentally ill homeless, HPV positive roastie 13 hours before she splatters her brains all over the freeway? If that's the case, then you're an even worse orbiter than the beta orbiters that follow a girl for 2 years without dating her.

>>37102672
I get that. That's also what romantic relationships are supposed to be. But that's an ideal I now realise isn't possible.

> tfw the thread still didn't become a woman hate thread with posts about how women were btfo

disappointing. Summer is always the worst

>>37102796
idk, there were a lot of people calling out the roastie for being a degenerate whore and saying how women should leave this board, so it sort of happened.

>>37102778
I highly doubt all of the things killerchan said are true. Probably just lies to keep men away from her, even though she cries about being "lonely". Lo and behold when someone says "Okay, I'll fuck you." what does she do? Kek. It's always the same and I'm sick of it.

>>37102703
It wasn't my friends fault she got raped. It was indeed a random act of violence.

It wasn't the same for you?

>>37100723
>You can't get PTSD if you have ASPD
I'm not him and my only knowledge of these disorders stems from a quick google search, but, if ASPD is defined as a disregard for other people, couldn't you be traumatized by something happening to you personally?

>>37102815
At this point it's jsut a random r9k bloke that's taking the piss at everyone. There would be nothing stopping a suicidal roastie from atleast posting tits with a timestamp or her used up hole that she says she will need to fix during Friday. Without either one, it's another roleplay thread with orbiters giving it substance

>have nice thread
>whore comes in with beta entourage and ruins it
>waaah i didnt get fucked by chad instead it was a smelly nigger
>dozens of "omg so sorry" facebook tier posts
jesus christ r9k

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>>37102847
this is unfortunately true.

But one man saw through the roastie's lies, and managed to start a revolution that, given 10 years time, would topple the power of the roastie's vagina, and would lead to women becoming the slaves of men once more.

pic related.

>>37102853
People were talking mad shit to her read the thread

>>37102880
The point is there should be zero empathy for this autisic roastie
Even one beta is too much

>>37101654
I like you killerchan. Please stay alive.

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>>37102847
It's not just you. Even with my fucked up mind I can still empathize. But with killerchan and all other fucking women out there (if she even is a woman), it's all about themselves. Always me me me. Even when it would help an anon feel a bit more happy, even when she is already going to end it all, I get a "I don't give a fuck about your feelings". It's the same with all women and they all need to be locked up and handed out to all the depressed robots out there. That would end our suffering virtually overnight.

>>37102852
I agree. If she were legit she would let me fuck her in her ass before she kills herself. But no. I fucking hate women yet at the same time female companionship would cure all my problems. It's a cruel fate.

>>37102953
female companionship will not help you mate.

Only a powerful ideological viewpoint, companionship with your fellow man, getting fit, and getting your own apartment and a job can solve all of your problems.

A roastie is like alcohol. It solves your problems while drunk, but unless you want to remain drunk (and thus nonfunctional) all the time, then it won't improve your quality of life.

>>37099949
I fucking love this. Thanks for the laugh anon

>>37102912
True, but mainly because you should feel no empathy for people who lack it themselves. She's fucking completely self-absorbed just like the beta trying to fuck her

can we agree that schizos are the best kind of mental patient? they aren't retarded, but can have amusing delusions.

>>37102979
Nope. Only a tight cunt around my cock will do it. Those things are nice and are certainly things I want but I need a vagina. If you can't understand that then I feel you must be a normie.

>>37102983
I'm not a beta, you piece of shit. I just want to get laid before killerchan kills herself. And I find her avoiding me while espousing how lonely and fucked up she is hilarious. Typical cunt who is only capable of caring about herself.

>>37099382
>Working
>Have to service psych ward
>Escort leaves me and I get locked in by incompetent staff
>Desk ladies won't unlock door
>call front desk, they think I'm a prank caller
>As I'm calling the boss my phone dies
>Oh well I'm stuck
>Guy taps me on the shoulder
"Don't worry buddy, this will get you out"
>He starts pissing on the table with connect four
>Staff starts running in
>I slip out the door as yells "Bye Bye Butterfree"
My hero.

>>37101816
hey i live in bama! i may be an audience to it

>>37102434
>the anons that post this hate for women meme fanatically have been in psyche wards

It all makes fucking sense now

>>37100483

Is that in the lower right corner a dried cow fetus?

>>37103031
lol, I'm not a normie. I'm a khv.

I'm just saying, there's bigger problems to be concerned with than just fucking a used-up alabama whore. Try to focus on marrying a woman and starting a large family instead.

>>37103089
this thread is too fargone. We need to make a new thread with a no women allowed rule. That would be more effective.

>>37099382
The best experience I had in this year :D

>>37103072
>people with dissenting view points are treated hostilly by the mainstream members of society

Wow, shocker, right?

>>37103095
You don't understand. All women reject me no matter what I do. I am simply not good enough and I feel a lot of men are in the same situation. In fact I know it. We live in a society that puts women on a pedestal to the point where average fucking guys like us are left out in the cold, lonely and forgotten. It is this phenomenon that eats at my brain and heart everyday and I'm now at the point of barely holding on. I can't do this anymore. I've been alone all my life and no girl will even give me the time of day? lol Just about done.

>>37103189
>gets mad that society puts women on a pedastal
>begs a mentally ill HPV homeless roastie to fuck him
you're a walking contradiction boyo

>>37103154
Thanks anon. I'm already considering a sex doll. I just need to move out first.

>>37103248
>implying I was begging
nigger I just wanted to fuck her before she kills herself

>>37103189
no offense, but you're not an average guy because the average guy has had sex at your age. If you're trying to have sex but still can't the reason has to be a fault in either your appearance, your personality, or both.

>>37103298
Fuck off, normie. If I wanted this kind of bullshit response I'd be on Reddit. Go live your normal life with your girlfriend and your friends and leave /r9k/ the fuck alone.

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>>37103269
>i..i.. wasn't orbiting i swear

>>37103326
im a scientist, my friend. I'm just speaking truthfully. if 75 % of men your age are nonvirgins by now, and you aren't, then you must differ from most men in some clear way. That's all.

Personally, I'm not white, so I'm planning to remain celibate for life to avoid passing on inferior genes.

>>37103364
you're misreading my post.

I was saying that if he's trying to have sex but still can't, than he isn't the average guy (since the average guy could have sex).

I never said that it made him abnormal or bad for not wanting to or not trying to have sex.

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>>37103370
>Personally, I'm not white, so I'm planning to remain celibate for life to avoid passing on inferior genes.

thats the spirit

>>37102778
>Not her, but are you really so thirsty that you'd drive all the way to Alabama to fuck a mentally ill homeless, HPV positive roastie 13 hours before she splatters her brains all over the freeway? If that's the case, then you're an even worse orbiter than the beta orbiters that follow a girl for 2 years without dating her.

honestly this, jesus christ
>>37102926
>I like you killerchan. Please stay alive.
thx, I hope I don't puss out, it's hard getting up there on the interstate, scary

>>37103070
>hey i live in bama! i may be an audience to it

just read the news saturday for pedestrian deaths

>>37102767
>in guessing you did something retarded and asked to get raped
i knew this would happen

>>37103370
>le inferior genes meme

Every brain broken committed shitter ITT is most likely white and statisics generally support it.

>>37102835
>It wasn't my friends fault she got raped. It was indeed a random act of violence.
>It wasn't the same for you?

not exactly, I didn't want to go back to the shelter that night and made an unwise squatting decision

>it was your fault for not going back to the safety of the shelter

there I said it so nobody else has to

>>37103400
>is a mentally ill homeless, HPV positive roastie
>thinks she can judge me for wanting to fug

LOL fuck you bitch. I hope your death is painful.

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>>37103400
if only you had "known it would happen" before it did

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Please anons in this thread. Answer me this; because i know this is something relevant to nit just this thread but also all of r9k

I'm trying to figure out why many of you itt will drop and derail a "perfectly fine thread" as you put it, to go on a tireless tirade about how you absolutely hate women and how you either want to shame one kill one or rape one.

No woman single human female have possibly been at the heart of your intense hatred. What is the core for this hate for every and all women. Who did this to you.
You take personal offense to the implications that a women is "in your presence" (even on the same website no less)

Was it from every female ignoring you? Were you so utterly shamed in person. Or do you just fill your head with the experiences of others and take up their hatred into your own because you have no other experience.

Women aren't all the same, so saying that you understand the mindset of all women isnt an answer and is just plain fucking retardation. But i honestly do want a synopsis.

>>37099382
why do you kids make these threads?
some of us (me) have had real experiences in mental hospital and it's not comfy at all.

It was hell. Absolute hell. It made me more suicidal.

>>37103413
Well, the US census may count me as white technically, but I'm not actually white in reality.

In actuality, I'm jewish

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>>37103364
>muh personal experience speaks for the masses

Really activated my almonds

>>37102815
>Lo and behold when someone says "Okay, I'll fuck you." what does she do? Kek. It's always the same and I'm sick of it.

It's always the same?

Women always say they can't have sex with you because they have a torn uterus from a late term nigger rape baby abortion and are bleeding and in pain and their pussy is a disgusting post surgery mess?

I had no idea!

>>37103451
The thread is not comfy. Obviously the concept of having a comfy psyche ward thread is over. So you should greentext your shitty experience

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When I was a teenager the school wanted to send me to a psych ward but mom didn't let them. Did I miss out ?

>>37103451
just because you were locked in some nigger facility in the middle of nowhere, doesn't mean that mental health facilities everywhere else are shit.

>>37099912

What country was this from ?

>>37103445
If you read a book you take in others experiences, if they do a good enough job they will paint a picture.

That is no different to reading some posts on reddit or 4chan that also similarly paint a picture.

Even if many of those stories are falsehoods imagined by virgins to lure all other virgins into a false sense of righteousness in staying that way -- some of them are real.

It's the fact that these stories are believable; extrapolating my own negative experiences with women I can imagine women saying or doing these things, I can picture these things perfectly, even if they are lies.

That is just a reflection on how bad women "can" be. It doesn't matter if they are or aren't as bad as anyone does or doesn't say they are.

The fact is that women CAN do these things and society is shaped to basically allow these things, so even if these stories go unreported...the chance of them happening is still pretty high.

Also, watching friends and just other people in general in relationships, how they change, how they act, most of these relationships are controlled by the woman.

I don't hate women, but at the same time I will never trust any woman, or put any energy or effort into a woman because of the things I've seen and heard, and basically how I believe things really are.

>>37103445
shitposting, obviously

although now I've broken character

>>37103437
>>is a mentally ill homeless, HPV positive roastie
>>thinks she can judge me for wanting to fug
>LOL fuck you bitch. I hope your death is painful.

How did I judge you

also I have never had anal sex before so it would be an unpleasant experience for both of us

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>>37103445
My hatred for women stems from them all either completely ignoring me, or rejecting me. And when you talk about it affecting you negatively, you're met with nothing but condescending words, being told to grow up, that it isn't a real problem, that your feelings generally do not matter. You're ignored completely and mocked unless you're the 1% Chad who makes 6 figures has a huge dick, and/or model-tier looks. And while this is going on you have to watch ads on TV and elsewhere push the narrative that women are the ones who have it hard, that women are the ones who aren't cared about. It's bullshit.

>>37103476
You're not funny. If your pussy wasn't destroyed you still wouldn't fuck me so just don't. I'm done.

>>37103476
take your racism and fuck off to /pol/

>>37103432
It doesn't sound like your fault if you just wanted to sleep somewhere. Shelters are generally shit as well.

>>37103536
>take your racism and fuck off to /pol/
wat

>>37103531
Idc. I just want sex. Why would I care about you having a pleasant experience when you don't care about me and are going to kill yourself anyway? All you're doing is judging me even though all I want is sex and to fix your problems. You'll ignore me won't give me any contact info, then you'll go to other threads and claim you're so lonely.

>>37103432
Dumb roastie probably tried to sleep in a crackhouse and got fucked from dusk til dawn by five niggers lol

>>37103476
>>Lo and behold when someone says "Okay, I'll fuck you." what does she do? Kek. It's always the same and I'm sick of it.
>It's always the same?
>Women always say they can't have sex with you because they have a torn uterus from a late term nigger rape baby abortion and are bleeding and in pain and their pussy is a disgusting post surgery mess?
>I had no idea!

Fucking laughed out loud, I love you killerchan

>>37103543
im a man, so I wouldn't fuck an israeli militant.

Also, Israel is the number 2 supporter of terrorism worldwide, so I would never go on birthright there (though I am eligible to fly to Israel for free)

>>37103556
>nigger rape baby
>not racist
fuck off you god damn retarded stormfag drumpflet

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>>37103432
>made an unwise squatting decision
gotta be careful about those

Honestly, all the replying to the roastie wouldn't be so bad if half of it wasn't white knights telling her not to kill herself.

>>37103564

my sides have ascended into the space between galaxies.

>>37103562
>You'll ignore me won't give me any contact info

Come by the Jimmy Hale mission in the morning, If I'm still alive that's where I'll be

I'll be the only skinny young girl walking out at about 6:45 to go to the liquor store that opens at 7

I might wear my dress since I won't have to beg tommrrow

>>37103593
forgot name here but this is me

>>37103577
>>>37103556 (You)
>>nigger rape baby
>>not racist
>fuck off you god damn retarded stormfag drumpflet

lol if you got blacked you would say nigger too

>>37103577
she literally got nigger-raped, she has the right to be racist you fucking antifa scum

>>37103591
Fuck off normie she's a good source of entertainment

>>37103564
>Dumb roastie probably tried to sleep in a crackhouse and got fucked from dusk til dawn by five niggers lol

this is not far off from what happened, I scoped the place during the day and it seemed OK

>>37103607
one bad black person doesnt make the entire race bad you retarded hillbilly

>>37103589
no, because marrying a jew would propagate inferior jewish genes.

Honestly, about 4 months ago I was considering having myself sterilized to avoid reproducing later on. But then, I decided that it was probably easier to just remain a virgin for life, so that's my plan.

>>37103526
You're reading only bad shit and think you have enough evidence to support that every woman is a psychopath. Thats like reading a bunch if hospital horror stories and believing that every hospital will be horrifying.

Socrates said "i know one thing and it is that i know nothing."

I hated women at some point. But i have had great experiences with them and it made me understand that generalizing something because i don't understand it will stop me from enjoying great things.
But many of you Reading about relationship cheating stories on Reddit should never have been the main foundation for disinfranchised men but it did and now you make yourself suffer.

>>37103593
Nah, not going to Alabama without you posting timestamp. I want to fuck you in your ass but I'm not stupid.

>>37103607
huh no thats problematic
rape = privilege + dick + butt

>>37103618
may as well greentext the rape now
did you scream a lot? struggle?
or did you just whimper and lay there like a meaty fuckbag

>>37102412
>why aren't these people who are supposed to help my mental health letting me kill animals

>>37103618
> still didn't post proof of being a female and not some roleplaying robot
> still not posting the rape greentext

Why the fuck are you here then ,you used up garbage?

>>37103619
yes, because only one nigger has ever raped a pure white girl.

>>37103632
what the fuck are you on about?

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>>37103672
>> still didn't post proof of being a female and not some roleplaying robot
here's your proof faggot

I won't timestamp anything because someone will find me or call the cops and get me committed again

>>37103682
consider it reparations for 300 years of slavery you mad fucking honkey

>>37103491
>21, last year.
>fell out with my girlfriend.
>life fell apart a few weeks prior to that.
>nothing left.
>girlfriend was helping me through previous wave of depression.
>she told me earlier in the day she didn't want to talk to me anymore and we were breaking up.
>she blocked me everywhere.
>zero closure.
>after a day of contemplation, realization of being alone, terrified, upset..slit wrists in shower after drinking
>go unconscious in shower.
>however-long it was later police show up.
>put in ambulance.
>taken to hospital.
>didn't lose much blood, didn't cut deep, just enough to go unconscious.
>police asks me where my parents are as they guard my bed, so I don't leave.
>manage to tell them they're both at home, I'm in a different city for university.
>ask them not to contact my parents.
>they respect my decision.
>police tells me I need to talk to the crisis team (the team that's been helping me with depression)
>crisis team shows up about an hour later, in hospital bed.
>ask to leave, don't think my cuts justify taking up a hospital bed.
>crisis team agrees, but says that I can't go home either.
>they take me into the mental health ward.
>tell me that after this I only really have one option, voluntarily go to inpatient care or involuntarily go.
>go voluntarily because I don't want things to be a nightmare.
>place looks like a prison.
>smells like a hospital.
>on 1:1 care. get told I need to take drugs every night.
>constant blue light over me while I sleep.
>no electronic items allowed, no phone chargers either.
>no running water. (so people don't drown themselves)
>everyone smells like shit because of no showers.
>don't leave room in 2 weeks. most of this time is just crying and wanting to kill myself.
>male nurse comes in and tells me he thinks I'm just really depressed.
>basically tells me I need to lie to get out, even if I am depressed, I need to lie and say I'm fine or I'll never leave.
>mental health officer assesses me.

>>37103593
You wanna hang out? I was raped too if it matters.

>>37103686
> roleplaying and pretending to have been raped in the past on an anonymous imageboard for attention

Not sure which is more pathetic.

>>37103535
Because you do need to grow up.

You've spent no time. None, interacting with an adult woman. You think bars are the only place to meet people, you ignore all instances of a positive experience with a girl and broadly generalise 3.5 billion humans because you've read 12 stories about some asshole woman cheating on a guy. Go join a book club. Go to work and maintain a prifessional attitude and do not flirt with the women in the field. Try not to look desperate and treat woman hoe they want to be.

Also understand that women view sex differently. No I'm not going to write how because people are different and you cant generalise like you know everything.

>>37103577
Get a load of this cuck
oreganically

>>37103714
>>>37103686 (You)
>> roleplaying and pretending to have been raped in the past on an anonymous imageboard for attention
>Not sure which is more pathetic.

which is more pathetic than what?

you only gave one option

>>37103723
tell us about the rape
original bonerino

>>37103723
Getting yourself raped then wanting to kill yourself over it or pretending to be raped, obviously

>>37103705
>You wanna hang out?
maybe, do you have a big truck?

>>37103046
What a hero, I strive to be like him

>>37103697
yes, slavery that your African ancestors willingly sold their fellows into. you have your own people to blame for your problems. and you're welcome for slavery by the way, if not for the intervention of white people your pampered nigger ass would be rotting away in Africa right now.

>>37103720
>Also understand that women view sex differently.
Differently how?
Genuinely want to know.

lmao you idiots are so easy to troll
im not even a girl

>>37103764
> pretending to be me

took way too long