painful childhood memories

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>on holiday with extended family
>little brother refuses to come home from the playground
>lie and tell him we have ice cream
>he comes home and the little shit starts bawling his eyes out when my mum tells him there's no ice cream
>my mum buys ice cream for literally everyone except me to teach me a lesson

It still hurts bros...

Walking into your parents having sex at age 12. Never will forget the horror. *cringes*

>build blanket fort out of dining chairs and blankets
>live inside it for a few days
>come back and see fort gone

How do you ironically watch your dad burning your mom's thigh with hot iron?

I slipped on wet floor, hit myself in the head and it started bleeding. Seven stitches in my head later it still hurt pretty bad.
Maybe the part of my brain responsible for social development was damaged and that's why I'm a social retard now.

> father had been abusing sister for months
> Mom finds out and kicks him out
> In the middle of the night he comes back home
> He wants to kill mom
> We try to stop him and hold him down
> Three 6-10 years old kids trying to stop a grown up man from strangling their mother
The worst moment of my life.

>>37065021
wtf kind of bad memory is that lol

>Dad calling me retarded and hitting me for not understanding homework

I'm not getting into any more detail than that

>>37065150
that's like the worst age for that to happen

>18 year old sister making me eat her out when im 6 years old
WHAT THE FUCK AND NOONE BELIEVES THAT WOMEB CAN RAPE MEN I FUCKING HATE WOMEN SO GOD DAMN MUCH THAT FUCKING RACEMIXING WHORE REEEEEEEEEEE

>>37065455
>>37065638
disgusting

How common is incestual rape really? I've seen so many stories, I'm starting to think it's a meme at this point.

>>37065511
Are you too retarded to look into that empty head of yours and remember? *hits you* *touches you in your sleep later the same day*

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>>37065511
This same thing happened to me. He was getting really upset because it was midnight and he had to get up for work at 5:00am and I just couldn't grasp what my homework was asking me. He slapped me and said I'm not stupid.

Guess he was wrong since I was kicked out of my uni because I failed classes every semester.

>>37065346
>watch him do it and say
>"hey I guess you could say that's pretty IRONIC my dude"

>brother molested me for most of my childhood
>parents don't believe me
>refused to take me to therapy
>everyone thought I was a disgusting liar
kms

>come home late from a lovely concert
>skip calling your dad to say goodnight that night because it's late and you'll see him tomorrow
>fall asleep swiftly in your comfy blanket
>your mom wakes you up in the middle of the night with tears in her eyes
>you ask what's wrong but all she says is "come on" with an attempted smile
>find four police officers in the living room
>you sit down, confused
>"Your dad died, he was fetching his laundry when he broke into a coughing fit. Do you by any chance have the numbers of your family abroad?"

>>37065861
Are you a grill? Why don't you make a beta happy before you go?

>>37065706
Most of them are. For example, the guy you replied saying that his sister made him "eat her out"... You don't really believe him, do you?
A good trick to tell when these are fake is when the story is eroticised. Let me tell you something about family rape tales: there's nothing erotic about it. It destroyed our family and our lives. It's something that haunt us to this day and I certainly wouldn't tell it like this.

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>hearing nana (my grandmother) yell out for help and for her mother in the middle of the night
>watching nana being pulled out of the house on stretcher

>mom hits herself
>watch my step-dad hold my mom back so she doesnt go to neighbors and call cops

>cps comes to my house and talks to me

>mom gets really drunk and takes pills and then drives me and siblings to restaurant to meet up with family in cali from when nana died

>mom coming to my dads house telling me nana died

>hiding in my room so my mom doesnt fight me

>mom signing me off from custody and doesn't have a second thought

>my dad told me my mom tried to kill herself

>my brothers get pulled out of school to be home-schooling because they get bullied because of aspergers
>brother has several referrals because he gets angry when people bully him
>my little dude has FAS (Fetal alcoholic syndrom) and is going to fuck his life up forever

im tearing up writing this

>stepdad pushes me to the couch after i accidentally hurt my little brother

>crying to my dad about my mom's alcohol addiction
>crying to my dad about my mom & step dad's money situation
(my step-dad told me a lot of adult problems when he shouldn't be venting to a kid like me)

i miss my little brothers and my mom. im pretty sure she is sorry, but it still hurts.

I almost saw her at target the other day, but i left after talking to my (ex?) stepdad. i was really fucking nervous

>7 years old
>watching tv with dad when mom yells for me
>dad says not to go
>mom comes to yell at me for not coming when she called
>dad jumps up and attacks her
>i run to the phone and call 911
>dad comes towards me, rips phone out of wall
>mom picks me up and uses me as a shield until police come
Dad was supposed to stay away from our house, but came in the middle of the night and tried to kidnap me so my mom let him stay.
Turns out my mom was cheating on him, but I still feel bad my dad used me that way.

>>37065931
> That fictional precision
> The day he died is exactly the damn day you didn't say goodnight
That's such an obvious give away, anon. Learn to write more convincing stories before greentexting them.

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>be kind of fat, socially incapable autist
>parents want to help me with both of those problems by sending me off to a boy scouts camp
>no friends and get bullied to hell and back, they let me clean everything, spat in my food, took money from me, hid my clothes, etc
>one day before we went home
>my biggest bully finds a pocket knife and starts chasing me with it
>run around the camp with seemingly no one minding, finally decide to hide in the bathroom
>see fat adult scout leader peeing at a urinal
>BEG him to help me
>>lol silly kids, just playing and enjoying themselves :)
>lock self inside stall with the leader just standing outside while the bully tries to force his way in
>scream for help and cry my eyes out
>leader just says I should ask him to stop or something, and he walks off
>be stuck inside stall for 15 minutes with the bully insulting me and banging on the door, I've never been so scared

>the bell sounds, announcing it's lunchtime
>bully runs off and didn't threaten me again
>wait a couple of hours until someone came to look for me

Because of this and a similar experience at school, I now have ever worsening shy bladder syndrome and huge trust issues, basically forcing me to not go out of my home for extended periods of time and leaving me with little real friends

If I end up killing myself, I'm gonna write both the bully's and the leader's full names on my note so they know what they have done

>Aced my midterms know i fucking did
>got a fucking A in english
>double check
>nope that's definitely not an A+
>come home for break
>grandma already at the door with the fucking oar that is the punishment spoon
>so angry she's reverted back to korean
>20 minutes of getting 2 arm swinged while i cry into dads lap
>20 more crying after grandmas done and gone
>dads consoling me
>says they're only tough on me because i was born first
>says they can't trust me shit brothers to be the bread winner so they don't end up like most americans in a shitty retirement home
>grabdma pops back in
>screams at dad to stop coddling
>dad slaps me
>leave to my room
>can hear dad sob a bit as i leave
>shut the world out and play Crusader in my room for a week

>>37066084
> Reddit-spacing
Get lost, newfaggot. Noone wants to read your bullshit

>>37066114
???? it's true desu???
thanks for hurting my feelies anon >:(
penis

>>37066051
yeah i'm a girl, why?

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>>37066177
im not a newfag and i dont go on reddit. i was just trying to differentiate the memories so it's easier to read. sorry i have a ton of pictures from 2013. i dont want to leave

>10 year old boy from chechnya
>sister plays online game, retarded muslim dad wants her to stop
>i lie for her
>retarded muslim dad takes my head and beats it against a wall
>2 years later my sister dates my best friend

Fuck my family

>>37066230
Just curious. Origenele

>Mom's third babby daddy
>cokehead, likes PCP
>they get into an argument
>Baby Daddy: "I will kill you and bleed all over you, they will find us covered in my blood"
>They're both naked and struggling in the next room
>12 years old

>>37066064
>sister forces a 6 year old to eat legal adult out
>somehow this is eroticisized

>>37065742
Kek

Aboriginal committee

>dad about to go bankrupt
>parents arguing downstairs
>hear everything and don't know how to react
>mom refers to me as "your fucking son"
>"your fucking son did that"
>hug my plushie real hard and start crying
>mom goes upstairs and looks at me crying with her dead, angry eyes
>feel like inner light is getting weaker
>a month goes by
>house has been bought
>we move our stuff out of the house
>have to move with mom to a shitty flat
>dad waiting outside
>hug him real tight then start crying
>"why do I have to go, dad? I love you!".
>cry my fucking life out
>suddenly don't feel anything
>inner light snuffed out
>get in car with mom
>mom looks at me with her cold, dead eyes again

I'm 25 and I still feel dead inside. 15 years after all that shit.

I died when I was 10.

>>37065742
>unironically using asterisks leddit-style

>>37066508
If you be my friend I can teach you more about the world of jokes. :3

>>37066505
Hows your dad doing? Original

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>>37066598
I rarely talk to him. I don't know how to answer that.

He started making money again but I never benefited much from it. I lived in various degrees of poverty since then.

>on computer playing a shitty game
>mums away dad's out drinking
>comes home everything's fine
>suddenly snaps yells at me and says he could kill me

Sunset, I know you're reading this. fuck you

>>37066665
So close.

>>37066703
What the fuck did you do, Sunset?

>>37066774
So close to what?

>>37066793
Check your digits originall

>>37066793
Those digit, my bro.
Also, you have to find a way to drink a beer with your pa.

>>37065021
That's a good mother.

I remember being a bit of a shitkid and actually getting into a physical fight with my mother, I was a bit taller and strong willed so I just held her arms and tried to stop her from hitting me. Stepdad had to separate her from me, she was still trying to kick me while she was being dragged away.

This didn't really affect me, it was probably for the better since we got a bit better at communicating thereafter somehow ( I won't complain )

>>37066821
I want to organize something meaningful with him but he's avoiding me.

I want to let go of all that but I can't.

>>37064968
>Usually my big sister would make me breakfast: eggs, toast, bacon
>On Saturdays mom would make me oatmeal. I hated it but if I didn't eat it all she'd scream at me for being ungrateful
>I'd have diarrhea Saturday nights and mom would tell me to 'stop making life hard for her'
>When I was six it happened, just like every Saturday
>She pulled me into her room and got out a metal rod for heavy curtains
>She pulled down my pants and started whipping me with it
>It hurt so bad! I was crying and screaming. I was begging her to stop, that I'd do anything
>I tried to get away and she was beating me on the back, then my arms
>I felt my left pinkie finger break and then it hit the side of my head by my left eye and it was hot and I couldn't see out of my left eye
>I was curled up and she was hitting my legs, trying to get to my balls
>She was screaming "You're just like him! You're a filthy piece of shit just like your father! I hate you!" over and over
>I tried to crawl away and get under the bed so she started kicking me and screaming
>I still remember watching blood pour off my nose from my left eye as I tried to get under the bed
>Then w=there was a lot of screaming and yelling and someone really strong grabbed my feet and pulled me out - it was a cop
>My big sister had called them, begged them to come before she killed me
>Mom had tried to attack the cops when they came in, too
>Mom had told me and my sister dad had abandoned us - turns out she had accused him of molesting us and beating her, filed for divorce and gotten a restraining order against him. he'd spent all year trying to get custody
>She broke three of my finger and fractured the orbit of my left eye. It was a week before I could walk properly because of the beating
>Six months after dad got us he took me to the doctor - I am allergic to oats
>Mom was put into psych eval, failed, spent 3 years there before they released her
>Haven't seen her since that night

>>37066843
Probably because you remind him of his marriage and your mom. Do you know his brothers or sisters?

>>37066894
I feel like my mom has tried to crush my mind since then because of that very reason.

I know my uncles, yeah.

>>37066925
I don't getting them to organize a meet up is the best idea, but having them talk to him might help. The real world is scary.

>Be 12 and visiting Phuket with family
>notice a lot of older men with girls around my age
>realise these men are pedophiles and these girls are protitutes
>one of the girls looks me in the eye, a mixture of pain, embarrassment and pure sadness in her eyes
>Repressed the memory for years but I never forgot that look

wanting to wear girls clothes and my mum telling me "you don't want people to think you're a sissy do you?"

>>37064968
>Grew up; dad was a successful doctor. We had plenty of money, a really nice house, pool, etc.
>Dad always told me 'be open-handed; money is just a tool, don't cling to it too much. If you have enough, pass it on."
>he was very generous and gave me a nice allowance and I gave most of it away, too
. I had classmates visit me all the time, come to the house for parties, etc.
>Then my mom and dad died in a car crash. I was just 14. The will was really odd, but we had to live with my aunt and sell the house and stuff and all the money went into a trust so I would get it when I was 25. Just a small annuity to pay my aunt until then
>So I was living in a small, old house with no money, my parents are dead
>All those people who came to swim in the pool? To eat the food? Who let me pay for them to go to the amusement park with me?
>99% of them never spoke to me ever again, one they thought I was broke.
>2 guys and 1 girl were there for me, solid.
>I learned the difference between 'people yu know' and 'friends' real fucking fast

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>>37064968
I don't have anything too bad.
I remember my father beating my mother, but that happens to a lot of people.

A lot of the bad stuff happened when I was 11.
My father would strip my mother bare, and he would beat her in front of us.

I was at a stage in my life where I had been conditioned to accept that as normal, so it wasn't as strong as it should've been.

I don't hate my father though. I've forgiven him for all the wrong he has done in the past.

>>37064968
watching my sisters face as she is told her dad is gone and not coming back.
i remember that and the subsequent six months like it was another life, or another person living it.
i remember the exact moment when it ended and life began again, it took ages.

> when my dad got drunk and threw me down the stairs
> when i was going to my room after an argument and my stepmom hissed in my ear that if i turned around or looked at her she would kill me and make it look like an accident
> both of them laughing over how pathetic i looked when i was crying after they hit me
> being starved for several months and only getting pity snacks from people at school to survive on
> ironing a wrinkle into a shirt on accident so my fingers were ironed as a punishment
> losing my door as a punishment, drunk dad would watch me get changed
> losing books as a punishment because they were all i had left and if i was sick enough to need pills to function i was too sick to 'distinguish fiction from reality'

>>37067064
Guess I'm going to Phuket boys!

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>>37067255
You'll have to make a trip to the bank first...

The blood bank

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>>37064968
>Be me, 12
>Being watched by older brother each friday night while parents are out.
>Brother holds me down and punches me in the ribs.
>Spits in my face.
>Same thing every week.

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>>37064968
>find out that dad was cheating on mum (again)
>They're upstairs screaming at eachother
>Things getting thrown
>Unaudible screaming from the both of them
>Sister is in the living room with me, crying
>Mum screams 'By the I've told anon about the other times. He knows everything'
>They both come downstairs
>Mum says 'so how're you gonna tell the kids that you just smacked their mother'
>He ignores her
>He comes into the living room with tears in his eyes and blood on his face
>He says 'I'm so sorry for everything' and then hugs me
>He gets into his car and drives away
>He disappears for a week
>He comes back a week later
>Acts like nothing happened

I've lost nearly all respect I had for him

>>37067312
Sure thing! You can have the prostitue. I'm done with her anyway...

>>37067431
You're done?
You've got that right.

>>37066104
>mom picks me up and uses me as a shield until police come
Do you mean like, literally using you as a human shield? That's fucked up, as your mother she should be the one protecting you, especially when you were just a kid

>siblings/cousins bully me and all I was told is just ignore it

>get molested by another child and was to afraid to tell parents

>start gaining weight and family makes fun of me but parents don't help me loose it

>try out new hairstyle and I feel pretty good until a teacher points at me and says nice hairstyle anon while the other teachers laugh

>bullied entire time I'm in school

Now I'm a socially awkward fat adult with no hobbies or dreams.

>>37067456
I got something right? Just like the price of the prostitute.

>>37067535
>Getting molested

One time when I was 6 or 7, a boy tried to kiss me so I kicked him in his jaw. I don't understand how you didn't have the same reaction.

>>37067593
She was a popular kid and I wanted to fit in. After that she started blackmailing me saying she would tell my parents about it

>>37067593
Maybe you're just a natural born qt and he couldn't help it. Also, are you a ninja?

>>37065150
literally meme-tier """"trauma""""

>>37067681
I'm a guy, and we were sitting down.

>>37066665
Im really really sorry dude. That breaks my heart reading that. Wish there was something I could do for you... :(

>>37067729
You can still be a qt guy

The amount of feels in this thread so far... As a hardcore empath, I cant handle this.

>>37067532
yeah because she knew my dad wouldn't really hurt me. she's a pretty awful person.

>>37065455
Jesus. That's rough bud.

Do you have a kind soul?
Do you think it stems from that time?


Mine:
>molested by mum's friend's son
>too ashamed to tell
>he picks on me for years after I stand up for myself and stop it
>most of my troubles stem from those events

kill all pedos

Watching my brother give my sister mouth-to-mouth when she died.

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>>37064968
>witnessing my dad slowly wither away in hospice at our house from an aggressive brain tumor when I was seven
I was petrified of hospital equipment and didn't want to directly say goodbye when he died because of it.

>>37067952
Started out hot and ended sad.

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>mom and dad got divorced when I was young, around 4 or 5
>when I got older both parents re-marry, have stepmom and stepdad
>live with mom, visit dad on weekends
>dad had problems with alcohol, was never a "bad" drunk as in he never got abusive towards others when he was drunk but still had a problem
>went to AA meetings later on, made an effort to get control over his drinking
>be me when I was 13, staying at my dad's house
>dad, stepmom and I are watching tv while talking
>topic turns to God and religion
>stepmom is kind of cynical about religion
>as she's basically saying stuff like how god's plan is all bullshit/unfair my dad slowly got more depressed
>later, I go into my room and play on my computer
>dad sort of relapsed and got piss drunk
>stumbles into doorway, keeps repeating "I love you"
>i'm confused
>never seen him this drunk
>"I-I love you too dad"
>he eventually leaves
>feel lonely and sad, but none of my friends are online so I have no one to talk to and take my mind off of it
>curl up in bed and cry
I didn't really realize it back then, but now I'm pretty sure at least one of the reasons he got so upset is that when he was trying to quit drinking religion helped him get through it a lot.

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Being molested by a classmate in the third grade and a couple of his friends. We were in a far corner of the playground, so no one saw anything. He made me suck his dick, his friend put mine in his mouth. Didn't like it, they tried anal with each other, but for some reason it didn't work. I never told my parents or a teacher out of embarrassment. He called it the "sex boys club". Pretty good explanation for my fucked up sexual problems today.

>>37066125
write down my name for the bantz

>>37066883
Intense. What a fucking cunt.

>>37066114
That's how those things usually happen you retarded faggot piece of shit.
Nothing is ever true for some fags.

>>37068074
Stop making up hot stories, you're making me hot and bothered.

>>37066125
Why not record some tapes telling the story while you are at it

>>37066883
Find that bitch and give her the same beating

>>37067174
Holy shit. Sorry for what happened to you anon.

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Having dinner
>Mom is annoying dad
>He throws the bread into the salad
>He shouts that she has to thank him for the dinner
>>NO
>>SAY THANK YOU
>>NO
>>SAY THANK YOU
>>NO
>Hits her against the side of the head with his fist
>Next thing I remember she is standing in the corridor crying that she cannot hear anything
>He had hit her so hard she lost her hearing in that ear
>My brother is consoling her
>My dad is standing in the room looking shocked at what he did
>I hug him and console him

On a cycling trip
>Mom cycling ahead with brother sitting on the luggage carrier
>Dad cycling alongside me
>Mom goes too fast (she always does)
>Dad has to stay with me so he can't catch up with her
>Getting annoyed
>Eventually she stops or waits for us or something, after ages
>Dad pushes her into the ditch with her bike and my brother

This one my mom told me about afterwards, I don't really remember
>Mom comes home late from work, is tired
>Dad has looked after us all day, is tired
>Wants her to read my brother a bedtime story
>She refuses
>Drags her through room by her hair

Another one
>Late at night, shouting
>They are now separated and take turns living in the house
>I come downstairs to tell them to stop
>My mom's coat is on the floor in a puddle of porridge
>she was eating it and then threw it on the floor
>he threw her coat in it
>weird fighting

>>37067174
i really hope your life has improved.

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literally painful

>be me 7-8
>at grandparents' place
>commieblock 2nd floor because eastern eurofag
>decide i want to go look outside
>go to the balcony
>too short can't see shit
>pick up a small stool i noticed laying around
>climb the stool and bend over the window
>fall down (on grass fortunately)
>break two limbs

this is probably why I turned out like this fellas

>>37066883
You are a brave
You are strong and it is a honor for you to be on this board.
Fuck your dirty mother, god this makes me hate woman sometimes

>>37068546
Your dad has autism.

>>37065706
the more poor a household is, the more likely it is to happen i find.

So many. But my childhood was fairly average, I don't know why the bad stuff stands out more.

Anyway
>Be about 7 or 8
>Have this pet parrot that we rescued after it injured itself somehow
>Chill ass bird, likes being petted and playing and eats out of my hand
>One day, parents want to go out to a country town about an hour away to do something
>Don't want to go, wanna hang with my bird
>They make me, all "you can play with him tomorrow"
>Not good enough
>Scream and cry in the car until dad pulls over and slaps my face again and again until I shut up a bit (always slapped my face, never anywhere else)
>Get home late and go to bed
>Get up early the next morning
>Pester ma until she comes outside with me to wake my bird up
>Bird is dead, hanging upside down on his perch

It wasn't so much that he died, even though that would have upset me anyway, but I was so certain my dad ha killed him because I was acting up. Now I know that he wouldn't have, but it fucked me up for years.

>>37067174
fuck me this is one of the most heart wrenching shits i've read in a while all the best anon hope you're alright now

>>37068190
This. If it weren't for the fact it was the one night that he didn't call to say goodnight, it probably wouldn't be nearly as painful and wouldn't be posted in here.

One of the things I will never forgive my father for. It isn't that much of a childhood story, it happened 2 years ago (I was 17).

>father always been bad tempered in general and has sleeping disorders
>asshole to me in particular, but its tolerable
>get into a fight one night
>never opposed him like that night
>hes going apeshit insulting me
>continue fighting with a smirk on my face
>takes the remote and throws it at me, miss
>gets up and tells me "everything went downhill in my life since you were born, god i wish i jacked you off instead of cumming in your mom"
>goes to his bedroom, punches the wallclock, smashing it to pieces
>go to my room, spend the night crying in my pillow

I don't care about the insults, throwing the remote and all that shit, but that one sentence...

>>37066883
Whats your moms name i could find someone to kill her

>>37066125
Want to hang out with me?

>>37066125
>I'm gonna write both the bully's and the leader's full names on my note so they know what they have done
they're just going to laugh at your pathetic and miserable life and suicide

>>37064968

>walk with friends by the beach
>group 'lead' says let's climb cliff with the guy he likes to pick on all the time
>group 'lead' tells me in low tone before going up 'start filming'
>the two reach the top of the cliff, and 'lead' pushes the other guy down, sliding and hitting his face on rocks and debris
>the guy doesn't move and starts crying with a bloodied face
>never shared the video I took of the incident

I deleted the video as well at the time. It was a good call anyway

>>37066177
Is this a new meme? Why is 'reddit spacing' suddenly a thing?

Being preschool age and watching a man hold a knife to my dad's neck.

Burying a litter of kittens as they died one by one because momma cat wouldn't feed them.

Watching dad choke mom against the wall while she shredded skin off his face with her fingernails.

Holding my childhood dog throughout the night as it bled out from a neck wound from another dog.

Being offered meth by my father on my 18th birthday and getting called a pussy and accused of guilt-tripping for getting mad about it.

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>tfw shit childhood overall but mom or dad never really laid a hand on me because they knew I was crazy and would kill them in their sleep if they did

Physical punishments never did anything to me and I think they could see me plotting their deaths in my eyes whenever they tried. Feels good man.

Dad had a really weird friend until I turned like 10.
They would hang out a lot after work, they were colleagues so they almost did it daily. The guy got dad into a lot of situations including prostitutes and getting drunk after work.
When das had affairs mom found out about it somehow and they had arguments that went pretty wild and it made mom a little bit weak on the nerves. Thanks to that I often ended up being the stress relief when I didn't get straight As in school, which usually meant restrictions from everything into throwing everything at me. By this I couldn't make friends because I had to stay home every day and couldn't develope hobbies because I couldn't do anything I just was.
The friend of dad molested me several times and when we were playing in the pool he usually pushed me underwater and held me there until I lost my strength. I'm terribly afraid of water and suffocation since then.
In school I was picked on and punched in the tummy quite a lot but I don't really gave any tought to it.
All together I would say my childhood wasn't anything out of ordinary.

>>37065021

>11 year old me
>doing homework
>Writing a page about some history shit
>Mom is helping out
>Do it for a bit together
>She complains about my handwriting
>Suddenly she takes it rips the whole thing and shouts at me
>In shock, start rushing it
>School next day
>teacher gives me a bad grade for homework
>get beat up at home

>>37064968
>unironically
as opposed to "ironically watching dad burning mom's thigh with hot iron"?

>>37071019
that would make a good rage face comic

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>>37068965
>about 7 years old
>class is standing in single file line at the door in the corner of the classroom as end-of-day procedure
>i'm at the back of the line
>i have to back up a few steps for reasons i can't exactly remember, i think a few fags in front of me were fucking around and pushing each other so i got out of the way
>slip on loose fitting socks, fall backward and slam my head into the edge of the wallshelf behind me with audible smash
>whole class turns to look at me while i'm laying on the floor dazed
>day ending bell rings and everyone excitedly files out as teacher picks me up and walks me to the teacher bathroom
>washes the blood out of my hair and calls my parents
>brought to hospital to have the cut glued shut
>turns out it was just a very minor fracture and slight concussion
that impact may just be the reason I'm retarded today.

>about 4-5
>giant dog comes running up to me
>jumps up and pushes me down
>starts licking my face like crazy
>think it's trying to eat me

I literally can't be in the same room as a dog, even a tiny little one, they just make me too fucking nervous

>5th grade
>classmates decide to put a bag over my head >beat me up

I have a few...all of them are about my brother
> Used to kill my pets or random animals to experiment, in front of me
Like he would slipt them while still alive, rip the hearts out.
> Tried to kill me a couple of times
He Tried to draw me in a pool and once in a big pot with boiling water. Also once tried to burn me to death.
> beating and humiliating my mother
> Sexualy harass me in my childhood.
He is 10 years older. He used to strip me naked and force me to make out with him.

There is a lot of stuff. That's why I am so fucked up right now.

>>37071745
>that filename

Gave me a right old kek

>>37072283
is your older brother a chad now or a murderer?

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>Be eight years old
>Have undiagnosed autism because I am well behaved little girl who does well in school
>Can't maintain eye contact
>Dad hates this, it really pisses him off
>Every time I talk to him he shouts at me mid conversation to actually look at him
>Sometimes grabs my face and forces me to stare into his eyes
>If I started to cry he would just start yelling again
>This didn't help me with eye contact

He killed himself about two years back, which in a fucked up way does make me feel better, but those memories still unsettle me.

>>37073188
anon what are you doing RPing as a little girl on an online basket weaving forum

>>37071992
Merkel? Is that you

>>37065021
You should have left for the playground so the cycle could begin anew.

>>37064968
>be 7
>petting horse
>didn't realize I needed to keep my hand on its side before going slightly behind it
>gets kicked in the face where my teeth are
>teeth are tiny bit crooked
>all it did was sting and I didn't bleed
>thank you fucking god for a thick skull

>be 9
>at my grandmas
>chillin like a literal god
>go outside
>see a black thing on the side of the house
>get close to it
>realize its a fucking spider
>get scared and jump back
>fell on a damn mini cactus
>had to be in a bath for hours getting the little shits out of me

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>>37065818
leave

>You have been muted for 4 seconds, because your comment was not original.

>>37073400
Oh yeah, it does sort of read like I'm saying I'm ten.

No I'm 25 years old and haven't been cute since I was like eleven.

>>37066443
the offbyone poster

>>37072694
He did mudered a 15yo girl but he was just 17 (a minor in my country) so he kinda got away with it.
I think he got educational measures from the state and was in a prison for minors for less than a year. I don't recall details.

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>>37064968
>be 4
>out to get food with mommy
>get separated from her
>get lost
>random drunk homeless guy approaches me
>locked me in the corner, though in plain sight of everyone around
>starts complimenting me
>me being a good boy said "thank you" to it all fucking clueless
>out of nowhere he kisses me
>his tongue tasted like ash and smelled like dead tissue
>he molested me for a good 4-5 minutes while everyone around was busy taking pictures and being scared
>no one fucking helped me
>then out of nowhere my mom comes and pulls me from his grasp
>confused as fuck and having gag reflexes
>TFW say that i sti'll havent kissed anyone yet to lie to myself about this

and since then i don't trust people a single bit, they can rot in hell for all i care.

>>37070985

You know what I find hilarious? Oral sex on a kid is "child abuse" deserving of a slow and painful death but shit like this won't even get you in jail.

I mean, in a logical society, both would get you beaten in public.

>>37073596

Lol, Scandinavians are fucking retarded.

>>37065021
>my mum buys ice cream for literally everyone except me to teach me a lesson

Sadist cunt. Hope she got beaten by your daddy. :^)

>>37073649
Funny Im a latino, even worse I guess.
I have to deal with this fucking sociopath to this day.
I want him to die so much, it will be the happiest day ever.

>>37066173
atleast you werent moolested

Nothing really bad happened to me until I was an adult so it always feels weird for me reading these kinds of stories. Why are people so shitty to their own kids?

>>37071992
...John? From Florida?

>>37073849
They don't know what to do, that's why. Kids can be fucking scary so many parents resort to the one thing they know they can do better: Physical strength.

>>37068546
your dad sounds like a prick

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>all these horror stories of broken homes

you never realize how lucky you really are until you see the other side of things

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>>37070216
That sounds horrible Anon, I hope you're better now. Much love to you

>>37073907
I mean to some extent if you have to use force if everything else fails, but there's a big difference between hitting or restraining your kid and just beating the living shit out of them when they can't defend themselves from you.

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>>37064968
Jesus Christ, I never realized how lucky I was that my Mom left my alcoholic dad when I was too young to remember until I read this thread.

The most painful memory I have is watching my mother commit suicide by jumping in front of a train. You might think I'm exaggerating but I literally think about that moment every day.

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oh boy i have some

>be 3-4ish
>learning to write with mother
>Can`t write well
>mother pissed lockes me up on the fucking gheto looking dark room at the house
>since kid memory has shit perception of time feels like hours
>never mentioned again

>be 4ish
>riding retarded cart walker thing
>stumble on bathroom
>open bathroom
>see my sister on the making

>be 11
>Dad gets a 14 yearold GF
>one day goes to his room while his GF staying in house
>find how they making my stepsister
Literally in front of an loli/grown up guy doujin

>be 12-13ish
>been knowing my now stepmother family
>her sister is 3 years older than me
>Starts staring time to time
>stepmother encourages for me to kiss her

>on night share with her
>she starts kissing me
>we fuck all night for the next 3 days she was staying home

MFW i fucked my stepaunt

>>37074099
Not really surprising. I'm sure that would traumatize every normal person like that. Have you ever considered therapy, Anon?

>>37073986
Yeah but it is what it is. They lose control. You should be required to be physically and mentally examined on a regular basis before you can have kids but alas, that's not the case.

>>37074167
did you get in trouble for fucking your stepaunt though?
if not i can't se how any of that besides your mom locking you up could be a bad memory.

>>37074178
I've received therapy before and I've talked about my mother's suicide before. It just never helped. I thought time would help but it's only made me miss her more.

>3
>mom and dad are fighting
>I run up between them to stop them
>did hits mom twice and then someone calls the cops
>never see him again

>7
>Late at night in a little suburb of austin
>on a highway by some forest
>mom(schizophrenic) has a massive panic attack in the car
>we pull over
>she's screaming about how the shadows are warping and that my dad is coming to kill her
>someone calls 911
>must've been at least 4police cars
>police officer gives me a blanket
>mom freaks out when she's sees me, thinks I'm a fake because I have the blanket
>absolutely frightened
>manage to explain I have a blanket
>seems convinced
>she refuses to get in a cop car so a police officer escorts us 4 miles down the highway walking to a hospital

>8
>living at a homeless shelter with my mom in Phoenix
>there's one mentally ill lady that is notorious for urinating on things
>asleep one night
>wake up me and my moms bed is wet
>my mom almost beats the shit out of her
>mom is on cocaine at this time
>has a few more bad schizophrenic attacks but used to them at this point

>11
>was tossed around the family for custody for a few years until I landed back with my mother in San Antonio
>she's living with an abusive boyfriend
>strict bedtime, even during the summer, except if his kids are visiting then there are no rules
>every time my mom buys me anything she gets yelled at
>call him an asshole for kicking something at my mom
>he takes my laptop away
>was convinced by them that it was stolen
>he's unable to pay for rent but manages to afford a $1600 TV
>blames all the money issues on my mom buying me a game every few months
>was mentally prepared to kill him if he tried to fuck with me much more
>eventually my mom decides we should move in with grandpa in salt lake
>of course my mom's boyfriend acts like an angel when he comes to see us
>resent my aunt and my mom for making me live there for as long as I did (about 2 years)

No sexual abuse as a kid, that happened after I turned 18.

>>37074250
Damn, I'm sorry Anon. I hope you get better soon.

>>37074227
not atcually, she always was suspicius that something was up yet never knew we were together.
my stepaunt had a weird realtionship with me, as in she denied me yet she always found every chance we were alone to feck or make out.
everytime i was forced to nut outside im 18, nearly 7 years since we fucked for first time, no signs of cousin/son

>>37074280
Jesus christ, no one like that should be parents.
Are you suffering any mental illnesses due to everything that's happened? (including sexual abuse)

>>37066125
i felt so much anger reading this. I wish i could proteccc all robot children

>>37066505
:( i want to hug you bro

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This raises a good question, if you had kids what would you do to prevent them from getting bullied/beaten by somebody else

>>37074280
how do you get sexually abused after 18, are you a manlet?

>>37074552
spy on them, of course.

>>37074552
Teach them how to defend themselves.

>>37074552
depends where:
If is on school basicly look to talk to teachers in background, tell child to avoid him, if shit gets bad move him from school.
If is on somewhere else I would go and beat the shit out of the bullies.

>>37074606
You mean facebook and shit? or would you stalk them when they go to school too?
I hope you realize you can't know everything that happens in their lives

>>37074643
>you can't know everything that happens in their lives
No, but you can try. It's just that most parents are glad when they don't have to bother with their kids which often leads me to the question why they wanted children in the first place. Most of the problems come from either abusive parents or from parents that don't want to get involved with their children.

reading this thread makes me feel bad i used to bully my little brother and sister pretty bad for years as a edgy teenager. after my father died i was just such a bad brother. at one point i gave my little bro 6 stitch cut on his leg and got him to lie about it so i would not get in trouble fuck feels bad man

>>37066064
I don't know about that. Depending on how it happens, incest and child molestation can mix up a person's ideas of how love and affection work. If the victim keeps it all a secret and thus receives no therapy these ideas can persist into adulthood. So you can have situations where adults reflect on traumatic childhood events, but they don't entirely regret they happened.

>>37074678
I used to be an asshole to my little sister too, I was just a little shit in general, I'm just glad my relationship with her is good now but she can still make me lose my fucking temper from time to time.

>>37074363
Depression(mostly gone), some personality disorders(working on those), and I'm trans.
The sexual abuse was from really creepy roommates after I moved out, and that stuff happened after transitioning. As in coming into my room in the middle of the night and groping me, tried to make me blow him while I was drunk. Fuck that shit. Don't think it affected me too much tho. I have some armor, even though I'm a super fragile emotional person on the inside and to my boyfriend and a few close friend so.
>>37074568
I'm 5'3 and see above.

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>>37064968
>5 years old
>at uncles house
>he calls me into his room to help him look for something
>tells me I have to take off my pants to help him look
>didn't understand why but did it regardless
>pins me to the bed, licks me from my balls to my feet
>tells me to put my pants back on and sit in the living room

He's now in jail, AMA

>>37066288
I hope you won't take offense when I say that Chechens are the scum of the earth, Anon.

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I honestly don't know how to word any of it

>>37066242
I believe you. Sorry that other prick just gave you that "go back to x" crap. Seriously anybody who thinks it's okay to make snide comments like that to complete strangers, especially in threads like this, they may want to do some serious reflection on what kind of person they are.

Just because we're anonymous doesn't make the person on the other side of the screen any less deserving of civility and respect.

>>37067111
Fuck off sissy degenerate filth

>6th grade and everything is fine
>some point in 7th grade my friends all make friends with a different group of friends
>basically abandon me
>7th and 8th grade sit at the lunch table right next to my old friends + their new friends
>usually alone
>never left house because no one would invite me to anything those two years
>managed to get a phone 9th grade so I could do stuff
>2 years of borderline isolation

>>37074782
At least your depression is going away.

How'd you meet that roommate?

>>37064968
>parents get divorced
>mother is a borderline, bipolar alcoholic
>she would randomly alternate between strangling degrees of affection, violent unprovoked fits and depressed phases where she couldn't take care of us

I'm going to continue to blame her fucked up shit and my autism for my failure

>>37074782
>any mental illness?
>I'm trans
Makes sense

>>37075612
Renting a room from these two old gay guys, and the place has like 5 rooms, one of the other roommates was like an excon for like drug use and like shoplifting kek
He got kicked out fast af tho. Sucks I don't like anybody here, and it's hard to find trans-friendly roommates in salt lake city so /shrug, might move back to texas, I know some friends might help me out.
>>37075885
Hey nigga, I'm not gonna deny gender dysphoria is a mental illness. Doesn't mean it shouldn't be treated.

>>37075928
Get treatment then

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>>37076050
Hence transitioning

>>37075928
Sheesh, can't even trust people who's trying to find roommates.

Yeah I'd say that moving over to texas would be the best bet. A lot of friendly people there.

>>37076089
That's fucking retarded, stop pretending to be a woman and increase testosterone

>>37064968
Big black neighbor man telling me to drop my pants. Nearly shooting my cousins eye out with BB gun. Permanently scarring my friends face with a rock. Watching through my window as my "friend" killed my neighbors cat, he moved away and I never told him I saw it. And worst of all I've committed sexual assault.

>>37074782
Oddish? Dat you?

>>37076152
I left out ton of shit. Witnessing my dad abuse my mom,
Dad was an alcoholic,
Finding grandfathers sex tape,
Saw older cousins nutsack (like what in the fuck)
My dad chased me with a knife one time. That's all I care to remember at this point

>>37064968
>tfw never abused or beat up by my parents
A-am I a normie?

>>37076129
Why would I do that when I'm happy as a girl.
>>37076170
dunno who that is

>>37076316
After transitioning, there's no going back, your entire existence would revolve around a perverse fetish. Believe me, you'll regret it.

I don't remember the details perfectly but

>be 5 or 6
>at family friend's with some older guys around 10 years old
>they all pull their pants down/start touching themselves
>ask me to suck their peepees
>do as they ask

An anon earlier said that family rapes aren't told in a sexual manner, I don't think that he realizes that at that time, your mind doesn't even view it as rape.
You're mind just sees it as obedience

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>>37064968

>be 9
>2007
>terrible bullying at school
>guys lock me in lockers
>punch me in the face and knock me out
>smash up my psp
>throw yogurt all over me every day
>living in shitty town where we would get people robbing the house every month
>dad teasing me about being sad without realizing how sad I really was
>other students tell me I am too stupid for a future and a job
>believe it
>tell me it would be much better if I just killed myself
>run away from home
>parents find me in the woods like 5 hours later
>give me 3 months off school
>parents get me an expensive PC to make me feel better
>discover internet
>do nothing else apart from internet for the rest of my life

And people wonder why I turned out like this

>>37067118
m8, having your dad beat your mother naked in front of her children is not normal, like at all. That's fucked up. Is your mom okay in the head? That's the kinda abuse that fucks with people forever

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A few things I can't be fucked fully writing out, inc being molested by more than one person. Planning to shoot my mums bf with my father's shotgun at age 10 or 11. being bullied through various stages of my life.

The one thing that gets me is that my mentally unstable mother used to shout and scream into my ear calling me all sorts of names, this was at point blank and it resulted in me getting tinnitus at a very young age.

It's loud as fuck to this day and I've had sleeping problems for most of my life, the tinnitus probably has a part on that

Be strong anons

>>37067064
So which of your family was also there to buy child prostitutes?

It's basically the only reason why people even go to Thailand

>8-10 years old I really don't remember
>get to school early before the bell rings
>our school is pretty big and not nearly enough supervisors
>all I remember is being surrounded by bullies and one was my """"friend""" since kindergarten and his older brother and they were all kicking the shit out of me
>broke out somehow and started running for help
>screaming for a teacher just someone to help me
>nobody, just fucking nobody after what felt like forever running while they were chasing me
>finally found a teacher after entering her classroom doing some bullshit at her desk
>didn't pay attention while I was sobbing my eyes out
>bell rings
>tells me to go to class

>>37076345
I'm already years into HRT, so I mean, we'll see, anon.

>>37076594
I don't agree with it, but if that's what you want to do with your life, I'm not gonna stop you

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>>37064968
>watching grandfather die of esophageal cancer
>mum and dad constantly fighting because mum won't stop cheating on him
>mum and dad act surprised when I alienate myself from the family as much as possible because of a rather large amount of shit going on that I want to get out of and not want to deal with at all before I'm even 15
>family pretty much think I'm some demon spawn of Hitler and Stalin
>strangled my cat in rage but stopped after a few seconds, nearly broke out into tears and held her gently while she's meowing away, later she slept on my stomach
>dad always beat the dog before she hit the bucket
>constantly being the scapegoat for everything which evolved from me usually getting a smack to the face or a fist to the gut
>later on I try to get some order going on but may have went a tad overboard because I clocked my brother in the head and he bounced off the wall, dad did the same to me
>start hallucinating shit and get freaked out from a girl in a yellow dress with white polka dots and bloody gauze appearing at my bedside
>dog bit my leg once so I kept stomping on it and eventually snapped his neck
>become paranoid and lose any faith I might have had for my family to stop being toxic
>get the cord a few times and a 2nd degree burn on my chin as a lad
>they constantly pretended like none of this shit even fucking happened
>headaches and more rarely migraines are a monthly thing at the very least
That's the general gist of it. There's some other stuff but I don't feel like listing them. I always try to do everything as perfect as possible as a way to one up my parents and pretty much turned into a bitter manipulative asshole who likes vodka and sadism. At least my life goal is to just live alone on my own land and explore around everywhere. And really the only person in my immediate family that I didn't fully hate or loathe is my first brother, A, and even he manages to rile me up. Fuck them all.

>>37076688
thanks for not being autistic about it, anon

When my alleged best friend in elementary school, in between classes, asked out loud if anyone found me annoying, and after everyone laughed and agreed, he said that everyone who hated me raise their hand. The whole classroom did. I tried to laugh it off, but I was dying inside. That faggot was looking at me, grinning.

When my father beat me senseless for forgetting a jacket at school when I was 8 years old.

When I found a note written by mother saying I was a disappointment and she didn't picture someone like me being her son.

Walking aimlessly during lunch time, pretending I was going somewhere, then hiding in some random spot in school trying to avoid everyone, because no one wanted to hang out with me. It's the same in uni now, between classes, but now I just don't care.

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>>37076930
>When my alleged best friend in elementary school, in between classes, asked out loud if anyone found me annoying, and after everyone laughed and agreed, he said that everyone who hated me raise their hand. The whole classroom did. I tried to laugh it off, but I was dying inside. That faggot was looking at me, grinning.

this happened to me too

>teacher leaves class
>who hates anon
>everyone raises their hand
>drip some tears from my eyes

>>37076857
No problem, we're all people at the end of the day. Except Zionists. Fuck Zionists.

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>sister threaten my brother with a knife
>brothers beating the shit out of each other in a drunken rage
>mom and brother fighting and talking down the stairs
>mom gashing my stepdads chest with her nails
>ALL THE YELLING, FIGHTING AND DRINKING 24/7

fuck this thread

>>37076316
>I'm happy as a girl
Laughingwhores.tiff

>>37074830
Did he molest anyone else or did he get sent to jail for something different?

>8 years old
>Somehow become diagnosed with major depression
>Doctor gives me pills and they just fuck me up
>Parents forcefeeds me that shit still
>I end up even more fucked
>A few years later, end up diagnosed again with OCD
>Random thoughts that I thought were terrible forced me to do some autistic ritual like wash my hands or open and close the car door 5 times
>Father calls me a failure and mentally retarded
>Mom screams at her
>She ends up divorcing him
>She marries some other dude and he's an average wifebeater who abused me as well
>One day he got drunk and got pissed off at me when I asked for water
>Punched me in the face and threw me across the wall
>Mom tries to defend me but she gets hit by him
>He keeps punching her
>She starts weeping and tells me to call the police
>Instead grab a knife and stab him in the back
>He starts screaming and lies down for a minute
>He's not dead, but he's breathing heavily
>Call 911, they take him to a hospital
>Cops were questioning whether or not I was a menace to society, said it was in self-defence
>Get sent to hospital, need to take meds again
>Also need to talk to shitty therapists for years

Fucking hell.

>>37077245
>major depression at 8 years old
Assuming you have a chemical imbalance and not a shitty shrink you were doomed from the start anon.

Who /pretended to be asleep when the nightly screaming matches and fist-fights started/ here?

>>37076830
Do you think that your upbringing caused the migraines?

>>37077387

I lost the game. And those were shitty pills too, drowsiness every morning with a bitter taste.

>>37066125
Why not write it out short story/autobiography style and post it for the world to see?
Hell, with all the experiences that robots have I'm surprized many of us don't write more. I'd love the create a robot writers blog on day with genuine experiences and stories. It's too bad it'll never happen.

>>37077091
What, I have a boyfriend, somewhat of a social life despite being kinda shy, a good job, and I'm not disgusted with my body/how I look in the mirror anymore.

>>37077625
>girl
So does your boyfriend know he's a faggot yet?

>>37077540
Who the hell knows, I've had them since I was at least 10. They've gotten a little better over time but still no cigar. Doc thought that they would pass after puberty yet here I am in my 20s still having them. And it's not because of the vodka, I may like to drink but I don't get piss drunk that often.

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>be me, 3 or 4
>put on my rain coat and stand by the window to wait for my daddy to pick me up
>parents broke up so I only see him weekends
>he is 5 minutes late
>20 minutes late
>1 hour late
>"he's going to come for me, right mum?"
>"of course sweetheart"

I stood by that window all day, and I never saw that man again.

Normal memories
> Moggie (first cat) being taken away by a vet to be put down.
> seeing junkie spoons and little water balloons (contained heroine) here and there.
When I put these memories together later on they only really told me that my mother had a heroine addiction. There was nothing traumatic about that.
> Malnutrition as a result of having no money
> Older sister asking me to help her wash when I was 6 or something. Again, this is just kids playing.
> Use to get into a lot of fights when I was at primary school but I could also hold myself back. Stopped myself from slamming a kids head into a brick wall because I realised it might kill him.

I never had any traumatic experiences but I didn't have a father which I think affected my ability to communicate socially. I went through a goth phase but I wasn't carrying the emotional baggage; I just liked the Cure and thought black was cool.

One annoying memory
> The constant dope smoke when I was growing up and the realization that it was fucking my brain up.

All in all my mother did a pretty good job raising me and my two sisters; she made some mistakes but things turned out pretty well. Unfortunately, I am bit crazy when it comes to confrontations but I came to this point via my own decisions.

>>37073606
I hate that that happened to you, anon. You go ahead and say you're kissless because that doesn't count.

>>37077705
My cousins have got them through out their lives and there around 30 and 34, the full light spectrum thing. On their mothers side of the family there is a history of schizophrenia - the older one has also suffered from it.

This might tie in with your hallucination experience. You could be prone to schizophrenia as well. I don't know I'm not a doctor but your greentext sounds similar to theirs.

Your right its probably got nothing to do with alcohol.

>>37077725
How old are you now? Any idea where he is?

>>37066084
I'm sorry that happened to you anon. I hope things are better now!

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>>37068546
>>Dad pushes her into the ditch with her bike and my brother
top kek

>>37065638
That's not rape though, it's molestation

>>37077647
I don't know anon, do YOU know you're a faggot yet?

>>37078099
I'm not into trannies or dudes, so I guess so.

I hated how I was a slow learner. When I was in elementary school I was in a special class where 4th and 5th grade were together.

>>37078209
>I hated how I was a slow learner
fucking this

ADD fag here and wasn't diagnosed until after high school

>>37077967
I'm 23 now, he tried to get back in touch when I was around 19 through a short facebook message. It wouldn't hurt quite as bad if he'd just become a homeless drug addict or something, but he went on to marry another woman and have 4 more kids that he raised whilst my mother and I lived in government housing and welfare, having our home broken into multiple times without a dad to take care of us.

Fuck that man, if I ever saw him again I'd beat the piss out of him.

Mine weren't that bad compared to you all. Just a couple of my brother's suicide attempts. Not even the bloody type, just pills.

There were also the screeming fights he had with my parents, like he was threatening suidice and assaulting me. Again not as bad as real stuff. But watching someone go into a fit of mentality ill detached rage is pretty nerve racking for an 11 year old

>>37078242
Yeah you sound like your over it, that's the important thing. If you can disconnect yourself from him then you'll be able to dry up any emotional connection you have to him eventually. I mean wanting to kill him doesn't advantage you but its healthy.

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>go to amusement park
>ma asks me to hold her lemonade so she can go to the bathroom
>take sips as shes in there
>she takes a long time, eventually i look down and see i drank the whole thing
>uhoh.mpeg
>she comes back
>i hand her the empty cup
>"Anon, did you drink all of my lemonade?"
>sadly look down
> "y-yes"
>she doesn't talk to me for atleast an hour after that.
>horrible feeling of guilt
>first feeling of actually wanting to die
>She eventually tells me that i'm not her friend anymore
>I cry
>she doesn't care
>We eventually leave, it was the worst time i'd ever had at an amusement park.

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>About 16
>Only recently breaking away from a toxic friendship and starting to meet new people
>Old Toxic tells me her dad raped her
>I drop everything to help her
>Call police
>Always trying to help her
>Stay up late constantly comforting her
>She's always tormenting me by texting the message "Icantbreathe"
>Never know how to respond to this shit
>Go from straight A, AP class kind of kid to average
>Try to help take care of her
>Feed her, clothe her, try my damnedest to manage her medications
>End up extremely fucked up
>Fast forward to Feb of this year
>She casually tells me she lied about her dad raping her
>Just because she wanted to get closer to me
I cut off all ties with her. Told her never to talk to me or try to contact me at all ever again
For some reason, it still hurts

>dad and mom fight and scream almost daily
>dad a piece of shit, usually breaks shit
>mom rushes into my room one night, saying dad had nearly choked her
>walk into parents bedroom with mom
>watch mom scream at dad for an hour
>dad just sat there with head hung low
Parent's relationship was always fucking weird, in the power sense. Shit like this happened all the time, but idk why this one I always remember so clearly. Sometimes wish I grew up with a healthy family

>>37066883
This is why you never fuck a borderline chick.

>>37076089
Transitioning is not treatment to the illness, it's caving in and becoming a monster anon. You'll never be a girl, and that's ok. Become a man.

>walked into girls washroom by accident
>think I could play it cool if I piss quick
>too late four Stacies are waiting outside
>niggarun.jpg
>kms

>>37077533
Yeah, I've been there

>>37076089
If your mind thinks your body should be different to what it is, then you should aim for your ideal, instead of caving to current circumstances. Good on you anon

Not any distinct memories come to mind, I wasn't physically abused or molested, but a fair amount of emotional abuse from my bipolar mother and a dad who doesn't know how to express his anger. Along with abandonment, divorce, going through poverty and just overall manipulation left me an anxious, depressed borderline mess. I was also a mute for a fair bit.

I was also diagnosed with severe anxiety at a young age (4-5) so if that doesn't tell you I wasn't doomed from the start then I don't know what to tell you. I've been told to my face before I could be the posterchild for quiet borderline personality disorder. I just don't want to be so tired anymore.

>wake up to horrible maddening noise
>Dad and mom are together wrecking the house laughing maniacally
>Turns out his manager died (at the factory) and he got his position
>5 times his wage.
>He comes to me and crying tells me that we are getting turkey for christmas
>Everyone hugs collectively
>Start feeling crushed
>Wake up to my sister shoving me to wake up
>Mom and Dad are fighting again
>We run away to our grandmas house as they keep wrecking shit
>the sudden change from happyfeelings in the dream to the cruel and harsh reality of life make me sick.

>>37066883
I hope she was fucked as a kid.

>5 years old
>mom is a heroin addicted prostitute
>she had been stealing from my father and I for quite some time
>one day my dad had enough of it
>they get into an argument
>they argued before, but this one was different
>i was behind my dad, who was walking towards my mom
>I wanted to try and stop him so I started to throw hot wheels cars at him
To this day the image of this still makes me sad
>eventually my dad cornered my mom in the bedroom
>I always preferred my mom over him because she was nicer to me. he always yelled and got angry over little things, so maybe that's why I did it
>they fight, and they pulled absolutely no punches
>face shots, intense faces, the works
>my mom grabs a radio (this was in the early 2000, but we were really poor so the radio was one of those big ones from the 80-90 era) and hits my dad with it. she followed through with the swing too
>i still remember the sound
>he body slams her to end the fight
>he leaves the room
>she stays and cries
>I stand there crying

What makes this even worse is that I was alone for all of this. No brother or sister to talk to. I have them, but because my mom was so fucked on the head, they weren't with me. Having to process this at the time without context was super rough.

I have other stories if they're wanted.

>1st-5th primary grades
>private school, normal days, no real friends though, got bullied just a little but nothing too much

>1 year later, 6th grade primary
>dad spergs out and puts me in a government school
>kids are basically underage horny teenagers
>no friends
>being rich or having money or even dressing well is gonna get your ass kicked
>class immediately hates me
>no friends
>get bullied at class
>worst days of my life
>edge on crying a few times each day
>sob on the way to school every day
>they step up their game and start whooping me in lunch breaks and between classes and after school
>I was a qt so a few horny students were into me and tried to sex me
>most teachers hated me, math teacher despised my gut and hit me alot
>makes me stand up most classes just to ask me hard questions and see me fail them infront of everyone and berates me for it
>one time even threw the book in his hand on my face, hot a bruise on my forehead
>dismissed it to my parents as me tripping, I didn't want to tell anyone about my problems so they don't try to help me at school and than I get a reputation as a crybaby which will make the bullies step on me harder
>class was old, broken, ruined, windows were broken, and winters were extremely cold
>near the end of the year make two friends that were like light at the end of a tunnel for me
>they saved me from the darkness
>tfw was on the very brink of breaking down when these two picked me up
>never saw them again, but still remember them fondly to this very day
>I'll never forget them

Was the worst year of my life

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>>37074552
Already doing it with my brother.
I basically told him that jesus once said
"If someone slaps your cheek, you slap both of him".

And proceeded to teach him good fighting moves for his short age, including a full on ramming headbutt that will knock anyone out.

So far it has worked quite properly, once a gypsy kid of our neighbors spit him on the face like the nigger he was, so he came inside the house, grabbed a quite heavy rolling pin and hit him right into the fucking kisser as if the team needed a homerun to tie.

Motherfucker didnt even dare to see him again, i bought pizza that day.

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>>37074167
What a clusterfuck of a post

I'm gonna kms

>>37079288
Yeah tell your stories.

>>37065511
I got beaten up by my father when I was 7, just because my writing was shit. He always was an abusive asshole to me and my mother.

I'm almost 30 now and would gladly snap him in half for all the things we had to endure.

>>37079590
Shorter one

>5 years old (again)
>my dad put my mom out of the house because of her antics
>in the middle of the night she stands in front of the apartment and starts to yell his name to let her in
>I wake up and hear this and try to tell my dad
>he ignores me
>for the next few minutes all I hear is my mother yelling to be let in
>it's no easier now than it was then to hear her voice in my memory

>>37074552
Raise them with a "fuck with me and I'll end you" mindset. Pay for them to learn some manner of fighting and from there out continue to hammer home the following mindset.

>I won't throw the first punch
>I won't be baited
>If I have to fight you're not getting back up by yourself

The only useful thing my father ever taught me was that. If you have to fight then you fight to win. Fuck the other guy up, bust his balls, kick him while his down. You're not trying to be fair- you're there to win.

I will take my child's side when the schools come down and do everything in my power. If that means changing school or teaching them at home. I'd rather my imaginary offspring become criminals or bullies themselves then be victims

>mom punished me for dumb things
>got old enough where her spanking didn't really hurt anymore
>stopped being a punishment
>made mistake of laughing once during spanking
>suddenly, large dildo shoved in my anus, no lube
>this became her new punishment for me
>didn't do homework? dildo
>"embarrassed" her in public? dildo
>said something in the wrong tone of voice? dildo
>said if I told my dad he'd kick me out for being a faggot
>didn't tell dad

worst of all was on one of my birthdays
>open present
>some power ranger toy
>too old for power rangers mom
>i should be happier for my presents
>'I'll show you happy, anon"
>she leaves room, comes back
>shoves me to the ground and pulls down my pants
>friends are watching in horror
>dildo'd
>none of my "friends" ever told anyone, never spoke of it again, most stopped talking to me

>dildo'd regularly up until age 16
>run away from home
>dad finds me
>i tell him everything
>he is silent the whole car ride home
>we get home, he confronts mom
>she denies
>accuses me of trying to rape her
>says thats why I ran away
>dad beats me viciously

>2 years later
>parents wont pay for college
>join the Army instead
>get out after 6 years, become wagecuck
>all I do is gym, internet and job
>no friends
>no relationships
>no social skills

>mom called 2 days ago
>says im a bad son for not calling on mothers day

i hate my life.

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>talking to my only friend on a bus
>she says she is going to take a nap
>i jokingly tell her to dream about marrying the boy named x
>the boy named x and his group of friends hear
>they tell us to fuck off and that they dont like people like us
>blushing and stuttering,, desperately trying to act like i dont give a fuck

god, why was i so stupid

>>37070216
Meth is expensive you ungateful pussy

>>37064968
>Be me, around seven years old
>brother molests me
>also shows me porn
>other than a few isolated incidents he was a really cool brother
>He also messes around with my sisters who were older than me, younger than him, but nothing nearly as bad as what happens with me
>I'm super interested in the porn and start perceiving it as normal
>He stops and years pass without incident
>I don't remember a thing about it, anytime any memories come up I think it must've been a dream or something
>Still kind of perverted and stealing wi-fi from neighbors to watch porn using a DSi I saved up for
>I feel like it's wrong but I can't stop
>I become really ashamed in public and get really quiet around everyone
>Parents are concerned, but not really because they're more worried about my cutting older sister, who hit a scene phase full swing
>She eventually tells a counselor and consequently a cop about my brother
>Everything goes weird, brother is sent away, 17 at the time so there's a good chance he's going to be tried as an adult
>Sisters get all traumatized and start using it as leverage in any disagreement we get into, and get a lot of support an care from my parents
>I'm basically ignored for about 3 months, still wondering if what I went through was even real
>Feels like no one really cares about me
>Eventually brother takes a lie detector test and they find out I was involved somehow, but they don't ask for details
>I get questioned about it, deny everything because I don't want my brother to get in more trouble
>Tell them if I did know anything it's repressed
>Convince myself, even, that the worst of it was probably imagined
>The detail and emotional response I sometimes get from those memories tells me otherwise
>It's all blown over and I put on a brave face every day
>My social skills are still fucked from being so quiet
>I feel guilty anytime I watch porn or think about sex, which is often
>I still don't know what's true

I just want my innocence back

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>7 y/o
>every weekend im going to my aunt
>her husband is a fucking alcoholic
>they were fighting every night
> my mom was always on my uncle's side
>listen to them screaming and shit every fucking weekend

I never knew my father and i think, That this alcoholic cunt came in my mum long time ago.


I have depression and shit and i think That few years of looking at this filthy fuck had big influence on my feels

>>37080082
lol no it isn't
How do you think white trash welfare recipients manage to get/stay on it?

>>37070518

dude thats heccin edgy lmao

>>37073607

They cut boys cocks for tradition, which is sadistic sexual violence. And its legal.

>>37066125
its just that you are a fat little idiots anon, don't blame others for your own faults.

>>37064968
>Live with Grandma from pretty much birth until I was 6
>Dad was in prison for drugs
>Mom was on and off drugs and she just didn't give a fuck
>Grandma didn't have legal custody (I didn't see my mom for months at a time when I lived with Grandma) and mom just took me one day
>Move out of state and mom just lets me fuck around at home
>Pretty cool at first but she is a bitch and it didn't last long
>Mom pawns me off to a "modelling agency" that ended up putting a lot of people behind bars
>Spend most of my time there from 7 onwards
>Have to do obscene things for the camera
>Sometimes have to "play" with the other boys
>Men abused me too but I'm not sure about the other boys
>This goes on for a few years until I get kicked out
>tooold.jpg
>Live back with mom but she is shitty so y'know
>Not sure if she called them or what but I get picked up and put into foster care
>Stay in foster care for a few months until Grandma gets custody of me
>Most of that time spent catching up on education
>So many fucking tests
>Mentally scarred now and I'm bad at functioning normally
>90% of my social interaction is from 4chan

Posted about it a bit in another thread too.

>>37065427
its ok anon you dont have to lie, i know it was your mommy who did it

>>37067118
did your mom liked being beaten naked infront of you guys? Was it a fetish thing or was your father just abusing your mum i couldn't get that part.

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This all is pretty tame compared to the rest of the thread, i know.
>dad isnt around that much, comes home from work late in the evening, well paying job but very stressful
>all he ever does is shout at me for doing something wrong
>favors my sister, she gets to have a computer in her room and use it freely while i'm allowed to use it for an hour a day, she gets to stay out late and go to concerts and such.
>bullied at school from third to ninth grade, telling teachers and parents did nothing so i stopped trying after a year
>upper secondary school, all my friends went to a different one, spend most breaks listening to music and avoiding everyone
>grades drop, dad starts yelling at me even more, blames me for not being able to sleep at night because he's worried about my future
>i guess it was his awkward way of trying to motivate me but it only made me feel a lot worse
>major depression and social anxiety
I think that my sister being valued more may be at least part of the reason why i'm submissive as fuck.

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>mom only let me play video games for 1 hour a day

>>37074552
these anons are correct
>>37074619
>>37079462
>>37079660
I faced years of bullying due to undiagnosed Asperger's, I was a big fucking kid, I was 6foot at 14 and never grew another inch, just to give some idea.
but kids, you know how they are, one shithead had to fight me, with a few buddies as backup. I had been raised a left wing pacifist, fighting was never necessary, there was always a peaceful option if you looked, or so I was told.
but soon my parents told me I had to fight, it was the only option since the teachers gave no fucks, but I couldn't change, and soon, everyone wanted a piece, the fucking giant kid wont fight back, I can kick the giant kids ass and everyone will think i'm strong!
it took me 2 years to fight back, and soon the physical violence was over, no one wanted to face the pent up years of tard rage held within my fatass, but they were willing to throw insults, threats, and the like all day long, again because I was taught never to strike first.
and so the verbal abuse continued for a few more years, with only a fight now and then when someone got ballsy thinking 4-5 of them could win.
until the day that ended it all, oh this day is one of my proudest moments in highschool, the day football chad, jimmy, who had threatened my life for weeks finaly took physical action, he picked up a copy on ann franks diary and flung it at me, and pretended nothing happened, I walked up to him and waited, asking him to apologise his only response?
"what? what are you gonna do?" as he flailed his arms out to his sides
with a single, mighty, targ rage blow, I struck this man with all the tard rage my body contained.
he fell to the floor, sobbing, threatening my life.
I just sat down and let him go, as he ran away.
I have not felt tard rage since that day, not even anger, i have been a calm person for years since.

i tried to play it up a little for the fun of anyone bothering to read, but my point is, teach kids to fight, but teach them restraint to.

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>>37073596
please tell the story of him killing the 15yo girl

>>37065511
same here except it was my mom

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>be 10~
>birthday party of a friend, pool party
>be myself and one of the other kids I don't know there hates me
>attacks me, holds me underwater
>try to shake him off but he's stronger
>nearly pass out, he lets go at the last second
>crying, get out of the pool and tell host's dad
>nothing happens other than "don't do that"
Looking back on it, the two things that really get to me are that no one cares even though I almost DIED, they may have thought I was exaggerating, but even giving them that benefit of the doubt you don't fucking hold someone underwater. And that I'm so unlikable he literally tried to murder me after knowing me for only an hour or two.

Mommy refused to buy me tendies and bought nuggets instead.

>>37074167
how the fuck did your father get away with ahving a child from a 14yo girl? where do you live?

when I was in primary 4, I had to read something out in class and the teacher said "you're putting on that silly voice again, stop doing it"
I had no idea I was doing it, I was later diagnosed autistic, maybe it's related to that
the teacher then secretly recorded me speaking in "the voice" and played it back to the class and everyone laughed and I was teased and bullied because of it afterwards
I had really bad luck with teachers throughout my education

>>37081887
I'd would put her on court. I was like you, I used to let things happen, to let people laugh because the best thing in life is laughing. Anyway, I became older, got a job and shits, now the very first time somebody tries to abuse me, I fuck them up right on that day. I don't fight them, I just really put them into real problems.
I don't let people abuse me the first time and do nothing anymore. You must put an end on the first moment somebody tries to abuse you, otherwise you'll get abused everyday. That's what used to happen to me when I was younger.

>>37066173
Please, get a great career and put them in a shitty home anyway. You must do this.

>be 13
>being punished for bad grades, no computer
>can't handle being away from it after playing on it for 5 years straight
>take it back out of dad's closet
>dad finds it in closet, smacks me around saying "What the hell is wrong with you!?"
>only time hes ever laid a finger on me

>>37082316
painful childhood memories only
this is like, basic shit

>>37075585
oh fuck off 2 years LMA FUCKING O your fine kid. try several. second tought sorry if isounded like a dick I'm kinda wased

>>37075585
>2 years
AHAHAHA YOU FUCKING NORMIE FAGGOT OHOHOHOHOHOHO AHHEHEEHEHEHHOUUUUUU

>be 10 year old autist, no friends
>make friends with a slightly older kid
>really he just wanted to use my PSP
>few months later he threatens to beat the shit out of me with a hammer for no reason
>literally no real life friends since that day 10 years ago

>>37081985
I have a great career. They basically gave it to me. Only issue i have is my family would literally kill me if i did that.

>>37082344
Not him but you're underestimating how upsetting events like that can seem from the inside. I got in a fist fight with my dad once over taking my laptop away, he kicked me out of the house for the day until my mom came out and called me in. I ended up burning the house down while nobody was home a year later

>>37064968
>molested by moms friends older son at 5
>beaten by sisters dad whole childhood any time I did something wrong
>molested by counsler on church trip
>molested and raped by older boy on 13th birthday.
I am boy (male) literally the first time I've ever said anything about the sexual abuse to anyone is right now.

>>37079747
She's a crazy cunt and you don't have to take her calls. Change your number, don't explain to anyone but family and make it clear that if your dad lets her get your number you'll cut him off too.

You feel like venting with someone let me know and I'll drop a contact. Or you can and I'll check back.

>See mommy try to kill herself by OD
>See mommy pull a big knife on daddy
>Hear mommy talk about wanting to die everyday from age 5-present day
>Be locked in closet by mommy frequently while a young child (4-6 years old) because; "I JUST CAN'T DEAL WITH THAT KID RIGHT NOW!"
>See grandma and grandpa both get diagnosed with stage 4 incurable cancer and watch them both slowly die over the course of a year, and then attend their funerals while not knowing how it was possible for it to even happen. (I was only 7 and didn't understand human death quite yet) Worst part is they died a week within each other...
>Be bullied severely and cruelly for being shy & mentally ill.
One of the most creative and cruel things kids used to do was when I was in 6th grade and first got my OCD diagnosis, they'd chase me around with mud all over their hands and try to cover my face in it. I pissed my pants once in terror, and used to hide under the bus seats.

>be me three years old
>chill in moms car driving through nature
>moms friend is driving
>apparently there was a deer on the road and she crashes into a tree
>flew through window onto the street
been paraplegic ever since, that was 20 years ago

>>37067902
As a pedophile myself I find it funny how all you normies complain but are so weak to do anything. Destroying you in arguments is what do best but doing so triggers the mods.
Add me on steam
http://steamcommunity.com/id/nobullyUwU/
We the pedophiles will not stop

>>37084328
>but are so weak to do anything
Motherfucker have you seen what happens to pedos in prison?

>>37084328
Wow. You're so edgy. Can I be edgy like you?

>>37079267
I know this feel, anon. It hurts so much worse than the broken bones.

>It's winter so freezing and stormy
>I sleep fully dressed since we don't have a heater
>including socks because it's a shithole and the floors are filthy
>Dreaming about visiting my crush and swimming
>Everything's going well and there's laughter and contented shy smiles in the sun
>My door bursts open and it's the cops
>They drag me out of bed and stand me between two of them
>Together they handcuff me and walk me out over broken glass, needles and whatever else and into the cold, dark night
>Just turned 16 and I was treated as a threat and a liar since I was dressed and hadn't woken up from all the ruckus (daily throwdown fights make you immune to such noise)
>The way they looked at me makes me feel such shame that nothing I have ever done has erased it.

>>37084271
Not saying it's your fault in any way... but how did you get molested 3 times?

>my only friend was the kid who lived across the street
>his dad was an abusive alcoholic
>his dad used to beat the shit out of him, and he'd turn around and beat the shit out of me
>used to choke me, whip me with branches and fishing pole
>we would always play Cops and Robbers
>he would be the cop to justify beating the hell out of me
>cried myself to sleep a lot
>he finally moved away when I got into 6th grade
>took me six years to make another friend

>>37064968
got a few.
>older brother is a full on schizo/sperg
>basically hates me for being born cause he was a no longer the baby
>always avoiding me, can not be in the room together or he freaks fuck the out
>one day 5 years old in the summer time
>the parents put a stand up pool in the backyard
>one day out swimming
>sperg bro comes outta no where
Immediatly I start trying to get out of the pool as per habbit
>he tells me to stay
>freeze up cause he almost no talks to me
>I try to stay on one end but he keeps inching closer to me while unblinkingly glaring at me
>fuckdisshitimout.jpg
>decide to bail but he grabs my arm
>before i can process whats going on my head is under water
>halp.png
>I drowning for like 3 maybe 5 minutes, can feel him gripping tighter around my neck
>suddenly feel relief
our eldest brother came out to try the new pool with some friends unexpectedly, naturally his friends thought we were playing but I think he was suspicious as he basically told me to not go in the pool without him from now on.
>for reference I was like 5,sperg bro was around 13 and elder bro was 15
This was the first of about 3 attempts on life, and i have like 5 or 6 near death experieces all before I was even 15

original test pls dontm ute

>>37066684

What a mongoloid

>>37067323

Did you tell anyone ?

You could have recorded that