Inappropriate Emotionality

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I don't even know what's going on with me anymore. Can any other robots give me any advice? I'll tell my story below:

>be me
>living in a middle class suburb outside of Burlington, Vermont.
>originally a liberal
>start to progressively become more and more conservative over the last 7-8 months.
>2 months ago start to think about how the government should shoot any illegal mexican families that refuse to leave the country in order to help maintain white people as the largest race in America.
>go on a trip with my family into Arizona 2 and a half weeks ago.
>stop at a little restaurant in a small town in Arizona.
>See a cute white boy behind me in line, about 8 years old.
>get my food and sit down
>see him go and sit down with his family
>I can tell by looking at his family and looking more closely at him that he's hispanic.
>leave my table to go walk to the bathroom (which is in the backyard of this restaurant)
>start crying uncontrollably on the way there, like I was trying to force it back but it was like my eyes were under pressure.
>compose myself and go back to my table, without saying a word and without anyone noticing.

I'm still a white nationalist, but I've been feeling pretty weird since the whole thing happened. Has anyone else had any similar experiences as me, and if so, what did you do about it?