Psychological Issues #59

>>36947320
where is Nick?

>>36947451
No idea. Been trying to contact him, got no response yet.

Good on you for starting the thread. I have tried contacting him to no avail as well. Concerned, but hopefully he'll be alright tomorrow.

>>36947458
The last thread made me worry about him.

>>36947527
Hope he's okay. This place'll be darker without him.
>>36947552
I was very in and out of the last thread. Wish I'd gotten to stick around.

>>36947320
From what I can tell, he's getting worse. At least it sure sounds like it, but I'm not too familiar with his problems. I wanted to probe more, but I didn't want to offend him.

God, I hope he's okay. Reach out if you need it Nick.

>>36947650
I wish I could help but I just don't know how.

In all likelihood he's cast an eye over this thread sooner or later. In which case, I'm sure he'll be heartened to see that he has our solidarity.

>>36947670
It helps just to be here for him.

>>36947696
I hope he comes in and lets us know he's ok. Hate being worried and helpless to fix the cause.

>>36947748
Same here. NICK WHERE R UUU

>>36947747
An hoping he sees the thread and talks with us but I don't know what's up right now. If he was banned he'd ask one of us to start the thread.

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>>36947748
has he been talking more with his ex?
the last few threads where he said he had exchanged messages with her he seemed pretty beaten

In any case, there's little we can do for him until he reemerges. Let's continue to use the thread for its intended purpose.

Today I had a session with my new therapist. It went reasonably. He said that the DID stuff was where he wanted to concentrate his efforts, and assumed that if that was handled the rest would fall into place. That said, he did say that though the ASPD diagnosis wasn't quite right I do definitely have traits that would fit. It came down to my intolerance for stupid rules that serve no purpose. I don't see why it's antisocial to challenge something that makes no sense rather than doing it because it's been established.

>>36947816
I don't remember this. Maybe they're talking and that's why there's no thread.
>>36947855
>That said, he did say that though the ASPD diagnosis wasn't quite right I do definitely have traits that would fit.
The question becomes what other diagnosis' would those traits include?

>>36947905
I suppose we'll have to wait and see. A person can have traits of this and that without it being sufficient to warrant a diagnosis.

I'll give you a Larry David-style example from a while ago:

>In supermarket buying vodka
>"Ok sir, I'll need to see some ID"
>Search for a while
>I don't have it
>"Come on now I'm 25. We both know I'm over eighteen. Just give me the vodka and I'll be out of here"
>"I can't sell it you without ID"
>Disgruntled, I search some more and find it
>"Alright, I'll need to see his too"
>Indicates my brother
>"Why's that?"
>"You're clearly with him."
>"He's nothing to do with me. It's my vodka, and I'm going to drink it on my own"
>"You came in together, so I need to see his ID as well"
>I look around and point to some random woman
>"She's also not going to be drinking any. Why don't you ID her? I might know her. Better be sure."
>A queue behind me is growing. People are getting annoyed
>She has another look at my ID
>"This is expired, sir"
>"So what? Are you worried that after it expired I regressed in age?"
>She gives me a withering look
>Brother looks increasingly uncomfortable
>"...What? I'm not being unreasonable. She's the one being unreasonable"
>I am escorted out
>Jaunty Yiddish tune plays

I'm drunk and suicidal af. I'm crushing hard on someone I know who's depressed as well. He deserves much better support from others and don't need any toxicity from me.

I wish I could carry all y'all weights so you don't have to carry none.

Nick, if you're reading this, I hope you're okay. You're a good person.

I love youall.

>>36948000
I get your frustration. She was being a cunt.
>>36948130
Whats got you down nameless anon? Why are you suicidal, and how long have you been depressed?

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had another session with the psychiatrist told him about my self harm experiences since i was 12. one he found particularly interesting was that i used to hang by my hands on a spiral staircase and would lean my head backwards until i lost oxigen in the brain, started seeing black and my hands lost strength thereby falling to the floor. any idea why that was more interesting to him than cutting, burning, sticking needles and scratching til i drew blood? does it mean something in particular?

>>36948272
I actually think she was more of a moron than a cunt. That tends to be the case, actually. I don't hold it against her, but it was frustrating at the time.

Good evening lads, shat took you so long?
Where the hell is Nick?
Is he still suffering?
I hope he hasn't ended his existence, I'd feel left out.


I were wondering while waiting for this thread, is suicide selfish?

>>36948370
We're working on the assumption that he is indeed suffering.

As far as suicide is concerned, it's too complex a topic to arbitrarily designate it selfish or otherwise. Too many variables.

>>36948321
I think he was more interested in this particular instance because it required both planning and a certain measure of willpower to achieve that usual self-harm doesn't involve.
>>36948346
On the one hand you're right. But on the other you're being a cunt didn't help you.

>>36948436
I just can't help myself. If I feel like the situation is ridiculous I can't leave it alone. Probably annoying for others, but I need to address it. Plus I find it pretty entertaining desu. People need to be made aware if their behaviour doesn't make any sense. Plus, it amuses me to challenge them.

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>>36948436
>I think he was more interested in this particular instance because it required both planning and a certain measure of willpower to achieve that usual self-harm doesn't involve.
hmm i guess he could reach that conclusion. i dont remember having to plan it. i used to climb the staircase with my hands for exercise and one time i noticed i was feeling dizzy and that the noise in my head was mostly gone then i did the leaning the head backwards thing until i fainted. i dont remember it needing much will power either
>>36948567
>People need to be made aware if their behaviour doesn't make any sense
i agree but i tend to think that if you put them on the defensive they will tend to deny their assholeness and regard you as the only asshole

>>36948370
Nick is MIA, no signs since yesterday. Personally I think it's selfish, just because I'd deny others the joys of making fun of me if I'd killed myself.
>>36948567
Antagonizing stupider people is fun, can't deny that. But situational appropriateness is important.
>>36948698
For normal people who have never cut themselves that particular action would seem both incredibly clever and needing resounding willpower, knowing that the fall could be letal(depending on height o drop)

How do i get rid of the regret of almost raping a girl in highschool?
I were young and stupid.
We were getting intimate with each other, butt naked.
She didn't want to go all the way but i did.
My animalistic instincts kicked in, i were blind with lust i didn't know what I were doing.
Whenbi came to she was yelling my name and digged her nails in my forearms.
We never spoke again.

I regret that moment everyday of my life having to think i might've scarred a poor girl for life.
I probably ruined her image of all men.

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>>36948698
Your paintings (they're yours, right?) are very impressive today. Even if they're just ones you like, thanks for posting them.

>>36948760
In such cases I'm sure you're right about appropriateness. However, the problem is that I hold them in very little regard. I don't know if I let it show, but I don't think much of those whom I deem lesser. Certainly, that includes people who are unwilling or unable to think about something and the reasons for doing it when asked. I know that I do a fair bit of irrational things and there are probably normie things that I take for granted as well. However, I'd like to think that if I were called on them I'd be able to accept if they weren't logical. In the grip of some kind of psychosis, perhaps not. However, that's not the context.

>>36948805
It's simple: just b yourself

>>36948889
Thats some quality advice, failed quads guy.

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>>36948889
>I'd like to think that if I were called on them I'd be able to accept if they weren't logical
that sounds pretty reasonable. do you measure them by intelligence only? do you think if they are less intelligent they are lesser beings?
>>36948889
>(they're yours, right?)
they are mine. thanks

>>36948805
I don't think you can? I don't believe that that is the kind of thing you can just get over. You just have to accept your failure, own it, and do better next time.
>I don't know if I let it show
You probably do. You Especially do in your example.

>>36948000
I know it's bullshit, and I agree that you shouldn't have been ID'd if it's obvious. Also, it's bullshit that they have to ID the entire party.

>>36948976
First, I'm aware that there are people more intelligent than me as well as less. It's snobbish to judge others on that basis. I do discriminate though. There are people whom I respect tremendously despite their being less intelligent, but in general I think less of stupid people. Still, there are many ways to be stupid. One of those is to read The Guardian religiously and accept every article as the gospel truth.

>>36949055
I agree particularly that IDing the people around you is total shit.

Can't tell what is a dream and what is reality anymore. Afraid to talk to anyone about what I think is happening because it might not be real. Drinking every day. Going to hang myself soon. Used to have so much love but there's not much left now. I hope you're all well.

https://youtu.be/DpFJuB7gfKU

>>36949167
If you're going to leave this world, I'm not going to convince you not to.
just be sure it's what your truly want and take care if any unfinished business before you do it.

leave this gay earth without a regret.

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>My girlfriend just was diagnosed with BPD
>We've been together 2 years and she has reached the final stage of hating and pulling away from me 3 weeks ago

>I've been doing my absolute best to get her back to happy and it sorta works
>Just yesterday she went off on me about me still wanting a girl I use to orbit before I met her
>I put her back in place by reminding her why I wanted her
>Only a bandaid but worked

>Her bull shit is stressing me out
>When she feels normal she's the sweetest girl but can switch in a moment to pissed

She's too shy to actually talk to her therapist about issues. She's broke down and apologized for how she acts every week. She's been doing so many mental gymnastics to remind herself that she really does love me and the problems are in her head.

I just need to know if this is worth my time to stick with her and hope it'll pass or do bpd people never change. Plus any tips for maintaining such a relationship.

>>36949254
All I have is regret. Sometimes it's inspiring to think of living on forever out of spite alone. I think that's what I'd really like. To live forever. I just wish I could do it without the delirium and schizophrenia.

>>36949033
meant to also get you Facet here
>>36948889

>>36949167
>Can't tell what is a dream and what is reality anymore.
Why not? Have you had any professional diagnosis'?
>>36949311
Why doesn't she open to her therapist? Is she uncomfortable sharing her weakness with someone?

>>36949338
I wish I'd die and just sieze existing, fuck that heaven shit, i don't want to be councious anywhere in this world, i sick of these humans and their god awful self righteousness.
I don't care if I'd be happy forever, i don't want it.

>>36949499
In that example, by the time I mentioned the ID I was certainly annoyed. What she said to me was a fundamentally stupid thing. She definitely seemed to be an idiot to me. I held her absolutely in contempt. Disgust even. I don't think I hate people, but I am frequently disgusted by them and that comes very easily.

>>36949592
She is very very shy. It's hard for her to get sentences out when she's not comfortable. Plus she bottles her problems because she feels like they are small and petty and feels guilty for crying over them. But she learned it's better to deal with her problems together than alone. A year and a half ago she would've probably kept it to herself.

I kind of want to post here but it already seems like a well established community. I am diagnosed antisocial and schizoid, and am developing a not so good drug habit. How are you all?

>>36950025
nobody is missed. nobody is welcome here

>>36949866
Seems she needs help coaxing her problems out to see that they are a big deal.
>>36949635
Holding people in contempt is fine, long as you're polite and not impeding other peoples' day.
>>36950025
Come post with us.

>>36950887
Agreed: politeness is extremely important. Admittedly I tend not to keep it up if I've been sufficiently vexed but that's a failing on my fault.

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Greetings all. I believe Nick mentioned to me in the previous thread that he might be sick today, so I think that accounts for his absence.

>>36951044
Alright, meta. I hope you're right. I imagine that he's had a particularly rough day and he'll be with us again soon if not tomorrow.

>>36951044
here is hoping it's just that

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got prescribed a whole slew of pills again today
at least functioning would be a whole lot easier for a while
sorry to see nick is struggling, hope it turns around for him
hope you're all well, these threads are a little strange for me to jump into wholeheartedly, but I find you namefags really very entertaining

>>36951281
Glad to entertain. I hope that you do take a name down the line so that you can entertain us in turn. In any case, I hope that your slew benefits you. It can be a dicey business trying something new (if that applies).

>>36950887
I guess I will then. I just decided today that I am quitting drugs. feeling very anxious about it but it needs to happen.

>>36948000
>Jaunty Yiddish tune plays
kek
better luck next time goy

>>36952026
Can't stick around tonight. However, I do wish you look getting clean. It's never an easy decision to make and I applaud your courage in doing so.

>>36952026
Which drugs, nobody?

>>36952155
thank you.
>>36952156
Benzos and opiates.

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>>36952227
at the same time? you working with a doctor/have a good taper plan in place/going to a rehab type place?
whatever the case, best of luck anon, sincerely

>>36952298
I'm going to tackle the opiates first, because the benzos can be used to help me deal with withdrawal symptoms. Then I will do a very slow, gradual reduction of the benzos until I'm completely free of them. The biggest challenge I think will be not just turning to drinking or smoking weed or something to fill the hole left in my life once I quit.

I am fine. Explanations tomorrow. Love.

>>36952372
still imagine it will be hellish but seems like you have a good handle on it

>>36952372
This is good hope you succeed
>>36951044
I hope that is why Nick is absent
>>36951281
Doing well frogman. Hope your new meds work for you

>>36952479
Glad you're ok Nick! Was worried about you

>>36951044
How've you been meta?

Looks like thread's dying.