How can I treat my pathological homosexuality?

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So I come here to ask my fellow robots how I can cure this pathological homosexuality, it was developed from having penis envy and having a "big cock" fetishes, I just liked seening pretty gurls get fucked by huge cocks (couldn't even fantasies about me having sex without being some cuck/humilation). I thought I had a small penis, put it turned out I was being delusional and I'm bigger than average.

At 25, after being a socially isolated wizard for most of my adult life I started to make myself think I was gay, It was probably because of lonliness and having mentally blocked myself from wanting anything to do with girls (my mind went mgtow just so it wouldn't hurt being alone, because being with a girl felt so realistic).

Now my sexuality is fucked up, I don't want or seek gay sex and I don't like thinking about girls because that only gives me hurt feels. Yet I'm /fit/ now but I'm still a complete autist that avoids social interactions like the plague.

Tl;dr I feel for the "if u have gay thoughts that mean u gay brah" meme yet I still find girls attractive but I try not to think about it (because that would mean I'm a straight guy that did gay shit and my mind just can't handle that).

And No I'm not bisexual, if this is bisexualism, then it is a horrible mental illness that gives u nothing but pain.