anyone else stuck in a hell of self analysis???
>every night try to sleep
>brain goes into overdrive of self analysis
>become convinced i am a sociopathic narcissist
>pretty sure my entire personality is fake
>can no longer discern authentic behaviours from inauthentic
>tfw living a lie in solitude
>tfw i lie to myself most of all
>tfw cannot trust myself
Soon you will stop thinking. I have trouble finishing any thought. I got too tired
>>36931972
Yes but only when I smoke weed I start to think like this.
>>36932032
in the beginning i only thought like this on drugs but now i'm clean and the thoughts have followed me home. they make sense to me, they cannot be dismissed as drug thoughts
have i opened pandora's box? is this the end?
>>36931972
Learn mindfulness meditation. It helped me to tame my thoughts. I think it can help you too.
>>36932032
Get this aswell. Fucking sucks how do I stop this
The only way out of this hell is to enter the hell of sedatives.
It's a different feel.
>>36932094
Anon I know what you mean
You think "Lol these are just drug thoughts" but you "know" deep down inside that they make sense
Thing is, they very well may make sense. But it doesn't mean they are valuable insights or significant in any way.
All of our social interactions are fake. Who cares?
>>36932384
>All of our social interactions are fake. Who cares?
are they though? or is that just the cynical robot perspective on life? because yes since i was a kid it seems clear to me everyone is acting 24/7 i have always been able to spot the underlying motivations for seemingly innocent behaviors but at the same time i don't trust myself because i do not live a healthy lifestyle and i know i am paranoid
>>36932094
Also THAT PICTURE
Holy shit lol. Stepping out of the matrix. I know the feel.
Anyway a more elaborate reply
I know what you mean entirely and I get this too. I vaped too much weed a couple months ago and basically got stuck in a time loop worse than my worse LSD trips. I thought to myself "What if my existence is all fake and psychedelics are the only thing showing me reality again - and reality is one big fucking time loop and the external world is just a trick to convince my memory that there is anything except me, but it's really just me and my thoughts forever, eternally, in this endless universe" but it's nonsense
This is a VERY common psychedelic "insight" when someone has a bad trip, and it does stick with you.
My advice, stop doing all drugs NOW. And start exercising and reading. You'll never forget these experiences, but you will realize they're nothing
>>36932433
Yes everyone is acting and true free will doesn't exist
Our internal monologues are all SO much richer than we let on. These things only come out on anonymous message boards like this, and while drunk
Talking on the phone to my dad, I know that if a certain topic comes up such as "beer" he's going to tell me "that beer story" he always does. And if Europe comes up he's going to tell me the story about when he got off his flight in London the first time. He almost always does this
I can predict his actions, does he have free will? I don't fucking know. I think he's just having a conversation with me and this is small talk. I must do the same thing
I don't fucking know