How is life going anon, what's bugging you?

Talking to a girl long distance that makes me want to get my life together. Sometimes she messages first and she says nice things about me, but other times she'll go long periods without responding. I keep getting so self conscious about how often I reply and how long my messages can be. Pacing is everything from my understanding.

being alive makes me sick

>>36853518
I literally see no reason to get out of bed anymore
My parents wouldn't like me being more of a wreck than I am though

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>>36853362
Studying math

>>36853362
Hovering over the send button on the message that will either win me my oneitis or lose her forever and I'm fucking terrified

Just more oneitis, like everyone else.

>>36853724 thanks for the vocab

>>36853362
I have syphilis and I'm in the second stage where I'm covered in a fucking rash. I don't know whether to go get the shot or ride it out and dive into madness and paint and write poetry. Advice please?

>>36853724

Go for it, only what can happen does happen.

>>36853362
Pretty meh. Trying to keep myself busy so I don't do anything stupid. I'm just about to graduate high school and supposedly everything changes once you start college so I guess I'm waiting on that. How about you OP? Everything going alright?

>>36853714
this bth senpai

when i was a neet i dreamed about going back to college and studying math
i felt so excited and even started learning it on my own for a while before classes started

now that i'm in school again, i lost all desire to learn. it doesn't feel magical anymore like it did when i studied on my own, at my own pace

i don't wanna drop out, but i'm dying inside

help