Please Iist the things that stop you from killing yourself.

>>36833320
could always drop out of school, move out of state, and get a cuck job. i say move out of state because the thought of leaving my family is relaxing.

knowing the house would be a mess

>>36833320
1. Loving family
2. Cartoon show I want to see the ending of
3. Travel plans

too late, the damage is done.

>>36833320
Knowing that no matter how shitty my life can become there will be a period when I will be completely alone, it's so relaxing to me it's crazy.

>>36833377
Nice dubs and I'm in the same exact scenario. Let's move in together :3

My friends and adventure

>>36833320
>Please Iist the things that stop you from killing yourself.
AoT cliff hanger.

>>36833320
vidya
booze
future tech
and possible day of the rope

I'd like to read more books
family would be bummed out I guess
I've never been to Rome or Istambul
but more importantly
I always pussy out from self-harm

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>>36833320
>Drugs
>Porn
>Fictional Stories
That's it.

>>36833320
My family.
So to comfort myself I made it my responsibility to make other people feel better about themselves.

>Everyone I know would be sad
>Haven't seen enough of this huge world
>I've experienced both bad and good, and know good can come back around
>At some point I'll figure out long-term motivation
>I want to leave a mark somehow


Problem is, that last one is why I get depressed...idk how to do it.

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>Cuddly and nice pets that I care about
>Parents have faith in me unlike rest of family
>Weed and psychedelics
>Knowing that it's possible that one day she'll come back.

She's not coming back and it hurts so bad, I gave everything and I tried so hard.

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>my mom
>Lifting weights
>Asian girls who don't talk to me
>My dog
>Nice weather

>>36834357stop smoking weed and get over her

>>36833320
my dad
music
learning new things
meeting new people
going new places
feeling new feels
experiencing life

>>36834267
Drive to your local elementary school and make a lasting educational impact on young minds by introducing them to the joys of reading

>>36833320
short memory

Fear of the unknown and relentless trying in life

>>36833320
i don't know at this point.. i'm seriously nearing the end of the line here

people post shit like this all the time so no one will fucking believe me but i am honestly VERY close to killing my ex gf and her family, and then killing myself. it's becoming practical now. i'm holding out hope that something will change but i'll be surprised if i make it to 2018.

Music is pretty cool
Drugs are fun
I still have a shot to be a rockstar someday but if it doesn't work out then I'll revisit this subject
Video games are dope
Stand up comedy is nice, laughing is great

i want to experience everything

thats all

I can't get away from drugs. It's been almost a year since I quit all the benzos and painkillers. I still drink and smoke, being clean is just too hard. They ruined my life. They've made me dumber, I'm so fucked up that I can only express my emotions when I'm fucked up. I can't get away from them. I got to work today and my coworker started talking about how drunk he got last night, then how one of the managers popped 8 bars and woke up in a hospital. I went out back on a smoke break and found a friend talking on the phone with a coke dealer. They're everywhere and I can't get away. A childhood friend killed himself Friday , I know he was using, I just don't know what. Last time I saw him, we smoked weed for a week to mourn his brother. His brother ate a bullet a few years ago. My mood stabilizers make me so tired, I feel like I can't move sometimes. My life is just this fucked up cycle of freaking out, getting clean, and relapsing.
I hope your last moments were clear and sober Ethan.

>>36833426
name of the show?

>>36833320
1. Snow/skateboarding
2. Antidepressants
3. Family

I like to ride my bicycle and do every chance I get.

>>36833320
1. GF
2. Friends
3. Memes
4. The small chance that I will actually be successful in life

>I don't understand enough about the universe. I need to understand more. I'm profoundly curious.
>Music

These bring me comfort.

They only work when my MDD episodes are not severe enough to fade my cognitive abilities and apreciativeness of beauty, though. And I need antidepressants to be able to get up from bed.

Also
>Having the option of suicide

Somehow, having a detailed plan brings me relief and makes me feel more in control and less troubled.

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The fear of pain before death, or after.
Edgy music my brain seems to worship.
A father who pays for me to pursue my own interest no matter how meaningless.
The human survival instinct.
The desire to experience everything interesting in this existence.
The ability to withdraw from society for months at a time.

>>36833320
1. Transhumanism
2. Quantum Immortality
3. I don't have a gun yet

1. My grandparents who took care of me as a wee lad, who I don't ever want to see or even think hurt by my shit decisions.
2. Too much of a bitch to do it myself.
>tfw almost went through with it two years ago but the rope was as weak as me

>>36835125
>1. Transhumanism
>2. Quantum Immortality

>>36833320
training MMA

I'm afraid of failing to kill myself and I'd end up in extreme pain

>>36834060
>His life is an anime

1. I'm living with producer friend in Nevada, so I wouldn't want to hurt his business
2. working on a lot of music and it's been the most existentially fulfilling thing I've done in a while
3. botching the act


I've been writing a song a day and I know most of this will never be heard by anyone but I really like this chorus and I think you guys will too.

http://vocaroo.com/i/s1as2X2oNp5I

>>36833320
daniel
fear
curiousity/slight hope
wanting to finish all the films and books on my list

i'll probably do it in a few years though

>>36833320
The hope of finding something that will stop me.

>>36833320
>fear of pain
>the hope that it can still get better

>>36833320
>family
>doggo
>kinda want to play some games that i haven't yet

Once i complete them, then i will unless something changes and i want to keep living.

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when I had my first suicidal thoughts, I had a endless list of reasons not to kill myself. now, years have passed, I still have suicidal thoughts. my list? only one entry, which is losing it's value day by day. that reason is my family. I had a mental breakdown this year and I came to realize, my family is just there to get me going in life, to make me independent, make me successful, make me a good person. I'm 22 yo and I'm none of that. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again. I'm exhausted. I'm tired. I'm empty. I'm scared from myself. my mind is split. part of me just wants to finish this misery and my other half tries to contain this grudge, but my tolerance for my bad side increases day in day out. I lose my mind to this thing in my head. I don't know how long I can control it. but I know, once it unleashes, I'm guaranteed dead for sure.
to answer your question tldr: my parents and my split mind keep me alive

My family, especially my brother would be ruined by it. It would be the shittiest thing I could do - to ruin 3 lives with my last action.
Other than that nothing. I don't enjoy anything and I don't have anything to look forward to.

>>36839495
what happened to all of those reasons? have you tried to find things to add to the list within the past year or so? i would imagine after so many years that you probably have moved past the point where you even consider your life improving but perhaps one or two more things on that list, however small they are, could boost your mood enough to start moving in a positive direction.

>>36839537
Gf
Family
Need to kill jews

got told it would be retarded an selfish and that i should know better and for some reason at the time being retarded seemed like worse of the two outcomes

Anime
Vidya
Books
Internet

The things I use to escape reality for a while

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>>36834110
>future tech
Very much this.

Learning about Technology, as well as being surrounded by Technology has always made me feel calm and happy.

>>36839608
Did you mean to reply to me?
I am quarter jewish. You can start with me if you want.

Family would be pissed
Friends would be sad
Waifu would be dissapointed
Haven't finished the things that I started doing to give me something to do so that I have an excuse not to kill myself
Haven't passed on my legitimatley good genes

The fact that I have no future to begin with. Living or dying is the same, all I have is the now. I don't want to turn the now into pain.

marijuana
seeing new places
wanting to see the end of my tv shows
wanting to see new tv shows and movies that haven't even been produced yet
my dog
my parents
my brothers
wanting to see at least one of my sports teams win a championship once in my life

i really want to do it but i don't know how

Be-Bop High School scans.
Bakuon Rettou scans.
JoJo's Bizarre Adventure anime.

That's it really.

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>>36839567
what happened? time happened. life is in a constant change. change doesn't result always in good things. I lost my best friends, a lot of relatives died, I lost my interest in engaging new things, I lost interest in general, like my hobbies and stuff. I lost my robot gf, I lost my trust into others, I lost my joy of laughing and smiling, I lost my motivation, I lost my determination. So what's left from a "normal" human if you count all these things out. that's why I'm here because at least some people feel somewhat the same and I get the feeling of empathy.

I always tried to find new things but they never really worked out. I don't want materialistic goals or achievements. I want the sense of appreciation, love and friendship; the feeling of accomplishing something. but I can't. I can't find a way out of this hole I'm stuck in. do you have any ideas for this list?

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>>36833320
We have this thread too often
>weed
>vidya
>anime
>my mountain hike trail no one uses anymore
>my precious time being A L O N E
>dank memes
>4chan greentexts

I sure have alot going for me

>drinking
>drugs
>dick

>>36833320

1) The fact that I am my parents' only child and I will most likely not have a new sibling
2) the need to pass on my family's legacy to my future children
3) I don't want to let my tormentors know that they have won because they caused me to quit this game that this life is
4) I may go to hell instantly if I kill myself
5) I would rather be murdered in a very grand and dramatic way, it needs to be dignified and my dream death
6) My ability to inspire the world with more stories and art
7) My animals

>>36839847
Are you a girl (male)?
Originilamoniffhtgggugchiu

>>36840166
No, I'm a huge faggot

1.Someone told me Aesop rock is releasing a new album soon
2...

>>36833320
>good friends
>vidya
>twitch streams

>>36839806
Can't think of anything that isn't superficial, but I'm still going to say it even if you've heard this shit like 100 times already. Just find some sort of hobby or a skill to learn and stick with it even if it sucks shit. Eventually you'll get mildly good at it and find new people to befriend, and perhaps they'll even appreciate you and what you do depending on what sort of a hobby or skill it is. I know you've probably tried it before, but if you're going to feel like shit and have no aim in life it's better than nothing.

I guess where the real advice lies in all of this is to just give yourself some form of direction, and eventually you'll figure out something about yourself and find something that's worthwhile to do/at to your list. It's the approach I've started to take this year and while it hasn't fixed even 1/2 the issues in my life I at least feel like I have some sort of direction which honestly helps a fuckton.

>>36833320
>Please Iist the things that stop you from killing yourself.
Too much hassle
Family responsibilities (mum, etc)

>>36833320
I'm not even sure if I'm alive.
I'm no better than a house cat.

>people who will miss me when I'm gone (parents primarily, though my brother, my cousin and her two kids will miss me)
>video games i haven't completed
>music
>booze
>my stubborn will to live

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>>36840548
well, I'm going to uni every now and then and pass my exams but it doesn't make me feel better.
how do I find this sort of hobby? I played vidya, watched anime, read books, played football (soccer), went to a dance course and learned a few foreign languages. none of them really interest me anymore. can you make any suggestions? I'm not really creative so I can't think of anything else. yesterday I played Overwatch after months and someone in ranked told me I was a good tracer. I really felt great about that because normally I don't get any compliments. I kinda feel pathetic to be so happy about this subtle thing.
what's your hobby btw? what problems do/did you have? how did your hobby help with that?

>>36834207
This right here is the only reason for me as well
Take care of yourself brobot

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I want to see monogatari end. I've put a lot of time watching it and talking about it and getting excited for it over the years, and its one of the only things I've felt passionate about. I care more for the characters than I do for any real relationship I have, and so after it ends or the creator dies I can rest peacefully

>>36833320
alcohol
music
videogames
possibility of a gf

>>36834950
>GF
Get out please

origunalohjhkhjjtfg

>>36833320
the usual stuff. animus and vidya

>>36840982
Honestly if you enjoy playing overwatch I would just say aim to git gud. At the very least setting arbitrary goals to improve will give you a sense of progress, and you'll probably get a chance to befriend some people you meet in-game along the way. While it's probably not the best thing to sink your time into in terms of being productive to society, if getting complemented made you excited then at least it's something you know you can enjoy. If you eventually meet like-minded people through playing (which after a decent amount of time you probably will) then talking to them will probably give you ideas about other shit you may like, while giving you a sense of appreciation and friendship. Personally, through watching anime, I eventually befriended some weebs and found new interests which have helped me give direction to my life (have finally switched to a degree I like which I probably would not have even considered before if not for the people I have met online).

So while that's not solved everything, and while things are still very up and down for me, I finally have some sort of direction that keeps me from being completely lost, and hopefully as I slowly progress I'll continue to befriend new people and find new interests that keep me from becoming a total wreck.

>>36833320
my family and the glimmer of hope inside of me that really shouldn't even exist anymore, but still does.

It gets better, right?

RIGHT??!??

>>36834756
Shingki no kyojin

>>36833320
family
god (fear of)
fear of death
friends

it would look really gross and i don't want to be remembered that way by anyone

maybe i'll od on heroin. then i'd be blue and stiff and void my bowels, but my brains wouldn't splatter everywhere, and there wouldn't be a rope ring on my neck.

if i got any heroin though i'd just do it recreationally and fall back into addiction.

cowardice and "muh sad family"

A promesing future
A family
Whant to read/know more
Whant to travel
That's it.
Ho and my meme colection is too dahm big.
Have a nive day :-)

>>36833320
Suicide is for cowards and you shouldn't do it unless you're one.

>my own inability to care about how pathetic I am
>my neetbux and free rent, don't force me to sink or swim
>the notion that even at the slow rate im going im getting better.

>>36833320
>music
>4chan
>my "friends"
>books
>family
>future

>>36841675
sounds great my friend. I'll try to keep myself motivated but I'm not sure how long it'll last. I get bored super fast but I'll try to stick with it for at least a few weeks. I wish you the best of luck in your life and challenges that'll await you.

>>36834481
literally me besides the dad part

>>36833320
Once I actually made the decision to kill myself, or at least accepted that I could and will most likely do it soon, it was enlightening. YOU are the one that decides when you want to go, I'm waiting on a few things to try before I go, such as try certain drugs, fuck a qt3.14 trap, and such, etc.

>bullying femanons
>asking femanons to be my gf

thats pretty much it

>>36833320
>4chan
>Vidya
>Music
sigh

>>36833320
The idea that it could get better.
>had a dream last night that showed me not all hope is lost
>I love my family too much to put them through that
>I don't want to die before aliens make themselves known
>I dont want to miss out on the chance to get drafted so I can serve my country

hope and faith keep me artificially alive

drugs and one person for me. she is the only thing i will strive for and the only thing that's worth it in this world. suicide is close and my life is coming to an end, bros. see you on the other side.

>>36833320
I'm actually pretty happy. I am not a normie, robot, cyborg, chad, alpha, beta, omega or anything. I am ascended beyond all that.

>I need watch my dad die
>Find someone who cares about me
>Find a better life
>Alcohol

>>36833320
Never finished my bucket list

>>36833320
My mother, honestly. she doesn't deserve to lose another kid.
Can't get too deep here. vidya & music are probably a major factor too. There are so many games I haven't played yet. likewise w/ music.

>>36843712

Well hurry up and finish it

Gotta get to 4/3/2/1.
Gotta find a gf.
Gotta walk the path to enlightenment.

Weed
Food and drink
TV, movies anime, random vids
Guitar and music
Shit posting

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>>36833320
>Fear of damnation
>Sympathy for my mother
>Physical pleasure

Not interesting enough to die

>>36833320
fear
fear that ill mess it up and end up worse than i was
a vague hope that things will improve, call it faith

The possibility that the next life will be more exciting. This one doesnt really matter, just gotta coast through

>>36833320
>2D
>Mommy
>4chan
>Wanking
>Snow

I am currently living for the happenings

It's never a good idea to force something. It'll typically end up in a mess, like ta king a dump. So instead of forcing my shit out before I really even have to go, I'll just wait until it comes.

>>36833320
I love myself and have dreams I want to accomplish.