I am working right now.
$15 an hour.
I hate this.
I desperately try to do things to make it palatable.
To distract myself.
I'm not bad at my job.
And it isn't necessarily a hard one.
But I cannot eliminate this feeling.
That this is not my job, not my career.
This is community service, indefinite probationary community service for a crime I am innocent and ignorant of.
The crime of existing.
I wonder if these people know what I am when I talk to them.
I probably appear normal on the surface too.
How ghastly.
I really hope the apocalypse comes soon.
I cannot keep this act up for much longer.
religion is the opiate of the masses for a reason.
>gets paid twice as much as the average person
>cries about it
Please buy lots of cigarettes, alcohol and iPhones you dumbshit
There is no true altruism is there?
What with the, "u only help because u feel nice, selfish!"
But what if I cant control when I help people.
I feel reluctantly compelled to and feel angry about my inability to reign in impulsive compassion?
Would I be truly altrusitic then? Or just a neurotic insane persom?
It doesnt exactly denote the selflessness that the term is asking for.
It just trades one obstruction for an even more vague criterion.
Altruism in mind, I wonder how many would ask me for my money if they knew.
People are desperate opportunistic predictable animals.
Calamitous animals that constantly scramble over each other for relatively nothing.
No reason at all.
>>36819382
Where the fuck do you live you dumb nigger
15$ is what I made when I joined the union when I was 18 ... 12 fucking years ago
54$ an hour right now
It's Saturday ... time and a half
>>36819254
these are the symptoms of a 40 hour work week. Work 10 - 15 hours a week and devote more time to being yourself
Could you tell me a little about yourself?
If it is not too much trouble
>>36819434
Haha were sitting the same way on break.
U fitter or somting?
Is your forman a ginger?
>>36819254
also when you decrease from a 40 hours work week you must remember to not work 2 days in a row. Working puts stress on the mind and body and you need at least one day off in between to heal/recover
>>36819438
I should keep your fingers in a jar for what you said to me.
Please tell me why you said this to me.
I'm sorry.
I feel bad for being angry at you for assuming I have the luxury of doing something like that.
I do not.
Sorry. Language.
>>36819382
This >>36819446
Was for you big guy
I'm starting a $19 an hour job (12 hour shifts 4x a week) on Wednesday. I'm dreading it.
>>36819509
if working 40 hours+ a week is your only way to sustain yourself then you are a slave. this is very bad
>>36819351
fuck off you commie fag.
>>36819579
Yo thats racist man.
Dont csll me no slave. We was kangz boi
>I cannot keep this act up for much longer.
Never EVER say this. It's your subconscious trying to trick you. Essentially you're saying 'it's ok, this will end even if you don't do anything'
Nothing could be further from the truth. It only ends when you have the power to make it end.
Get started on your escape plan NOW. Start sawing at your chains
>>36820415
Way ahead og you
>>36820773
Excellent. Eyes on the goddamn prize, my negro!
>>36820879
I really wish I liked someone here enough to give them all the guap I have saved.
But this aint no cinderfella bachelor test.
I want to come to know someone organically and just leave it to them without their consent.
Its just a fantasy.
People who want something ususally dont really deserve it.
>>36819254
>$15 an hour.
>I hate this.
I'll take your job since you're such a faggot
>>36819434
Im 33 and retired you are slacking son
>>36821060
Cool.
Il ignore your barb
Where do you live?
Seriously thought for a second about crcking my head on the pavement to buy a few days off
Tell my boss I got rekt by muslims.
This shit is so pointless man, im so close yet so far
I just want to go back to ned.
The exit is at your fingertips.
>>36821207
Gouge my eyes?
I aint no crazy motherfucker
>>36821241
I can't help but wonder if it's just the job that makes you feel this way, or are there broader implications.
>That this is not my job, not my career.
Is this your life then?
>>36821288
Yes.
This job is my life.
I literally work for nothing.
Camus would have a field day.
But I wonder if there is unseen harm in explaining to you why.
I have no life to ruin but It keeps getting worse in abstract ways, ways that surprise and blindside me.
I'm actually homeless my guy.
I have a job, no family, no friends or physical interpersonal relationships.
I work, I sleep, (never as comfortably as I would like) and eat.
I sleep in a place I cannot suey side in.
I work, and I wait.
I wait for the chance to get behind a door I can lock and not be bothered for at least 16 hours.
Hasn't happened yet.
I am 16 hours of privacy away from freedom.
>>36819254
Dude, do what I do. Work all year, save up, then fly to a 3rd world beach and fuck hot hookers for a month. Then fly home. Let the Chads and Staceys waste their time at the local bars.
>>36821687
I did that already.
I went to romania though.
Still gonna do the deed
All i can say is live small, invest aggressively and get free asap. No one can fuck with you then, meng.
>>36821724
Good job my friend. The Normies will rot in a suburban shithouse watering their lawns in 10 years and working 60 hr weeks at some mindless office. You might be broke but you'd have lived through some bitchin experiences.