>dissociating

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>>36790016
>Its another psychotic episode

>>36790152
eeeti

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>derealizing

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>tfw you feel almost one with the entire universe and at the same time not even an entity within it
>tfw vision goes retarded and hyper awareness state like when Neo sees the world in it's rawest data form
>I don't like how you're acting right now, it's scaring me

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>>36791783
But you got the nail right on the head anon.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QCpA6rgvb7Q

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ive been in a near constant state of dissociation for well over a decade now

ive tried a few times to establish contact with the outside world, break into the normiesphere

i couldnt even pretend to be interested

its like ive been trapped inside this hedonistic autopilot mode so long that what started as a temporary escape has become who i am

now that I think about it, lacking any form of ambitions and maintaining bargain basement willpower has always been part of who i am

my entire life is short term impulses and teetering on the edge of bare minimum consciousness

i wonder how long it can go on

>>36791867
what is some essential DPDR media

>>36792962
Alan Watts

That's it, but you won't be needing anything else.

>>36790016
>it's another "can feel my own touch", my whole body feel numb episode
This anxiety is getting overwhelming

>>36793090
now that i think about it, serial experiments lain

>>36791867
I'm tempted to listen to it, but yesterday, listening to a lot of Jordan B. Peterson lectures, sent me into a state of derealization at the end of the day

>>36791783
>tfw everything feel too "bright"

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cheer up lads... you might be chained up night and day and used as a human slave

>>36793775
At least I would have a purpose

>>36791965

sounds comfy tbqh, like being an animal who doesnt have to worry about the future or any other abstractions

>dissociating
>thinking about how happy it makes you
>it immediately stops
Bbekdbejdoebsjcleh

>>36794162
>disassociating
>thinking
You're just in the early dp/dr stages stil.