PIease list the things that stop you from killing yourself.

Food and beer.

apathy

immediate family

fantasies i've conjured up in my head

music
dxm
food
movies
used to include video games but its turned into a cash grab

Didn't you already make this thread?

Blox

>>36756811
Didn't I already make this thread?

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SUICIDE SUICIDE SUICIDE I WANT TOO DIIIIIIIIE I WANT TO FUCKING DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIE!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS LIFE FUCK FUCK FUCK IM SO FUCKING LONELY EVEEYONE HATES MEEEEEEEE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH KILL ME NNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i do not have a weapon. that's it.

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>>36756629
Mei from Overwatch

my mom
she's literally the only thing holding me back
I am actively suicidal

Wanting to be a father
Wife
Job
Experience shit
Vidya
Family

>>36756629

>fear of hell

that's literally the only thing

>>36756732
Must be new to dxm. Has it lost its magic yet or r u 1 of the lucky ones?

>>36756629
Nothing is keeping me from killing myself
so why can't I do it?

Cyberpunk 2077

stop as in make me want to live for or prevent me from actually doing the job?

want to live for:
music, i fucking love music
1 guy i'm talking with on IRC
my family (they are good people in general, really can't complain)

prevents me from kys'ing myself:
don't want to fail my mother. maybe i grew up to be a failure because of her, but i believe she cares for me a lot anyway. she tried her best.

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>>36756629
>House of Cards at the end of the month
>Game of Thrones later this year
>Still a virgin
>BJJ progression
>Student debt
>Family
>Schemes to get high
>Willingness to get societal revenge behind a veil of legality

>>36758009
not as good as it used to be but i have good trips sometimes and i have a nice anti-depressive feel where everything is clear and vivid especially sound the next day

>>36756629
Daughter
Skating/skate videos
Music
Art
My kitties; patchy and furr
Pussy
Drugs
Internet
Learning cool things
Good food

>>36756629

I just want to exercise and hopefully see all of Jojo animated. Pretty much my motivator.

https://www.youtube.com/user/jaxblade07/videos

>>36758087
Yeah the after glow is still incredible. Any other drugs u into? Im currently destroyed on phine

My dog.

Family, too. But mainly the dog.

>>36758051
Schemes lol i like ur choice of words

Iaziness

i know i'm holding back anime-tier badass potential. i can see it hiding in my fat fucking cheeks. i hate myself for being such a lazy asshole, even though all the signs were blaring in front of my face, i still chose, 'lel fuckit let's jerk off and play videogames all day'.

music is nice.

guilt. hoh man, guilt.

spite. my shithead sister will use my suicide as an excuse to be a bigger shithead, "oh at least i'm not dead! i bet you wish i was dead mom, like your son!" fuck you, cunt.

i enjoy running through the woods. i went too deep into occult/spiritual ideas. same with evpsych/ human history. i'd feel like a little bitch for offing myself. not sure if that's a good or bad thing, i should've just stuck to drawing or some shit.

other than that i want to motherfucking kill myself so bad it gives me physical gratification to make plans for it

>>36756629
weed, coffee, cigs, movies and aquarium fish that are dependent on me.
I'm just grinding it out until my natural death.

>>36756629
If I was dead I couldn't smoke any more pot and that's a just awful idea. Also as far as we know the dead can't shitpost.

Plus the knowledge that somewhere, somehow, some Chad and Stacy are having the literal worst day of their lives. I'm sitting here comfy and somewhere there is a Chad who has brain cancer who never did anything wrong and was nice to everyone around him who is going to definitely die because he is even as old as I am.

The knowledge that Chads suffer lets me get up in the morning.

>>36757786
BRRRAAAAAAAAAAPPP

orahamp

>>36758189
lsd is cool and i can tell you i dont like weed at all.

>>36756629
Apathy.
Literally any small or minor thing(if i kill myself i'll miss the new samurai jack episode, etc.)
Recently found a very close fembot and we bang from time to time without condoms cause she's sterile.
Video games.
Various substances.
I cook and i'm damn good so food if i'm the one making it.
Sleep.

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>>36756629
The picture says it all anon kun

>>36756629
>I enjoy making my mother happy
>family would be devastated if I died
>anime
>memes
>life is too interesting to miss out on
>food tastes good
>I want to use my winter coats at least one more time

Also, this >>36758444. Nice trips too

>>36756629
>not being a pussy
>too dumb to be depressed or care

>>36756629
a gun

having to pass tests to get one legally

I forgot to buy a rope again.

>>36756629
i keep forgetting the reason i want to die

Here's one you may not have thought of:

I don't kill myself because I want to see the future. Maybe AI girlfriend bots come out and they're totally dope. Maybe the world ends in a nuclear holocaust. Maybe everything gets extremely awesome as a result of technological progress. Maybe society gets s super crazy wierd and fucked up. There's not a lot of promise for me, but fuck do I want to be around to watch things get stranger and stranger.

Others:
What's the next sick meme gonna be? What's the rest of Rick and Morty season 3 gonna be like? Borderlands 3? System Shock 3? I haven't played Persona 5 yet. I haven't played Half Life 2, I haven't played I haven't played Breath of the Wild. I haven't run out of money yet. I could go see a prostitute, I kinda wanna do that before I die. I haven't done all the drugs. I mean, if I'm gonna kill myself, I might as well do all the hardcore drugs and feel really good, without having to deal with any of the suffering of addiction.

I mean fuck, if you're actually really interested in killing yourself, there's a lot of different "nothing left to lose" type stuff you should be looking at doing. All of that stuff is worth doing before going into the infinite void. Get your priorities straight, man. don't be a dummy

>>36756629
Immediate family pretty much
I'm not even sure that'll keep me around much longer
I guess I really like math too

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>>36756629

An unwillingness to lay down and die, and a desire to get revenge on everyone that ever hurt me. One should fight hardest, not when they have a grand cause to fight for, but when they have nothing to lose.

Also I make 6 figures and have friends so there's that, even though I'm never happy anymore and constantly get nightmares about the girl who broke my heart in high school so many years ago.

>>36756629
>my ex internet bf that dump me but i still want to hate fuck him
>never been outside country
>still a virgin
>still have hope
>art
>i want to be /fit/
>qt 3.14 twink bf that i can hold hands and be happy with

I don't want to bother my family, that's it.

>>36756629
- family
- career

>>36756629
her.
originally

Waifu
Alcohol
Family

In order

I wanna see how my story ends. Also that comfy and aesthetic feel.
>>36758688
>I want to use my winter coats at least one more time

You have the correct priorities.

This Spring has been really pretty. I have this secluded spot where I take my dogs and work out. It's basically an abandoned outdoor workout facility, and there's a lot of various trees including a cherry blossom tree and then a lot of dafodils.

Today there was a soft breeze and a sunset that fell on the leaves just right. I played ball with my doges and things felt nice. Things are nice when there aren't many people around. Nature can be a good friend when it's not, you know, trying to eat you.

>>36761187
lol whateryou fucking gay bro?

- My boyfriend
-

Yeah, that's it. But honestly the fact that at least one person cares about me. There are material things like vidya and film, but him more than anything is what stopped me.

Even if we broke to it would be a lot harder for me now knowing he'd find out.

>mom
>dad
>grandma and grandpa
>my autistic group of friends
>I actually enjoy university
>learning physics
>learning history
>watching porn
>anime
>good TV shows (currently watching Prison Break)
>playing fighting games and shooters with my buddies
>the gym
>that awesome feeling of being sore and seeing yourself progress
>eating at Chik-Fil-A TENDIES
>eating at my local Japanese restaurants
>watching new movies at the theatre
>and of course, talking with anons on 4chan

Tbh OP I still feel extremely depressed and lonely on some days but you gotta keep fighting man. Find things to keep yourself busy with. You don't need a girlfriend to be happy. I'm still a kissless virgin yet I still feel like I'm generally happy. When the bad days come, I just fight it.

>>36761823
Kill yourself normalfag. Stop polluting our board.

couldn't hurt my family like that, we've been through too much.

also have a long-time best friend/love interest that i'm planning on pursuing w/ a long-term plan that involves graduating college/moving to NYC. otherwise i would've bit the bullet already. i have no zest for life save for the few things i dream of and plan to achieve.

>>36756629
HomeIessness

>>36761916
It's not normal if you're two sadboys who fell in love. Besides traps/femboys aren't normal yet so I'm still an outcast.

Sorry you haven't had as much luck meeting someone though /r9k/ as I have.

>>36761871
Suppose I could make some complaint of you seeming functional, but the only real thing I must complain about is:

>eating at Chik-Fil-A

Overpriced for a basic product man. White Castle, Portillos, and others are clearly superior.

Literally just this one lesbian friend that I have. All my other friends turned into assholes against me because of one of them. My family can't understand me. I have nothing to look forward to that I think I would enjoy other than leaving. I'm so autistic that I can't make new friends at all without driving them away.
This lesbian friend is the only person who somewhat understands me and she keeps me sane.

>fear
>dread
>momma

Video games, A belief in higher powers, a desire to enjoy life and the reminder that even my tormentors face their challenges

Family however disitant it may be and a stranhmge belief that there may be a better tomorrow

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>>36756629
Family, and future.

>>36756629
someday I want a dog

if I kill myself and the people I hate continue to live and enjoy the world, it's not fair, I will do what I can to make them miserable as well

I still want to try alot of food, I get really sad when I realize there's so so much food I've never tried

I want to see beautiful places in the world before I die, I haven't seen any in real life, I've only ever left the country once against my will to some backwater shit hole that I never want to see again

>>36760745
you sound like me in the future

what's your job anon, I too have a burning desire to get revenge on all who so much as looked at me the wrong way

>>36760745
money is power. you could ruin that bitches life so easily

the hope that there's actually good things in the world

>>36763375
This is going to sound normalfaggy as fuck but the only genuinely interesting/good things in the world from what I've gathered seem to be other people or at the very least their ideas (media).

Too fucking bad that it's impossible for me to get along with just about anyone. I wish we all wrote stories and shared them with each other instead of talking face to face about real things. The nihilism always creeps into personal relationships. What am I doing, why am I doing it, why does this person want what they want from me, what do they want in the first place, what do I want, can I actually fully appreciate this person, does it matter when we're both going to die, etc. If our style of communication were more otherworldly- or at least self-contained, there might be more purpose to it. Idk.

Sorry for the long post about nothing

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food
drugs
1969 dodge charger
i want a daughter

>>36756629
I believe in reincarnation.
So i'd just be reborn into this godforsaken shit fest of a world

>>36764056
Meaning that to me there's no fucking point to it

>>36764056
im curious, why does reincarnation seem plausible to you? also do you think you can be reincarnated in another time period?

>>36756629
Vidya
Family
My 3 cats
The basic things that make life good, like eating my favorite foods

Truth be told, I'd just rather not be dead

1) First and foremost the age of robowaifus and VR and shit, so that I can have a sort of mommy/worshipper gf
2) Being able to afford my beffed-the-fuck-up gaming rig
3) Now that I'm about to enter uni at 19 to study History I like to think it'll work out since I'll be happy with what I do after the torture that was a business/engineering oriented HS
3) Maybe do something important or getting the fuck out of this shithole
4) Literally not dying, you see it's a win-win because I've been an underdog all my life and seen as weak or some shit, that and whoever hates me has to deal with me being alive
5) Maybe getting humanities pussy in uni

>>36764064
Just use up your tries by back to backing it till you hit the negative end and cease.

>>36764092
It's just a belief i have.
Why kill yourself if there is the possibility of coming back and not remembering it. You'll still have the same urges to do certain things that you wanted to do in a past life. But you wouldn't remember it and you wouldn't understand why you want to do those things.
You wouldn't remember anything due to the fact that you'd be a completely new person with just the same urges.

When it comes to time, I believe you can be reincarnated from present - future. Being reincarnated in the past is retarded

>>36764139
Backing till i hit the negative will just reincarnate me as an animal
fuck that.

>>36756629
video games
younger brother (mostly this one) one of my younger brothers who is like 6 doesn't really talk to anyone and he kind of acts like me so I let him watch me play vidya since he likes that. he's not good at vidya yet but in a few years he'll be the squeaker kick all your asses :')

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SSRIs. Started them and I stopped feeling suicidal every two weeks. Before then it was mostly cowardice.

I want to learn how to draw a live in the middle of nowhere in a tiny house.

1. The problem with suicide is that you always kill yourself too late.
2. I will die eventually anyway, if things get too bad, there is always an exit plan.
3. The irrational character of life which maintains itself without reason.

>>36764164
No see. You suicide now, choke on your embilical cord, walk into traffic as a cow, get purposefully caught by the inner city pound as a cat, fly towards a bonfire as a moth, exposure yourself to air as a bacteria, then fly into another interstellar heavy particle.

Eventually you'll just reincarnate as nothing. Either that means you cease or you become god in which case god yourself out of existence.

>>36764201
>ssri's
Wait till you adjust and lose your libido, energy, general will to live, ability to feel most good emotions, and the headaches begin. Also you won't be able to orgasm for like a year after.

>>36764405
Already lost my libido, haven't fapped in three weeks, when I did I had to force it. I do feel positive emotions about as much as before, maybe slightly more, which is rare, I am not a happy person but at least I am not crying daily or suicidal anymore. Have just as much energy as before about.

Living for a while doesn't sound appealing but I don't want to end it anymore, so. Been on them for three months.

>>36756629

not having any problems in my life and only coming on /r9k/ to shitpost

>>36756629
Anime and my dog.

t. KHV

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There's always something that prevents me from calling myself a loser or having suicidal thoughts or degrading myself and shit like that, despite all the damn garbage that happens to me.

I wonder what. I also wonder why people even have such urges.

>>36758031
cool im also working on a unique cyber videogame

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Learning how to better myself and using all the shit I dealt with in the past as motivation.

>>36756629
14 younger cousins who all look up to me, and the rest of my family.
If I killed myself I'd fuck up relationships throughout my family, and probably fuck up the lives of some of my cousins.

>>36764529
The main issue is when you gain some tolerance.

Honestly? Fear I'll fuck it up when attempting suicide. I don't hate life but I don't enjoy it either. I've read that hanging is pretty safe so maybe I'll give that a try eventually. I'm not a big believer but I'm afraid of being sent to a hell of some sort. If God is real hopefully he understands.

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curiosity tbchwy desu fampai

I wanna be around when shit hits the fan, or when we finally get some megastructures going that make space travel cheap

if I knew for certain that WW3 or cheap space travel would be impossible in my lifetime, i'd eat a bullet tomorrow

I just haven't gotten tired of spending all of my time masturbating yet.

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>>36756629
>Sylvie's kind words
>Sylvie's smile
>Sylvie's actions
>Sylvie's climaxs
>Sylvie's eyes
>Sylvie

>>36758012
You're wrong, you're just too afraid.

Don't do it though, you have people that love you

>>36756629
a vacation to japan and south korea in a few weeks

if that trip doesnt make me want to do something then i'll probably an hero by next year.

>>36761187
Hahahaha, it's summer already isn't it?

fear (of god)
interwebs
vidya
little siblings
curiosity

>>36764790
WW3 is impossible it'll just be a short nuclear exchange. All you'll ever see are the small "wars" where we gotta hold back or else geneva will crawl up our asses like the shit show that was iraq from now on. WWII was the last "good" war and you weren't even a twinkle in the eye of the twinkle in your adolescent grandpa's eye when that shit ended. You'll never be deployed into a real war or see a flying V or have you and your buddies boot touch down for an invasion or holding lines or any sort of tactical large scale warfare. The best you could hope for would be small border skirmishes between peacekeeping and russian/north korean forces where you're just shooting at any movement you think you see till they pull back after deciding your outpost is in fact not a weakpoint.

Cheap space travel will also never happen. Any actual super structure that would make it "cheap" would itself be infeasibly expensive outside several major powers tag teaming that shit and somehow being okay with it existing in just one of the holders countries. We can't even have a tandem space program let alone have the programs team up to build shit. Outside that SpaceX MIGHT be your next option assuming you're willing to bankrupt yourself and go balls deep in permanent life crippling debt unles you have tens of millions lying around to burn. The only real "cheap" shot you'd have to go to space would be if you were a mars colonist and thats a one way trip entailing hard backbreaking work and requiring high functioning social skills, no mental inpairments, perfect eyes, perfect ears, have a height between 5'11-6'3", perfect dental health, a background in avionics and flight and preferably some sort of doctorate in science, engineering, agriculture, or physics, and have the will and drive to do all the shit that'd lead up to it.
Trust me, it depresses me as much as it does you.

>>36765043
You white or black?
If you're white have fun and know basically any chick will take you to a hotel the instant she knows you're american.
If you're black at least you can enjoy japan.

>>36756629
fear of death
hope for the slim possibility of a good future

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>tfw you take a bunch of pills and start panicing

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>>36756629
Not much.
Memes
Family
A burning passion to be remembered that is honestly all that keeps me going.

>>36765104
Take more pills to cancel out the polarities.

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>>36765006
Too bad shes not real.

1. My cowardice.
2. My dogs.
3.Drawing. I suck though.
4.?????

My mom

That's pretty much it. I have no friends, never had a gf or any romantic interactions with a woman that wasn't paid for, my job is shit and I make $11 after wasting 35k on college. I've lost interest in all my old hobbies, I don't enjoy tv, I don't enjoy eating anymore. I fucked up my liver so I can't drink, and cigarettes no longer interest me.

Yah I feel like I died long ago and this is hell.

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>>36765133
You could always MAKE her real.

>>36756629
i can keep running from my problems for now

>my dog
>my sad boi bf
>my computer
>some hope
>the fear that I won't succeed and become a vegetable/cripple forced to suffer a long life in shame because I believe in the stupis shit that your own life is the mean timeline of yours and no matter how much you screw up life is going to make you live as long as you can / forever

Tfw I'm about to lose the first 3 (or 4).

>>36756629
My neetbux. If I lose my neetbux I will no longer be comfy. My parents will probably kick me out since the only reason they allow me to stay is because I pay rent with my neetbux. If I'm not comfy, I'll probably die to a cop if I'm still too much of a pussy to end it.

>>36765189
I don't think that's how that works my guy.

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>>36765067
with regards to ww3, i wasn't hoping to be involved in the fighting. I'd just be interested to know the specifics of how and why the nuclear holocaust happens, for curiosity's sake. I don't have any fantasies of fighting in the war to end all wars or anything to that effect. I'd rather kill myself than be a soldier on the front lines of a major conflict

and with cheap spaceflight, again, I'm not that interested in actually participating in it myself, but rather seeing how people and society at large cope with the new problems it presents

and I doubt that humanity's spacefaring future as a far flung as you think

the barriers to cheap space are great, but not insurmountable in the next 100 years. on that timeline, at the very least, I would expect humanity to have started mining and perhaps colonizing (assuming automating the process isn't significantly cheaper, which it probably is) asteroids, making the material cost of any space-based megastructures astronomically lower. I don't know the numbers, but something like a skyhook constructed with either graphene or an active support system powered by a (hopefully forthcoming) controlled fusion reactor would make future transfer from earth to space a lot cheaper

really all you need for cheap space travel is a self-sufficient asteroid mining operation

If you can mine the materials necessary to construct spacecraft in space, and produce the fuel necessary to run your spacecraft in space, then you're done. you don't even need people, because by the time the legwork has been done, we ought to be able to completely, or nearly anyway, automate every step in the process. only then do you build your earth-based megastructure, in the form of either a skyhook or a space elevator, to allow you to move people from earth to space easily

i don't have the space to go into it fully, but I'm quietly optimistic about our future as far as space is concerned

Being a fucking Britfag and therefore unable to use a gun, and being too much of a fucking coward to try a riskier method. Better dead than alive, but better alive like this than a vegetable.

>>36765392
You absolutely could man. Trust me.

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>>36756629
music
material possessions
podcasts that make me feel like i have groups of friends
anime
games
material possessions
still young enough to have slivers of hope now and then when considering the future
finally enrolled in college
been falling for the redpill lately so tfwnogf isn't as bad
did I mention my material possessions
I waste a lot of money on stupid shit that I know for a fact would be thrown the fuck away if I died and that pisses me off too much to die
Thanks for the daily motivation OP

>>36765557
I'd have to find it again but theres a nice paper written on this explaining why if we haven't done it by now the chances of it happening later is so infeasible its cheek to cheek with impossible. Its not entirely monetary either thats the issue but also political, mechanical, and more. We have the ideas as you say but the actual logistics behind making them happen have many many issues that hold them back.
The tl;dr of it is unless we had world peace yesterday and tomorrow's knowledge today the chances are abysmal and just as likely to cause WW3.
I'm heading off to work now but if the threads open i'll scrounge my bookmarks its actually a really nice read.

>>36756629
Billy Idol

Eyes without a face