Please list the things that stop you from killing yourself.

understanding that depression and nihilism are all world views that can be flipped upside down

>the void
>delicious cake
>don't want to kill future me just in case

I don't want to hurt my family.

>>36739377
On some SSRIs now so I see some hope

I'm waiting for the right time

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>>36739377
>my parents
>little siblings
>the hope that things will get better someday

>>36739377

I'm waiting for the right opportunity to kill other people first.

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Art. I'm not good at it though.

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>books
>JRPGs
>anime
>other video games

Self preservation instinct, too pussy, subconsciously don't really want to die.

>the void
>my tolerance for misery increases every time I decide not to die
>if I'm gonna die i want it to be either spectacular or without care
>I care about others thoughts

My love for my family that's it

>>36739377
Procrastination and fear of missing out on my life.

>>36739377
Fear of the other side.

That's literally it right now. Well, that and I need to not die a virgin.

I still have faint glimmers of hope for the future

Music, oneitis, family and friends, and existentialism.
Today I actually thought about how cool it would be if I could hypothetically kill myself. There's too much at stake though with so little benefit. I also don't think I genuinely have the balls to do it.

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Why kill yourself when you're going to die anyway, no matter what?

>>36739561
Torture exists.

Discovering something to mildly entertain myself and occupy a few hours of my day from depression.

For instance, I just discovered tile servers and how Google maps works, things about API. Virtual Private Servers etc.

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>>36739377
Great genetics, lots of potential, gorgeous girlfriend who likes me more than I like her, and most importantly, a long list of things I want to achieve before death.

>hopes of one day making it as a writer (you can laugh it's okay)
>my family
>getting my degree
>the chance of one day having friends/gf, being shown that I matter to them
>sports games
>anime, porn, vidya

I have a bit of hope for the future
and lolis

>>36739484
>the void
Not a bad movie

>>36739377
>anime
>music
>looking at hot bitches

>>36739377
Laziness. Cowardice. Apathy.

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>>36739377
My family's religious beliefs
My brother would be left on his own
The chance that I might have a successful career

>>36739377
>my family
>my little brothers
>my dog
>my friends that actually stick with me
>that idea that my dreams could actually come true
>that it might be better

>>36739377
I was severely injured once and that feeling of slipping away is sad and lonely. I don't want to experience it again.

Also, music. Sometimes hearing someone bare their soul with music can make you feel a certain kind of love that makes you want to take care of everyone.

Also I want to see how much technology develops before the singularity and the universe turning into heaven and bringing dead people back to life

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>>36739592
GET THE FUCK OUT NORMIE
RRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
GET OUT GET OUT GET OOUUUT

Season 4 of BoJack Horseman

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stubbornness
the continued existence of others who would paint my death in their own narratives
the idea that I deserve something more

I'm afraid of oblivion.

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>>36740097
>tfw like you have felt your whole life was you being put on an operating table while a Nazi scientist performed cruel inhumane experiments on you

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some have already but said but...
>scared of the void / abyss / afterlife
>the small hope that life gets better
>family would be sad
>sometimes I honestly forget about suicide
>the next little thing I want to buy
>eating good food
>also, I hate thinking about suicide and going deeper down that rabbithole / train of thought is so damn unpleasant
>virtual reality seems promising
>I want a fidget spinner kek
>I COULD get rich investing in random cryptos but not too sure about this one
>things could be worse, probs should be grateful for what I got
>vaping is quite relaxing and I'm almost 100% off ciggies
>not paralyzed or retarded or too ugly

the thought of getting the gun and putting it into my mouth or sitting in the woods waiting for the train to come or standing on the bridge or whatever is pretty unsettling, but then again, so is the thought of feeling my heart just accelerate to inhuman levels or feeling the vessel burst in my head or feeling the cancer rape my bones as i scream and writhe or whatever the fuck happens to your liver (this is the worst one to think about because this is the one that will probably happen) is pretty shitty too
guess i'm just gonna keep drinking and see what happens

My family would be devastated.

Video games
The one friend I have
My family

>>36739561
>you're going to die anyway, no matter what?
https://youtu.be/C8VpBDtv4Vs

I failed once, and the psych wards kinda suck. They really just want to get you out after the three days unless you profess to wanting to blow up a daycare or something.

What keeps me here now? Suicide is a dimly lit exit sign at a party that's only been really bad a couple times, but is steadily getting worse and worse and worse.

I feel like a frog in a pot of water slowly being heated

Anyway my own actions will probably lead me to kill myself eventually, I can't mooch of everyone forever.

there's gonna be cool video games and stuff in the future

>>36739377
>lots of money
>social status
>future technology
>robot waifu

>>36741215
do you have these things or want to have them one day?

>>36741236
These are all things that I want of course.

>Curiosity

And

>Curiosity

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>>36741297
gl famalam me 2 buddy
but desu I'd want an actual human weebgirl qt3.14 waifu
and not sure what future technologies you're referring to, but VR is probably the cheapest one RN to get into. you could work minimum wage for a month and save up for it (without other expenses like rent though)

>my bf
>me being a pussy
>wanting to meet him someday

>>36741370
I'm talking about actual mechanical waifus. I can wait 10 years for them to be developed.

>>36741404
ldr fag brace for heartbreak

>>36739377
owning pets honestly
fear that no one would take care of them if i was gone

>>36741419
I know... I'll probably just kill myself after that because he's the only one who stops me when I get suicidal

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>>36741417
lol r u srs...you better have some money saved up boiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
idk, it's just a fancy fap machine but there is a stigma against using a doll for sex

>>36741446
Don't have anal sex because that's fucked up but feel free to do other stuff.

>>36741470
We'll see about that... I'm meeting him next Christmas probably

>>36741417
>this
>RPG Vidya
>Anime mainly slice of life category
>Virtual reality
>Advance future stuff that is gonna come in next few years.

Reasons to kill myself :

>big brother beat me
>Don't want to go to school due to social anxiety
>mentally retarted and not funny so can't make friend.
>Dropout from school
>Rarely go out of home

>>36739471
This senkaiflam

My aptitude will pay off eventually
Everyone says so....

>>36739377
Two people that depend on me.
I live for them.

I am killing myself.

I'm just waiting and doing nothing. Eventually I will die. In my experience it's quite a common method on r9k.

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The hope that one day I can get rich with my semi decent IQ and get enough surgery to make me feel comfortable in front of other people/in pictures

Knowing that I only get one shot because if I fuck up I could be a veggie and never get another chance

>>36739377
I want to be a truly great musician.

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>>36739377
literally nothing at all. I seriously can't name anything that would make me want to keeps on living but for some reason im still here

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>I'm very attractive
>I'm /fit/
>I'm 6'4
>I have a far above average size penis

I'm going through a rough patch with work and social life but knowing I'm better than 80% of the population keeps me from killing myself