Personal low score

>>36724636
sucked my own dick. hgdx

Self-admitted to the suicide/psych ward.

Paid money to suck a trans escort's dick. Cried on the drive home.

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>>36724636
Was put on a no-contact order from a trap I apparently sexually harassed during a psychotic episode

Feels bad man

Recently fapped to the sound of my roommate getting fucked.

>>36724726
I want to do that. How long did you train for that?

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Fapping to Jessie Slaughter.

>>36724636
>used to trap
>fasted, exercised, and did yoga
>reached 110 pounds
>had nice butt
>straightened my hair
>had that emo girly bang that covered my one eye going
>hair to my shoulders
>took pictures of me wearing make up with my hair done and sent it to my gay friend
>he encouraged me
>bought cute girly clothes
>wore light blue and white striped stockings and panties and a blue light striped hoody
>took lewd pictures of me and sent it to my gay friend
>jerked off while wearing it
>sucked a black guys dick
>sucked my own dick twice
>anal orgasmed about four times
>matured a little
>complete 180
>get /fit/
>short hair
>180 pounds

No regrets but my teenage years were my lowest points where I sunk deep into degeneracy.

Yesterday today and the next day and the day after that

>>36726276
Hey, show us pics of your trap self for reference.

>>36726403
I recently tried to find them myself but apparently I deleted all trace of it so the only person that might have it is my old friend but I also cut contact with him when I reformed myself.

>>36726276
I fantasise about that all the time.

>>36726436
No trust me, fantasy vs reality. It is enjoyable in the moment but afterwards it is much less enjoyable. I felt like garbage for years afterwards.

>>36724726
>hgdx
?

>>36726493
Hot Gay Dicks

He was clearly just making sure the post was original.

When I was 17 my mom and I had to go to this parent-teacher conference and my teacher whom I kinda hated tried to use his basic bitch psychology to get to know me (he minored in it or something)

I straight up told him I'm no longer interested in this education (accounting) and that I thought it was bullshit that he still made me come to class. (it's the law)

After that things got a little heated and I got overwhelmed or something so I just decided to not say anything for the coming 10 minutes. He kept asking me psychological questions such as ''do you ever scream to let out your anger?'' and I kept ignoring him while staring into nothingness. After we were done my mother started yelling at me in the car and I think at that point she gave up on me.

>Got depersonalization disorder from drugs
>Anxiety attacks almost everyday
>Almost failed out of school
>Woke up every morning thinking about whether or not I wanted to kill myself today or tomorrow
>Forced myself to go outside
Everything got better, lost the anxiety and disorder, now I'm good

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>mom found my hentai drawings
apparently this isnt original

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>>36726764
Was it as bad as Kitty-tan?

Dude there was a time when I thought other people on 4chan could read my thoughts and feelings through their own text.

I thought they could see all the thoughts and feelings of my posts

And I thought the banners were people talking to me

I'm starting to go crazy from social isolation. It isn't fun.

>>36726811
Holy shit, I'd forgotten about this. I don't think I've ever cringed so hard in my life. I want it to be real but I suspect we were rused.

>>36724636
Once took a shit in a plastic bag.

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>>36726145
Fapping to Cash me outside girl

>>36726811
Jesus fuck that gets worse every time.

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>>36726989
We've all been there anon.

>>36727125
Cant wait for the sex tape/porn career. I imagine she'll be a washed up hag by 20 though.

>>36727158
That's her problem anon.

>>36727184
I just mean; I hope we get some good stuff before that happens. She can die in an alley after that

>>36724636
Ate a dog shit on a dare.

Ate another one just because.

>>36727210
Exactly. I want see those titties free and covered in jizz in some video. Photos isn't enough.

>>36726811
comedy gold always

>>36726276
>Your gay friend

Just say your friend. Straight people don't refer to their friends as "my straight friend".

I begged my ex not to leave me after she told me that she's been cheating on me for months.
And the worst part is, I'd still forgive her if she ever wanted to give our relationship another chance.

>>36727282
I want to know more. How did he end? Was his uncle same fuckface as him? So many questions...

>>36726897
Schizophrenia. But some of us CAN feel your thoughts. But the banners are just cookies and algorithms and shit.

Every time I start typing, I dredge up a memory of something lower, and erase what I wrote.

>>36727399
we need to summon kitty-tan anon someday

>>36727507
How old she will be now?

>>36727482
how deep can one go?

I spent sophomore year in college cooped-up in my room for days at a time getting high on Klonopin and rewatching the same movie over and over again. I had zero friends or acquaintances (still don't), spoke to no one, and would show up to class having not showered for a week. The bathroom was communal for the dorm so I held in my pee until like four in the morning to make sure I didn't run into anyone in the hallway on the short walk there; I shat once every four or five days. Failed all of my classes after getting straight As the previous year so they put me on academic probation and I just never went back. I was simultaneously an apathetic zombie and a nervous wreck. That's what I get for falling for the antidepressant meme. They make you not care but in a bad way--the way that leads to you becoming an even more dysfunctional retard with no inhibitions, except you're painfully aware of how much of a retard you're being and you hate yourself for it but can't do anything to change it.

Took money out of my children's piggy bank so I could buy weed

Felt pretty bad, so I replaced it with my fuel money and then rode my bicycle the 9 miles to work for a week.

>>36727569
>rewatching the same movie over and over again
Which one?

Ruined my social, family, and financial life with drugs.

Cut friends and family out, spent all my cash on drugs and lived off credit.

Came to have over $55,000 of debt and had to file for bankruptcy because of it.

I've been slowly rebuilding my life since, but it's an uphill battle and I constantly crave drugs and "the life".

Sometimes I give in.

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>>36726811
no it was pretty vanilla thankfully
although fairly explicit

I also I went to a therapist when I was 19. Everything I said was a lie. Never went back again.

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>>36724636
whent to therapist from 10 to 21 (which is now)

>>36727125
She's going to get knocked up before she's 15

>>36726764
>mom finds you ten year old adolescent wank drawings
>she redlines them and hands them back to you

I faked suicide to get attention from my ex. She laughed at me

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mom walked in on me jerking off to everything butt

>>36727320
Believe it or not, but the "gay" part of that post are kind of relevant in the sense that traps are indeed gay.