/sude/ Suicidal Depression General

>>36716594
look ya'll. If you want the easiest way to commit suicide and painless, buy phenobarbital. At least 5 grams of it (5,000mg) and then lay down. in 24 hours you'll be in heaven. you wont have blood all over the walls and a fucking nasty mess. you'll just die in your sleep. This is how I'm going out. peace bros. see you on the flip side.

>>36716594
yeah i was gonna zip tie my wrists and fill my pants full of rocks and jump into the river.

That was a very dark time for me. Luckily I am a survivor of suicidal ideation and i have only plans for living long life from here on out

>>36716642
I wish I had the same courage as you.

I've tried multiple times to kill myself but right before I do the deed some asshat/family member/"""""""friend"""""" steps in and stops me.

If you love me, let me go.

I've tried to asphyxiate myself twice. The first attempt failed because the nylon rope hurt my neck (lel). I used a leather belt the second time, but became terrified. It definitely would have worked though.

Now I wageslave as a graveyard shift sanitation worker. It's pretty dope. Can't kill myself now because apparently I have a son.

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>>36716594
>Go outside to do groceries
>Everywhere I look theres all normies hanging out with each oither, havin a good time
>Depression starts kicking in
>Want to go home and cry in a corner
>Happens everytime I do the groceries.
n-no

Its sounding more doable with each passing day as of late

Help

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Tried to kill myself but the fucking two belts I tied together came undone and I fell to the floor.

The thoughts are persistent and every day I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to doing it. I went to the psych ward last year because I said I was going to kill myself, I think I said it because I subconsciously wanted help. I lied to the doctors so I could get out as soon as possible but the thoughts of suicide have been lingering in my mind. At the beginning of this year I told myself that this is the year I'm going to do it and I feel like the day is just around the corner.

>>36716594
If i were to do myself in i would probably do something interesting like run head on towards a train dressed as Thor

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I tried to kill myself when I was deployed. I still remember the cold barrel in my mouth and how close I was to pulling the trigger. I tried two more times when I got back with pills but that didn't work either. I always kept a 5.56 round in my locker just in case I wanted to try again. I never did. Now I don't feel like killing myself, instead that mindset has been replaced with a short fuse and a bad temper. Idk if it's an improvement honestly.

>>36716971
I forgot to add that I spent a week in the psych ward at the naval hospital against my will for admitting to all this.>>36716971

>>36716693
it is people like you who obviously just do it for attention and """"""depth""""""" like wow so sad, darn my plan is foiled again i guess i shouldnt have told anyone/done it around other people.

if you get stopped a family member or friend it's because you intentionally allowed that possibilty.

you don't really want to go, for better or worse.

I wanted to jump from 7th floor

>>36716594
I was gonna try drop hanging but there's no place to fall

Where I live trees either don't have branches for 50 feet or they're in the middle of a neighborhood. I don't know of anything else that actually is as easy or reliable