Who /daddy issues/ here ?

>>36708391
It's like he can't stand me being superior to him idk

>>36708391
I used to. I dont know if i can say that i forgive him, but i stoped to hate him.

Alcoholic, wasn't around until I was 9 years old, emotionally and mentally abusive, constant verbal and physical fights with my mom, put me down a lot of times, and treated me more like competition than an actual son.

I'm in the exact same boat OP.

My parents barely talk. They stopped talking when I was 3 or 4 I think, but never got formally divorced. They hate each other, but my mom hates him more. I do too. He had and has a massive superiority complex. She should have left him a long time ago, but instead my mom and me and my sister suffered for 20 years.

>>36708391
I never knew my father. I know he was a 5'9 manlet. I know he was a massive junkie, I know he used to go entirely batshit and beat my mother. I know he went to prison for murder before I was born. Apparently he beat some woman to death over drugs in another state.

I also know the faggot was bald. Guess how I know that.

If you're out there somewhere "Dad", fuck you.

I wouldn't say I have daddy "issues." That implies I'm actively thinking about my father on some level. We've been estranged for the better part of a decade. I've burned that bridge and moved on. But to be fair, I did make a few attempts to reconcile with him. Rather than acknowledge the abuse, he just threatened me with further abuse.

>I'm jealous of guys who are friends with their dads.
I never understood this. Even though my father was involved in my childhood, his involvement was overwhelmingly negative. I can't say I've ever truly known what it's like to have a father figure around, so I can't understand that kind of jealously. How can I desire something I've never had in the first place?

>>36708426
I can't say i'm blaming everything on him, but i just don't really wanna fix it. I just want to be away from him that's all. I don't know how to forgive him, idk what to think in order to forgive him.


Idk how people can still be brave and manly with poor dad-son relationship. I can't make friends with guys, i'm extremely self conscious, i have no one teaching me about bravery and manliness

>>36708391
>Who /daddy issues/ here ?
reporting.

I'm pretty old for /r9k/ standards so it's fair to say it ruined my life. But I'm still hoping that one day I'll be able to learn a decent craft (like attorney or sth lol), make real friends, find a gf, have children...

I've been close to some people who I explained why I'm so gentle and passive, because nonviolence is paramount for me. And humility. But people just see me as a loser.

Also, read Letter to the father by Kafka (nonfiction, real letter he wrote to his stupid dad).

>>36708625
I dont give a shit about manliness,maybe because my dad is a bad stereotype of it.

There was a time when i hate him with All my guts. I even tought about kill him while he was sleeping.

>>36708622
It's like people always look happy and sane and normal when their dadson relationship is good. I grew up being scared of my dad, i still am.

>>36708625
>I can't make friends with guys

Same. I have no male friends.

>>36708622
>How can I desire something I've never had in the first place?
This. (though OP has a point too)

My mother and her family, each time we would try to talk things out, would always say "it's always difficult between a father and his son", to drown the topic, and I believed it.

On some rare occasions I'd hear a sciencefiction phrase from a friend, like a friend refering to a discussion he had with his dad about a girl, looking for advice, and his dad giving his point of view. Pretty weird, to tell you the truth f4m.

>>36708683
>I dont give a shit about manliness,maybe because my dad is a bad stereotype of it.
this, so much.
I'd rather wear a dress and be a DECENT human bean.

rather than
>boohoo look how I'm a psychopath I enjoy your mother's pain ha! I'm so fucking alpha, see? I could crush you in my palm loser.

Also, a while after my prime youth, I realized my father has never had a real friend.
If I was asked "name one of your father's best friends", I just couldn't answer.
He just kept a friend from med school, but they just have dinner with the wives once every other month.

>>36708796
This so fucking much.

I remember one time he treated with beat the shit out of me for saying he was a shit father because the few times he was home he was drunk.

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>>36708391
>2:00PM
>father passed out drunk at bar
>me (17) dragging him in the street
>pull him up a flight of stairs
>inside our apartment
>lie him on bed
>"anon... I fucking hate you and your mother"
>"why did my son have to be such a pussy?"
>blood starts boiling
>jump up onto bed and start choking the fuck out of him
>he starts screaming
>"ANON PLEASE STOP I CAN'T BREATHE!"
>falls off bed
>start punching him as hard as possible
>"anon please I- I'm sorry"
>kick him with all my might
>he stays quiet
>Storm out of apartment

Haven't spoken to him in about 2 years now. He tries to come visit but I don't let him in, even sent me a letter once.

>>36709151
Sad. Like you and anon above, I burnt the bridges too.