reality

I guess I made another stupid thread

I'm having a panic attack when I should be resting. I try to tell myself my lifestyle is going great or that I know what I can do next to enjoy life but in reality I won't be able to do so because of my broken ideas and constant death focused thoughts. Meanwhile I'm stuck between being a wagie and a NEET because I only work two days a week but the anxiety eats me up during the other five so I feel like quitting but if I did that I wouldn't be able to finance my NEET addictions. I keep myself from following my personal projects for no reason but laziness and lack of motivation, both being clear signs of depression, something I have tried to use professional help with before but all they do is try to keep me from seeing what I already saw.

I mostly just browse 4chan, play vidya and watch animes/youtube since they are effortless activities that allow me to procrastinate heavily without entering a vegetative state but recently I've been getting less and less joy out of these things so I'm getting even more bored. It doesn't help that I recently extracted two wisdom teeth and the stitches are bothering me but I can't remove them for another week, which is making me extremely anxious.

Tomorrow I am expected to master a D&D game even though I really don't want to get out of bed... But it can't be helped.

So no, I don't deceive myself, although I would really like to

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>What is the reality of your situation?
My face is not between those cheeks

She might not like me like I like her, but I DON'T CARE. If things don't work out, I'll probably just make a Tinder and go fuck dudes.

I like this girl but I don't know how to get her to give me her number since we're just coworkers.

Probably a helpless situation since if she liked me she would have given it to me of her own volition, also she is from Nepal

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>>36687792
Hundreds of boards and websites for this and you choose /r9k/ for this? Why do you normies do this?