I've been having a lot of panic attacks today how do I calm down

>>36679562
Are you gay or just for aya?

>>36679603
aya called me useless
it hurt my feelings a lot
i keep crying

Control your breathing. In through the nose for 4 seconds, out for 4. Slows your heart rate. You also need a distraction. Something/anything to take your mind off of it. Xanax doesn't fix the problem, only alleviates it.

can i be your friend, OP? Im pretty cool.

>>36679562
By not being my freind you make me feel useless

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Aya is spending his time with another boy RIGHT NOW

>>36679786
stop making me feel bad
i want to die

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>>36679818
>i want to die
At least Aya won't feel bad if you do

>>36679845
aya was the only one who made me happy
i dont want to live anymore anon
I hate crying every second

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>>36679873
Well why are you still around then?

>>36679962
because im afraid of doing it wrong
i just lay on my bed
can you make me stop crying anon

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>>36680024
>because im afraid of doing it wrong
You'll never know until you try

>can you make me stop crying anon
I'm just having a conversation with you

>>36680084
Im scared of doing it
what if I never get to see Aya again

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>>36680130
Doesn't seem like it's going to happen while alive too

>>36680168
Im never going to see Aya again?
but its not fair
whats the point in living then
if Aya hates me

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>>36680198
>Im never going to see Aya again?
Well do you think you are going to?

>but its not fair
You're not entitled to people's attention

>whats the point in living then
>if Aya hates me
You tell me, I can't tell for other people

why do you always post about these problems here instead of seeking professional help, im genuinely curious

Please do not bullypost while posting 2hus

ZUN's love is pure and radiates through EVERY 2hu

except Medicine, that is

>>36680288
I wish Aya was my friend again
I like Aya

He doesnt care that Im sad. I think Aya really hates me now
It made me cry a lot
I cant forget about Aya

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>>36680358
Who gave you the right to tell me what to do?

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>>36680414
I don't think Aya wants to be your friend again, and he probably doesn't think about you at all.

>>36679562

diazepam is the obvious answer

>>36680456

I just wish I could forget what happened
Aya was so hurtful to me
It makes me feel worthless
I wanted to die. I still do
Just going to keep crying everyday

>>36680488
consider killing yourself loser faggot
I hate seeing your retarded threads every fucking day you stupid attention whore

>>36680532
Im sorry
I dont have anyone else to talk to

People will get tired of me crying
So I do it here
I hate being lonely
Ayas never going to save me again

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>>36680488
>I just wish I could forget what happened
You can't

>Aya was so hurtful to me
Probably deserved it

>It makes me feel worthless
>I wanted to die. I still do
Well are you worth something?


>>36680560
I'll make sure to post smug faces everytime I see your threads don't worry.

>>36680596
I want to forget but Aya hurt my feelings
called me mentally ill and useless
I think Ayas right

Im afraid to die anon
I just want a gun
i hate my life

>has a dozen + friends who desperately want to help him
>adds even more people off of these threads who want to desperately help him
>proceeds to remove them from steam and/or discord right after
>still comes crying to r9k at least 3 times a day crying about wanting to kill himself

really makes you think

>>36680676
I dont know how to get help
I delete people because I think I dont deserve their help

>>36680693
you're a fucking liar, people have told you how to get help more times than i can count but you just fucking ignore them

>>36680704
what am I lying about exactly

>>36680719
you're lying about not knowing how to get help, because numerous people have told you how to get help

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>>36680655
That's all your fault. Aya definitely dodged a bullet by avoiding you.

Just remember that everyone that has killed themselves wasn't ready to die.

>>36679562
Man up, grab your trachea and pull it sideways for a bit. Press harder as required

>>36680734
Im not lying about anything
>>36680744
Im sorry.
I just wanted to be Ayas friend
I know I dont deserve them
I want to die
It hurts a lot inside my head
nobody can help me

>>36680786
yeah, you are a liar

you want almost instant help? pick up the phone, dial 911, and tell them you are going to kill yourself

The longer you spent obsessing over this one short exchange you had with a person over the internet, the deeper you dig yourself into a hole. Only you truly know how to fix yourself, no one can do it for you. You constantly say that you want to kill yourself, I believe it, but there's a clear reason as to why you haven't done it and I doubt it can only be summed up as fear of death.

If you want to start feeling better, you should take a long, hard look at the situation you're in. Are you willing to let your idea of this Aya person control your emotions until you die? It accomplishes nothing. Billions of people on this planet and you choose to obsess over a person who treated you like dirt, can you not see how nonsensical that is? I understand that this experience was hurtful to you, but it doesn't have to haunt you forever.

Everyone is worthless, no matter what we do. You're not worth more or less than this Aya person, you don't deserve to die and ultimately you're the only one who can adjust yourself to the right path.

>>36680855
No, I dont want to live.

I just want a way to die
Nobody can help me with what goes on in my head. Ive gotten therapy and psychiatrists before
I just want to be happy again
Aya was making fun of me
I dont want to live anymore

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>>36680786
Are you unable to not repeat yourself?

My head hurts so bad
Nobody is here to make the pain go away
Aya is gone forever

Aya called me useless
I hate crying someone make it stop

>>36680957
>I just want a way to die

wow, people have even told you how to do that
you've had people give you countless methods of suicide that you could do and even instructed you on how to perform them

find someone else to obsess over

everyone hates me now
Im mentally ill and a useless person

Hes right

im so useless someone help me

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>>36681102
>im so useless someone help me
What help do you want? What are you looking in someone that would make you happy?

im afraid to try any way to die
i just want to forget everything

Im sorry Aya

>>36681102
>someone help me

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT? PEOPLE HAVE TOLD YOU HOW TO GET BETTER, PEOPLE HAVE TOLD YOU HOW TO KILL YOURSELF

WHAT THE FUCK ELSE DO YOU NEED HELP WITH?

>>36681149
i dont know
im scared to do it
I cant calm down
I dont want to be myself anymore though

>>36681129
I know exactly how you feel and it sucks, but it sounds like Aya was a pretty shitty friend, at least lately. If he did block you that means you can finally move on from him. I'm sure you can find new friends who won't make fun of you, for now just do something to take your mind off it

>>36681201
i just want to stop thinking about it

I dont get why Aya is so hurtful towards me
Aya used to be really nice
It hurts a lot
I want to die
cant stop crying
i hate living alone too

>>36681246
love me instead of aya.

>>36679562
Can I add you on discord I'm pretty bored and got no one to talk to. Don't worry I don't have high expectations

i cant forget it
please someone just kill me

>>36681246
you won't be able to automatically stop thinking about it, thats gonna take time. For now all you can do is try to distract yourself. This is gonna sound stupid but I think this is for the best, now you'll be able to move on from him

>>36681270
Its too much
im useless

just make it stop inside my head
i cant stop thinking about it or sleep

make it stop

>>36681258
yes my ID is Rem#1843

>>36681301
Just because someone blocked you doesn't make you useless, I've been in the same spot you're in and you're gonna feel like this for a bit, but it won't last forever. Awhile ago you said you were gonna try to make comics, how did that go? Having something to do will help

someone help me
i cant stop crying
unable to do anything

i cant do anything at all
why did Aya have to do this to me
I cant forget about Aya
theyre all laughing at me crying
they enjoy it
i dont know what i did wrong

I'm sick of seeing threads of you worshipping some worthless faggot. Move on with your life he's nothing special. Realize you only want him because he doesn't want you.

>>36681377
reeeeeee love me instead

>>36681377
You'll be able to forget about aya eventually, judging by what you say he seems like a shitty person anyways
you just have to do something to keep busy

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>you will never have a boy utterly obsessed with you

>>36681456
>you will never have a boy utterly obsessed with you
Seriously I would love if someone cared about me this much
fuck aya
aya is a piece of human garbage

>>36681432
I just want to forget everything

its hurting me
I cant stop thinking about it
im sorry for making threads and being useless
I resist all help because im a bad person

I dont want to live anymore
i cant think straight
Im being left again
Ayas gone foreve

>>36681508
REEEEEEEEEEEEEE BE MY WAIFU
BE MY WAIFU(HUSBANDO)
BE MY HUSBANDO
BE MY HUSBANDO(WAIFU)
WHATEVER YOU ARE LOVE ME INSTEAD OF AYA REEEEEEEEEEEE

>>36679562
Benzodiazepines. Don't get addicted.

>>36679562
cut yourself, my man. rush of endorphins will recenter your mind and bring you back into the moment.

>>36679562
i promise im cuter than aya rem

>>36681537
im sorry somebody else posted my discord in this thread
but im not really up for talking

>>36681587
reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
atleast you had a brief moment of happiness from aya
I will never have that
Never ever dumb fucking cunt reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

it hurts
i wish i had a gun
these harmful thoughts aya put into me
are eating me

>>36679562
you're literally made for pumping and dumping you cumslut, now post boipucci

i think this video sums up these threads pretty well
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0hmg7DmL7bs

I'll be a better daddy then Aya

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I've tried helping you Rem, when you've felt suicidal i've had to talk you out of it. At first I handled things with us okay, despite most of the time you talked to me it was about Aya, Aya, Aya. And just when you start to dive away from it you go contact him and put yourself in this state all over again, creating several loops that i've grown tired of.
Now you've deleted me, I can see this was just a waste of time and nothing else really matters to you except winning back your abusive boyfriend.

>>36681704
i think this video does a better job
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHpFC1hB4AU

>>36682085
mine is better because it's 2hu !!

bump for poor rem