Bar Thread

Anybody else hate that armchair psychologist nick? He thinks he's helping people but all he's doing is convincing them that they have BPD and their parents are narcs.

Playing around with vocaroo, what should I say?

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Im heavily considering selling all i own, buying travel to Turkey and then Iraq and then joining a Christian militia like Dwekh Nawsha. I hate the west for rejecting me and abandoning me. Should i do it robots?

>>36644443
>I hate the west for rejecting me and abandoning me. Should i do it robots?
What happened?

>>36644413
If you're here you probably have something but yeah he's over diagnosing.

>>36644443
How about instead of that, you give away all you own and kill yourself?

>>36644443
No way. Why the hell does that seem like a good idea to you?

Please spam the thread so we beat 616, our previous record. Go!

>>36644443
Do it. Send me a stg-44.

>>36644473
Ive never fit in anywhere, im an immigrant from a western country to the US and ive never liked living in either place. I feel like a pariah no matter where i live, and i cant connect to anyone here.

>>36644520

608, we didn't make it. Next time!

>>36644443
If your going all the way to Iraq, at least join ISIS and not some gay Jesus cult

Alas, the challenge was too great.

aw it ended

>>36644586
From where to what state in the US? Some people are nicer than others. Also fuck yankees, self-righteous pricks. South is where its at. We'll treat you like a friend

>>36644650
Michigan. Fucking hate it. I did spend 2 years in south carolina though and imo it was far nicer.

>>36644418
Say a line from Willy Wonka.

>>36644650
>We'll treat you like a friend
Unless you're brown, foreign, gay, catholic, Hebrew, liberal, nonconformist, Muslim, or any kind of spic, chink or slav

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Looking for someone to put their wit to the test and have a sword fight

>>36644620
>joining a group of goatfuckers who follow a book written by a pedophile warlord
>not joining the side that has qt3.14 militia girls

Rules for the bar thread: no rules except that I'm not on duty. I don't have to answer to anyone, and there's no set topic. Let nature take its course and have fun.

>>36644685

I was going to live there at one point in my life. It never happened.

>>36644710

I must say your posts crack me up more than anything in recent memory. That upside down shtick works every time.

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>>36644712
>muh qt crusaders
Don't actually exist, its propaganda
And how is christcuckoldry any better than the Glory of Allah?

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>>36644737
Haha! Thank you desu

>>36644775

I seriously laugh every time. Comic relief for psy threads, that's your job if you want it! (It's paid as much as my own: nuts.)

>>36644768
At least they don't fuck livestock.

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>>36644794
No pay? Time to hit the sauce.

>>36644794
Dammit Nick. I had no idea you sold out to Big Nut. This one is tough to swallow...

>>36644294
I have unrivaled burning rage that is slowly reaching a point where it is set off by the tiniest inconvenience.
I am at a point where I am almost as angry as the Doomguy himself.

What do?

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>>36644848

xD

We really need someone to make OC of things in the thread. It's a goldmine. We have a comic ninja hanging from the ceiling, a DID man, a woman who lusts after her father, a variety of Borderliners, and classic lines.

>Tell me about your parents.

We need some Oprah meme saying "You're a narc, you're a narc, and you're a narc, and you too, and everyone is a narc!"

I remind you of my animoo form.

>>36644901
This sounds very familiar. Why are you angry?

>>36644714
Free advice for you - traverse city is cancer. Pure cancer. Avoid it at all costs. If i could nuke all of northern michigan i would.

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>>36644912
I'm not a narc, I'm a ninja!

>>36644901
rip and tear oreganos

>>36644943

Cute as fyuk.

>>36644863

I don't even know that brand. Big Nut. Kek.

>>36644901
>the Doomguy himself.

BIG GUTS.

Big nut, big guts. Coincidence?

>>36644443
http://www.christianpost.com/news/vicar-of-baghdad-warns-westerners-dont-join-christian-militia-against-isis-christians-are-hopeless-at-fighting-134410/

>I would rip off my uniform and run

Good luck, faggot. Enjoy getting beheaded because your pussy christcuck baby comrades ran the fuck away.

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>>36644957
Take me seriously! I can cut off all of your circulation in seconds with my ninja wire

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>>36644685
South Carolina is pretty nice
>>36644708
I cannot speak for the entirety of the south, but around here as long as your not a doorknocking religuous nut, flambouyantly obnoxious, or assaulting someone over political opinions you'll be treated with the repaect you treat the community.
>>36644848
you seem familiar
did you go by THE Asian and/or Yellow in your highschool state?
Random long-range garden shot

>>36645063
I live in Hawaii desu
Little chance we met!
I did go by the Asian though

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>>36644912
If we're doing anime avatars, I call this one

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>>36645073
Oops forgot name desu

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All at once, the truth comes out. While Nick is pretending to care about our problems, this is all he can see as he brainwashes us to become helpless nut consumers. For agreeing to this dastardly bribe, did they also give you a free monocle?

>>36644924
Too many reasons to count. Just look at the world we live in.

I am absolutely sick to my stomach of struggling to stay alive, all while listening to constant fucking complaining ABOUT NOTHING THAT MATTERS from everyone around me.
It is no joke when I say that I am ready to just start ripping and tearing until someone has the balls to take me down.

I can't even channel my rage into something. There's just too much of it for me to handle. I have been betrayed and scorned by so many fucking people at this point that I just hate every demographic of every society.

The only thing that properly calms me is ramming my head into the wall as hard as I can. I don't want to hurt anybody so I compromise by hurting myself.

Right now I'm pretty calm because I just did exactly that. I'm concerned about brain damage but I also don't really care either. I welcome death at this point. It has to be better than constant seething rage.

>>36645034

Ninja wire! Amazing, but those ninja hangers are even more amazing, as they stand upright from your closet. Amazing.

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>>36645074
Anime avatars? I've got dibs on best meguca.

>>36645115
My whole room is a ninja training ground desu
Enemy Ninja beware

>>36645100
>For agreeing to this dastardly bribe, did they also give you a free monocle?

Two.

A nutty idea, for sure.

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>>36645074
Literally me on the lefty left

>>36645089
You know how some folks like feet?

You have nice feminine hands.

>>36645089
You act just like my best friend who I have not seen since he left the state two years ago. ;_;

>>36644980
>>36645100
>>36645145

What is this epic new nut meme?

>>36645196

I said I was paid nuts for doing the threads, meaning nothing, and so began the nut maymay.

>>36645171
A fellow hand enthusiast?

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>>36645193
I can only be friends with fellow ninja

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>>36645171
You're making me blush desu

>>36645215

A CHALLENGER APPEARS.

My hands are as feminine as my voice is not.

No pictures available right now however. Noods of my hands... next thread, maybe.

>>36645214
Convenient cover, you pecan peddling cashew coveter.

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>>36645215
>>36645171
What constitutes a good hand? do I have good hand?
>>36645222
Oh ok

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>>36645267
Follow these steps and I can begin your training desu

>>36645109
>Too many reasons to count. Just look at the world we live in.
Yeah, I try to just find my things and kinda not focus on the other shit that sucks. Have you tried doing that too? You don't have all the worlds problems on your plate. Everything fucking sucks, but if you focus on it all, you will go insane.

>The only thing that properly calms me is ramming my head into the wall as hard as I can. I don't want to hurt anybody so I compromise by hurting myself.
Yeah I feel you. For me it's punching myself in the face/head. I once punched myself in the temple and felt really dizzy for a couple hours. This sounds very retarded, but it's so calming. The pain radiating throughout your cheeks, you feel blood in your mouth from puncturing your lips. It's so peaceful ... and yet so hard to explain. And it's also very unhealthy. Do you break stuff too? Other than your wall? Actually I once talked to a guy here on /r9k/ who had a turtle that he would throw into a wall whenever he was angry, the turtle was named Greg.

I'm trying to focus on the roots of my anger now to be in control of my emotions more. Have you tried doing the same?

>>36645259

Kek be praised. Nicely written.

>>36645267

That's a man's man's hand. I gues it's a good hand, yes.

>>36645267
A bit meaty for my tastes, friend. I'm sure you're dick is fine, though.

>>36645320

Oh Lordy, I am laffin'.

>>36645255
I have feminine hands and a manly voice as well desu
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0NQJmtHfPd0

>>36645380

Nice!

Original ravioli.

>>36645380
What about feminine penis?

>>36645215
ABSOLUTE SOPHISTICATION MY FRIEND

>>36645267
I prefer feminine hands, despite bisexual. I cannot properly judge yours without hurting your feelings. I'm sorry.

It's very hard to explain what constitutes a good hand. It's the same thing as trying to describe why one likes legs over ass and titties. It just works.

>>36645380

I think a voice does a lot to humanise anons. A whole damn lot.

I probably *should* do the voice thing eventually. I'll see later.

>>36645446
Sadly not. Your mother said it resembles a shinai practice sword

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>>36645320
Bahahaha nice
>>36645292
Thanks
>>36645275
I can't follow the sneaky backstabbing dishonorabru path.
>>36645284
Have you tried to channel that destructive energy into something else? Chopping trees works for me when my anger flashes overwhelm me and I'm seeing red. Pic related
>>36645453
I'll take your word for it

>>36645380
Anime villain/10

Might as well voicewhore too.

http://vocaroo.com/i/s1o7RB3xOeEN

>>36645571

Holy shit!

You have a killer voice. Quite manly too.

>>36645284
I have tried finding the roots and it just enrages me more because it's all shit I have no control over.
My mother abandoned me at a young age before I could even comprehend anything. She then showed up throughout my childhood to emotionally abuse the shit out of me.
I cannot form a bond with a woman because I can't comprehend how they think in any way. They just infuriate me with their absolute lack of rational thought. I am emotionally stunted because of her. She had disappeared entirely so that will never be resolved.

My life is also a constant struggle for survival. I can only find seasonal work and live off rice and beans. I have no real friends. Never had sex or a passionate kiss that meant something.
Rage.

I just want to kill. It's all I think about anymore. I have no concept of what peace of mind is. My life is a complete trainwreck and watching everything else around me fall apart is even worse.

If I had nuclear launch codes I would glass the Earth and boil the seas.
Rage is all I know. Even right now I feel it. But my head hurts too much to be up for another ramming.

Fuck everything really.
It's all just a blur of unending rage.

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>>36645571
Your voice inspired me to not skip leg day for some reason..

>>36645654
What do you do that's only seasonal work?

>>36645654
>I have tried finding the roots and it just enrages me more because it's all shit I have no control over.
Yeah I know this well ...

Do you have anyone you care about? Anyone who you would consider close? Are by any chance deliberately pushing people away to protect yourself against further pain?

>>36645706
Commercial snow removal.

Then in the summer I scramble to go to the seasonal retail jobs that open up.
I cannot find a real job. The town I live in is something out of a horror movie. Desolate and depressing. Several places I have worked have closed permanently. It's almost as if I'm cursed.

Eventually I'm going to get too old for them to take me seriously and I won't get hired.

I would go to college for some better job security but I'm barely surviving each week. No fucking way I can save up to go to college.

Also one of the loader operators ran into the local New Balance sign so they canceled the contract for next year's winter. I no longer have that to look forward to either.

I hate my life. It's unfathomably hopeless, but I just can't bring myself to commit suicide.

>Everyone voicefagging
Maybe not this second, but I bet we could put something together. Some kind of radio thing, a script, whatever. I know Nick's into Art Bell, as am I. Anyone try the No Sleep Podcast? I don't see why we couldn't do something like that.

>>36645758

I have nobody. I can't even speak to my father like a person.
And yes. People are not worth it anymore.

>>36645874
I would be willing to pitch in, should be assistance be acceptable to the rest of you.

>>36645918
*should my
I've done a tiny bit of acting myself.

>>36645940
Alright, so that's two of us that can act to some extent. Anyone else fancy it? What kind of theme would be cool to tackle? It could be something like reading stories, or it could be something more light-hearted, interviews, even /pol/ I suppose. What do people fancy?

>>36645847
Are they're any plumbers/electricians around? Could you try and get an apprenticeship in a trade?
>>36645874
>>36645918
could be fun. Still have no idea what to say on the vocaroo, someone give me a line

>>36645874
I would be down for this if it wasn't for the fact that I only have a severly damged smartphone and no social media accounts whatsoever.

I know for a fact that my voice is my only natural asset.

>>36645986
I want to be the main character!
Also I get majority of any $$$

>>36645892
You're not gonna like what I'm gonna tell you, but unless you want to drive yourself to suicide/madness/jail you're gonna have to give people a chance and more importantly, you will have to forgive yourself. There is just no other way.

Have you actually tried committing suicide?

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[hums internally]
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=m_FKVngHuPU

>>36645997
Do you have a mic on your computer? That's enough. I don't use social media either, fuck that.

>>36645994
>What is a man? A miserable pile of secrets

>>36646014
Sure, I'll keep you in mind if we get any ninja protags.

>>36645986
Cathartic psychological horror.

>>36645994
I tried getting an apprenticeship in indoor climate control. Water heaters, air conditioners, furnaces, etc.
But the guy turned out to be a lying piece of shit and never even trained me. All I did was waste time and money trying to meet with him several times.
I desire his death.

>>36645986
>What do people fancy?

Reading shit from 4chan. Creepypastas, stories, I wonder if greentexts would make sense when read.

Imagine that, bunch of mentally damaged freaks with voices that sound like those of a 50 year old homeless who drinks a pint of hard liquor every day reading stories from the asshole of the internet.

>>36646053
Sounds cool. Do you have anything like that? Let's get a few lines going, see what sticks.

>>36646078
Decent hook. Do you have any saved?

>>36646015
Yes. Slashes on my arms. I was in an institution for about a week.

>>36646100
Are you thinking like, original compositions/skits or just reading other's stuff? The former sounds like more fun. We'd have to figure out what we really want to accomplish

>>36646049
I don't have a computer I just fucking told you that.
I haven't had one in years since my last one fried its own motherboard.

>>36646100
>Decent hook. Do you have any saved?
Nah. I do remember some of the old creepypastas though that are great but kinda forgotten (they're over 5 years old). A little taste:

http://creepypasta.wikia.com/wiki/The_Russian_Sleep_Experiment

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Anyone else here actually drinking?

>>36646172
I will as soon as the stuff arrives. I'm struggling to stay conscious as it is.

Anybody in the regular psych threads like metal?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5tjyAQ5krT8

>>36646152
We have to start somewhere. If you have your own material we can definitely work with it.

>>36646155
Hard cheese old chum

>>36646172
Nah, that was yesterday. I didn't eat at all, only drank all day. It ended poorly as usual.

>>36646156
It's a classic, but a bit long. I'm not sure how we'd maintain quality over an extended piece of text, in a single take. Perhaps whatever we do we should break it down into chunks.

>>36646202
I listen to The Smiths and Deftones :(

>>36646102
Well, the most important thing is, are you willing to give yourself/people a chance?

Or do you actually want to drive yourself to suicide/madness/jail? Judging from my experience the jail is very likely as I have gotten into some confrontations myself that ended up being physical. Insulting homeless guys to the point where they pull their knives out and threaten to stab me, shouting at random people that they're fucking dirt and picking fights constantly, pretty much doing reckless shit. I imagine you're similar in this regard.

>>36646172

I'm about to work out. Really nice to have a thread where I don't have to type nonstop.

What peace!

>>36646202

I used to. I still have a first edition Slipknot album, the one with the song they had to remove later on. I got it before I even knew they had masks and all that. I also liked Fear Factory and early Korn.

My taste for metal went down after the year 2000, mostly.

>>36646172
Yeah

oreganoliddle

>>36646049
Will do after trip to dump, ~30 minutes
>>36646069
I'd have shot that fuckers' tires out. I cannot blame you for getting pissed

>>36646268
Also how do I become a dirty tripfag?

>>36646219
>Perhaps whatever we do we should break it down into chunks.
Yeah we should probably do that. I was talking more about the general source of our texts. It might not seem like it, but lots of shit said here is interesting.

>>36646307
If you or anyone else would be interested in composing a narrative out of the archives, have at it. Personally, I'm just googling scripts at the moment. If anything jumps out at me, I'll do a recording and link the script.

>>36646219
I could make an attempt. We could try working with what's already organically sprung up in thread, altering it slightly to create some kind of mythos

>>36646357
I think I can manage something within a few days, but I can get carried away with ambition when writing so you guys will have to say what directions you're feeling

>>36646246
I'm not quite that bad yet. But who fucking knows how unhinged I'll get as I struggle to keep my life together, despite how much I fucking hate it.

Your utter fucking nonsense about giving people a chance is fucking retarded shit to me.
You have clearly had better luck with this disgusting race of parasites known as humans than I have. From my point of view you are speaking naive tripe.
People are shit. Even you are admitting that you act like a fucking monster at random.

>>36646295

Like this:

"An Fucking Hero ##389729823"

Use Caps, it's nicer, and basically just two hashtags followed by your password, all in the namefield.

>>36646407
I like your psychological horror suggestion. I can proofread for you if you'd like.

>>36646357
>composing a narrative out of the archives,

Lol, you want to voice our exchanges?

>>36646450
When get to me I want someone with the voice of Liam neeson

>>36646429
Two hashtags is "secure trip" Which also is dependent on which device you use.

>>36646438
Alright. I was thinking of doing it in a way that emphasizes potential recovery/progress. I won't be able to really write anything until after I get some sleep, but I'll probably email you a synopsis

>>36646429
I've been on 4chan for 12 years and never bothered to figure out how to become a tripfag.

>>36646450
Not my idea, but if that's what people want to do I'm fine with it. I was actually thinking more along the lines of short spooky stories but I'm game for whatever interests people.

>>36646501
Sounds promising, meta

>>36646450
It could actually be kind of interesting, dipping in and out of verbatim reading with fiction sprinkled in.

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>You will never sit in a cozy tavern catching up with your old friends after weeks of adventuring
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9XRRCPn5XM

I'm leaving now because this thread has turned into a gay circle jerk about a memlord podcast that will be dead in 2 weeks.

>>36646567

Instead we can share our mental adventures!

>This week, I almost fainted several times, I cried a lot, almost unseen, I dry-heaved a lot, almost puked while teaching, and then I also attacked a door in front of my workmates!

Then I took an arrow to the knee. Shit hurts.

>>36646590
LoL bye dude

>>36646590

Stay!

C'mon.

>>36646428
>You have clearly had better luck with this disgusting race of parasites known as humans than I have.
We are different, in that regard you are right. My parents were not absent, they were good to me. Only people who treated me like shit were my peers. During middle school I have experienced beatings, cuts, burnings, various forms of humiliation (being stripped down and thrown into a class full of girls for example), I had to wear long sleeves even in summer to cover the bruise marks on my arms, on one occasion I got held down and water-soaked cloth was held on my face repeatedly so I couldn't breathe. Had to go to the hospital right from school a couple times. Don't even get me started on what they called "The Chinese torture room". And this was all before I was 13. could go on but what is the point? I might have had more luck than you because my parents were always around, but I do believe i have a say. And if you think I don't, I'm not really forcing you to talk to me.

>Even you are admitting that you act like a fucking monster at random.
You're right. I act like a monster. They didn't treat me much better. I have pent up anger. I keep thinking what could have been if I wasn't treated this way. I did lots of dumb stuff out of rage and I don't want to be full of rage anymore. That's all. Do you wanna be full of rage? I'm not trying to lecture here, I'm really asking because for me it seems like I would be better off without it. Just curious to hear your opinion.

>>36646599
>This week, I saw three people I don't trust for shit and forced myself to be social and realised just how much I fucking hate it. I ignored call after call the day after and was guilt-tripped for never wanting to hang out. Now I'm finally sitting here without any distractions and can enjoy my beer
then I took an arrow to the dick

>>36646590
Have you considered a career in the military? Last person I remember talking to with anger issues anywhere near yours was one of my DI's.

>>36644294
Hey Nick, What's your qualification?

Ok I think I've found a short story worth trying out. I could post it in two halves. There are female characters and I'm not going to bother trying to approximate a girl voice. I do not have trap skillz.

>>36646720
>on one occasion I got held down and water-soaked cloth was held on my face repeatedly so I couldn't breathe.

Fucking hell, you got water-boarded, Dan. This is Vietnam-tier torture level.

What's the Chinese Torture Room?

Damn, Dan, that's fucking crazy shit. You need intense therapy for all this abuse.

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>>36646934

I'm FBI, trainee, but FBI still.

I have a personal interest in this stuff and decades of experience with narcissists, and many years of intense relationship with a Borderliner. That and a lot of theory. I also teach humans from 9 to 20.

Other than that, I'm just gifted for this stuff.

>>36646934

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>>36646975
Relationships with borderlines suck. The last relationship I had was with one.

>>36646983
I-I'm not that special B-baka!
Also testing

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>>36646983
Dang man, I need a drink after that... this is a bar right?

>>36647078

Borderliners come in very different shades. Any combo of the 9 symptoms with any level of intensity for each.

>>36647107

It is a bar. Cheers, mate.

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>>36646938
>Fucking hell, you got water-boarded, Dan. This is Vietnam-tier torture level.
Not really. Waterboarding is when they pour the water on your face continuously through the cloth. They just soaked it once and then used it so it wasn't that bad.

Chinese torture room ... we had these chairs, they looked like this. Thing is, if you beat someone up and then put 3 or 4 of these chairs on top of him in a straight line and have someone sit on them, the person underneath has really no way to get out. More so if you get someone to hold their arms. You get what I mean? Imagine lying on your back and having one chair where your knees are, one where your hips are and one where your shoulders out with someone holding each of your arms to the side. When they got someone into this situation, they said that the person was in the chinese torture room and then they would do pretty much whatever they wanted to the person.

Stab them with the compasses (the shit you use to draw circle that has a sharp tip). Beat them, pinch them, tickle them, slap them, hold whatever smelly thing they found on their nose (old sneakers etc). Even waterboard (if we use your definition). I don't remember the specifics too much, but when you have someone pinned down and almost defenseless, the options are endless.

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>>36647117
Cheers to you as well. Keep fighting the good fight. There is always hope in this world.

>>36647117
I know. I had to write a few papers on the disorder for school, and that was the diagnosis I had when I was discharged from the marines. And to be fair, there's a very high DID/bpd comorbidity.

>>36647079
Hey it worked!
>>36647107
I'm here, messed up name slightly a few threads ago and kept it, and now I have my own trip. Take a seat and getcha a drink.

>>36647132
>Not really. Waterboarding is when they pour the water on your face continuously through the cloth. They just soaked it once and then used it so it wasn't that bad.

It's not that different, Dan. You've been tortured, clearly.

> they said that the person was in the chinese torture room and then they would do pretty much whatever they wanted to the person.

Goddam... you grew up with savages.

>>36647144
>And to be fair, there's a very high DID/bpd comorbidity.

Yes.

Facet, how come you're not talking to Lily? He's not really a woman.

>>36646983
>Too scared to click the link
What is it laddos?

>>36647243

The fastest therapy ever done.

>>36647211
Wew, rude

And because I'm deciding what to order for tea and whether to go in the other room to read a story, wait for the washing machine to stop or just leave it for today

>>36647195
>Goddam... you grew up with savages.
Not really saveges, just slavs. Just so you know, that shit wasn't that uncommon at the school I went to.

You ever seen Alien 3 where the android was crawling through this really narrow tube where he couldn't even extend his arms? That scared the fucking shit out of me, because it made me remember the chinese torture room. Actually every time anyone tries to hold my hands or prevent me from moving I go berserk. I'm also extremely afraid of straight jackets.

Anyways, since this is a bar, I got a shot of homemade plum schnaps. Anyone else likes to drink homemade alcohol?

>>36647211
I'm at least at trap levels of femininity. I occasionally post in /brg/ on /k/.

I'm a few beers in right now though.

>>36647282
>You ever seen Alien 3 where the android was crawling through this really narrow tube

That must not be Alien 3... The only android there only has a head left.

Dan, you have very clear PTSD.

>Anyone else likes to drink homemade alcohol?

I've survived a Polish wedding. I can take anything.

>>36647282
I homebrew beer.

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>>36647243
It was me, DIO
motherfucking JOJO references

>>36646937
I'd like to look at it. I've got to get some alcohol in me.

>>36647349
That's really cool. How labor intensive is it?

>>36647372
Depends if you do all-grain or extract. All grain leads to a better finished product, but is a lot more labor intensive.

>>36647328
>That must not be Alien 3... The only android there only has a head left.
Maybe it's something else. I haven't really had the urge to watch that movie ever again.

>I've survived a Polish wedding. I can take anything.
What kind of customs do the Poles do on their weddings? Do they have the thing where they kidnap the bride and the groom has to go look for her? Also I think I'm not the only one who is interested in some stories.

>>36644294
What do I do if I'm court ordered to not drink anymore but drinking is the only thing that keeps the murder/suicide fantasies away?

>>36647349
Interesting. What kind of beer?

We once tried to make ginger beer with my cousin but it turned out to be much stronger than a beer should be.

We drank it anyways.

>>36647400
*And I'm a few beers in, so I'm not in the best state to go in depth on brewing. Last time that happened my molecular bio professor got a two page lecture on yeast biology for a assignment that was supposed to be half a page.

>>36644294
Hey everybody, how are you all?

Nice to see you finally made a hang out thread. It's comfy

One more day until I'm free of my god awful job, and I can attempt to pursue a career in teaching

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Here's my problem: When I'm sober I have this horrible feeling of being bored, not being able to enjoy anything and I can't think of a single thing that I could do to amuse myself. So instead I get fucking shitfaced until I black out. The trouble is I get into horrible, risky situations as you can imagine.

But I don't know what to do about it, the boredom is so intense it feels like getting shitfaced is all I can do about it. Kind of like that experiment where a person is put in a room with nothing to do except electrocute himself and he does it over and over.

How the fuck can I stop drinking? I keep getting sucked back into and it completely fucks me over for a few days

>>36647402
>What kind of customs do the Poles do on their weddings?

The one I went to lasted a whole weekend. Endless amounts of food, literally a whole meal every hour, until 3 am or something. Endless quantities of alcohol, wodka shots whenever someone breathes, dances everywhere, more food.

You end up with a dozen tables covered with food nobody can eat. It was crazy. I liked it. Poles are really cool people.

I could have had those people as my family if I had married LO as planned. I was the only non-Pole over there.

>>36647453
Anything. Mainly more malt- forward beers.

>>36647471

Nice!

Maybe I can try my vocal skills with teaching tips, after my work out.

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>>36647294
Way2Haaawt

>>36647471
Hope you achieve that, Ethan.

>>36644413
Every time i see these threads i think exactly this. It's an ocean of pretension and self-righteousness and a tiny little island of alright advice in the middle.

>>36647490
Honestly after how you described your voice, I'm desperate to hear it

>>36647477
>When I'm sober I have this horrible feeling of being bored

I've wondered about boredom today, and I've wondered if "boredom" isn't anxiety instead, as in, you're so stressed out, you can't have any fun with anything, so you feel "bored", but not the normal way. I used to never be bored, because I had endless things to enjoy: books, movies, games, going outside, etc. But now that I'm on high alert all the time, nothing helps.

Does that make sense to you?

>>36647521
I'd post pics, but it'd instantly dox me to people who know me, based on my gun collection.

>>36647562

I shouldn't have said anything, now there's an expectation! Dang!

>>36647575
if you were feeling courageous, you could email them to me. Kidding, of course! That's a bad idea! Unless you wanted to. But you shouldn't. But you could.

>>36647556
Thank you very much. Teaching seems like a really fulfilling job. More than what I am now anyway

>>36644294
Maybe I I'll post this in the tread tomorrow again because I'm a little bit tired.
I'm extremely nervous around girls, I can't talk to them right or look the in the eyes. I'm normally quite eloquent and I look good, I even had girls interested in me in th past, even hot ones, but I just don't know ho to act in such a situation. I think I have a massive inferiority complex, can you help me?

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>>36647559
Man that's an incredibly bitter outlook. I find these threads amusing to go through, it's always fun reading about other peoples problems. Helps put things into perspective. I could care less if the diagnoses are wrong in the end or not.

>>36647631
Why do you think that specifically appeals to you?

>>36647559
To be fair, this thread is supposed to be more talking than psychological help. The actual threads are constant talking about problems

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>>36647618
Hopefully no one recognizes this pic, or at least has the sense to keep quiet if they do recognize it.

>>36647478
That sure sound like a polish wedding.

>Poles are really cool people.
Yeah they kinda are until you piss them off and even the smallest thing can piss them off. That's my experience anyways. They're very proud of their nation and very religious despite their women being very whorish.

Kinda a strange nation to be honest.

>>36647657
I've always wanted to do something helpful. I come from a family of nurses on my Dad's side, which I was planning to become as well, but that fell through. Teaching has always interested me as well. My sister also wants to be a teacher coincidentally

>>36647692
Underwhelming, sadly.

>>36647692
What's that? It looks like an SKS a little, but it's not. I really didn't expect to see a gun owner here.

>>36647650

Quick tips:

>silence is OK
>smile and mean it, a smile goes a long way, nothing forced
>ask questions, be actually interested
>listen
>play it by ear
>ask another question
>etc

It's a conversation, Rom, it's not an exam. Your low self-esteem isn't shared by others. Your self-doubts don't show as much as you imagine. People don't know what goes on inside your skull.

Gain confidence and everything will be fine little by little.

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>>36647243
I said I was gonna voice something for you but went to record and found this. Fuck. Gonna go cry now

>>36647596
The way you described it would make anyone curious. You don't have to if you'd rather not though obviously, there isn't any expectation from me

>>36647706
Nice. Though I've never had it, I've always admired those with the will and ability to put themselves in real, practical positions that can do good, rather than idly philosophizing about what ought to be done in theory.

>>36647700
>Yeah they kinda are until you piss them off and even the smallest thing can piss them off. That's my experience anyways. They're very proud of their nation and very religious despite their women being very whorish.

You think that of everyone, no?

They are proud of their nation because they had to suffer to even have one, in recent memory. They expect you to respect that, and I do, so everything was always fine. I haven't met any whores either. If anything, I probably was the worst whore at that wedding (well, would-be whore).

>>36647728
It's a mas 49/56. I still need a mas .223 (civilian version of the famas), mas 49, and regular Gras to finish my collection of all the French service rifles since the introducing of metallic cartridges. Not including all the berthier variants or the mas 36/51, of course.

>>36647735
Well, what is it AFH?

>>36647706

Don't hesitate to hit me for advice. I have 7 years' experience in the art of teaching people of all ages from 9 onwards.

>>36647756
Thank you. Sorry if you've said before and I missed it, but may I ask if you have a job?

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>>36647735

I feel for you.

Fuck's sake, I'm getting punished for 32 seconds now. I hate that Robot shit.

>>36647809
I'm not sure if it's different from country to country, but how did you first get started? I know I'd need to take a training course, but what happens from there? Is it just like applying for any other job?

>>36647819
H-ha... no, I don't.

>>36647785
>You think that of everyone, no?
Not really. Just my experience with Poles. The thing is, my perspective is different since there are a couple thousand years of tribal wars ingrained in my subconsciousness, since we're neighbors with them. So don't take it too seriously, all slavic nations always rip into each other, but when push comes to shove, we respect each other except for romanians and gypsies.

>>36647851

I started teaching without any training whatsoever. It was nuts.

I applied to loads of schools.

>>36647805
My ex saying I love you. Hearing her voice again, saying that, was worse than I expected. Fuck should have just deleted that without opening it, but I couldn't remember what it was and curosity is my weakness.
>>36647847
Thanks Nick.

>>36647861

Yep, I know that. Being Swiss, I wasn't concerned by those brotherly battles.

>>36647854
Oh ok, no problem, just wondered. In two days I'll be in the same position

>>36647573
>I've wondered about boredom today, and I've wondered if "boredom" isn't anxiety instead

So kind of like your mind is too preoccupied with an alarming thought so it isn't possible for you to engage with anything? That can certainly be true, but I wouldn't call that a state of being bored. Being bored usually means sitting in a waiting room with poor means of entertaining yourself. Like imagine waiting for a doctors appointment and you don't have your phone, and the only thing to do is read their leaflets. That's boredom.

But what's weird with me is how I feel that way when I have a whole wealth of options to amuse myself. I play guitar, have a decent computer with games and I have the internet where I can just about watch or read anything I want, yet I'm sat here bashing my head against the wall because it's all shit to me. None of it interests me. I don't even listen to music anymore, which I never considered would be something I would do one day. What's worse is the only thing that makes it all better is copious amounts of booze, which is gonna get me killed one day because I'm a fucking crazy drunk. Either I will pick a fight with the wrong guy or I'll get Cirrhosis of the Liver, basically.

What do you think?

>>36647871
Really? Unfortunately I probably wouldn't be able to do that. Didn't they ask?

>>36647918
>so it isn't possible for you to engage with anything?

Yes. As opposed to months ago, when I felt at peace and chill, and could casually lie down and read a book.

>but I wouldn't call that a state of being bored.

I know, I meant to say that this "boredom" isn't actually boredom, but inability to feel any peace from anything, or any fun, and not having fun can be this specific kind of boredom, perhaps.

>What do you think?

You heard it before: your parents are narcs and you got BPD.

>>36647926

Nope. Private school. Crazy one at that. It's been in the press for a while now. Almost famous. Some celebs involved, at that.

Can't tell you more or I risk being found.

I am getting dumber and weaker with each passing year. I finally understand why people >25 kept saying ages <25 are the best time of your life.

Don't do it like I did. Prepare for your adult life ahead of time. I wish I had better parents or a good samaritan mentor to give me the smallest degree of guidance.

>>36647715
I want to go on hormones, but there's been some issues with that.

>>36648038
I'd advise against it. Be honest with yourself. Are you really as feminine as you say?

>>36648020
>I am getting dumber and weaker with each passing year. I finally understand why people >25 kept saying ages <25 are the best time of your life.

I'm older than that and I disagree. I'm getting stronger and smarter, instead.

>>36648020
>I wish I had better parents or a good samaritan mentor to give me the smallest degree of guidance.

Same. It's never too late though.

>>36648038

I don't recommend it.

>>36648069
>>36648077
I would mainly just do it because I hate the body I'm currently in. It's disgusting and gross, and and I want to fix it.

>>36647970
>I know, I meant to say that this "boredom" isn't actually boredom, but inability to feel any peace from anything, or any fun, and not having fun can be this specific kind of boredom, perhaps.

I see. I think I need some friends basically. I can't remember the last time I spoke to someone that wasn't a cashier. But how the fuck do you even make friends? Probably the worst place to ask..

>>36648152
That's the wrong approach. You are a man and likely recognizable as male. Accepting that is going to be far more beneficial than crude attempts to change the fact.

>>36648152

Fix your mind, not your body. You know which has a problem.

>>36648186
>But how the fuck do you even make friends? Probably the worst place to ask..

You can join a club.

To help you, I'd have to know how you interact with people exactly.

Just uploading it all. It's taking longer than anticipated because I didn't think to lower the recording quality.

>>36648228
>To help you, I'd have to know how you interact with people exactly.

Well, there is a 'jam' night tomorrow (where musicians play together at a bar usually) but it's jazz. I can't really play jazz but I can play blues but it is the only thing place that does this type of thing in my shitty town. I'll go to that and see what happens, will stave off the boredom for a night.

>>36648335
Don't worry abbout it, take your time.
>>36648152
What do you hate about your body?

>>36648570
It's just wrong and gross, and I don't even like looking at it. I cant even take a bath with the lights on because I hate it so much.

>>36648591
>wrong and gross
What specifically is wrong?

Open question, what is everyone up to? Curious how we're all spending our Saturday.

>>36648591
I apologize for my "Underwhelming" comment. I didn't realize this was such a sensitive issue for you and was only referring to the amount of your body on display in the pic.

>>36648665
Uploading recordings, eating junk food and watching a shitty horror film. Demonic.

>>36648665
We're all posting here. Additionally, I'm drinking, laying down, and listening to music. Please, do try to contain your excitement!

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>>36648665
Listening to music and drinking. That being said, anybody else listening to some good music? I'm always interested in what other robots listen to, usually pretty neat stuff.

>>36648665
Listening to music and reading a book, same thing I do every evening when I'm alone. I should get a new hobby

>>36648714
What are you listening to? I'm replaying the new gorillaz album for the third time. I'm still not sure if I like it. It's pretty underwhelming

>>36648688
What's the film, Facet?

>>36648747
The film is called Demonic. Has to do with a possessed house or something like that

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>>36648746
Listening to some electronic stuff. I like a lot of EDM kind of music but I'm always open to listening to other genres.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayplyZzN3mc

>>36648665
I went out to lunch at a couple of craft breweries with my parents.
>>36648680
Not your fault.

>>36648665
Not much. Learning russian, watching Seinfeld clips on youtube and wondering whether I should drink more or not.

>>36648792
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayplyZzN3mc

I've never really listened to anything like that before. It's extremely energetic.

>>36648778
I assumed you were describing the previously mentioned activities.

>>36648835
Is Russian hard to learn? I love learning languages, and I might try Russian next

>>36648808
Are you comfortable going into more detail about your struggle?

>>36648852
Yeah I like a lot of energetic stuff, but some of the more chill or moody stuff I like a lot too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nz855xsurpk

>>36648835
When in doubt, have a stout.
Unless you're an alcoholic. Then you should throw it out.

>>36648357

Just go, you don't even have to play at first, you can just enjoy the music.

>>36648933
Definitely more my speed, at least, at this time of night. Pretty nice song

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>>36648688
I can't upload. I tried to upload, and it directs me to upload a picture.
>>36648710
I am uncontainable!
>>36648714
I don't listen to much. Have guided meditations if you're interested
>>36648720
What are you reading? I've been reading pic related when I feel like reading
>>36648835
Sounds fun

>>36648665

I was working out, contemplating a future with LO and wondering if it's worth it at all.

I've put Sky News on YouTube on LO's playstation, just to hear human voices.

I'm cooking a single slab of meat.

I'm typing on a cheap piece of shit laptop.

This is how it ends, it feels.

>>36648972
That's strange. I've been going through them, emailing them to my laptop then downloading them and reuploading them on vocaroo.

>>36648900
It's not really a struggle, I just hate this body.

>>36648778

Might have seen it with LO. We watched every horror movie in existence, almost.

>>36648972
Right now I'm reading Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre. Loving it so far.

I've never really had the patience to read historical books like that. I always got low grades in history, so that might have something to do with it

>>36649040
Really enjoyed it myself. Performed a section of it as a monologue at one point.

>>36648975
I relate to the human voices thing. For a while after the bad trip, I positively needed them. I couldn't stand silently being with only my thoughts.

>>36649040
>Right now I'm reading Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre. Loving it so far.

This and Moby-Dick are the only novels I've read 3 times. I studied at university. I can probably enhance your enjoyment of it. I had to analyse almost every chapter.

>>36649068
>>36649071

It's been on my to-read list for over 2 years by now easily, but I just never got round to it until now. What would you say your favourite book is?

Cooking question for Ethan: I've cooked some special burger patties earlier today, they tasted delicious, and they left some white stuff in the pan, white after it solidified. I assume it's fat, but I'm not sure.

I'm re-using to cook the next piece of meat.

>things I would never have done before all this shit

>>36649112

Might be Hemingway's In Our Time. Some of my favourite short stories are in it. Especially Soldier's Home. Never knew why I felt exactly the way a war vet felt. Now I know.

>C-PTSD

>>36648835
Oh and also I just rediscovered a very popular christmas song that I loved as a kid.

Only now have I realized that the song is actually about cocaine, sex and abortion which is all smartly hidden in christmas stereotypes. Funny thing is this is a mainstream song that people listen to on christmas, even with children.

>>36649112
Probably Junky by William Burroughs, or The Marriage of Heaven and Hell by William Blake.

>>36649141
>the song is actually about cocaine, sex and abortion

Every fairy tale in existence.

>>36648890
It's not that difficult for me to understand since I'm slavic, but learning cyrillic alphabet was kinda difficult. I still have trouble with the cursive/handwritten characters. I don't really study grammar in depth, trying to build my vocabulary up so that I can read texts and get the feel for the grammar in this way.

>>36648808
Didn't mean to miss you. Glad to see someone with a good family life
>>36648975
what did she say to you?
Not to pry, ignore the spoiler if you want. Also drowning in feels here. Dammit I still miss her.
>>36649010
This is probably what I'll have to do.
>>36649040
Excellent taste. But I'm a major history buff, and enjoy making through the language barriers, just like between modern language and 1800's high southern.

>>36649187
Yeah. I probably should have figured it out. The phrases include a "teddy bear from Bogota with snowy love in his tummy". Funny thing is, the song isn't really vulgar for the sake of being vulgar, it's very beatiful, it just so happens to be about sad stuff and christmas-themed. If anyone is interested, the video clip is pretty messed up and VERY 90s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9q_oq6f19E

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>tfw woke up from a dream where I found a qt and was able to cuddle with him and lay my head on his chest
make it stop please

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>>36648975
>contemplating a future with LO and wondering if it's worth it at all.

>with
>without

I meant to write without.

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My resolve falters. See you guys later.

>>36649123
>and they left some white stuff in the pan

Did you make the burgers yourself?

Would definitely be fat. Nothing wrong with keeping in it there to cook the next one. I'd personally clean it out as not to have any solidified fat on the outside of my next burger but that's because I'm used to cooking for people. Since it's for yourself, if you don't mind it's completely fine

>>36649170
>>36649140
All added to my reading list. Thank you!

Alright. Here's the story entitled 'Standoff'
http://short-story.me/horror-stories/765-standoff.html

The recordings are in order. About 10-15 minutes in total. I had help with some of the characters, as you'll be able to hear. We only did one take, so it's rough in parts, a couple of fumbles. Enjoy

Pt 1 http://vocaroo.com/i/s0fYekfECvuE
Pt 2 http://vocaroo.com/i/s1C6QxzGIKCg
Pt 3 http://vocaroo.com/i/s0A8O3EcrRW7
Pt 4 http://vocaroo.com/i/s1hkTikf3VHg
Pt 5 http://vocaroo.com/i/s1BdJbWd853Y
Pt 6 http://vocaroo.com/i/s02HUFqfoXY6
Pt 7 http://vocaroo.com/i/s17CzscEP4aq
Pt 8 http://vocaroo.com/i/s0FzWdcb5w1r
Pt 9 http://vocaroo.com/i/s0d0V5vKkYTw

>>36649317
I knew what you meant. Life is always worth it Nick. It may be awful for a time. May be quite a long time. But you could miss out on the best things in life by giving up. Like discovering your threads exist

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I'm scared of graduating university. I'll probably need to move and live on my own. I don't know how I'll be able to do it. I can barely take care of myself in a dorm, now in an actual apartment? I can't cook, I can't clean.

I feel like my life is gonna drive straight off a cliff, and I'll crash and burn.

>>36649352
>Did you make the burgers yourself?

No, I bought them.

>>36649369

Be aware of the Iceberg Theory, when reading Hemingway. The important stuff is not in the text. It's in your heart. The style matches the intent. No showing off there, no big words either.

>>36649378

I'm actually scared to check this out at all.

>>36649443
Have you ever tried making your own? Not any really any point since it's so extremely simple, but it somehow feels better.

How do you like them cooked?

>>36649379

Do you really think that much of my threads?

>>36649478
It's pretty tame fare, honestly. No opportunity for scenery chewing unfortunately

>>36649381

Get a name, sad turtle.

I'm living alone now, and even though I can cook and I can clean, I'm not doing either.

But it's not hard to learn, friend. Don't be scared. Got any questions?

>>36649492
>Have you ever tried making your own?

I actually have no idea how to make them. Do you buy minced meat?

>How do you like them cooked?

Rare.

>>36649378

In your voice, it sounds like it could snap into a much higher pitch any moment. Does that make sense?

>>36649624
Do you buy minced meat?

Yeah, all you have to do is shape ground beef, maybe using some egg to bind it if it's falling apart easily.

>Rare.

Thank god you didn't say well done. (No offence to those who like that)

>>36649495
Yes. I consider you and the people here my friends. I only have 4 irl friends. One of them I only can hang out with online in voice chats, one is my sensei I see once a week, one is my ex's brother, and my last and longest friend is a county over and busy being a mechanic so I rarely get to hang out with him.

>>36649378
Very well done. I like your voice, it reminds me of an old friend

>>36649679
>Thank god you didn't say well done. (No offence to those who like that)

I remember the words of Gordon Ramsey: "Why would you like your meant well one you fucking moron?" Or something of the sort.

I always have my meat rare or medium rare.

Damn, listening to songs with my earphones (as I did in my previous life), after weeks of using my shitty laptop's speakers. It's crazy different. Fuck me.

>>36649707
Thanks, I'm pleased you got something out of it.

>>36649675
Not quite sure I follow you. There again, others do speak with a higher pitch if you take my meaning. That could account for it?

>>36649707
>it reminds me of an old friend

Burbank.

>>36649743
>meant

I meant meat.

>>36649767
>That could account for it?

I wondered if I imagined things. Like your voice may break into a higher pitch. This may be what I meant last time by suggesting you seemed on edge at any moment. I still get that impression from your voice. On edge. About to.

>>36644294

Guys, I really want to improve myself, but I can't seem to focus on self improvement and I keep falling back into the same unhealty patterns of weed addiction, smoking and shit posting all day. I try to better myself, I really dude, but life just makes me so weary at the end of the day I just give up; and it's pricisely most fun when I give up.

>>36649188
I love learning languages with different alphabets, it feels like two skills in one

>>36649809
Define self improvement first please nameless man

>>36649809
>I really dude,

You have a wish. What do you wish for?

>>36649794
>Burbank

I'm gonna have to look through the archive because I genuinely don't remember talking about him with you. Are you a psychic?

>>36649794
Well, I am very on edge all the time so there's that. I do 'nervous energy' characters best. Volatile ones that are at their most threatening when speaking slowly and calmly, because it's always just a lid on a boiling pot

>>36644294
I can't help but hate that the perjorative for a high functioning male is now "Chad". That name to me has always stood for someone tall, but weak and soft.

>>36649879
>Are you a psychic?

I honestly believe I am a bit, but a tiny little bit. That said, I knew of him because you wrote "Burbank" instead of "because" and I kept asking you about it because that was such a weird mistake. I knew it was significant. Maybe you wanted to talk of him. I remembered his name. I figured your old friend may be him.

I'm talking straight to your unconscious.

>>36649901
It worked much better with the last name, but lazy anons took it off until it was no longer used. I agree though, I've only ever met one Chad, he was completly whipped by his overbearing annoying wife

>>36649915
Oh yeah, I remember that slightly. I can't imagine I wanted to talk about him much, but I have been thinking about him a lot. Especially what he would do in situations I'm in

Cooking question: do people ever order doneness that's unusual? Like "overcooked"? Or "blue"?

Do all cooks know all these things by heart?

My first times in restaurant as an adult, I didn't actually know what doneness was and had no idea what to tell the waiter. I just blurted out what I remembered from movies.

Is this normal? Do normal people learn about doneness with their parents?

>>36649950
I always order blue if it's an option. A lot of places refuse to do it.

>>36649887
>I do 'nervous energy' characters best. Volatile ones that are at their most threatening when speaking slowly and calmly, because it's always just a lid on a boiling pot

This is exactly how you sound to me. I expect you to blow up any second, it makes me tense as fuck. I can't relax listening to you.

I should read the same story with my voice. I make people relax so much they can't focus on the story, they fall asleep.

>>36649950
I've never had anyone order anything like that fortunately.

I definitely hope all cooks know it, because they definitely should.

I don't really think it's something your parents teach you. Like you said, i also picked it up from tv and film

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>>36649950
My dad went over it with me and my siblings when I was 12-13. We were grilling the first cow we butchered, figured he'd teach us what they meant. All I remember is medium is where I like it. A little pink, but not bleeding. If you order well done it is because either you don't trust the cooks to not hand you a bleeding slab of meat full of disease, or you hate the taste of meat.

>>36649864

PERMA

P - Positive Emotion
E - Engagement and Flow
R - Relationships
M - Meaning
A - Achievement

Basically I want to build strong character; be productive throughout the week; get a gf wtihin an year or 2; Find the meaning of life; get on the path to future success

I am not asking for much

>>36649871

A large and luxurious property in the woods where I can go for long solitary walks and get lost for a couple hours; A comfy family; maybe working from home. I am studying psychology too btw.

>>36649973
Well then, there you have it. If we all do something collaboratively - and I certainly hope that we do - I would probably be best off playing a villain, and you the hero. Just as it was always supposed to be.

>>36649943
what a Chad...

>>36649970
>I always order blue if it's an option.

"I'd like a nice slab of food poisoning and mad cow disease."

You actually order blue? Why on earth?

>>36649995
>I don't really think it's something your parents teach you.

Your parents and mine aren't normal parents.

See:

>>36650050
>My dad went over it with me and my siblings when I was 12-13.

Thank you.

>>36650059
>I am studying psychology

Tell me all about it! What are you reading now?

>>36650187
Then again, I think most normal families don't go butchering their own cows

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>>36650070
>I would probably be best off playing a villain, and you the hero. Just as it was always supposed to be.

This made me emotional for some reason. I keep getting stunned at how things fall into place in the weirdest of synchronistic ways.

>>36650218

True enough, but most normaly families probably encounter meat and the cook thereof at some point.

>>36650263
It probably never happened with me because I'm a vegetarian. (Can still cook meat fine though, I'm not stupid enough to not be able to tell when it's raw or overdone )

>>36650121
I prefer it bloody. I've eating steak absolutely raw before, but it's not as good. Wouldn't recommend.

>>36650239
Well, some things are just as they're supposed to be however we might wish them to be otherwise. No use in getting hung up on it, eh?

By the way - many, many threads ago 'I' spoke to you and you were unsettled. Was the voice the same then?

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Out of curiosity, for those who'll answer, what would you say was your best ever experience? It can be anything

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>>36650329

LO was one too, and became one again in our tribulations.

Life is not worth living anymore. Wat do.

>>36650366
>By the way - many, many threads ago 'I' spoke to you and you were unsettled. Was the voice the same then?

No. That was much scarier. I saved the file. The words still echo in my head when I feel like scaring myself.

>basic
>setting

My fucking ass.

>>36650059
>P - Positive Emotion
Good luck, I got nothing on that. I just put on the mask every morning when I'm awake before the world sees me and pretend I'm ok.
>E - Engagement and Flow
What does this mean?
>R - Relationships
Again I got nothing. If I knew how to relationship maybe I wouldn't be cheated on in my every single romantic relationship I've had, and would have more than 4 friends irl.
>M - Meaning
I've found that life really has no deeper meaning. Your life is what you do with it. Existance is what you have, make of it whatever you are willing to. If you want something you have to work for it, be it money, fame, what have you.
>A - Achievement
Practice leads to results. You wanna be fit gotta do fit things. Want to be smart, have to study. How you practice is how you perform, especially under stress.

>Basically I want to build strong character; be productive throughout the week; get a gf wtihin an year or 2; Find the meaning of life; get on the path to future success
To be productive you simply have to be productive. Sounds asinine, but that's literally it. DO IT. Don't think about doing something, don't start planning out to do it later. DO. IT. Right now. Stop putting it off or you'll never do it.

>A large and luxurious property in the woods where I can go for long solitary walks and get lost for a couple hours
Comfy as fuck

>>36650218
Even around here, it is rare. My family was special growing up and I'm to this day glad I was raised here. My dad and mom made sure, since the time I was 16, if something happened to either or both of them we could take care of ourselves and survive. If the world order fell apart, we could survive. We know where food, plant and animal comes from, how to raise it, care for it, defend it from humans and animals, store it, prepare it, and eat it.
>>36650187
I'm so thankful for my upbringing.
>>36650390
WRONG! Wrong wrong wrong! Life is still worth living Nick, we're here for you, don't you fucking dare!

>>36650368

Fuck, I didn't think I'd struggle with this.

I think...

Giving small kisses to LO while she was asleep. She'd smile and make a satisfied sound, and sometimes grab me.

That's the best.

>>36650390
Please don't say that. It's not true. There's plenty to live for. Keep going, I don't want to see someone give up again

>>36650368
A few moments stand out for me.

Excelling in high jump at school
Finishing at the top at university and getting a prize
Throttling a lover
Kicking something to death
Having a day out at the cinema
Getting a blowjob from some ballet dancer I'd just met
Earning a medal in judo, having overcome a more skilled opponent

>>36650426
Maybe I'd like to listen to it at some point since you have it, but I don't feel up to it. I'd need to steel myself I think.

>>36650209

Well, I changed majors recently from IT to psych but I do lot of independent study; I am taking an online course in Positive Psychology, hence PERMA model.

I am also reading both Freud's collected works and Jung's collected works; Very different views but am I inclined towards the Jugian approach to psychoanalysis. I throughly enjoy the MBTI meme and am involved in the community although I know that it's not exactly the best to predict behavior.

I also started with Piaget and developmental psychology.

Also been dabbling in philosophy and existentialism, I think my greatest resource on psychology is Nietzsche; to me his insights are awe inspiring; I really can't explain the joy he brings me.

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>>36650451
>Life is still worth living Nick, we're here for you, don't you fucking dare!

Don't worry, I'm just talking. It's the bar thread, my time off.

How do I keep my anxiety in check?
even just thinking about stuff makes me anxious as fuck.

>>36650368
Probably not quite what you were looking for, and a bit TMI, but the first time I had sex with my boyfriend, and fell to sleep cuddling together was pure bliss. Thank god I have no job after tomorrow, I can finally start spending more time with him again

>>36650493
>I don't want to see someone give up again

Burbank. I'm sorry about that. I too lost someone who gave up, but I didn't know him well. It so happens that the date he died is also the date my own life collapsed, the day I told LO, the 27th of November.

>>36650504
>Kicking something to death
>something

Gotta go fast.

>>36650504
>Getting a blowjob from some ballet dancer I'd just met

Really? I never heard of this one.

>>36650504
>Maybe I'd like to listen to it at some point since you have it, but I don't feel up to it. I'd need to steel myself I think.

Can't find it now, but it's all archived. I believe it's thread #22.

>>36650539

Agreed on Freud/Jung. Makes way more sense with Jung.

Piaget is also my compatriot, like Jung.

I find Nietzsche sad, because his life resembles nothing his philosophy described.