Feels thread

Ive been okay. Ive managed to control my anxiety levels and bring down my hypertension. I used to get chest pains and all sorts of awful physical symptoms from my uncontrolled anxiety. Im still experiencing some weird health problems though. My throat sometimes feels like it has a gas bubble stuck in deep and then a weird palpitation occurs there. Idk wtf is up with that. It's kinda scaring me 2bh. And I have no health insurance since my parents dont pay for any since we cant afford 500 a month for insurance.

Worried for finals

Orichalcos

I feel like shit desu. I'm supposed to be applying for jobs but I have no experience. I'm supposed to be studying for my finals. I'm generally sad and have very low self-esteem. Confused about everything and overthinking. I have a bunch of goals and don't know how to attain them. I escape from life on 4chan, I've spent my last week on there for at least 10 hours a day.

>>36587514
After finals, you should take a break from school and figure out what you want to do.

I just want a gf :( but I cant talk to girls.

All I want is a well paying job where I dont have to associate with too many people and live a comfy life where I have the money to pursue my hobbies like gaymen or traveling.

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I'm almost certain I'm going to die soon. I can not imagine having to live much longer, it's unbearable.

I don't answer my phone anymore, I keep it off almost all the time. I don't respond to any phone calls or texts from "friends", or even my grandma. I feel bad not answering my grandma, but the thought of talking to another human makes me feel like throwing up. I don't care about my "friends" though. I finished all my exams, so now I feel the need to get a job again, but I quit my last one since I was crying the whole time. I think I'm just going to lay down and wait to die.

Although truthfully, I want to climb mountains. I've been watching lots of Mountaineering documentaries and reading lots of trip reports. I love cold weather and adventures. I truly feel like this is my calling, yet I can't be bothered to leave me room. But I feel like it'd be nice to die on a mountain.

Sorry for this stupid rambling.

>>36587632
my gf is leaving me because she wants more attention than i can provide, take mine

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>tfw you get rejected by the only girl you will ever love
tfw that was 5 years ago

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>>36587404
>wake up at 3pm
>reach for vape and suck on it for 10 minutes
>leave for a chiropractor appointment was in a car crash 2 months ago
>Chiropractor helps to sort my back out
>come home at 5, open up discord
>stay on discord until 1am (8 hour shift)
>Leave for 2 hour bike ride around my city
>come home, drink beers by myself in my room

I only work on weekends. I really hate my life a lot. no friends