I cannot tell if I have personality disorders or if I am easily influenced and when I read the symptoms I wrongly apply them to myself. Is self diagnosis pointless?
I think I am definetely depressed and suffer anxiety as a result, but I also think I fit all Cluster B personality disorders, Borderline, Antisocial, Histrionic, and Narcissistic.
What scares me the most is Histrionic. I have always been very lonely and shy, but when I am around people I cannot help but pronounce my behaviours, even my shyness. I accentuate my shyness for attention I think. It's as if my entire life is an act on one level. When I talk to people, I cannot freely talk to them, but instead I am always plotting just below conscious perception. Everything I say is to try and placate someone else or bolster my own ego, even if through making myself look small. It is as if I am acting. I am disgusted when I see this kind of behaviour in others, morally I think it is the lowest of the low and yet I think I do it automatically, I do not know any other way. But maybe I am just being paranoid and over-analytical by reading psychology articles.
What does /r9k/ think? I am too afraid of other people and figures of authority/professionals to ever go to a psychologist so 4chan is my only shot at mental health.
Please /r9k/, I need (You)'s.
>>36577142
you took test?
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
>>36577142
(OP)'s pic made me kek
>>36577482
I took it, but I'm not sure this helps any.
>>36577850
not that anon but i got pretty similar results to you
>>36578179
Perhaps this is what makes us robots.
>Do you fear being alone
This one question hit me like a fucking truck