I just found out the girl I had feelings for and was going to ask to be my GF today was faking feelings for nearly two months. Why? She just wanted the stuff I bought her.
I'm a 19 year old virgin.
I'm in massive debt, I have no marketable skills, I have an addiction to painkillers, and I've attempted suicide twice.
I don't even have the energy to even attempt it a third time. I just want to die, you know? No preparation, no cringy suicide note, just death.
I don't want to do this anymore.
>>36567154
what things did you buy her?
>>36567169
Food primarily. I saw them as lunch dates. Evidently, she saw me as a walking meal ticket.
>>36567174
kek this is a good one. Just do it OP!
>I just want to die, you know? No preparation, no cringy suicide note, just death.
This is the only thing I can empathize with you.
>>36567197
Yeah, I know. It's beta as fuck. The only reason I kept doing it was the attention she gave me. She would sometimes kiss my neck and shit like that.
I guarantee you I would have been friendzoned had I asked her.
I dunno. I know I'm a fucking moron but being played like this just makes me distrustful of everyone who tries to get close to me.
>>36567234
>>36567174
OR you could stop feeding her and when she asks why you guys dont go out for lunch you just simply say "I was noticing you were getting a little heavy" The look on her face will be priceless and if she slaps you it'll still be worth it.
>>36567154
How did you fuck up a suicide its no that hard?
>>36567154
>stuff I bought her
>massive debt
Wat
>>36567277
First attempt involved painkillers. I woke up in the ER.
Second attempt was by starvation. Obviously, it didn't work, and I was young enough to believe human beings could starve themselves without self-preservation instincts kicking in.
>>36567285
The debt accrued gradually. It wasn't as bad a few weeks ago as it is now.
>>36567262
I'm not even talking to her anymore. I blocked her on Snapchat about twenty minutes ago. To be honest I don't even know where my phone is right now, nor do I care
>>36567305
>Second attempt was by starvation.
kek what?
>>36567154
>wahhhh wahhh girl doesn't like me
>>36567507
The autism is real lads
>>36567305
>Second attempt was by starvation
fucking idiot
>>36567305
Why do people "attempt" suicide with anything that is not a gun?
>>36567320
>gradually
>a few weeks
>massive
WAT