General Feels Thread

>>36554826
Can relate to useless degree, but I try not to have romantic feelings

>>36554826
>gf doesn't know what she's doing and we're both emotionally unstable
>I thought I knew what I was doing now have no clue
Want to die but don't want to die

>>36554826
>Meanwhile I've discoveres that girl I've been chatting with is huge thot
Was in this situation except I didn't even get nudes, I just found out she flirts with literally every guy she meets.

>tfw I'm halfway through college and still have yet to even interact intimately with another person, let alone a woman
I'm so fucking lonely

Tell us the meme degree

anyone here feel a weird mix of feelings all day that can range from anger, feeling like a pussy, slightly nervous and just nothing at all? is that normal?

>try telling parents i have anxiety issues in 10th grade
>dad tells one of his friends who say its just called being shy
>im not shy and im not an attention whore
>tell mom i think i have problems
>they used to not let me eat food coloring because its supposed to make autism worse so she tells me i should eat better
>i accidently had an anger bout wherebi couldnt stop crying and i hit myself and my mom is just like "if you ever kill yourself ill be so damned mad at you, ill find you in heaven and beat you"
>theyre crazy religious fucks who believe in ufos and how jews are literally from eve sexing satan and some jews have blood libels
>i have told her i dont believe in anythibg years back and she just was like "thats just a slap in the face you know"

i seriously think i have borderline personality or somethibg even though i dont do drugs or cut myself ever. is a shotgun to the dome probably instant death, i just like to be able to feel like i can have a way out if i feel trapped even though im too much of a pussy to actually do it. my mood changes all the time through the day and indont know why. maybe im just a poor me baby or something but i always act the same around everyone and im polite

>>3657101
i know how you feel but im not in college

>>36557129
Computer Science

onigiri

I started a new job, and it made me realize an odd habit I have: Whenever I try to get along in a social environment with people, I act in a way that makes me look immature, and often makes me look foolish or stupid even though I'm relatively smart. My theory is that it's an adaptation from browsing forums a lot as a kid, and the habit stuck.

The hard part is that even if I try to be serious with someone, there's no connection. I really don't know why, but conversations just don't ever "click" with me. I'll be talking about music with an acquaintance, for instance, and even though our tastes are similar, our talk is dead in the water. I've enjoyed talking to people in the past, but I've never truly connected with someone. I think I might be Schizoid, honestly.

>>36557219
Yes, you have a problem. Possibly bipolar disorder, possibly something else? No hate for religious people but your parents are fucks. See a doctor my dude

>>36557366
i dont hate religious people either but imposing it on others and believibg detrimental shit like heaven is racially segregated and "when you go black you dobt go back" is literal as in you live with the black people or something. they dont talk this much but thats their corr beleif stuff

my mom started going to some "nature pathologist" and was like "he said he can treat aspergers" because she tells me im autistic but a diagnosis is just a lbel and shes like "youre fine dan akroid from blues brothers has it"

and meanwhile when she feels like she wants to loose weight she gets prescribed pills for it that make you not hungry

who knows. i really appreciate you replying thank you

The last year amd a half has been very grey for me.. i was in love my ex girlfriend, while we dated and after she broke up with me for watching porn for the forst time in nearly a year. This happened in 2015, and simce then i was doing every drug under the sun to try and fill the hole in my heart. I hated her for what she did to me, but it took me so long to realize it was just as much my fault for being so pathetic. I wemt to rehab in march after drinking for days on end and getting in a fight with a guy i knew, he threatened to kill me when i had him om the ground so i nearly choked him to death (i was on coke klonopin adderall and drank rubbing alcohol). Been sober off alcohol for two months, but things just seem so dull. I think about suicide occasionally, but i love my mother too much to do such a thing to her. Im so lonely, i have friends but i feel so empty inside. Idk i just feel like a blank spot on the canvas

>>36554826
>be christian
>tfw when I can't stand everyone else in my church
>tfw haven't gone to confession in years because of it
I'm considering spending some time at a monastery.

>>36554826
I miss being in high school and just walking around with my friends. There was still some mystery to life. One day we would find deer skeletons by railroad tracks and the next we would explore sewers and go under highways. I had a girl who adored me at one point and I wanted to live.

Now I'm alone and have nothing going for me. I also feel like having friends makes me vulnerable because then my happiness is dependent on another person and I don't know how to reconcile this.

Also, on your death bed, what do you imagine saying you wish you did more of in your life?
An anon pointed out how if it was like 2060 youd be able to emulate any game from like 2050 for free and that at that point you would rather have your youth than video games

>>36557101
>claims to be lonely
>doesnt talk to people to fix problem

I'm so hungry but I won't eat this food

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>>36554826
>failing class
>still didn't decide my major and I'm almost done with my 2nd year
>never had a job
>scared to even apply to part time wagie places because of this
>going on vacation in the summer completely paid by my parents
>feel guilty
>parents probably disappointed and will kick me out sooner or later
>can't even dig deep within myself to find out what i really like so that i could at least have a goal in uni
>only friends i have are slowly but surely moving on in life
h-haha life is all great