Fetishes absoluted screw with half of my brain.
If you want to read the story here (Or just jump to tl;dr)
>Had weird fetishes because my mom abused me
>Teen, start having weird actions towards my mom
>She neglect this feelings
>All skyrocket after i tried to record her and made sexual attempts to her...
>16 to 17 my fetish towards my mom turns to humiliation
>18
>fetish starts to morph, because porn addiction and 4chan all day
>Cuck shit
>Sissy shit
>Starts to lift to cover depression (Holocaust mode)
>Starts nofap
>fails a lot of times
>3 months lifting, i gain weight but still look like shit and my dick that was 14 cm goes to 13 (5,5 inches to 5 inches)
>Starts seeing Blacked videos
>I see my inferiority, 5 inches (The size of a fucking iphone) to a rhino dick
>Get deeper in feminization and trap meme
>Start to masturbate with hypnos....
tl;dr:After 4chan my fetishes morphed to weird shit, i like black,sissy,trap shit
think i am inferior and did some degeneracy stuff that i regret.
Right now i started meditating and currently i am day 7 on nofap.
every time that i enter 4chan, have 2 to 5 threads of trap,black shit
Gif board is 40% gay shit now [wasn't 3 years ago].
fetish will guide you life to a purpose
and only if you go to the limits of it
underestimate sex beacon with great consequence
Fetish is a bad thing
>>36475448
I had the exact same thing in mind, what happened? What's this influx of faggotry?
Is it fetish degeneration?
>>36475448
idk what your talking about I've been fapping to trap shit since at least 2010
>>36475601
What's your age now?
>>36475625
24, good ol lurking underage back in the day
>>36475448
>>36475563
honestly i feel like all the sissy shit that's been going around is kind of like a progression from the cuck that started with the bbc shit. look how intertwined these fetishes are. to put my tinfoil hat on, i honestly think there are people shilling that shit with malicious intent. also notice how they're aimed almost exclusively at white men and women. you rarely see these threads aimed at anyone else.
this stuff only damages the people that get caught up in it, and creates a lot of hate and divisiveness among the ones who find it disgusting. it's a very effective sociological tool
>>36475888
Magick trips, i think the same thing anon, checked
>>36475967
i recently went down the hypno side of these fetishes. not to indulge in it, but to dissect it. i've found some fucked up shit. there ware a couple sissy hypno threads in gif yesterday. i went through and split a bunch of them down to single frames. about half were on the level with the fetish crap, but the other half i wound up finding a bunch of satanic shit (no surprise there really), and nazi symbolism buried in them. i haven't played too much with the audio stuff, but i did separate all the audio layers in an isabella valentine file and found a track that was nothing but people screaming in agony, one that was nothing but monstrous growling noises, and one that was the narrator repeating a mantra of "turn away from god, you want jesus to fuck your ass." i've played a little with the speed of the audio in some of the webms too. a few had some weird shit, but open to interpretation. one had a clear message of "i love dick" when i sped the vocal track that was already saying fucked up shit up in a 30 second webm clip to 4x the usual speed.
i found the symbol in pic related in almost a dozen different gifs and webms (a couple were bbc content). i think it's supposed to be for sissy slut or something, but that is a little too nazi looking for my taste.
>>36476480
Does anyone else see a yellow ball following their cursor when hovering over this gif?
>>36476674
nope. shouldn't be anything too weird. i used ezgif to pull the image out of the gif. probably should've changed the file type when i saved it
>i experience porn at age 10
>i get addicted to it
>by the time of middle school nothing in porn turns me off
>few years later and i become disconnected from reality and now porn is the only thing that turns me on
>fast forward another few years later and I'm not even attracted to physical reality anymore
god help me
>>36476674
I actually do, is it a visual trick?
>>36477034
I have absolutely no idea. Perhaps it's some sort of cursor ghosting? Weird either way.
>>36476812
>>36475403
sunlight is the best disinfectant. get an outdoor hobby. it won't fix all your problems, but i promise you it's a step in the right direction. it worked for me.
>>36475403
Why all the shame? There is nothing wrong with sexual degeneracy. Stop being a pussy. Just don't let it fuck with your motivation and drive, that's the only real danger unless youre a christcuck
>>36476480
>SS logo in porn vids
Huh