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>Did I lose my only opportunity at love because of ~$30?
yeah, probably. you can't really explain away a rape folder.

>>36460691
Just be honest with her and explain it was from before you met her and you were lonely. And tell her if you love me you will forgive me because we all have made mistakes in our lives. But you see how much power females have in a relationship? She just got up and left because its easy for her to get cock, it's a commodity to her.

>>36460691
Let's be honest, she'd have found out in some form anyway.
You fucked up by doing the things you like. This is the shit normies will never understand.

It's over. Even if you concoted some excuse, normies wouldn't understand. Even someone like me who is a fembot and desensitized to creepy weirdo guys wouldn't want to associate with you anymore.

>>36460691
Can you upload a torrent of your rape vids on an onion site?

>>36460691
You admitted guilt when you said it was just a phase. You could've played it off by saying that you got the laptop off craigslist and never bothered to clear the drive. Plus if a girl is actually autistic and likes you she wont' leave over a little rape. Keep chasing her and don't stop messaging her. Good luck /b/ro.

>>36460707
>>36460710
> if you love me you will forgive me
>fucked up by doing the things you like
Oh fuck off.

The graduation from rape porn to actual recorded rape, to you knowing a woman actually suffered for it and you getting off to it is where any sympathy for you is lost.
I'd hope that you'll never be happy for the rest of your life, but that's clearly already happening and with any luck will continue.

>>36460715
I know it was fucked up but it's not like I would ever rape a girl. I am so submissive in my relationships, I always do everything I can for my partner, and they always end up leaving. Nobody has ever lasted this long with me before. Is it actually so bad that I can't get her back?

>>36460737
I built the thing myself and she knows it, it wouldn't have worked.

>>36460729
I deleted it as soon as she left, and I see that it is fucked up now, so I won't be spreading it, but it is easy to find with tor.

Considering an hero, ask the rape freak anything.

In 38yo of life I never had a woman inside my room...

>>36460772
>Is it actually so bad that I can't get her back?
Yes. Quit thinking you can salvage the relationship. She probably sees you as subhuman garbage at this point.

>>36460772
You could try to explain it to her, but it's not like she's emotionally invested in you so there's no reason for her to try and understand it. I'm sorry. Please move on. She's a normie.

>>36460691
>gf

Fuck off your dirty normie

>>36460771
Roastie, why are you so mad? Have you been raped? Oh I am so sorry that a soft flesh penis traumatized you so much by it going inside of your vagina by force even though a vagina was made for that. There are people in Mexico who live in fear, and get their faces skin off while they are alive for trying to clean their community of drugs and violence by cartel members. It's just a video of naked women, it's a heinous act but it's not that huge of a big deal of someone watching this video purely out of lust. When you have an addiction to pornography it's like drugs. You need a stronger and stronger dose after a while cause your brain gets bored. I hope you will never been happy for the rest of your life because of how unforgiving and unmerciful to you. May God never forgive you for your sins for your harsh judgement of people who are lonely because are you harlots who go about jumping on cock after cock in your youth.

>>36460691
I don't think she loved you if she left you after that desu

>>36460808
If being a robot means that you can't even associate with other robots in a sexual way, there would be no new robot kids. Chad and Suzy would have already need us out.

>>36460841
She told me that nobody had ever made her feel warm before, nobody had made her want to be around them before. I think I might have completely ruined my life and maybe hers. I'm going to think for a couple days but right now I am set to an hero mode. I'll probably just chicken out again and wind up disgusting and alone again.

Contrary to the other people in this thread I don't think you're morally fucked, you can repent, but as far as the girl goes you'll just have to let her go she probably won't come back. don't kill yourself dummy, if you were able to find one girl you can find another.

I think you should find where she is and rape her.

>>36460691
Well, maybe it's over. After she calms down a bit you might be able to talk to her about it and work things out. Hard to tell.

I think the biggest thing is giving her space and being respectful. She's traumatized and probably doesn't trust you now, and if you try to force your way back into her life and force her to listen to your insincere, panicked apologies it's going to prove to her that you're actually a rape-y creep.

So you need to take it slow. Take some time to think about how she must be feeling, take some time to think how bad it must look from her perspective. If you feel like you absolutely need to say something to her RIGHT NOW, keep it extremely brief, and bend over backwards to be respectful of her right to keep a distance from you. Don't beg her to come back, don't tell her about how this hurts your feelings, don't self-flagelate. Just let her know that you completely understand the seriousness of this, and you understand how badly you've hurt her, and you're extremely sorry.

Write a very carefully considered letter explaining to her that you think rape is vile and terrible (you DO think this, right?), and you only ever fantasized about it in a detached, animalistic way (this IS the case, right?), and it's something that you grew out of, and you would never, ever, ever condone such things, let alone act out in such a way yourself.

Make sure every word of what you say to her is 100% true. Don't bullshit her.

Then, after you've written the letter, put it aside for a day or two, then come back and read it again. Mull it over. Really think about it, and think carefully about how she'll interpret every word of it. Again, put yourself in her shoes and think about how scared and disgusted she must feel. Edit it as necessary, and only when you're confident that it's entirely sincere and truly sympathetic to her feelings, send it.

Good luck, anon.

>>36460865
Don't kill yourself dude over a woman. She will come back to you if she loves you. She just probably wants you to chase her and to bother her. Women are like this. Plus why would you kill yourself over a woman? That is stupid. Woman were made for men, meanign they cannot survive or live without us. They have breasts, a hole for a man. Long hair and soft skin for men. They were made a sex toys and helpers for men.

>>36460874
Kekd
Originininininal

>>36460869
>morally fucked
It doesn't matter as long as OP doesn't kill whores, anyway. The only thing that matters is if OP can explain the issue to her. Or if she'll even want to listen.

>>36460844
False, if anything Chad/Suzy are the main culprits of producing fucked up robot children.

>>36460885
This desu. Even if you decide that you're the worst scum of the earth, why deny yourself the chance to keep experiencing things? Fuck off with that shit. All old people want is another day to live. After living all that time, that's the only thing left.

>paying for porn
>not hiding your porn
>not having a decoy folder of vanilla porn
>not making a serious effort to stop her (she managed to open a file and watch a few seconds? Bullshit you couldn't stop her in that time)
>actually crying in front of a woman
>admitting fault in front of a woman
W.E.W.

>>36460911
Mfw mom and dad are total normies now but dad used to be a meth addict and dealer and mom was abused by him, almost lost a thumb when he slammed her hand in the door and drove away. She had to drive herself to the ER after calling an emergency baby sitter for me and my older sister, and now she can barely move it and can't feel with it.

Lmao thats what you get retard

>>36460896

I'm serious about this because she can understand he loves her so much that he want fulfill all his fantasies with her. Women are emotional creatures and this is why we can't use logic to deal with then sometimes, no, I mean every time.

>>36460817
>assuming
>projecting
>muh dick
>y-you too!

Fuck off, I've been addicted to porn and there's a line drawn, which is when people are actually harmed and traumatised by it. Saying people have it worse and TECHNICALLY PHYSICALLY it's just a penis going in a vagina doesn't make it any less heinous. OP is fucking SCUM and deserves to lose what made him happy.

>>36460931
Unless OP manages to push her emotional buttons (which I doubt because robots are very rational in their interactions) this is fucked already. Trying to be rational about this will only make it worse.
>>36460939
You shut the fuck up you fucking normie

>>36460939
No he doesn't you normie. Go back to where you come from. The only bad thing about rape is that it takes a woman's honor away and humiliates her. It's not too horrible if they are a consenting age too and chances are those rape videos are roleplaying. No one uploads rape videos to the internet because they would get caught. Idiot.

I can't tell if the people who are calling me scum are normies and wrong, normies and right, robots and right, robots and wrong, and I don't really know how to handle this input. Normally there is a clear cut decision from r9k but now I am not sure I really just don't know what to do right now.

>>36460939
who cares. I agree it's not healthy for you, but everyone's a voyeur nowadays. OP doesn't seem like the type to actually rape someone.

>>36460981
Most people are saying you shouldn't kill yourself and that this won't be mended. It's just too much OP. You could try to explain things to her, but most likely won't do shit.

>>36460981
Look, morals don't matter right now. What you need is to focus on her, this whole "I love rape" thing has to be sorted later. Moreover, whatever discussion there is about wrong and right is just robots shitting on robots, not about your problem.
Can you tell us what else she's said?

>>36460879
This is legitimately good advice and deserves a (You). Hopefully OP acts on it.

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>>36460715
>>36460771
>>36460772
>>36460817

You guys are fucking morons.

If you find black porn on your gf's laptop you'd pack up your bags and leave to.

>>36461020
I called her and left a message saying how sorry I was and how i had just forgotten to delete it and she knows I've been in dark places I don't know if she will ever even talk to me again I can't handle this she was my world

That's what you get for being stupid OP. You should have hid that folder in a lockbox or seperate hard drive.

This is actually mother nature's way of doing away with stupid people. You were just partaking in a very healthy and natural process. By walking away, she was shielding our kind from reproducing what she saw as harmful genome. If you had been smart, this would never had happened.

The good news is you can still learn from your mistakes and become smarter. But something tells me you're the kind of guy who will more likely shy away from love forever by this experience. It's your choice.

>>36461052
Damn this sounds bad. You mentioned yourself too much.
Go with the wall of text desu. Chasing after her right after she found out you like rape can even be scary.

>>36461052
Sorry makes no sense. You should have done this >>36460879


Just move on. It's one girl.

>>36460951

I only know the theories about women, I lost my interest on it and today I only care about eat good food, drink, sleep, work and be pampered by my boss and the company.

>>36460981
Dude, if she's THAT normie, do you not think that maybe she just wasn't right for you? And it's her fault and not yours? Just because you're a robot doesn't mean everything bad in a relationship is automatically your fault.

>>36461122
I am the only constant in all of my failed friendships. Trips decide what I cut. Will timestamp and post when get.

>>36461136
Please, no. It's just a girl. Go to sleep or take a shower so you can chill out.

>>36461052
download some more rape videos and jack off to them. you'll have some power back. Better yet find ur ex gf and rape her and make a video/

>>36461136
>Trips decide what I cut
Consumption of carbs

>>36461150
Jack gone, numb enough, roll faster.

If you think about it most rapists say they never raped that girl
So when your girl finds your rapey porn, you reply holy shit, that's a fucked up virus on the computer. But you already admitted your a rapey porn guy. Are you a veterinarian by chance too? I think it was more than the 30 bucks dipshit

>>36461178
you should do what this poster said

ugh
cut your lip

>>36460691

If she didn't love you at your worst, chances are, she didn't really love you. It was just a useful thing for her. Disregard ledditors here telling you that you're a sicko and "lol deserve to be single". Those people have had their sympathy masterfully removed by years of propaganda

>>36461136
You need to sleep, don't cut anythingq

I know she is never coming back but I was fimally not alone I had someone whk didn't hit me and she left me see my mom still I don't know what do to without her I'll be so gone again

>>36461285
uh i doubt their bond was that strong desu
its over. how dont you get it that normies dont tolerate stuff like this

>>36460691
>I paid good money for that collection
>30$

HAAHAhaha nigaa

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Were the vids good?

I know exactly which rape pack/site you're talking about, but ehh, wasn't convinced on buying it.

I'm interested again, though. Are the videos worth it?

That pic scared the shit out of me anon :____(

>>36461378
If you have nobody in your life, yes. If you have anyone it could hurt, no.

>>36461285
This is to the OP_ if she was raped right now and some sick fuck uploaded the video for others to enjoy would you feel bad for her or would you get off on it? Now just imagine what she is thinking knowing you dedicated days to watching some soulless fuck masterfully removing woman's sense of security.

>>36461438
I want to die but I'm too chicken to do it. I would wipe myself off of your planet of could I am sorry

How does she know they were real rape videos? Just say they were staged ones made to look real.

>>36461461
We care for you bro. That is why we reply to this thread. We feel with you. Don't kill yourself. Rise and overcome this world.

Here watch this video to share you up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXqoJ1_8EA8

>>36460879
As a Hail Mary, he could even make up some bullshit about him having autogynephilia and hates himself for it. He feels he deserves to be abused and violated, so he watches the porn that shows the girl (who he self inserts as) being horribly abused and violated.

>>36461390
Why don't you upload them somewhere. No way I would pay for porn.

>>36461548
This might actually work with what all happened eith my ex boyfriwnd

>>36461548
Trying to mend things by lying is stupid.

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shoulda kept the vids op cuz it looks like thats all youre gonna be left with

>>36460691
Wow you sound beta af. begging the woman not to go? My suggestion is rape her

>>36461740
It is a little ironic that his obsession with people being involuntarily fucked has lead to him involuntarily fucking himself over.

>>36461524
That apartment looks so >>>>>/comfy/

>>36460691
Why don't you just act totally normal and make HER feel like the one who's weird/fucked up? Just say, "Uhh, retarded (ex?)gf? You realize those were staged, right? As in FAKE, or not-real? You're overreacting and behaving ridiculously. Please try to act like an adult here. I just have a domination fetish. There's nothing wrong with that, nor is there anything wrong with consenting adults acting out such fantasies and recording them for others' enjoyment. I really love you and hope that you can come to your senses (I even deleted the videos, since you seem to dislike them THAT much), but if you're leaving me over THAT, then I'm probably better off for it, since the relationship would have been doomed from the start." Come the fuck on, OP. This is common sense. How the hell did you not realize you needed to do this IMMEDIATELY!?

>>36460691
>and then straight into actual recorded rape.

Links

>>36460922
A single >this isn't enough to adequately express my feelings towards this post, but unfortunately that is all I can provide.

>>36461122
Incredibly insightful post! Fantastic work, anon - please keep it up!

>>36461461
This is the most pathetic post I have seen in all my years, across the entire internet, not just 4chan. Please, sack up and stop acting like such a feminized dickless numail brainwashed by a lifetime of "feminist" propoganda. Jesus fucking Christ, m8.

>>36460691
describe the rape vids please. I want to know how women a tually react to being aactually raped