What's your current biggest problem.

>>36456359
I graduate college in 2 weeks and I don't have a job lined up.

i have nothing to offer to anyone besides some WoW knowledge and i hate myself with a pashion

>>36456359

I need like $10,000

>>36456359
My job is a dead end and isolates me but I don't want to quit because I fucking love it.

>>36456359
I am feeling tfw no gf
>girl at work flirts with me
>nothing can be done

>>36456398
I will give you 20,000 for the use of your boypussy.

>>36456395
Passion.
Fashion.
Cushion.

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>>36456359
Graduating college with a meme degree
At least it didn't actually cost me anything so I can go back to study CS or IT

>>36456395
>I hate myself with a pashion
As you should.

>>36456359
tie between no friends and failing college

>>36456359
Money, my life, loosing everything that had value to me.

I have nothing, its a weird feel guys, everything I worked for is gone. I have to sit here and legitimately re-evaluate myself.

>>36456359
My life

Ayyoriginal

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>>36456421
and i cant into englando

All these neets thinking they understand suffering and metaphysical hell. Lol.

>>36456359
I'm on the brink of failing highschool

I'm just sick of everything, I don't get enjoyment out of doing anything anymore and it's making me sick

I wanna pack up and leave but I have people here who depend on me but I hate them now, I hate that I feel like this but I'm so fucking tired of everything.

The lack of self worth and lack of purpose tied together with a bow of >tfw no gf is what is weighing me down.

I know deep down it never gets better.

The void never goes away.

I have to work a job I don't like or care about to earn enough money to survive. I can't afford to save for the things I want. I come home too tired to work on the things I'm actually interested in.

i am extremely lonely, i'm always bored, i am failing, i have no job, no license, no money, no social skills, no emotions, 5'6

>>36456633
>5'6"
There is no god.
I'm not surprised this isn't original.

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>>36456633
This is going on the mixtape

We're going to make it guys.

I drink and smoke. Losing everything and everyone. Don't really care anymore.

>>36456359
i can't sleep because of excitement anxiety, also i can't regulate my heartbeat at all

>>36456359
Im living in an airport hangar.

>no license
>unemployed
>no friends
>community college sucks
>partner doesn't want kids

>>36456359
The lack of purpose in modern society.

I think I'm going to buy some gear and live in the woods.

>>36456359
She won't stop sticking her tongue out at me.

Throught the week I feel like I wanna just die really, not from anything violent just fall over or something. I think about shooting myself alot but anytime ive actually thought "okay whats stopping me, now is a good time" i just dont want to do it. I dont even have any hobbies or anything. am i a pussy, should i just do it or is this a normal feeling

>>36456359
My entire life desu

i need money to go back to school and evolve to a normie with a decent life but i work 2 retail jobs that never give me enough hours to even pay rent

I can't cum properly, I always end it up in my mouth or my face

>>36456858
Gat dam I know every one of these feels.

>do you want to stay with her
>how do you get the job if you can't drive? (Questioning if you should continue with classes)
>can't study and work because classes too draining.

i've gone through a lot of self-improvement and I have a lot of confidence in my personality now but I'm still alone

discouraging... on a more material level I only have 1 pair of pants now so I feel ashamed leaving the house every day wearing the same thing

>>36456359
a job far away from everyone because the people around me reminds me of my failures

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Gf dumped me. All my social interaction came from her and her friends, now I'm truly alone again.

>>36457053
Get a new one ROFL ez

>>36457053
I know that feel anon, Now her and all her friends bully me.

>>36457085
It is easy but I'm still lonely.

>>36456359
The one person I care about is homeless on the other side of the world and they were the only thing keeping my mental illnesses under control

>>36456359
depression originally

>>36457008
>I want to stay with her but I also want to start a family so its starting to become frustrating.
>Im studying online but it sucks total ass
>My wife has a license so I can drive if she is in the car.

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I pushed away my one and only friend for the fourth time. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't possibly add them again and explain how I won't do that anymore because that would be a lie. I just don't want to get in between their other friends. Maybe it's best if I should just be alone, like always.

>>36456417
Not the same anon but i will take you up on that. I need money and i am so desperate I don't care how i get it

>>36457190
Same her .Depression from getting molested.

>>36457212
Ayyy need me some of that wife chaperone

>>36457214
Stop doing it retard. You must have a real gyna

i am hideously ugly and i am a legitimate food addict (not fat but i do have gynecomastia.) realistically i need at least $50,000 worth of cosmetic surgery; the cruel irony is that my ugliness makes me so depressed and socially anxious that i can't get a job. That's my biggest issue, followed by the fact that i am attending uni for a non-stem degree and i haven't retained any information from my classes. Even if i manage to graduate i won't have the operational knowledge to be able to work

>>36457243
Uh wow sorry anon. Not the same situation for me just an emotionally abused childhood. Though your situation is way worse.

>>36457280
Its not bad until there's an argument and you want some space.>>36457298

>>36456455
What went wrong anon? How'd you lose it all?

I just want to have a piece of mind, but I know I'll never accomplish anything I deem worthy in my lifetime. Being born without any inherent talents, no matter how hard I work, everything I ever do will just be mediocre. Living life knowing that there's nothing that distinguishes me from others depresses me.

>>36456494
oh really? whats your story wisdom fag? surely you lack just as much as the rest of us. FUCK YOU

>>36456359
I started dating a girl and I have a terrible fear of spilling the spaghetti or getting cucked and have to go back to my robot days

It was super hard to achieve normie status

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I have no future. Nobody does. The western world is going to hell in a hand basket, our way of life is completely unsustainable. Within the next few years, we will be minorities in our own nations, replaced by these... disgusting, babbling animals that can barely even be considered "human" in the same sense as us. For years we essentially enslaved them, giving them just enough resources to outbreed us, and now we are reaping the consequences.

There is no future. This planet will turn into little more than a pool of suffering for the majority of living things, with a tiny population of ultra-rich elites ruling over the swathes of brainless, defenseless brown skinned "people" they replaced us with. Global Brazil, but a thousand times worse.

Also, I can't find a job.

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Neet with no ambitions and a fear of taking on responsibility

>>36457314
It's unfortunate but I realized that someone must have molested the older child and caused him to act like that. It just slowly took over and didn't leave once I was over that.

>>36456932
Are you me? This is actually what I think on a daily basis.

>>36456971
its a normal feeling been dealing with it myself for years desu. i just ignore it at this point desu

>>36457343
This what you do. Think of your smallest problem. Then think of the next biggest problem you have. The previous one will seem trivial. Well, do this all the way past death and if you don't conclude that you are going to hell then what problems do you even fucking have? Me? I'm going to hell.

I have to be high all the time to function. Its the only thing that makes my anxiety go away. I know people judge me for being a stoner but I can't live without it.

>>36457453
I don't get it. Weed makes my anxiety a thousand times worse.

>>36457025
I wish I can send you pants. Why do you only have one pair? You can go to thrift shop and get some for less than 5 dollars (at least in america)

dealing with cunts (AKA humanity)

>>36457468
It does that for some people but it calms me down like a sedative and it makes social interaction easier

>>36456359
I have a misaligned jaw, can barely speak properly and have no overbite so I cannot cut food with my teeth. Wish I didn't live in a shithole country with monetized healthcare.

>>36457468
Drugs affect people differently, more news at 11

>>36457432
why are you going to hell? i dont believe in hell anyways. i have not done anything horrible enough to get me in there even if it did exist. im just mentally retarded. but if you did something bad enough to get you into "hell" then thats your fault man.

$$$
it always comes down to it directly or indirectly

>>36456359
nothing much, just addicted to masturbation.
not porn, masturbation.

>>36457568
I don't doubt you're mentally retarded.

Not having a job. I've been a NEET for almost 2 years now and I'm so fucking sick and bored of it. I have been getting more pressure being put on me by my parents where they threaten to kick me out of the house if I don't find something soon, but I'm doing what I can to get a decent job.

Literally nobody will hire me, I've had two in person job interviews over the last month and didn't get either job. Just fucking kill me already.

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>>36457214
I have done this a good 10 times in my life. I kinda feel bad but then I don't because I know they will be better off without me in their life. Some of them were decent people. But I could not stop thinking about how much they secretly wanted to hurt me.

>>36456395
Hello fellow WoWnon

>>36457417
thanks for replying bud

am i a pussy for sometimes thinking about shooting myself even though i dont think id have the balls to? somedays ill sit and practice with an empty shotgun but like i said id be afraid to honestly. im sorry you feel that way though anon

I fucking suck at singing. So many great songs are finally taking shape but I can't sing or talk to people so at this rate they'll be forever left as instrumental tracks to gather dust in the space of my hard drive.

I'm startled way to easily, it's fucking humiliating.

I'm afraid to enroll into college because I don't know algebra..

>>36456359
> Unable to drive a car due to mental health, vision and financial issues
> Can't find a new/better job, can't go out and socialize, can't go on dates/meet women
> Co-workers are all 18-22 year olds that make fun of me being my back for not having a license

>>36457702
Nah I do the same thing and have failed many times. We are just suicidal but do not really want to die, just improve our lives somehow. I wish it was easy

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>>36456359
i can only narrow it down to three pressing issues
>neurotic self-defeating perception of myself
>not being able to come to terms with having adult responsibilities
>lifelong psychological issues that I don't even know how to begin to explain in a way that would make any sense to anyone

>>36457702
You are ready to die but not ready to kill yourself so am i

>>36457655
this entire board is you fucking retard, once again, FUCK YOU

>>36457666
What kind of jobs are you trying to get?

>>36457666
Go for grocery stores.
At your age without experience it is the only job available for you.
Being a bagger is the easiest 800 dollars a week youll will ever make and i chose it as my career.

I need to start studying for the bar exam. I take it in 3 months, but I don't want to start studying.

I'm also fairly dependent on weed. I vape a lot. I'm going to go through a month of solid withdrawal when I stop. It sucks, but I need to do it.

too afraid to leave my comfort zone

>>36456359
>got my trial for DUI today
>be on probation for a year
>drunk as i type this

I might be an alcoholic.

Its like this I dont really have a hard job because i get to work on trucks at this garage my family owns and i just service trucks and change some brakes but sometimes my uncle just pisses me off (he's my boss) he's nice but sometimes ill be trying to use a hammer on something and he'll just be like "come on hit it!" like im not hitting it hard even though im fucking trying. the other day he had a tub of antifreeze sitting outside from a truck he had been working on and asked me to help him carry it next to the building and said just to leave it outside. theres tis cat that hangs around outside some and i asked "what if the cat drinks some of it" and he looks a little annoyed and just said "then its the cats fault i cant protect the world". its like this though i guarantee you the epa could fine you for leaving antifreeze outside in the open over the weekend, it just seems half assed.

even though i do the "light duty" stuff like change brakes and ive never had to take out a transmission, i can feel it in my wrists sometimes from carrying around 120lbs brake drums to put on trucks.

am i crazy for getting annoyed with shit like this? i would like to have a job that i can actually shower before going to and not go home covered in dirt, grease and engine oil. even though i dont do the difficult shit it still can be tiring. are most jobs like this though? this is the only job ive had

I've been wanting to fap to the same camwhore for two weeks and haven't caught her online once.

She wasn't online this whole week. Except last night, when I missed her by two hours.

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All i fucking do is stay up until 6 am worrying about studying and not studying. my finals are in a week and a half. Fuck.

>>36457784
The first interview I had was at a warehouse dealing with insulation for houses, and the other interview I had was at a fuel oil fired power plant.

I did a 2 year program at a local trade school, but have little relevant work experience and only a few connections I made in school and elsewhere which has killed me I think.

>>36457972
I don't get this whole networking thing. Like how does it even work, people actually maintain these relationships with all these linkedin contacts, or they just speak to them once and then consider them part of their "network"?

iirc, scientists made experiments to determine that no human brain could genuinely know more than 400 people at any given moment.

>>36457839
Man up dude youd never last in retail

jk

A lot but so little
>No friends meme
>Social anxiety
>Severe depression
>Anti depressant (Veneflaxin) keeps me from enjoying masturbation
>Bf treats me like shit but he's my only friend so I let him
>In college and money is really tight :(

I'm just waiting to be done with my education so I can start earning and be happy... 10 more years to go

It's gotten to the point where I need escapism, but nothing works anymore. The only idea left is to be a vagabond, because then I will have to be traveling constantly.

But do I really want to do that?

>>36458041
To tell you the truth I never fully understood it either. I feel like half of finding and getting a decent career these days that isn't a dead end job is in either having a parent or uncle/aunt or a close friend of your family who is in a decent spot in a certain company that can then put a good word in you for you if you interview at the company where they work.

I have a linkedin account I made about a year ago with my info in it and I added some 'connections' on it but nothing ever come of it. I mean it's possible I'm doing the whole thing wrong but w/e.

I don't want go to college, I don't want study, I don't want have a work and I don't want live anymore. Life is completely meaningless for me, I think is better do something else but I don't know what I need do. I was thinking about join ISIS and then flee to Sweden.

>>36456359
>no money
>followed by unhealthy
>followed by no friends

I need to find a job but the state is helping, the thing is it seems like it will be retail. I hated working retail.i had a job in a office he said it will be hard to get me a job in a office.

>>36458408
how hard is working retail? do bosses give you shit a lot? is it physical work?

>>36458435
Not that anon, but its monotonous. The tedium literally kills your soul. The only saving grace of retail is if you enjoying talking to people. But theres lots of other jobs that you can talk to people, but retail is the bottom rung of society, and its just demeaning if you have any level of intelligence above making sure things are straight and even on a shelf.

>>36456359
My sleep schedule, it's ruining my life.

My biggest problem is that my self-esteem goes down everyday and i cant believe in myself
i cant believe that i can learn
i cant believe that i can be happy
i dont know how to deal with it.

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severe depersonaliztion
just end me

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i am currently making too-low wages, although my job is not very intensive and it includes shitposting privileges. which is probably pretty bad for me really

i'm 25 and have not gotten my undergraduate yet, retaking courses and finishing up because i've got a shitty 2.84 GPA i need above a 3 before graduation

i'm still living with mommy n' daddy and the arrangement squashes most chances of getting poon. even if they don't, i reckon it puts too much of a damper on my confidence anyway

but besides that i'm aiight really. been plenty worse.

My biggest problem is actually my smallest problem if you know what I mean.

I have a small dick.

>>36457777
normie just got BTFO by quad god

>>36458532
You should be enjoying the fuck out of that. I love when i depersonalize. Hasnt happened in a while, ive been grounded in reality pretty well sadly. I need a break, and some depersonalization would be great right about now. Or some flat out derealization, that would be nice. Fucking society and its reality. I want a vacation.

Closet fag
Wiener is messed up so khhv
Tired of college
Tired of wagecucking
No desire for any future

>>36458257
>10
jesus christ are you going to be a doctor? waiting for happiness for 10 years will only make things worse. you need to try and work with what you have now. start by dumping your shit bf, have some self respect and do not let people mistreat you

Apparently some people still peep and think that the web browsing history I make accurately represent what I think although I explicitly told them not to do so. Some people are really dumb and it's really dumb to expect them to understand. Yet they think they know. It's really sick.

>no discipline
>rather shitpost than do anything important
>no friends/peers
>fell for the /r9k/ meme
>too old to really fix anything

severe depression, suicidal
utterly alone, this is honestly the only social interaction I get
no job or future, but i guess that falls into depression?
and tfwno gf (or any friends ever. I don't understand how people can be sad if they've ever had friends)

I work in a factory that expects overtime, but I dont want to work and really dont want to do any form of overtime cause I actually enjoy my free time.

>>36456359
too lazy for get up, i cant socialize like a normal person,, i dont have job, i try to have my own business but i dont have money to start, i dont have anything more besides knowledge of videogames and comics.

>>36458532
Do u mind telling me what ur experiencing?

I am nothing.
Sometimes I think about becoming a sailor or a crab fisherman and just disappearing, but I love my family too much to do that.

>>36458789
Similar situation but retail part time. I can't even fathom working full time. I know if I ever do it will be a fast track towards suicide.

it should be the fact that i dont talk to anyone in my family (or anyone at all outside work) but it's actually my balding

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>>36456417
I will unironically dress up to be the most presentable trap waifu gf possible (like this video) and dress in a qt maid outfit and let you pump fat loads in me over and over again for an entire month if you pay me $20,000 in exchange

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wR3Z3uSZIl4

>>36458845
>>>36457972
it basically is but on the other side from the turn over rate at my job, ive met a few /a/nons and /pol/iticians and they are usually pretty chill. though I know first hand that retail is fucking shitty

>>36458854
You talk to losers at work but you don't even talk to your own family?

Spent all my rent money on stupid shit because I have no impulse control and will likely be kicked out by my university.

>>36458951
Weeb figures?

>>36458828
I was an Alaskan salmon fisherman for 2 years. There is no way an r9k neet could ever do it.
>always drenched and cold
>no internet (the kind you browse with.)
>no freedom
>bossed around 24/7
>get new injuries every day
>if you find a hot spot you will work 30+ hours straight, get 4 hours of "sleep" and then do another 12 hours
The two years I did it felt like 20 years. There are no "shifts." If there are crab/whatever you are fishing for you will work until there are none left. If you don't like it you're still stuck on the boat until they port next and you will be bullied severely. The only time you will see a calm sea or steady boat is in port.

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I'm lonely because I can't get myself to open up to people. Either I can't think of anything to talk about or I'm not motivated enough to start anything.

If I openly talked about myself to someone, I'd only be complaining about my issues that no one relates to.

I used to be in really good shape but I have an office job now and I've been using it as an excuse to let myself go, because I'm too tired to exercise after work (I'm really not, I just want an excuse to play rocket league).

Also no gf, little to no furniture in my apartment, Finally finished paying off the university for granting me this meagre existence, and I'm unsure what to do with the extra $500 a month every month I will have in the future because I no longer have to pay them.

I still haven't figured out whats so great about life. Most of the time it's boring punctuated by brief moments of horror, and tiny spikes of happiness. Sleep is the best thing about life.

>>36458973
I bought one once. was a cheap chinese fake one cause I cant afford the real one that cost 200$
its the lala fig in the shorshorts with a white bra Wish I could afford more but at the same time, im really doubting college cause very few people I met have gotten jobs that pay more than what I make

>>36458905
anon talking to people at work is a literal requirement...even if its something like "hey when is the next meeting" or whatever

I don't want to do anything, I don't want to kill myself but dying seems like the best solution for my problem.

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>>36458883
any takers?

I'm dead serious

>tfw want weed, acid, benzos, DMT, peyote and magic mushrooms
>tfw no money
>tfw selling my body for money on a laotian drum weaving bazaar

>>36459066
>yet doesnt post body
nigga, its like you want us to pay for nothing

>>36459066
I'll give you 10 dollars to cuddle
(with clothes on)

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I'm so fucking lonely

I'm also broke, but I think that being lonely is more painful. I'd be happy to be poor but have some close friends and a gf.

>>36459066
Post body and we'll see. Most druggie traps are disgusting.

>>36458973
Nope, just various stupid things I couldn't afford and knew I couldn't afford.

Spent a grand on a trip to New York to see a girl who promptly left me after the trip was over.

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>>36459105
not trying to get v&

here's an accurate description of body though
>5'6"
>semi-wide shoulders
>semi-V taper
>140 pounds
>can cut 10 lbs of fat + bulk/curve out my hips in a month max with swimming, jogging, jumprope, calisthenics etc and send progress pics directly to whoever takes me up on my offer if they aren't satisfied enough with how skinny my body is already and want me to sweeten up the deal

Ugly af which means no bf, social anxiety, basically almost everyone avoiding me, fell for the med meme in highschool and didn't realize what shit and underpayed job it is here, still live with mother and when i move out i will probably have to give up my cat for an adoption

Christ why can't i kill myself yet

>>36456359
I am scared to enroll in college, I do not understand algebra and i feel dumb every time I try.

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>>36456359
My biggest problem is that I got fat in the last 6 months and hardly any of my clothes fit anymore. I am embarrassed so i stay inside

Along with all of the other mental problems one requires to post on a site like this.

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>>36459105
whoever takes me up on my offer is not obligated to start paying me or offer proof that they will pay me until they blow their first fat, gunky load in my boypussy

>>36459196

>v&

So you're an underage piece of shit? Fuck off.

I feel like I'm a phantom and not someone tangible. It's like the world is a stage and everyone's an actor buy I'm alone in the audience.

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>>36459248
nope

older than 20, younger than 25

don't drink alkies
drink lots of water
eat my veggies and fruits for clear skin

v& bc I mentioned scheduled substances on a non-Tor clearnet forum

>>36459204
post pics. Might want to fukk

I can't do anything because I'm severely mentally retarded. I can't learn because I'm brain dead.

I am unable to make a single person legitimately care for me because of my crippling social anxiety and lack of confidence due to my rancid childhood "friends" alienating and abusing me away from society for 7 years forcing me to constantly psychoanalyze each and every individual's movements and social patterns to the point of delusion as an emotional defense mechanism, not letting me be able to enjoy human presence or practice social conduct correctly during my most sensitive development stages and my parents being equally socially retarded and uncaring for my connection to the outside world but

It's okay, because at the end of the day, it can all just be bullshit to me, and to anyone, because I know that no one human can care about such a fucking whiny complainy shitshow about how it wasn't my fault. Only you robots do.

>>36459443
Elaborate. You made this post didn't you?

>>36456378
What major? It's difficult to get a job right away in some fields.

>>36459501
22 yo hugless virgin neet desu

>>36459478
That was a kind of exaggeration. but I guess my brain has been shrinking and deteriorating due to my mental illness. It is hard for me to deal with the things people are doing easily.

>>36459599
Are you diagnosed with anything? OriginaI

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>>36456359

No money, 26 years old. No degree. Maybe try to do phlebotomy school but I don't know how I can get $2k to pay for it

>>36459599
Go into more detail. What do you have how are you having difficulties.

>>36459632
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few years ago but also I suspect my brain had had something wrong since when I was born.

>>36459280
Nigger there are people on here that post timestamped pics of dead bodies and worse. Show some pics and color over your eyes/anything else that will hide who you are.

Nobody is going to take your offer unless you post some pics. Even the trannies on /soc/ post pics.

>>36457946
any advice for someone who needs to learn a chapter or two of calc in a week?

>>36459692
Are you that crazy person that doesn't believe in conspiracies?

>>36459339
I'm from a slavic shithole tho, if you actually visited you could do better

>>36459692
Do you get hallucinations?

>>36459679
Social interactions, personal hygiene, staying focused for more than certain period of time etc.
The problems might come down to the fact that I can't think. The throughput of my brain computer is much lower than normal people.

>>36459775
I have a Truman show delusion. I also sometimes see a shadow of a person at the edge of my vision when there is no one around.

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>>36459716
PLease, my anxiety is eating me. STEM would be easy my dad told me, but ive been here for 3 semesters and my brain went from happy normie to super shut in anxiety mode

>>36456359
I can't ignore my PTSD long enough to keep writing my novel

>>36456359
I am lonely and have depression because of it

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>>36456359

I'm surprisingly emotional for the first time about a patient of mine who died. She was only 20. I'm not sure if she was managed correctly; she had a fairly unusual and complication (with high morbidity) of an autoimmune disease with features that made her prognosis even worse. The weird part was how normal she seemed the first two days I saw her. She went downhill quick after that.

She was very nice and before she went downhill weeks ago we talked only a few times, once for about 20 minutes to do a cognitive evaluation. She asked me if her score was okay. It was actually really bad. Probably because of what was going on with her medically. I told her it was fine. I don't regret that, at least.

RIP in peace.

i feel like a pussy since i realised i dont know how to drive stick shift

>>36459848
Take brainforce. Don't listen to the shills. It's a natural product to help you think much better.

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>>36456359
>mum didn't get me the Day of Defeat: Source cake i wanted

I'm an introvert. I like normie things like parties or going out with friends but I'm only comfortable with a few people and if there's too many people I'm not comfy with I just shut off and go into 3rd wheel mode. A lot of social outings end with me at home beating myself up because I got all quiet again.
probably related but commitment absolutely horrifies me as well. i can think a girl is nice or pretty or whatever but as soon as there's any hint of romantic interest from her or me I backtrack immediately. I really wish I was gay but I'm not, I like women I just can't see or let myself get into a relationship or anything vaguely like that.

i just came home from a party and I'm going through that whole post social event stress phase where I analyze everything and feel like I'm defective.

>>36460181
I don't even know what this board is anymore.

>>36460181
le I'm a 16 year old with self diagnosed anxiety meme

>>36460248
anon cyborgs have troubles too, imagine being just normal enough to have normie friends who wanna do normie things with them and seeing everything you miss out on in person, right in front of you but being just off enough that none of it makes sense.

It fucking blows man, it's like having all your friends rub your flaws in your face just by existing and doing all their normie bullshit

I have no motivation to do anything.
Please release me from this nightmare

>>36456359
May or may not be put on academic probation.
I just don't get it guys, nothing I do in school brings me happiness. How do I push myself to find what I really want to do without living in fear that i'll never be good at it?

>>36457742
> Co-workers are all 18-22 year olds that make fun of me being my back for not having a license
sounds like your imagination

>>36460154
>brainforce
i want to take this but i cannot take pills. is there anything similar in pill or power form? and does it help for major depression?

my dick

actually it's a pretty SMALL problem if you catch my drift

>>36456359
cocaine addiction

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>tfw homeless for 2+ months

I find it hard to participate in conversations, that keeps me from socialising

>>36456703
ditto senpai. I don't have the volition to quit anymore. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight, so I'll drink and smoke my life away.

>>36456858
>has gf

fuck off normie

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>get a gf
>know it doesn't last for long
>fear tomorrow I'll be crying

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>>36458739
I feel you anon

>21 in uni feeling old as shit
>No discipline
>No Motivation
>Procrastinating on every homework
>Sleep all day and feeling tired all the time
>No gf
>Sit in the computer doing nothing, I don't even play vidya just watch YouTube
>I feel like all my friends are not my friends anymore
>I just wanna move from my house away from my family but I got no cash

I just wanna kill myself

I failed my first two semesters of college and don't think I can not kill myself if I don't get a degree

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>>36461361
It feels like the world has moved on. Like, I'm at the end of the reel. Nobody makes movies anymore, nobody makes games. Imageboard posts go from fiction to copypasta to wew and kek, just noise and entropy. Obviously, there's something happening somewhere, but it's not here. I'm out of time. I've been playing shit from '03. There's fucking nothing ahead of me.

My dissertation which is due in a week and i haven't written even half of

>>36461269
i've been feeling the pain of a lost gf for 2 years my friend. doesn't seem like it'll be going away anytime soon either

brace for impact anon it's gonna be fucking brutal, assuming girls are rare in your life.

>>36461361
try running, do sports, and get work done

worked for me

Financial aid for uni will be cut if I dont pass everything this quarter, which would mean I would have to drop out of a top uni I was lucky enough to get into.

I have no idea what to do when it comes to job/career. I have bachelor in physics (too bad its from 2nd world country) and im attending programming courses. Too bad im finding it very difficult to grasp and because of that im starting to giving. Also i dont know if i want to be programmer because its very tedious and throughout job. I've never been good with anything nor i've had any passion to anything.

>>36461412
I feel sometimes the same
But no so back in time to me the world got stuck in 2013 I see everything moving so fast movies, games
you have to see this, you have to play that, oh you don't wanna? Fuck you then
That new app, that new phone
It's fucking nuts

>>36461451
Can you help me by being more descriptive?
I don't sport because I am a skelly

I want to tell her how much I love her, yet she doesn't even know me

>>36461531
You bachelor'd in physics but you find programming hard? Wtf?

>>36456359
my gf tbgh famalamadingdong
>inb4 normie
i just wanna be a qt fembot(male)
why do i had to be born 6' with broad shoulders

>>36461605
I didnt had any programming in course.

>>36461642
My point is, advanced physics requires more problem solving than programming. Far more. You should easily be able to pick programming up

Being isolated from the rest of the world because of where I live.

anxiety disorder

>>36461659
Eh, maybe. Point is that i find everything boring and i have to find decent job quick.

>>36456932
Care to elaborate ?
Originaly

>>36461687
Do a short IT course and get a job as a sysadmin.

I'm doing a masters degree part time and it's killing me. I hate this program. It's the last thread connecting me to a part of my life that I'm trying to move on from.

I've got a job in sillicon valley already. I don't really need this degree, but I also do. It's ruining every weekend.

And now I'm borderline failing a course. And if i do, that's an extra semester. Just let me graduate fuck this

>>36461700
Im already doing python course but it wont probably be enough 'cause of lack of experience.

>>36456359
no gf

oregeno

>>36456932
>>36457377
Innawoods community time?
>>36461710
At least you can get your master's.

Its fukn 534 in the am i got drunk but havent fallen asleep yet and i gotta mow a lawn at 630...also ive been known...to...u know:D hehehehe

Everything i touch turns to shit
Everything I do even if right always seems to be fucked up in some way or another
Can't write lyrics for shit so all my instrumentals go into the trash

That im 24 year old guy with absolutely no intimate/sexual experience. I never tried to do anything with girls even if there was a situation. Maybe it was due to low testosterone levels or some trauma i cant remember. I dont mind being virgin that much but sheer thought that i've lost opportunity in school and uni makes me extremelly sad. 13-14 year olds have more experience that me. Hell, i even start feeling anxious from the possible scenario of ever holding girls hand in intimate situation. Im a joke and parody of a man. Its like everyone around me know something that i dont know and keep that in secret.

>>36461799
Then just keep them as instrumentals, silly. Music doesn't need singing.

>>36456378
Boohoo :___( sux senpai

>>36461816
Surprise! You're only a true robot if you're a virgin. Welcome to the club.

>>36461830
>being robot
Its the same as being sick if leprocy - you're unique but isolated.

>>36456508
Dad...?
Ojizianal

No career path, which is a death sentence because it means that I'll be so poor that I can't afford to move out or really spend money without worry.

>>36461817
But i feel like voice is a beautiful instrument, when i mumble random shit it just makes things more tight and interesting depending on the style of singing. It annoys me to be completely useless at writing something decent

>>36461907
Maybe you don't need to write something profund or transcendental
Have you heard a EDM song?
Maybe you should use only your instruments to make music maybe some math rock or metal or whatever shoe gaze kids listen this days

Falling all my classes because i lost a girl and got really fucking depressed because of it.

Also just in general stuck in life. I want a gf but college girls are all vindictive and arrogant children that have the power to ruin my life due to how the system is made.

I don't want to play with fire and burn to death.

>>36461945
Yeah i've thought about it
Most lofi shit has so many effects going on that the voice is just a distorted mumble and nobody will ever make out wtf you are saying

I would like to write something that remotely sounds like Radiohead's Kid A era or something like that but i feel way too young and inexperienced for it, everything feels forced

>>36457347
this.

I also can't find a job, probably because of said brown skins.

>>36456359
My mother. She will die of cancer shortly.

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I fell down through the rocks yesterday and now I just realized the my right elbow shifted out of it's place. It's hurting badly and I can go to the hospital at Monday earliest.

>>36459948
How'd you get it, and whats the book about?

>>36461993
Shit man, that's harsh

I know this is probably obvious shit but please make your ammends with her and tell her you love her if you really do

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>Join online community
>One guy begins to hate me
>Chat is open, anybody can kick anybody
>He keeps kicking
>tfw forced to leave group
>I have no more online friends

>>36457806
800 dollars a week as a bagger? what grocery store do you work at?

I'm fairly certain it's every other week. and even 800 is pushing it.

>>36462010
>pls tell me I'm not alone

Dunno dude...I don't know anyone over 18 who's whipped by their parents

>>36462052
I don't want to kms but it's want to be dead
It's all just goddamn crazy

>>36462010
You're an adult. Be aware that you're no longer legally a dependent and you can file false imprisonment charges.

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Breaking up with my fiancee of three years.
It's been two weeks and I'm still pretty damn heartbroken.

I'm also living with my parents again for the time being.

On the positive side, if I put in the time, I can actually finish law school now. And get /fit/ as fuck.

I'll go out for an apartment in the summer, I think.

...if I manage to get myself going, that is. Heartbreak is crippling af

>>36462087
Got that money saved up for rent and living expenses?

>>36462102
I'm broke as fuck now, so nothing yet.

>>36457212
are you nurturing and providing? do you make enough for her to be able to stay home with the kids? is she just too young? the spark of wanting to reproduce comes when she finds a proper mate

>>36461977
Radiohead have this surreal premises for every song so maybe reading more would help you focus and maybe be a kleptomaniac of words

Not being able to forgive myself and thus not being able to learn from my past mistakes. How do normies do it?

>>36456359
waiting for my parents to go out so i can have a wank

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>>36462044
>join server
>say hello
>everyone starts bullying me
>laugh with them

>>36462154
Why wait?
Just do it in the shower

>>36462177
i don't have a shower, probaly just bust one out in the garden

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>>36456359
I had a very traumatic experience when I was 12. Ever since that day I have been a shell of my former self. I also have night terrors every night. I can't remember the last time I got a full 8 hours. Even with sleep meds, it doesn't help much. PTSD is such a ball and chain. It controls everything. And I'm losing the fight. One day it's going to overtake me.

I just wish I could get over it. But I can't. Not matter how hard I try to move on, no matter how hard I struggle, it never works. It's just burned inside my skull. I just stay in my room these days. I'm afraid to go outside for anything. If something reminds me of the event I go into a panic attack.

>>36456359
long term:
i'm already 26 and i still cant look girls in the eyes.
i will probably be alone my entire life untill the day i die.

short term:
i have noone here in the city to go out and get drunk with tonight

>>36462183
What you don't have a shower?
How do you bath?

>>36462204
i've got a bath, but not a shower unit

can't be arsed to run the tap just for a wank

>>36462198
what happened when you were 12?

my husbands childhood was in a warzone in afghanistan so he is 360 degrees of fucked, what you say reminds me of some things he says

>>36456359
i don't think i'll ever be able to do something with my life

>>36462201
Don't do this motherfucker
Girls are the same as guys just look them in the eyes, I tip I use I look them right in the left eye and it feels a more powerful look, take care of your self and lurk /fa/

>>36462257
girls are angels, i cant just look them in the eyes

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>using baby oil for lube because college students are poor af desu desu

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>>36462227
My best friend at the time committed suicide. I was the lucky first person to find her. It has left a scar so deep I just don't see it ever healing. I've been to therapy for YEARS because of that and it still has barely helped. It's made me more calmer over all but it still haunts me and I'm 21 years old. I just can't get over it.

It's made me so empty, so afraid. It's hard to express emotion. And I still blame myself. If I had only just seen the signs... I wish it had been me instead of her, she had way more to offer to this life than I ever will produce.

>>36462312
She'd feel the exact same way if your roles were reversed.

>>36462262
Let's do this backwards
Imagine a girl like you and you wanna talk to her
Imagine that every time you talk to her she turns her head and don't look at you, you wanna ask her about something and she and look down and says something but you don't hear because seems she is taking to the floor.

That's you my robot friend

>>36462312
Fuck that though can you share how it happened?

hmmmmm

i have to finish a one page paper but cannot do so


hmmm

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>>36462350
It's a long story. But to simplify things I was bullied a lot in school. She was my only friend. She was extremely eccentric, hence she was bullied as well. We met in middle school and had a pretty good time of it. But during the close of 7th grade she started growing distant. Then she texted me to come to her house and... that's when I found her... The reason she wanted me to come is because she was worried her father, who was abusing her, would try to destroy the suicide note she left detailing the abuse...

It makes tears well up in my eyes just remembering that, even after all this time. She was the one light I had when the world seemed bent against me and the bullying certainly didn't stop after her death. It really damaged my relationship with people. I pretty much trust no one. It's why I love image boards so much. I can just vent this shit without anyone seeing me or knowing who I am.

>>36459716
lmao dude... sit down and read a chapter from start to finish that's 2 hrs

then go back through it and make the appropriate notes on equations and general form of problems, if you're super thorough that's 2 hrs but should only be 40 mins if you actually read it all

then fucking rush through some problems start easy and work up harder until you feel comfortable to only do the most difficult questions. keep the solutions right by your side so you don't waste time

do that for 1-3 hrs and you will have 1 chapter down, depending on how well you want to learn

when done take a break and do the same for the next chapter

i would literally do the whole 2 chapters in 4hrs max myself but w/e. the biggest problem with brainlets in stem is they think they don't have to read the text portion of their maths textbook, jumping straight to the equations

>>36456359
Im bored AF

>>36461710
>job in sillicon valley
>masters

lad, keep going but just know there is no point getting stressed over this

Palinopsia, vision getting gradually worse every day for two years with no improvement cause I took some shitty LSD, had so many friends and a bright future now I'm snappy and cruel to friends and my ex because of the bitterness and negativity this shit has brewed inside of me

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>>36462507
Thank you so much man, Im gonna take this advice, and study for about the whole week. If i dont get atleast a b on my final im fucked

I will probably die a virgin and can't do shit about it despite my best efforts

>>36461157
fuck man, how are you surviving?

>>36462731
>my ex
get out normo.

>>36459280
>v& bc I mentioned scheduled substances on a non-Tor clearnet forum
BRB, gonna smoke pot and thank God for free states.

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> randomly met 16 year old gay guy online
>he's funny, has a very spontaneous personality
> Only happiness I have in my life Is when I get to talk to him
>keeps sending me snapchats of him having fun with friends in highschool.
>makes me depressed as fuck remembering my shitty highschool days.

>>36456359
>What's your current biggest problem.
life

>>36458435

depends if you're floor or stock staff. if you're floor your manager wants you to shill opening a credit card to every customer and their dead grandma, and bitch to you about selling more product than last month. if you're stock then you get to process every box of product that comes in and get shit on when your store is the only branch that didn't get x product because another branch double ordered from the warehouse and got yours. if you're a manager all your employees hate you because while you're hiding in the breakroom watching cartoons all the lunches are overlapped and there's no one watching the floor midshift

i hate retail

I can't bring myself to do my work. I just can't fucking sit down and study.

>>36456359

>Do an internship in Ireland
>teacher tells you not to worry about the accomodation
>tells you 2days before departure thay you have nowhere to sleep cuz fully-booked
>be homeless for 2 days
>live jumping from hostel to hostel cuz no house to share/flat atm
>Empty bank account

I have been studying this major for 2 years and I've decided to switch, starting over from scratch.
Could be worse I guess, fuck chemical engineering.

>>36459225
go ti fit, it's easy you can do it anon i believe in you

>>36456359
I have no money to pay for university.

>>36462761
the first few week were the hardest.
I have a job and a car thankfully, so I sleep in my car. I have a gym membership too. Boredom is the main problem as is trying to keep my marbles. Feel like I'm drifting further onto the fringe of society even though nobody around me knows( I hope at least).

lets see
0 friends
not studying/shit education
no job, borderline shut in/autist
the only recent problem that got away is that i lost weight and im no longer fat but so fucking what
i dont really have huge expectations for my life and i dont have any dreams/ambitions either but it would be nice if i could at least not worry about money

1.) I don't feel anything.
2.) I am lost in life.
3.) I am nostalgic for the past, and the past was shit for me but at least I was always overwhelmed with emotion. At least I felt something.

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I have ADHD
This is really terrible. I don't have proper sleep pattern and fucks up everything i do,really makes me autistic as fuck.

Can you imagine music that i heared resounding in my brain all the time?
i hate it why should i have this shit?
This shit fucks up whole my life. I don't even get this is my fault. Srsly what the fuck?

I don't even want make a lot of money or be a chad, just want function as other people

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I can't for the love of god learn how to drive a manual car. Its so fucking unintuitive its actually amazing they could accomplish something so annoying with the design. Like i don't get how can people prefer manual over automatic. Not only i feel like my left leg is fucking dying when i am into a huge traffic jam on that fucking shitty ass clutch. But also trying to drive with low speed its a fucking pain in the ass because you have to control 2 pedals at the same. Someone please explain to me how is manual better than automatic. Like how the fuck is something being easier a bad thing. Its like saying walking on one leg is better because it requires more concentration and effort.

Fucking stupid Eurotards i swear to God.

>>36456359
My gf doesn't believe in sex before marriage. She's a super sweet girl, slightly autistic in a good way and its nice to know I'm her first kiss ... but thats a pretty big spanner in the works.

>>36463723
marry her you fag
origami

>>36463809
Sounds like a horrible relationship which makes the rest of your life worse to me

>>36463723
Why are you fucking complaining? You have a gf and I would be happy in your place.

>>36457731
Khan Academy, nigger

I have a UNI entrence exam in 2 months and I still struggle with Arithmetic.

>>36463922
>have anxiety since I was a kid, gets pretty bad when socializing due to me just being a weird person
>be a neet for years and up to my early twenties
>sick of being a leech and a disgrace on my mother
>decide Im gonna get my life back on track
>get an overseas robot gf from r9k
>get a job
>think things are looking up
>fast forward
>visit gf and her family
>they invite me to stay, an offer that I accept to push change further
>get first job I find to get a foothold, working in a factory
>12 hours a day monday to friday
>coworkers and supervisor cant speak proper english and we are understaffed
>Instead of taking turns around the line Im singled out with the job that requires me to work for two people
>supervisor often neglects his work so I have to run around sorting stuff out so I can do my own work
>if anything goes wrong it's my fault
>if I lag behind because Im trying to juggle the extra work Im called slow by my coworkers who commonly mock or insult me
>if I tell the supervisor he outright ignores me
>HR avoids me, and are friends with supervisor
>cant look for other jobs because schedule prevents me from making it to interviews
>cant quit because then I would have no job in a foreign country
>when I come home my girlfriend acts like a 12yo whenever she skips her meds
>she cant bring herself up to call other people by their names so she calls me names instead
>whenever I use the laptop she's watching what Im doing
>rather than suggest doing activities together she gets angry at me for not suggesting myself, but when I ask what she wants to do she says "I dont know" and when I suggest stuff she says "not that"
>whenever I try to bring up something about the relationship she goes into a fit and threatens me with sleeping on the floor or being kicked out
>cant leave house yet because of restrictions for renting since I havent been in the country for long enough

But hey, at least Im no longer a khv neet, right?

>Reposting deleted comment

>>36463809
Sounds like suffering friendo, why did you delete your post?

>>36458676
>Wiener is messed up
How so?

21
I've never had a job.
No "college" degree.
Barely have "high school" degree.
Neet.
Anti social.
Hate changing locale/activity.
Not a virgin so I can confirm that it doesn't mean shit.

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>>36463648
You get a much better feel of the car.
I also don't see how clutching is putting a strain on you.
If you are stuck in traffic, just put it in 1st and play with the clutch. You don't even have to press on the gas pedal. If the traffic speeds up a tiny bit faster than your 1st, just move it up to 2nd.
I personally prefer standard because it's so much more entertaining to drive. It's like a mini-game when I'm stuck in traffic.

Also, the design isn't annoying. Just get used to it and it'll be second nature.

i don't have a social life

>>36463809
>But hey, at least Im no longer a khv neet, right?
Exactly, now fuck off, normo.

>>36464026
You have to pick one

>>3645635
short ugly lonely small dick neet low iq poor

>>36463754
I'm not going to marry someone I've known for a couple of weeks.
Objectively she's good wife material; loves kids and good at looking after them, kind, caring and thoughtful, low self-esteem, above average looks and gives good massages. But I'm worried the relationship won't last - conversations are an uphill struggle given out mutual autisms, we only have s few interests in common and the physical side of s relationship scares her.
And isn't it cruel to put a double load of mental illness into one child

>>36463402
was it too hard?

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>>36456359
my gf gets realy upset with me if i beat her in games and if i let her win even more so.

also she doesn't like Wild Wild West by Will Smith

>>36464280
autismal behavior is generally a result of fuck ups during upbringing
if you love each other, stay together and care about your children not to spoil them too much you can grand them a good future

>>36464288
No, I want to do physics instead. I hate labbing for 6 hours straight.

>>36464345
That's a nice thing to say. And it sounds like both our childhoods were messed up.
I'll text her now and see if she's free tomorrow. For once I'll be z part of the giggling couples sharing brunch at all the trendy cafes in my street.

She blocked me and our mutual friends

I was not even trying to be her boyfriend thought I was making a second real friend in life

Just got over big physical pain and a not-eating problem

Wish I knew what god was thinking

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>>36464532
>God
Isn't real

And you are an insecure faggot. Please stop worrying about what other people think and work on yourself.

>>36464083
>Literally ""it just feels right""

Fuck off

My Borderline/Paranoid Mother.

>>36464573
Im not worried about what anyone thinks and working on myself

Lost my virginity like a month ago, now the girl is getting too attached and I want to go back to being a robot but she's emotionally vulnerable so I don't know what to do.

>>36464695
any specific reason why you dont want to keep that relationship with her?

>>36464573
Wew lad you could cut diamonds with that edge

>>36456359
Zero friends, overweight, I smoke, I can't remember the last time I felt a genuine human emotion, I have no degree, no job, and no marketable skills, and I'm so depressed that I don't even feel like killing myself anymore.

>>36464719
>calling someone edgy for having different beliefs
What makes you so nervous?

failing all my exams, gonna have to drop out of high school, come from high achieving family and none of them will understand because I'm not a hard worker of smart enough to finish. Cut my wrists open two days ago as a cry for help, didn't help now theres still no way forward and i have scars that will stay for the rest of my life, need help

>>36464649
That's not what I said. I'm saying it's more entertaining because you have more things to do while driving. I'm also saying it's more enjoyable to feel the car as your drive.

Fuck off.

>>36463648
Holy fuck how much of a fucking obese, immobile blob of a human do you need to be, that using a manual transmission is this much of a hassle?
Just fucking stay at home, get your groceries delivered and caption videos for money. Or would your fingers get tired?

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>>36456359
becoming stuck in this uncomfortable reverberating limbo of climatically finding the motivation to complete tasks and having my motivation negated after performing exhaustive cost-benefit analyses of how my actions will effect myself and others. trying to stabilize my escalating obsessions over girls who don't have any reason to interact with me.

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i think the following in order of severity
>crack/pcp/opiate/alcohol/benzo addiction
>shitload of coursework and grading that needs to be done in like 2 weeks
>qualifying exams to keep phd candidacy
>i really wanna play this video game more you can only play on weekends but i am busy almost every weekend

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I lost my identity. The things I used to care about dried up, and nothing came to replace it. I spend all my time idling on 4chan for things I'm not interested in just to pass the time. I know I'll my waste my life if I keep doing this, but when I switch things up and make music, start a conversation or read a book, I still feel empty. It's gotten to a point where apathy seems like the only reasonable conclusion. I don't care about other people. Laughter doesn't feel good. I meditate and have a healthy diet, but that won't fill the void in my mind.

My life is going well career-wise, but I feel dead inside. I come here whenever I have free time just to vent.

>>36465371
I have to say that was quite the accurate reflection of myself. Quite sad

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The negev is $2000 on CS:GO

I'm stuck in silver and when I take the game seriously to get out of silver people say "it's silver, stop trying so hard"

Not knowing what to become after I'm done studying and getting an EE degree, don't get me wrong I love the stuff I do in lectures and labs but don't know what to do in a year or so.

a dick in my ass

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>>36465410
It describes a lot of us, I bet. I can't even browse boards for things I used to like, it's too upsetting and I hate the people there. /r9k/ is shitty, but the feels threads are better for things like this than any other place on the internet.

>>36457025
just order pants online dude? whats the deal?

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>>36463648
Fucking kek, why can't americans drive real cars? Try anchoring your clutch foot on your heel next time.

>>36456359
which school do i turn up on next

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>>36456359
>tfw oneitis has a bf

>we were gonna go on a date a while back, she kept delaying it
>kinda forgot about it
>came across her a while back
>had a little talk, second thing she says is: "Still wanna go out for dinner sometime?"
>hopes restored
>"yeah sure, just let me know when"
>"i will."
>month later she still hasn't texted me about it
>came across her with a guy
>he walks away for a sec
>guy i walked with (he also knows her) asks: "is that your bf?"
>yeah
>sad.jpg
>text her later asking why she didn't tell me she had a bf
>"idk, i just never really had a good moment where i thought okay now im gonna tell you"

should i just give up all hope?

>>36465949
>should i just give up all hope?

I'm afraid so anon. Do you get the feeling she was leading you on or just genuinely inattentive? Some people are like that. I only ask because if so, she might have friends she could introduce you to; sure you might not meet the love of your life that way, but the experience can be beneficial.

>>36459907
I see that shit almost every day, i dont think its an hallucination. im no schizo tho, how severe is that for you? I just see a black figure peeking out the door every time I dont close it so i got it closed all the time, it also happens at random times when im in public, something peeking around a corner. its weird but nothing im worried about.

>>36466021
you're possessed

>>36466014
>Do you get the feeling she was leading you on or just genuinely inattentive?

the strange part is that she seemed totally interested and we texted alot. it started to slow down and the texts went from all day to daily to talking to her once a week. think i know why now.

>>36456359
I am unhappy.

Everything is right with my life, I'm doing a residency in orthopedic surgery, have a loving girlfriend, loving family, nice departament, etc.
But I am not happy.

>>36456359
I realized some time ago that I am my biggest problem. The way I handle and react to things will guarantee I will keep fucking up. That being said I have an opportunity to put my life back on track soon, though I have been ignoring it for some time now and am almost guaranteed to fuck it up, that might do me in desu.

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my code won't fucking work

>>36466201
I guess it comes down to whether you feel she's legit about being a friend or whether she wanted you for ego purposes.

If the former, than like I said often girls have friends they'd be willing to introduce you too. If the latter, its normally best to politely disengage, you stroking someone elses ego won't do you any favours.

From what you've said her she was probably at least a bit interested, either the other guy moved first or was just more appealing to her.

>tfw have a qt robot gf
>tfw she said she has bipolar disorder
>we used to chill everyday
>best times of my life
>one day she changed
>nowdays she spends most of her time sleeping all day at her house
>last seen her more than a week ago
>we didn't properly hang out for more than a month
>she clearly doesn't feel like visiting me
I miss her so much /r9k/. It hurts.

>>36456359
knee pain

>>36464711
Just used to the robot life and she's completely the opposite. She's like a real adult. She's pretty great but she's very insecure and lonely and from what she tells me, her past relationships have been pretty bad. Just all feels a bit too real for me, maybe.

>>36456359
my weener is 4''8 inches

>>36456359
I need to earn money but money doesn't motivate me and I keep procrastinating.

>>36466436
sounds like bullshit
im robot too but i wouldn't miss chance to have some insecure qt because im insecure myself too
the problem is 99% of females i know are smug sluts that shittalk you behind your back

>>36466117
no i just think its paranoia

>>36456359
I'm poor as fuck and don't know what to do. Can't get a job for now.

>>36466850
Well yeah, that's why it's been great, because I've just been able to relax as we've gotten to know each other. But she's got responsibilities and a huge family. I'm a middle aged guy on /r9k/ who just lost his virginity and I don't know if I'm ready for that shit. And because she's getting attached I'm afraid if I go any further I won't be able to back out later on without some serious pain.

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>>36456359
My girlfriend wants too much sex ...

Not a joke.... its Horrible Im asexual

My surface book STILL hasn't arrived
....

>>36467027
Real talk here, I kind of get you, my gf definitely wants sex more than me.

Try to find a way to make it exciting for you; I wrestle/pin/tease mine a lot, it works for her and it gets me in the mood more than regular sex.

I'm pretty good looking, tall, funny and smart. But I'm painfully shy and can't talk to people who I don't already have a relationship with.

So I'm a KHHV at 26. The thought of having sex scares me. I'm so intimidated by any woman, let alone an attractive one, that I just know that I'm going to die alone. Also I can only get off sexually if disposable diapers are somehow involved, that's been a lifelong fetish of mine

also I'm lazy and I refuse to change.

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I've worked myself into a frenzy of sexual desire again.

>small town, manly cock is lacking
>roomate awake, Can't find a stranger to skype with
>grinder/manhunt/3rd site and CL come up short

I'm tempted to knock on truck doors on my way down for dinner.

>t. femanon (male)

>>36456858
>partner doesnt want kids

Probably because you are unemployed, dipshit. Your partner will change thier mind when they see that you actually work hard and take care of business.

I have found 4 kittens abandoned by their mother , beneath my block in a abandoned garden. 3 of them were females ,quite thin and in bad shape and a male. since then i feed them with formula and a bottle i bought for that purpose. however two of the females died and the third was in a bad shape today even tough she seemed far stronger than her sisters. i fear she might die as well. this kills me.

the male is allright, thrice as large eating like a tank.

>Unemployed
>Grew up poor, ghetto, and uneducated
>Last grade completed was the 8th grade over two decades ago
>overweight by 30+ pounds
>lymphnoids attacking my immune causing rash near my dick, girls think I have aids.
>Probably have cancer, but American who can't afford doctor
>Epileptic, who hasn't had a driver's license in 5 years

But guess what Robots I don't suffer from "woe is me, fuck the world" Which means

>I'm part owner of real estate in California because I start banging a hot tall skinny blonde California girl and we bought a house when the market crashed for pennies on the dollar

>I have enough credits to get an Associates degree and am only 1 year from Bachelors. Even though the last grade I completed was the 8th grade, I took the High School Equivalency test and was able to skip High School.

>I'm unemployed because I quit a job with an abusive boss. But it gave me 4 years on construction experience and I just applied for a General Contractor's license. Also, I took California's required real estate classes and applied for CA Real Estate dealer license. Yeah, I've been six figure salaries but decided to work for myself in the mean time. I leveraged my street smarts into a career by taking advantages of a shit job in construction at a shit company to sliding my way to the top.
>Since I'm unemployed, California provides me full medical coverage
>Just got a drivers license and hustled my into owning a cadillac escalade.
>I'm a lazy fuck and being overweight is only temporary.

Robots, most of us were born in the greatest country in the world. USA! This is the land of second chances. My old boss was a heroin junkie with no money until the age of 45. He now owns a company, a house in SF, a fleet of trucks, and is worth over 2 million. Life is what you make it

>>36466993
how did you find her in first place
i want insecure qt for myself too