Update on the following story for those that were keeping up with it:
>spend entire childhood wanting to play in a band
>3 childhood friends who sometimes play music with me - drummer, bassist, second guitarist
>spend all of middle school, high school, and first 2 years of college going through unmotivated singers who never want to practice
>3 friends don't really care that much either
>finally meet 10/10 qt singer at college with 10/10 voice
>new oneitis
>she's super into the band, 3 friends get back into it more too after hearing how good she is
>her and I are always practicing and writing songs together
>this goes on for a few weeks, we play our first show
>tfw her and I are playing a song we wrote together in front of 150 people
>looks me in the eyes as she's singing
>that smile
>im in love
>taking her back home after the show
>about to tell her how I feel
>"aw man anon, I wish my boyfriend could have been there tonight!"
>no
>look up her boyfriend later
>literally just a taller, cuter version of me
>they've been dating since high school
>absolutely 100% in love with her
>can never EVER tell her how I feel at the risk of causing trouble for the band
>start writing songs about it
>"wow anon, your songs have been getting a lot sadder recently, but I like them, they're powerful!"
>she's singing songs about herself
>she will never know
>we still hang out have private 1 on 1 rehearsals all the time
>she always gives me that same gorgeous smile while she's singing
CHAPTER 2
>she texts me first thing in the morning most everyday but doesn't usually respond
>still feels good
>this morning she sent me a silly joke and asked me about hanging out this weekend
>tonight
>driving through town to get my mind off the fact that she's going to her sorority's formal with her boyfriend tonight
>red light in the middle of town
>look out window
>see her posing for a picture with her boyfriend
>she's all dressed up and beautiful
>his arm is around her
>consider crashing vehicle
>>36454483
First off, you play in a band. You are a turbo normie if not a Chad. Secondly, you have a dream that you're persuing and are extremely close to fullfilling it, and you're going to let your dick lead you into ruining it.
>>36454483
>can drive
>is in a band
>has friends
>has a FEMALE friend
get out
>>36454582
>playing in a band makes you a normie
kek
>>36454483
Musicfag here, you're a normie but having a onetits is lame as fuck. Especially if you're a guitarfag.
Let her fuck and suck her boyfriend in peace. Go interact with other girls and you'll quickly stop caring what she does on her personal time 24/7. You need to stop caring already and keep your time with her strictly friendship and business.
>b-but my feelings
It's just infatuation because you've never interacted this much with a female before.
>>36454928
>musicfag here