where did it all go wrong?

My beginner stat rolls at character select.

>>36438490
This, I rolled all 3s

Childhood
with stupid parents that only threw money instead of helping me
Money is no good when you are in no good shape to enjoy it.

When I got to middle school and saw I still didn't have friends or any self-esteem.

my whole life has been littered with incidents, while seemingly nothing that bad at the time, would prove to me later on, that I was in fact broken

File: 1447822594858.png (377KB, 498x497px) Image search: [Google]

377KB, 498x497px

When I was about 13 and got my first gaming console. After that, I started staying in more and the isolation stopped me from developing social skills. Because of that, I got bullied a bit in high school which further contributed to the destruction of what little self-esteem still remained. In my last year of high school I was a bit more outgoing and even went to a few parties and drank, but was still a tfw no gf sadboi. My near-normie experience towards the end of high-school introduced alcohol into my life but the social skills never came.
Now I'm in my second year of college and the few friends I had have all drifted away. I'm an alcoholic now and smoke a pack of cigarettes a day unironically hoping I will get lung cancer and die because I'm too much of a coward for conventional methods of suicide.

I just want to be wanted.

around middle school when i realized how intelligent i actually am then it was never supported.

i needed to be put into a private school where i could be around kids who were like me, instead of being around kids who were jealous of me, made comments everytime i answered a question, raised my hand, read out loud, turned in my test, asked me to help them on their work. it was like i was better friends with the teachers than i was with the students.

ever since then, the quality of my peers just went down and down until i was mixed up with literal junkies, addicts and felons.

all the bad shit and failures all coalesced and made me what i am today. a really smart loner with no ambition at all who smokes weed.

i have cycles of fucking things up and fixing them. i never totally fuck my lofe up though. i managed to quit h for a while then got a gf then decided crack would be cool. im also addicted as fuck to dota atm so the build thing made me giggle. i had a similar moment where i regretted my dark seer build because i could have won us the game or kept us in longer with a leas retarded build.

>>36438477
when i finished high school at 18,still at rock bottom at 25 ayy lmaoo

May 14 2015

Nothing really fell apart.
It just stagnated.

If it fell apart, at least I'd know I could improve my situation and I'd feel better at the end of it.

Now I just feel like I'm going to relive the same day over and over again until I die.

>>36440298
what happened m8?

>reee fuck 4chan i don't give a fuck my comment is not original

>>36438477
When the gods abandoned reason for madness.

File: 1485624883432.png (30KB, 633x758px) Image search: [Google]

30KB, 633x758px

Things were bad in middle school, but in my sophomore year I realized that I had no chance at a comfortable future anymore.