I think I just had a fucking panic attack. Supposed to start

>>36434056
I'm having anxiety for different reasons anon I'll talk to you

It's all gonna be okay, why are you scared? All anxiety has a specific root in my experience

Your dad's heart is in the right place. Everyone needs to learn how to work at some point OP. If I may ask, how old are you?

>>36434056
How did you end up on the front lawn?

>>36434091
20. I've worked quite a few jobs before, but since my last one drove me into a panic with the terrible environment and stressful hours I just start panicking when i think of working again.

>>36434096
Whenever I get all panicked i go outside and walk to try and calm down, and kinda just lost it in the lawn.

>>36434076
Thanks man. I think it's just sort of like a trauma from my last job but i don't know.

>>36434056
dude... i had my first ever panic attack 3 weeks ago. i was sitting in my international relations class just taking notes during lecture and i had trouble concentrating as my writing got harder to focus on. i felt a welling of nervous energy in my chest and kept having the thought im going to shout out and look like an idiot, i was terrifying eventually i couldn't even write and it took all i had to get up and walk out to the bathroom. the walk through the hall was in a total daze, hard to walk straight, to focus. i got into a stall and my hands were shaking and i felt crazy. about 10 minutes in i felt more normal but as soon as i headed torward class i felt it all happening again. took all that i had left to walk in, grab my stuff and leave early.

every time i tried to return to to class i felt it all over again, but just that class, not others. eventually went to the doctor, in fucking tears while finally telling someone what happened.

now im on an escitalopram and hydroxyzine. took 150mg of hydro to get in the door and sit down, in 30 mins i had to go walk around as i felt the anxiety bubbling to the surface. i was able to come back and bear it for the last 15. today i needed 200mg and by the 30 min mark i was worried.

ive tried the tricks too the breathing, the focusing on shit the acceptance. its fucking crazy i never had anything like this but now i feel like pandora's box has been opened and fuck... fuck panic attacks are fucking no shit

>>36434132
Don't worry anon, it'll all be okay, deep breaths and let it pass. Listen to something soft and comfy and loving, I'll send you a link that helps me

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5WvWkUhszeE

>>36434056
Wow OP, your being a total faggot, no offense

>>36434152
I feel you man. I've had a lot of problems with arrhythmia in the past where I'll just wake up from sleeping with my heart beating a mile a minute. Or just be sitting there and suddenly some thought pops in and i'm just speeding throughout my body. Didn't even realise it was a panic attack I thought it was just the same shit again and then i couldn't think and just fell down.

Might have to talk to a doctor about pills. I don't like the idea but it's gotta be better than this.

>>36434152

Sorry to hear that bro but it's probably because IR is such a dogshit subfield

Even comparative politics would be more useful

t. fellow pol sci

>>36434056
>dont have anyone to talk to

just stop and save yourself from that path

>>36434210
i spent 2 weeks telling myself it was the caffeine tabs and ginseng supplements... but i mean i stopped taking those after that happened. maybe they helped spur it, i dunno. i will say talk to a doctor, just talking to someone is pretty nice and they will usually ask you if medication is something you want to try or not. i go in an a week to talk with someone that just manages care between various doctors per patient and from her i could access whatever, medicine or mental health. im not sure what ill do but its nice to have someone to talk to, someone who will listen and can try to help

>>36434212
just after a polsci minor lol, personal passion i guess, love turtle bro samuel p huntington and i feel these ideologies might offer insight into conflict among groups, aside from just civs and nations. could be handy in life and work

>>36434177
That was actually pretty peaceful. Thanks anon.

Gonna try to just get some sleep and deal with it in the morning I guess. Thanks.

Just? i Thought it was a requirement to post here

My anxiety pretty much just makes me puke or shit myself, every time before anything stressful or some sort of social event I just hurl or have horrible diarrhea, I'm not sure but I feel like it's worse than having a regular panic attack.

>>36434056
kill your mind with medication it's your only hope