/25+/

30 years old
I'm good, got a day off and will be playing re7 and watching movies with a friend later. Currently waiting for a package to arrive.

It's 6 am and I haven't gone to bed yet, feeling suicidal but I know I'll feel indifferent when I wake up after I crash later.

>>36413397
its my birthday so im depressed but its also the fuhrers birthday so im happy
strange feelings today

>Work is going good, boss seemed nicer than normal
>"([love interest])" has no interest in me

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>I have consumed almost an entire handle of Stoli
I have work in 4 hours. If I fall asleep, I'm fucked; stay awake, I'm fucked.
This is going to be a rough landing.

>>36413397
Spiralling. I'm not getting anything done so everything's piling up and I spend whole days pacing up and down trying to make sense of everything and prise out some sort of future from it all.

Now I found out my Dog's dying.

Might be it for me desu.

>>36413397
>29
>kissless virgin
>college educated neet
>got laid off from near min wage hospitality job
>been enjoying unemployment benefits ever since
>just staying home and playing old vidya, cleaning my room, and selling some stuff on craigslist (extra furniture, a bicycle, etc).
>half assedly applying for jobs too in order to get my parents off my back and satisfy my work search requirements for unemployment benefits.
>got call for job I can probably do but somewhat above my immediate skill level. I can probably be trained, but waht company does that anymore? thats why I applied for it!
>scared of going to interviews. scared I might get the job and my neet fun times will come to an end.

I'm off work today and tomorrow, gonna pick up some weed later and have an extended 4/20 celebration with some vidya.

>>36413591
>Wanting to be a neet at 29
m8 it's kinda ok before the age of 22 but after that you really should be working or studying.

>>36413644
>tfw only enjoy old nostalgia games

>>36413663
>you really should be working or studying.

Why? I'm pretty happy right now. Happier than I've been in a long time/

I'll probably never have a job I like. I'll probably never make much money. I'm not much of a people person, so I'm not motivated to improve my social status through money, power, and influence. The world is going to hell in the long run, so why bother changing anything? Why have a family and bring more people into it?

24 in 6 months can I please join the club

NEET virgin never had a job

don't relate to most of the r9k kiddies anymore too far gone for their girl talk

I'm just stuck in a perpetual limbo. I'm trying to make an album but all my music is un focused and schizophrenic

>>36413397
Enjoying my last few days off before back to work. a 6 hour drive back to the garrison and then another 14 weeks with people that I don't get on with, living and working. It's a lonely life, I don't get away from them very much even in the evenings. I miss seeing normal people.

The military is a meme robots, be careful joining it.

Fresh 25 here

I truly hate being alive

But at least I'm not a neet

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>>36413840
military would be nice if I could hack it in the fancy high speed unit
sadly no such thing here, I am also physically shit and my eyes are fucked

>will never ride little birds while listening to metal in my bluetooth earpro with unbloused pants

>>36413863
CHAD ALWAYS WINS

NEVER ORIGINAL

>>36413863
I used to be a wet little rag when I was a kid. Our school used to take us on hikes up on the moors and I always pussied out and came off.

Now I've done selection for one of the hardest parts of the army and I'm an officer in one of the elite regiments. Funny how things change.

>>36413889
Sounds good.
What I was trying to say is that i see little purpose/satisfaction in serving in a basic bitch unit, coupled with the shittiest scum that the society has to offer. You want something with a bit more responsibility, somewhere where you are surrounded by people who you will respect even if you dont necessarily like personally, peopple that inspire you to not fuck up.

just wasted my last 40eur on weed, i don't understand how i am so bad with money.

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30 here. Out on my porch at 3:40am, just picked up a pack of smokes even though I'm supposed to be quitting. There is a parcel at the post office that might be my mushroom kit - the one thing I'm looking forward to. I want to go camping just loaded on shrooms the whole time to maybe turn over a new leaf.

Nothing has much meaning. I have everything i could want at this point besides an equal to stand beside. Awhile ago I got my first loyal christian homely girlfriend that just got a high paying government job but I'm not physically attracted to her. She seems to be with me simply because I'm reliable and she's had many bad experiences.

I'm going to drink the alcohol she left here. All i can think about are the girls that toyed with me, cheated on me and everything else. I wonder what could have been if I stayed in school past the age of 12.

I just want to sit here and cry but there isn't really anything to cry about besides broken dreams. There has to be a change somewhere but I don't know where to do it.

>>36413921
I get you. That's why I went for this particular regiment and fucked my body up over 3 months preparing for and doing selection (pre para selection, google it and you'll probably find out more about it). I thought things would be different here. But people are still cunts, if not even mroe so here because they've got an attitude of superiority and gung-ho dumbassery.

I get on well with many of the soldiers, I think. But I really struggle to socialise with my fellow officers. They're just...dicks, really. I don't click with them. It's a constant game of taking the piss out of each other and I just don't have the energy nor inclination for that type of banter. It's one of my regrets about coming here, but I'm still glad I did because the physical state of this regiment is still above any other regiment.

As the current cohort of officers move on, though, and we get new ones in, things will change and I will start to feel more at home. That's one of the benefits of the military - the regular changes. It's both good and bad.

>>36413941
What you need to understand is that women lack logical algorithms, they lack planning and they lack thinking in steps. When they do the shit that they do, they don't do it with intention. They are just fucking dumb and have 10 seconds long attention spans. No matter how intelligent they appear to be.

Don't beat yourself over it.

26 here.

Solid job in the capital wastleand. Gf of 3 years dumped me over email& vanished.
On a plane today to interview for better job. Decent otherwise.

Mostly work, gym, vidya& searching for Gf lately. Could be better in the near term hopefully ish

>>36413438
Feels good being born today lad.

Too bad about the rest of life.

>>36413438
happy b day anon.

Im sorry i dont have a rare pepe for you.

>>36413960
Yeah I understand. You can't be liked by everyone man, and you certainly can't make anyone like you for sure. Just try to earn their respect and be capable. Strong silent types always trump loudmouths.

Good luck with the thing. I don't know much about paras, just that the most of SAS recruits come from the regiment, like how most Delta dudes come from rangers.

>>36413889
I can see the military being good for me in many ways but I don't think they'd take me for mental health reasons.

>>36414104
So don't tell them?

Easy. Loads of people omit the truth

25, feeling ok today. I seem to have a couple days every month where I'm at my lowest point and doing even the most trivial things seems impossible, but I've kinda rebounded a bit now.
I have a three day weekend so today's my last day of work, which is nice, but I have no plans.
Thinking of texting a guy I went to college with who lives in the area and seeing if he wants to get a beer, but I can't think of anyone else to invite and I'm not confident enough in my social skills to be alone with someone without it being awkward.

>>36414104
Yeah man, don't ask don't tell goes both ways. If it's not on your records out doesn't exist

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>have a job interview later today
>spent the last few days drinking heavily so I'm still a bit "off"
>tried to dump the girl I'm seeing because I thought I was only with her for someone to sleep with but it hit me like a brick wall that she actually means a lot to me
I guess I'm okay. I think when I get back I'm just going to play an old shooter. Not sure which one. I've played Doom 1/2 and Blood to the point where I really need a different one.

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>>36414159
if you dont mind emulation, this is good retro tooty shooty. weapons have oomph and the AI is better than most stuff today even

>>36414229
I actually have a thing that can emulate PS1 so it shouldn't be a problem. I just prefer to play PC shooters. I did try to play PS1 Doom out of curiosity but the controls were pretty rough.

You all have jobs and friends you are normal guys.

>>36414306
I can say with confidence that I have neither friends nor a job. I have had 3 job interviews this week, though. And I have a cat which I guess is like a friend.

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>>36414306
Well when you are 25+ years old you kind of have some semblance of shit together. But that's all just the surface.

>25
>have a gf of one year who is 19yo
>zero friends
>minimum wage job
>no car
>but I live alone

>>36414306
I don't. I'm the 29 year old neet. I haven't had a friend that will call me up and invite me to something in 6 years.

>>36414306
Maybe so, but I'm >>36413960 and I really feel more and more like a robot in the Army. I don't socialise well when I have to live with the people. Imagine living with your work colleagues, that's what my life is like. I can socialise fine when it's on my own terms, i.e. I'm not forced into being with the people 24/7. When I can just decide of my own free will to go to the pub and meet them. But when I have to work with them, eat dinner with them, even get forced to go and have beers in the afternoons with them, it gets hard.

>>36414112
>>36414127
I'm not actually sure if it is on record. I'd have to find out. The other problem is I'm not sure I'd cope and I feel like failing to would be more devastating than anything.

>>36414923
Well when I decided to say "fuck it" and try for joining the army, and went ot my doctor to get my medical, when we saw my medical records they were totally blank.

Totally.
Blank.

It was fucking weird, but there it was. Nothing was there.

Go to a different GP to the one you normally use. Say, the one where you live now as opposed to the one you used when you lived with your parents. Use whatever records they have.

>>36413397
I've been having trouble sleeping well lately. I was dumped by a girl I really liked about two weeks ago and I'm still not fully over it. The fling only lasted about two months, but I really liked her. I don't have the motivation to meet other women right now. I have some good friends in my life, so that helps. Some days I feel better, but some days I don't.

>>36415036
I should add, that GP I used I had registered to years before as he was near my grandads house which I lived in for a short time after moving out of my parents house. So I kind of had an excuse to be using him.

Who here /nontradionalstudent/? I'm 28 and I'll be going back to college in the fall for mechanical engineering.

>>36415080
Good luck man. I kind of want to do that but I'm stuck in the army for 3 more years

>>36413835
You probably should have considered that before you went to school for a liberal arts degree.

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I've had to take three shits this morning now I'm an hour late. I'm so tired of living.

good
every day makes me closer to living innawoods and getting paid for that
t. forest keeper in training

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>be in trucking school
>normie paired up with me
>around my age
>we are shifting gears
>tfw can't shift into gear,struggle
>drive a few feet and i miss the gear and I'm putting it into neutral and start over
>can't even leave the practice dirt road
>been there for 3 days and one of those days was one on one
>the student that started with me is riding on the public street and learning fast
>i can't get off the dirt practice road
>i can tell the instructor is getting fed up on me and giving up on me
>they're going to downgrade me to class B,bus
>go to trucking school
>too dumb
>they're going to make me learn how to bus
>but i signed up for trucking school
>it's like going to welding school

sucks lads, I didn't get a fast food gig because I was not panda material and it looks like the trucking instructors are getting fed up with me because the gear shift is hard for me to learn. they think I'm slow but the gearshift requires a lot of coordination and finesse but it's on the right side and my left hand is dominant. I don't use my right hand for shit, i've always had a problem with tools and shit.

>>36413422
>wasting your day on escapism through video games instead of improving yourself
This is why you are in the state you are in

>>36415985
You're probably just really nervous. Have a cup of coffee before hand and be a little more confident.

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>27
>Got in shape, good job, good hobbies, a few friends
>Still nervous talking to anybody even slightly attractive

Thanks for nothing normans

>>36416025
What state, owning a video game and design company?

>>36415985
lol you're the guy who wasn't panda material

It's OK, I've super bombed on retarded interviews anyways. Try to see it like you're interviewing them too and want to see if you really want to work for them or wait for something else.

I had a place around here ask me "If you were an animal what sort of an animal would you be?" This was for a shitty bussing position in a tourist kind of joint mind you. Half the staff in the back is using speed most of the time.

>>36416207
>owning a video game and design company
Ahahahahahaha oh, wow

>>36416207
>"video game and design"

So the liberal arts of anything computer related?

>>36413488
at least you got dubs
bla bla ogirinal

>>36414306
i have a job but no freinds, i'ed really like to to be vica verca

30 years old and finally moving out of my parents house now that I have steady employment. I guess I'll forever regret my wasted 20s but at least my NEET basement dwelling days have finally come to an end and I finally feel at peace with myself.

>>36417420
So, are you renting alone or sharing? How much money do you have left over after weekly rent, food, bills and shit.

Often thought of moving out, but with my salary and jew tactics of the rental market, I'd be have barely, if anything! left over.

>>36417420
well done buddy hope it all goes well for you

26

day 3 of alcohol withdrawals. out of the blue tachycardia isn't that fun. always comes in the afternoon

thinking of going nocturnal. i'm home from work at 3, figured i could sleep 4 - midnight, then i've got 8 hours alone at night before i need to leave for work. i'm only part time

anyone know any good sleep aids? my family can be kinda loud

>>36417521
Renting a bachelor apartment. Paying about 40% of my paycheck on rent which is probably dumb but I can't live with roommates and I have a lot of money saved up and will get pay raises in the future. I'm not a big spender anyway.

>>36417663
doudt i could get an appartment with 60% of my wage. i live in a bedreeom in a shared house

26, Bored as fuck now. I have two teaching presentations to prepare, 3 papers to try and get published and a presentation for my Master's viva and I haven't started any. I've got into this dangerous habit of knowing that I usually manage to pull of whatever I'm doing at the last minute with good enough success that I'm not putting any effort into anything anymore. Waiting for some sort of impending failure any time soon.

>>36417604
Just want to point out you can die from acute alcohol withdrawal unless you're on Pabrinex and decreasing dose regime of Chlordiazepoxide (or some other Benzodiazepine) so be careful.

25 khv
I feel like shit because almost everyone on my survey who lost their virginity did so under 20.
I'm coming to terms with the reality that I am seriously going to die alone and a never having touched a woman, and it's not just a meme I'm saying anymore, it's harsh reality.

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScbCHXRTn-pWlsCaafc1Gg0mQ2M6n3IYy-oDQ6e4foDZHCN8g/viewform

>>36417724

See if you can find anything called an 'efficiency' apartment. Basically one of those rooms you see single japs in animus in. the ol' six mat. They're not bad, honestly. I use no heat whatsoever(the surrounding apts keep me pretty toasty, and I have blankets and shit if i'm cold, whatever, the pipes ain't gonna freeze.) I only use a computer and vidya system, not much electric use. Get food assistance so that helps a bunch. Not him by the way, but am in a similar situation with the moving out thing. I'm still getting used to it, it's like an entirely new world now.

>>36417604

Usually any pharmacy's generic sleep tabs'll do the job. If you got a doc, ask him for something for the withdrawals, ask for some klonopin/clozopam or whatever it's called. Shit'll help. Also the stuff other anon said, you are in dangerof having deadly fucking seizures.

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Saw a bunch of hs students carrying carboard signs today.
"Smile!" "Have a nice day!" "Be happy!"

Gave 'em the big ol middle finger
Really brightened my shitty mood
Job well done kids

33 chad here. My life is fucking over. fuck. no job, addicted to benzos, living at my moms. I'm a fucking walking stereotype. I'm going to order a shit ton of barbiturates from AB and overdose and RIP. Thanks for the banter and laughs you bastards

33 Cyborg here retired military married etc etc, my dick hurts senpaitachi I had a back surgery now it feels like my penis is on fire 24/7 nerve damage, also I ive in a shit state for weed and will never be able to buy it or grow it fuck me up

>>36418098
You sound like a bitch M8

>>36418098

Have a nice trip anon, I hope it's peaceful wherever you find yourself afterwards. You can come haunt me if you like, I wouldn't mind a ghost-chad benzo addict ghost friend.

>>36418197
Na I would fuck that boipuss in ya sleep

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Got drunk last night. Hangover wasn't as bad as I expected but I'm still spazzing out randomly whenever I think of something embarassing I might have done/said last night.

Playing Metal Slug and Bloodborne helps though.

>>36418159

>never able to grow it

Nigga you got a basement? Build a small room down there and don't fucking tel a goddamn soul about it. Ain't that hard to keep it on the downlow, just buy all your growing supplies from amazon like I do, damn son.

>>36418159
I cant find weed either what a life, fapping is the only thing keeping me going at this point glad my cock is doing good

>>36418205

>getting ghost fucked/raped

Dammit chad, why do you always know my fantasies and fetishes? At least morph yourself into a cute futa while you do it please. Also i'm chubby, so i don't know if you're into that.

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>25
>live at home with parents
>about to finish first semester of uni after dropping out 5 years ago
>A's in all four classes right now
>no job currently
>lost touch will all friends
>shitpost on various boards for interaction
>barely talk to anyone
>30 lbs overweight
>haven't had sex since July 2015

I've literally spent the entire week sitting in the campus library shitposting with you faggots

>>36418214
I live in a harsh state so getting caught is not a option, no basement I have lots of land but we have to many relatives over to grow it and most of them are cops lol, I'm considering buying a shed and using that I have all the money to and order seeds of the net

>>36418186
fuck you nigger, I've fucked 27 women. my life is over now.

>>36418159
I buy my seeds off nirvana I use my card to fuck it, I grow herb in a 4x4 tent works pretty good.

>>36418214
What setup do you have senpai

31. Same as always.

Switched from an acoustic to electric guitar lately, feels pretty good. This and importing vns from Japan are the only two things motivating me to get my ass to work every day. However menial and tedious it might be, I still gotta pay my luthier.

>>36418275
Maybe you should fuck 27 men you fucken bitch

>>36418159
Must be nice to live in a legal state, I'm from GA it will never be legalised ofc you can get all the meth and ice you want here

>>36418275
Well livestream it at least faggot

>>36418334
I Wouldn't want to live your lifestyle

>>36418313
Those places seem sketch as fuck to just out info out there and order seeds

>>36418272

There are three stages of growth, so you're going to need to move them around. I'd recommend a structure a little bigger than a 'shed'. Depending on how much you want to grow, a 5x5 foot space is fine for each stage, it'll comfortably grow 4-6 plants in each, which is more than enough for you to smoke on once you get the cycle going, taking out one every month or so for cutting and trimming and drying.

I've been a medical grower for roughly 6 years now, so I have some experience doing this on the cheap at first, but you sound set up, so you can afford to do it a little better at first than I did. If you want some advice, I don't mind sharing.

Note that your and my mileage are going to vary since despite some general rules no two grows are exactly alike and results are going to vary, also i've only done growing exclusively indoors.

>>36418367
my webcam is broken

>>36418372
Cuz your a punk ass bitch

>>36418411
i dont suck dick like you.

>>36418389
I've been doing lots of reading, whats your opinion on the new LED grow lights, whats a good strain to start with for a first grow? It looks fun as hell and ofc rewarding.

>>36413397
>Woke up too late to buy alcohol
>Usually apathetic when I wake up so worried if I'll have time to buy alcohol tomorrow
Fuck.
It's going okay I guess. Feel better than I've done in a few years, and been trying to do some light exercise, which actually feels really good. For some reason I've had these thoughts that something in my arms would snap if I try to do pushups and such, so I've been scared of trying.
Still no hope for the future though, I feel like I'm past the point of no return.

>>36418313

Space under my basement stairs is set up for the clones and smaller plants. The inside is lines with heat blankets and two 125w coil flourescent lights. I use those slightly opaque ice cream buckets for my clones, they are THE PERFECT clone shelters I swear on everything holy.

My veg room is about 6x6, i take the babies out when they are about a foot tall and stick them in here. It's a mylar square, I have three 200w coils in here, and let the plants get to about 4 feet tall and bushy as fuck before they're moved.

Bud room has 2 400w HPS lights and is also an 8x6ft rectangle of mylar attached to the floorboards(or whatever those big beams are that support everything above it.) It stays warm in there, I check the plants every day to make sure they're fine.

It's a cheap, simple setup but it works for my purposes, and that is personal growin', and I have more pot than I could ever smoke, so I see no reason to 'upgrade' anything except maybe my timers at some point.

>>36418476
Where you from still time to buy booze?

>>36418476
you better not be employed.

30 and my life just keeps crawling long. It's taken me 3 days to watch a movie because I keep pausing it to do fuck all.

>>36418461

I've never used them myself and I don't know anyone in my circle of grow-pals that use them, but from what I've read they seem pretty legit. The best veg stage lights in my opinion are still Metal Halide or old school flourescent. I like the coil bulbs, they 'just wurk brah' so to speak. It really comes down to how much you are wanting to grow, honestly. If you're going for huge grows, go metal halide or try the LEDs, but if you're just doing a small personal one, there's no reason not to use a flourescent strip or coil with a nice big reflector.

>>36418500
Damn senpai that sounds legit as fuck I like going on all the weed forums and seeing their setups and grow. Did you use the 2 400w to cover more room, why not 2 600w? What soil mixture do you use? There are hundreds of recipes out there not sure what ones I will end up trying. Do you have a medical problem smoking helps with?

>>36418563
Ya I'm torn between those 2 lights I worry about the heat giving off so i might try LED. I'm just looking for personal use so maybe 5 plants at a time not in a legal state so I have to be careful and tell no one hell if it was legal I wouldnt tell anyone

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>>36413397
>Spent later teens and early twenties suicidal
>Felt like I might do it at any moment
>Some people actually like me
>Depression spirals further and I push people away
>Become extremely self concious so never do anything funny anymore because it feels cringe
>People stop talking to me in general, remove me from their life or our conversations are just dull
>Don't have the energy to attempt suicide and have it fail again
I just keep thinking of that Kurt Cobain quote; "It's better to burn out than to fade away". I wish I had killed myself back in the days when people actually liked me.
I feel like a shell of a human being now. I wish I went away before people stopped finding me interesting.

>>36418500
You have a nice rotation going on M8 any pics of the plants?

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>>36416025
>"improving" yourself
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42cSdyzVcXQ

>>36418508
Sweden. The state has a monopoly on alcohol here, and the store you can buy from has terrible open times. Like 09-18 on weekdays, and I wake up at like 17 feeling apathetic.

>>36418518
I'm not.

>>36418500
Dif anon here, whats a safe sight to order seeds off of if not in a legal state? I have a spare bedroom that I want to turn into a grow room and get some good seeds not street trash they all seem to be around 50$ for 5 seeds.

>>36418666
Devils trips, that sucks man I live in the bible belt or the south and they dont sell any on Sundays its dumb as fuck.. and stores sell from 9am to 6pm

>>36418578

Many medical problems, but I got the card for the nerve damage in my legs. Fuckin' diabeetuzz mang, it's a bitch.

anyway, yeah, I used the 400s to cover more space and heat the room up, since my basement is also chilly(which also makes the strains i am working with stronger when they're babies, honestly.) I had one, which was fine since I only stick 4-5 plants in there at a time, but a buddy gave me his for free, so i just kept using it. Also I had to factor in the electro bill, so using bigger lights when they weren't necessary just didn't seem logical to me. If I was growing for a dispensary then fuck yes I would in a heartbeat, but this is just for me, and I keep it humble and cheap when i can.

I use B'cuzz hydro soil and buckets, works really well. You can clean it out and use it again, but I always just buy another block of it since it's pretty cheap and lasts a long time.

I use Maxigro, Maxibloom, and Koolbloom, that's it. Again, simple and effective because I regularly get 5-10oz per plant. Is nice mang.

Big fancy grows are cool and all, but you can accomplish much the same thing with a fucking camping tent or, even better, an ice-fishing shack with a light set up on the ceiling.

If i'd had the money at the start, I would have bought 3/4 lil camping tents and used those for my growing, but ended up just making some mylar rooms and it's worked great.

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I realized that I'm about to turn 26 in a little over month and it hit me like ton of bricks. In my head it was still a good six months away. I know it going from 25 to 26 carries little real significance, but it just represents one more year with no real life accomplishments. Shit job, still alone, and quickly approaching 30. The most painful thing about it is knowing that I'm only this way because I was afraid to try. I had potential at one point. I could of been happy, or at least happier than I am now, if I hadn't spent all my time avoiding my problems. I'm still trying to change and in few small respects I've successful, but the older I get the easier it is to slip into hopelessness. I'm becoming more and more comfortable in my failure and it scares the shit out of me.

>>36418619

If the space is big enough, which 5x5 certainly is, you won't get much heat at all. I have two 125w coils in a 2.5x5ft space under my stairs. No risk of fire because they simply do not get hot enough to combust wood. It's not possible senpai. Shit man I can physicaly touch my flouro-bulbs and not be burned. It's the bud-room HPS lights that kick off the real skin-burning heat, but again, no chance of combusting wood randomly, but they WILL dry your plants out if you're not super strict about yoru watering regiment.

go flouro, they're efficient, get the job done, and no heat risk. And easy to replace, any fucking hardware store has the stripe style bulbs, so if it burns out, you got a new one in fifteen minutes.

>>36413397
Consider writing my resume and shitting my pants. Not that I have a pants shitting fetish but I wonder if just the act of shitting myself would help break me out of the fog I've lived in for seven years.

29 now. Seven years wasted. I've worked but I've been out of a job lately. Just don't care much about anything so long as I have the money for rent and food.

Maybe I should do rad drugs and make junkie friends. Better than a robot, right?

>>36413836
>my music is schizophrenic
how?

>>36413960
Posting JUST to say I bet you're the same anon who posted in some thread about airforce SF on /k/.

>>36418640

Always got a good rotation, I pull at least one plant a month. d'budz is fat, but no pics, sorry senpai, even if i'm legal i'm too paranoid because i have more than i'm legally allowed to have on the premises.

>>36418692

Don't know, I got my strains from another grower who cut me some clones, I don't buy seeds off the web or anywhere(since i don't need to, since i cut clones myself), I don't trust them. Can't help you here, sorry dude, perhaps someone else here can answer that one.

>>36418719
Fuck sorry hear that, I just had surgery for eciatic nerve pain shit is terrible, its a tad better now I can move at least but now my penis has nuropathy and this shit is terrible the meds they gave me do nothing so I stopped taking them they also make me nausiated.

I'll look into that soil and see whats up sounds like its working great for you. Have you ever tried those fabric pots? I think its fabric anyway more breathable

Damn 5 to 10oz is a good stash senpai

Ya i'm looking at tents and a big shed ill have to get AC and insulate it looking at wooden sheds that can be used to sleep in etc

desperately trying to get my online business running so i can get an income without having to go back to a 9-5 that i'm simply incapable of anymore.

if this doesn't work i kill myself

>>36418799
Ah good stuff about the lights thanks, ya I would hate to start a fire or bleach/burn the weed, what temp do you keep yours at? I want to shoot for 72 ish?

>>36413397
I just left college at 26. After 8 years of trying to finish it, I finally accepted that I couldn't.

Now I finally feel free. Sure, I lost 8 years of my adult life and thousands of dollars without any career prospects, but I can now finally start living. I already found an entry-level job.

At my wagecuck retail job and I can't really stand it today

Annoying ass European normie customers and annoying ass normie coworkers who are lazy as fuck.

>>36413428
So true, the worst period is when i wake up but i remind myself the indifference will set in within 30 mins of getting up.

>>36418848
I'm not, no. I don't remember that thread and I do post on /k/ sometimes

>>36418928

You can line the walls with mylar for extra reflection,b ut you really don't need to with the tents, and so long as you keep the flap open a little, venting shouldn't be a problem either. But like I said, make sure you check them every day to make sure they don't dry up and get an idea of a watering schedule(depending on the size of the pot you use, a gallon of water+nutrients will last 2-3, maybe 4, days, generally, depending on temperature. higher the temp, the more water they're gonna need.)

B'cuzz is hydroponic soil, it's super breatheable, holds a lot of water, and roots even better than actual dirt. I think it's amazing personally, so I don't mind kicking out 70 bucks to amazon to have a 60lb block delivered to my door every few months. Well worth it, I think.

>my penis has neuropathy

AHAHA, mine too senpai, holy fuck I haven't had an erection in almost a year. I miss fapping so much. Sorry to hear about this terrible pain we have, but at least we can get some form of relief for it. What meds did you get for it? Have you tried gabapentine? I get that, and it helps my leg pain quite a lot. Doesn't help my dick, but at least it doesn't feel like my legs are burning alive 24/7. I WISH I got some fucking opiates because they actualy work on everything, but the docs around here ain't too big on prescribing them since they are a HUGE problem. Fucking dickheads ruining good shit for everyone, yet again.

>>36418907
MI detected, basement and colder up there

>>36418907
>>36418928
You fuckers are making me itch to grow I have friends who guerilla grow and some plants get HUGE I would rather grow in my house though.

>tfw 30
>whenever I meet new people, they ask me 'so, what do you do?'
>I reply 'Nothing, and I can't imagine how anyone could ever do anything at all'
>tfw people start looking down their nose

The schizo, autistic pariah's life is a hard life, despite the total inactivity, believe you me.

Meh. I'm sitting at my bi-weekly visit to the suboxone clinic. Better than praying and hoping that the dope man's batch wont kill me.

>>36419124
kek

hfhfghf

27, doing my PhD.
I'm still a manchild at heart, still mooching off parents because humanities TA sallaries are fuck all while rent is too damn high.
I know I will never be able to find a job and I plan to retire immedieatly after I get my phd. Mooching off my parents retirement bux first and later on inheritence (thankfully I'm their only child)
I despise interracting with people and while I like studying and researching my subject I despise it when it is done by someone's orders.
Not that I can find a job even If I want one

26 with a journalism degree. Been NEET since graduation in May 2013. I post here sometimes.

It's finally warm out again. It feels nice to step outside for five minutes a day. It's really starting to set in that I won't ever have a normal life.

>>36418986

So long as the lights are free-hanging from a chain or whatever and suspended in mid-air, the fire risk is non-existent unless some act of god happens.

Anywhere between 69-72/3 is optimal, some of the temp stuff depends on the strain. mine mostly came from northern cali, so they liked being in the 60s/low 72s and got stronk from being in the coldness of my baasement in the winter(i live in upper michigan, my basement drops to 60 during that time.) But general rule is 70, or thereabouts if you're not sure. You'll figure out what your plants like with time, don't worry too much about it since you're just starting. Mistakes are fine. I understand wanting perfection and getting it right, but it's also a learning process no matter what you do. Thankfully digging in the dirt is easy to pick up after a short while. Got me into gardening proper veggies in my back yard too.

The thing that kills most motivation is the WW. Waiting and Watering, it's the worst part, and requires patience, which you probably have if you're the military dude, so you're probably used to boring, mindless tasks, which honestly, is a huge part of growing pot.

>>36419076
I thought about the mylar too, not sure what size pots I will maybe 3 or 5 gal? Idk think 5 gal is a bit much

I would have to be careful ordering that dont want to creat a trail to my front door lol

Wtf you have that shit on your dick too?! Dude I know 2 diabetics who have it real bad in their feet but never new about penis pain from it lmao, I was taking 10mg perc 4 hours a day for back and sciatic recovery pain and didnt even touch the dick pain, ya they have me on gaba too wish it would work feels like the inside of dick is on fire and cant get hard haha, man it is almost impossible to get pain relief medication like terrible hard all those people abused and solled it harsh laws passed so doctors cant even give em out its bs

26, just got back from New York, man does that place stink, and I mean literally. Gonna take some DXM and play some Mario 64

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>>36418952
Can i ask what kind of business? Did you find an unexplored niche and plan to sell things?

I had a great deal on refurbished laptops but even though they're 30% cheaper than new ones i simply cannot compete with some of the wise guys here. There's a guy who buys junk, repairs it using what i guess are undocumented ukrainians and sells as brand new.
But maybe there's something out there worth selling that's not on my local market yet.

>>36419202
I knew you were from MI

I think thats most of it to the xp you have growing my first crop will be shit but down the road way better. the WW would suck I would be excited to see the end result so well worth the wait!

What method do you prefer for drying? Do you cure yours in glass jars?

>>36419081

Yous be right my man. Howdy from da UP, eh?

>>36419100

I like doing it in my home because it's a nice, comfy, generally unstressful set of easily accomplishable tasks I can feel proud of, that actually yields good results that reward patience.

>>36419306
Dif anon I have a relative from UP I think who grows weed and his name starts with J

>>36419176
I left college without a degree after 10 years of studying on and off. It's so liberating not to have a college degree, to be blue collar as fuck. Now people are telling me to retrain, but I don't wanna learn even more, I'd rather deliver the mail or work a counter or something. Dead end jobs are my ideal because what's better than not having to think, amirite?

>>36419369
I wouldn't mind a mindless job. Preferably one where I wouldn't have to be social. I figured I could be a mindless copywriter with a journalism degree, but no one even invites me for interviews anymore. So I scribble out shitty fiction most days.

>>36419206

No pain in my dick it just......doesn't work. No reaction to anything, not my hand, not the go-to porn I watched, nothing. It may as well not exist anymore, but i'm too old and ugly to be a good tranny, so, i sit withmy useless dick getting high and praying for death. At least I got my benzos, makes the fear of life more bearable. My GI doc prescribed me 4 norco 10s a day and it was heaven not feeling pain of any sort, but when he fucked off to another state, it all went with him and my new doc is reluctant to hand out anything. I think I can talk him into it eventually, 2 a day would be nice even. I mean, I can see why someone would sell them, you can nab 6-8 bucks a pop for a norco 10 around here. that's why it's such a huge problem and nobody wants to 'scribe 'em. Fuck me.

>>36419305

It may not be as bad as you think my man. Also, a couple more things-

Don't overwater, when the leaves begin to droop, water them(but don't let them droop too much,that means it's super hungry.)

Don't clip and trim your plants needlessly, they are -fine- the way they are. Bushy = healthy and plump(get rid of the males, they are generally smaller and skinnier, you don't want them fertilizing your girls.)

Once you have your desired strains, learn to take clones(i find the best stuff to take are the tiny branches that sprout from the base that don't get -quite- enough light to be proper branches. Or smaller tips of branches higher up, the greener = the more new it is = the more it will grow if you do it properly.) Olivia's cloning gelis the best, also Root Riot cubes for the clones are also the best, imo.

I cut the branch, trim down the bigger leaves, and leave a lot of the tinier sugar leaves. They have a lot of trichomes in them and at flavor and another layer to the high. After I do that, I just hang them on a cheap indoor laundry drying rack. They sit for a week and they're good to smoke. After the first drying I might put some in a jar to cure for personal.

>>36419364

I'm in a rural ass town my man, I don't know any J and my circle of acquaintances is super small, sorry bro.

>>36419206


3 gallon is the biggest I use, there's no reason to go bigger than that. It'll make a plant HUGE. I like to transfer my plants into bigger buckets during their stages. The small babies get like a 3qt pot, mid-stage veg gets like a gallon/2 gallon pot, final stage gets the big 3 and they get nice and fat.

The mailman doesn't care that he's bringing you hydro soil every couple months, amazon isn't going to tattle on you. They want your money. I've been buying grow shit from them for years and never had a problem. If you don't want it to look suspicious, buy some plant seeds along with your orders so you can grow some indoor veggies while you're at it. :3

>>36413863
Same here bro. My eyesight disqualified me and the recruiter literally jawdropped when he asked me if I regularly exercised.

Oh well. I went to join the Army anyway and wouldn't have been any better off getting out.

>>36419552
Def should talk to your doctor about the pain meds even though its pulling teeth, thats bs the new doctor took you off them I mean the other doc already perscribed them. Also sorry about dickmeat I take clonazepan ots ok but gets me through

Thanks for the inf, do you ever SCROG and TOP your plants? I was looming into that but wont try it till I can even handle growing.

Ya true about amazon haha honostly I want to try some indoor veggies I grow outside a fair amount.

>>36419587
Oh ok, its a small world I've met people everywhere around the world in the strangest places wouldn't have suprised me if I knew you.

>>36419832

No idea what SCROG is honestly, never heard that, but yeah i've topped my plants before. They bush outward instead of growing up, perfect for my particular setup where i had more horizontal space than vertical. Basically you just pinch off the little bud nodes at the top of the branch(hence the name) and they'll usually split and the plant plumps outward. The outward doesn't work on all strains, though i know for a fact it does with white widow and blueberry, which is what i specialize in.

The new doc didn't take me off them, I've been without them for a few years now, the gastro-intestine doc fucked off for another state and didn't bother leaving me any refills or anything, just fucked off without a word. It's in my medical records, but it really is such an abused problem out here I'm honestly not even mad the guy is reluctant to prescribe them. I mean he's written me small ones for when I tore a huge chunk of skin out of my knee and took a nasty fall down my stairs and couldn't stand up straight for two weeks, but he doesn't wanna do long-term since he's afraid i'll get addicted, though i was on them for years before and suffered no side effects, not even when cut off suddenly. He's trying some different stuff, but it's not working, so i'm gonna chisel him down. He's a real good doc actually, a kind southern gentleman who doesn't pull punches and is actually sincere. My previous doc treated me like I was a fast food burger, get me in, give meuseless advice, get me out. Fuck they even time stamped your visit when you checked out,a nd my average time with the guy was10 minutes or less. With this guy he sits you down and talks to you like a person, treats you like a person, which is really fucking strange to me because I just ain't used to it. He was in detroit before this actually, and saw some horrible shit, i can see it in his eyes when he speaks about the 'beetus.

>>36419851

Is J from Ishpeming?

I'm gonna be living on a boat for a few months.

Gonna learn how to cook for myself etc finally. Past just boiling some pasta. God I hope it sorts me out.

I'm totally past despair right now. I can't imagine ever functioning in a relationship. In a career job. As a father.

I want to fuck a prostitute to get over my fear of sex but my christian upbringing and dignity still aren't quite beat. At least I'll get paid soon.

>>36420425

Godspeed anon, I wish you luck and culinary skills. Bring a cookbook or two nigga. Don't be fancy like Top Chef bullshit, be simple first. Learn to bake good bread first, then go from there.

Why are you living on a boat? You doing some crab hunting or something?

>Looking for basic lab tech jobs
>Scared as fuck imagining I'd fuck everything up while reading requirements
>End up applying for janitorial and basic positions
wish I learned to grow a spine at uni

>>36414357
>a teenage girlfriend
>started dating her when she was 18
Fuck off and never come back.

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>>36413397

WHAT IS A DECENT ENTRY LEVEL JOB I CAN GET TO MOVE AWAY FROM M MOM'S HOUSE?

Im 26 . almost 27. I don't know how to make more than minimum wage. I was thinking of trying to do a phlebotomy class, but I don't know.. Any recommendations ?

>>36413469
A handle is 1.75L. You didn't specify a timeframe but if it's anything like "last night" that's bullshit and fuck you

>29
>Feel that I'm the best I've ever been
>Finally getting some confidence after so many years of self hatred
>Even dating is going better
>Only downside is the crushing weight of my mortality starting to kick in
>My youth is not gonna return
>I will never date 20 year olds without it being weird
>I can not fix the mistakes I made in my past
>I will never be able to return to the past with my present mind set

I reckon this is the kind of thing that you need to just accept with age. Kind of sucks, but at least I feel good about how I am right now.

>>36420617

Nurses assistant, floor cleaning for big stores, driving forklifts. Basic as shit and if you're decent with money you can live away from mom's house. it sucks and you'll be broke, but at least you won't be in mom's house. I'm honestly not sure what's worse.

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>Got really high on benzos & shrooms
>Mommy tripsat me when I misdosed, put me to bed after listening to me babble for an hour
>I'm going to tripsit her this weekend

I love her so much.

>>36420726

fondle her lol

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I recently got a daki, pic related. I avoided it for a long time with all the stigma, finally caved in, and I'm happier than I've been in years. Sleeping is nice again.

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>>36413397
This life is already over. I just want to die and reincarnate as a cute japanese loli

>42, virgin, obese, grocery store stock room
>bout to go on break and walk across street to starbucks and get venti double chocolate chip frappacino

>If you have a job above minimum wage OR have a gf, then you don't belong here

>so many fucking normies in /r9k/ nowadays REEEEEEEEEE

>>36420974
Holy words.

oregano

>>36420246
Thanks for the chat and info M8 fell asleep from meds

You guys take life too seriously man. If shit happens, it happens. If it doesnt, it doesnt. No big deal.

My best advice is to just to stop coming to /r9k/. I only come here like once a month now. Sure my life hasnt changed outside of this, but im genuinely much happier the more time I spend away from this board, and stop thinking about "life" and just exercise and play videogames.

/r9k/ doesnt help depression and anxiety, it compounds it.

>>36421652

Not a problem anon, always glad to share knowledge and bullshit with other bots. Perhaps i'll catch you around.

>>36421656

but it's free therapy I don't have to leave my house for. Coming here is one of the few things I enjoy anymore.

I live in a white trash paradise, my mentally ill father just sleeps all day and ignores reality while his wife works fast food. I'm 6 months NEET living off of my savings, the house is a fucking cesspit because I can't keep up with the filth they create. The concept of cleaning up after oneself is completely foreign, it's always up to someone else (me). Their adopted daughter lives like a princess, and is an utter degenerate. She leaves tampons and maxipads lying around and I always find the dogs have dragged it out of her room and are chewing on it. I woke up yesterday morning to the sound of a dog chewing on a maxi pad and I had to wrestle this slimy cuntrag away from him and then I tossed it on her bed because I'm sick to death of her bullshit. She hides cookies, candy and food in her closet. We had a fruit fly infestation centered in her room because she will never clean up after herself and she just leaves stuff in there. There's an open jar of nutella in her sock drawer that she eats from every morning.

The bathroom is falling apart, there's piss on the walls, the shower is clogged and I've spent all morning to no avail trying to fix it. they have money for take out, they have money for flat screen tvs and computers but the idea of getting a fucking plumber is too much money for them to handle.

They kick and scream and neglect their dogs that I've basically taken over looking after. They don't touch the cat box. Ever. They want all this shit and then never want to deal with the responsibility fuck I hate these fucking people so god damn much and I can't escape this hell, I've tried to help them financially, emotionally whatever nothing works and nothing changes but I'm trapped in this cesspit. I haven't been in public in 6 months and I'm getting panic attacks at the thought of going out in public.

Thanks for this thread because I had to vent, I've had nowhere to get this shit out and it feels like the walls are closing in.

>>36422046

Christ this hits close to the heart anon, i know this pain. They will never change anon, never, you need to pack your shit and head to the nearest homeless shelter. I know it's rough and frightening but it's not doing you any good to spend even a minute longer in that place. Don't look back. Let it fall apart beneath them. Take your comp and search for jobs, any jobs(i recommend night shift janitor stuff actualy, cleaning is easy and you get to be by yourself 99% of the night. I did that shit for awhile, it's a good robot job with high turnovers, no normies wanna do night shift.)

I know people like that, have lived with people like that, and much of my family is like that. It's a never ending hell if you find yourself trapped there. Get out. Get out now. Take the cats and dogs to a shelter first, get them away from these people and then get yourself gone. 100% no bullshit serious. It's your only chance unless you know some other family who aren't as awful.

>>36420632
>I can't drink that much therefore no one can.
Congratulations on not being down the alcoholic rabbit hole, go fuck yourself.
I've been drinking a minimum of 750ml of vodka a day for 5 years now since I fully embraced my inability to live normally. I'm glad that you know anything you haven't personally done is "bullshit."
Last nights binge certainly wasn't record setting, and I've been less of a disheveled mess at work than average.
I've had 8 shots in the 4.5 hours I've been here, and I'm functioning better than when I got here. Impossible, I know.

>>36417091
How is it computer related, half my work is done offline.
>>36417068
You'd rather have no job?

>26
>KHV
>college drop out
>embarrassing part time job making $10/hr
>piece of shit car
>live with my mom
>zero friends
>zero social skills
>zero dating prospects
>live in a small rich old people town in florida, nothing to do, nowhere to go, no young people to meet, extremely limited dating options, small town bullshit politics

I literally don't see a way out of this hole. On my days off I just drink my sorrows away and post here.

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>>36413397
>trying to get into programming
>finding it boring af
>losing motivation
>have to find it because it's my only chance
>spend time doing everything else expect learning
i'm shooting myself to the foot.

>>36423223
Same here but i dont live in US and dont speak native english. I always want to live in US

turned 26 yday

really sucks being this old ;_;

>>36421987
I'm always around M8 its rare to find good conversation thats chill anywhere let alone here

>>36423258
Why do you have to get into programming, anon? Reminder that STEM is a meme, in case you think it'll bring you happiness and success just like that.