/cripplingdepression/ general

>>36379476
Doing just as shit as always. suicide seems to be the one and only option.

>>36379510
it sure can feel like that sometimes, I agree.

do you make videos on yt? op

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>Can't afford to move out
>Don't organize my drawers
>Accidentally left a coffee cup out for awhile somewhere out of sight and it got mold in it, no huge deal
>Come home from working all day with no foot, socks with holes in them get argued with by old cunts
>She pulled everything out of my drawers, bed, and floor and placed it in one pile
>Proceeded to yell in my ear

That's not even that bad in the grand scheme things. It's being called a "sick, creepy, fuck", "a disappointment of a son", and repeatedly that she should have got the abortion.

I have no picture to represent how miserable I am. I have an /r9k/ folder with thousands of images, I've collected hundreds of Wojak and nothing can show how fucking miserable I am.

I want out of this fucking house. I want out of this city. I want out of this fucking life. Life was supposed to be more than this.

>>36379821
not anymore, why do you ask?

>>36379862
you have to get out of there my dude, i know you say you cant afford it but you gotta do something to get out

>>36379897
there's an obscure shitposting yt channel with the same sort of skeleton icon you use

>>36379966
oh yeah, that one
naw not me
i dont do anything productive lol

>>36379985
if that is you, you should keep it up. it's better than doing nothing all day mang

>can see the signs and dream dreams that someone is up there waiting for me.
>plan for summer is to get a car
>gunna use car to drive to old highschool where my life peaked after i visit my other places i used to live
>not sure if am gunna do it at old highschool or not but it would seem fitting to be there when i die and just be back with my friends.

>>36379862
Jesus anon, that is one rough ride you're on. Is/was your mom a Stacy?

Next time she says that shit you should tell that maybe next time she should think about keeping her legs closed before she had a son she had no idea how to raise. Usually shuts them up. If she's going to guilt trip you like that you have every right to return the favor and show her what a cunt she is.

>>36380032
its not me though lol
i dont do anything already

>>36380082
How long have you wanted to die my dude?

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>>36379476
Posted in your last thread. I'm the guy who just started therapy and was looking for a job. Good news is I got a call for an interview at a resteraunt close to my house.

Pray to Kek I get this job lads. I need it so fucking bad I'll be on the streets soon if I don't.

How did your romancing go OP? Did you find a bf yet?

>>36380416
hey good luck man, hope you get it
Also no i have not found a bf yet lol

maybe it was too early to post this thread tonight :thinking:

>>36379476
not so good bro. couldn't sleep last night, brain kept replaying vivid fantasies of me killing myself. finally sat there drinking vodka until i passed out. i'm tired of being alone

>>36381261
Jeeze, sorry to hear that. Is this an every night occurrence?

>>36381189
All of the depressed bros are still wageslaving and wishing for death there instead of here.

Since we're here though are you a QT op?

>>36381339
um, i'm okay but most r9k wouldnt like me. Not really femme

>>36379476
>tfw getting so lonely that i'm tempted to fall for the LDR trap
fuck off normie
i can't get any relationship

>>36381261
I do this too anon, when you're laying in bed alone with no barrier between you and those thoughts it's maddening. Have you tried listening to music (not sad stuff), ASMR or reading before you go down? I'll slam a few shots of whiskey before bed myself. Nights are the worst time for robots.

>>36381331
just during bad spells, like this past week. for the most part, i can deal with the depression. but then suddenly it'll knock me over the head like a sack of bricks. for weeks, i'll have those thoughts constantly, all day and night. recently i've taken to drinking every day til i fall asleep just so i won't have to feel or think anything.

>>36381404
i was listening to my favorite music until i realized that it wasn't helping my mood so i stopped lol. i've tried reading too, but i can't focus. it's like a screeching in my head that won't stop until i go unconscious.

>>36381369
k bye

>>36381476
Thats a really bad way to deal with depression anon :(

just had the epiphany i have nothing to offer the world.
Whelp i'm fucked.

Whats some music that'll make me feel something?

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>>36381881
Offer your love anon!

>>36381863
i know bro, it's just that i have no other options. i tried counseling and meds when i was younger, which didn't help since i actually tried to kill myself during that time. i found that managing depression through distractions (like music or a hobby) helps only a little before something triggers it again. i am unhappy because i'm lonely and i try to make friends, but no one will connect w me. alcohol and sometimes bud are things that make me feel alright and put me to sleep.

>gf breaks up with me in final year of uni
>somehow pass the first semester after being really down
>be in the final semester of uni
>things going fairly well
>sudden realisation that uni will finish
>get stressed
>can't sleep
>too stressed to do uni work
>deadline comes up and I haven't done anything
>don't wanna interact with anybody
>don't know if the uni will allow me to retake semester
>starting to think I fucked my degree
>start looking at jobs I can do this summer
>need experience for everything
>I'm probably gonna end up as a cleaner
>thinking if I should end it all now
>if life is gonna be shit already what's even the point anymore

>>36382028
he probably tries anon, it's just that the world doesn't or won't take notice

>>36382216
Boo fucking hoo, normalfag. Fuck off from this board and don't come again.

A girl described me as lovable today, that's definitely a friendzone compliment but it's nice someone at least thinks that

>>36381975
What kind of music do you like?

>>36382155
Maybe its time to go back to professional help? What meds did you try?

>>36382216
You're in a really stressful point in your life right now, no wonder you're feeling garbage. Everything will be fine, you can do this.

>>36382300
Thats cute

>>36382300
I got my first text in 6 months.

They asked to see my notes

But, I was happy for a few seconds

>>36382324
back then, the doctor put me on wellbutrin and trazodone (to help me sleep, cause i was having the same problem then as i do now). on one hand i'd like to see a therapist, but i'm so cynical now that i don't think it'd help. i've read articles in which mental health professionals complain about and mock the patients they see. if thats how they really feel, why should i waste my time?

>>36382464
Ive never heard of a mental healthcare professional openly mocking someone under their care. They might complain but never in a information revealing way. I'd try it, if you're open and eager it couldhelp you a lot.

>>36382324
I thought it was cute too, we both have mental health issues and we tell each other all our messy life shit, I don't even know if I want to be friends or more than friends. I guess I would just like the feeling someone was interested.

>>36382548
Well whatever you decide to do im rooting for you

>>36382570
Thanks buddy, I'm not doing anything I would crush into a ball of hollowness without her to talk to, I have lots of friends but they just don't get these things. The risk of alienating her is just so high, maybe she feels the same, I'll never know I guess, she always tells me how much I mean to her and how special we are and she's always sending her love, she's probably said I love you indirectly a few times but man, 6 years of all these meds I don't have a libido in any way, I don't want intimacy she's just the only perfect thing in a broken life.

>>36382709
I see. Does she know how important she is to you?

>>36382765
Yeah and she's communicated the same to me, she's said I've made her life worth living sometimes, that I've changed her life that I'm the only person that she can talk to and etc etc etc

>>36382709
Stupid fucking attention seeking normie go cry to reddit

I don't have any friends anymore
Nobody wants to talk to me
I'm a boring guy

>>36382324
>You're in a really stressful point in your life right now, no wonder you're feeling garbage. Everything will be fine, you can do this.

Thanks man, things just don't seem to looking great atm

>>36382709
>I have lots of friends but they just don't get these things
0 sympathy to failed normies
You cry on here just for the sake of crying
Your 30 friends don't give you enough attention?

>>36382881
Nobody cares. Go whine to /soc/ with other normalfags like you.

>>36382267
Shame your mother never showed you love

But I showed her a good time with my dick

>>36382883
You don't understand the concept of people that can't understand mental illness, you're a smart guy

>>36382842
Thats good :)

>>36382881
I understand, it will work out

>>36382848
Do you have any hobbies or interests?

>>36382847
>>36382898
>>36382883
man (you)'re really bitter for picking on depressed people

>>36382935
>mental illness
I'm sure you love tell everyone about the 50 fucking labels you gave yourself. See ya.

I'm really starting loathe my job, like really badly. I cant get another because for some unknown reason every time I try and work another job i can extreme and untreable nausea to the point of pretty much passing out. I just end up getting fired. Don't know what to do

>>36382965
I'm terrified of people knowing, in almost a decade most of my family and friends don't know, nobody I've worked with or for has known, nobody at college etc.

If you had depression you'd know this.

>>36382937
>normalfags posting on the wrong board
>people
You're pathetic. Actually using "bitter" as an insult. You and your vapid responses are like a walking facebook post.

>>36382965
So depression isn't a mental illness m8?

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>>36379476
ZOMBIE

RITTUUUAAAALLLLL

Do any anons here have a way to deal with literally no motivation to do stuff. Have homework due tomorrow and old homework that I still haven't done that has tanked my grade but can't be assed to do it. Worst part is this only started about a year ago.

>>36383003
>friends
Poooor you, you must be having it soooo bad.
Idiot.
Try /adv/, that's more suited for normalfags like you.

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>>36379897
>you have to get out of there my dude, i know you say you cant afford it but you gotta do something to get out

>>36380301


I solved the issue, boys.
Just applied to the army.

>>36383022
Holy shit you actually take the normals thing seriously, do you say memes in public? do you like memes on social media?

>>36383003
>Family
>Friends
>Work
>College
>None of them know my sadness :(
Are you sure you're not 15 or something?

>>36383079
I never said they didn't understand me, I'm afraid of the stigmatisation

And yes I'm 15 and have been to college, have a job and had depression for 9 years

>>36381863
>k bye
typical fucking normie response
leave this board you normalfaggot this is the robot board not the normie board

>>36383119
you've led a hell of life then robro, though I can't say it was wise to reveal your underage. my tip for you is just like be urself

>>36383200
Not sure if autism is blocking your sarcasm detector

>>36383053
Go back to redit. You clearly don't understand board culture at all.

>>36382937
>Do you have any hobbies or interests?
That's the point
I can't even get into vidya
I'm an outcast

>>36383274
>board culture

Not sure if actually serious, the whole thing is a giant meme

>>36383313
Why are you even here? You clearly cant relate to people from this board.

>>36383369
I've been here before r9k even existed you teenmemer

>>36383029
!

>>36383040
That was my final semester of college. it was a mess

>>36383051
Well good luck my dude!

>>36383193
mad cus bad B)

>>36383294
Is there like, anything at all you could see yourself getting into?

>>36383416
Good job avoiding the question.

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>tfw want to kill myself before smoking weed
>tfw want to kill myself even more now when I'm not high

>>36383450
Are you unable to type anything other vapid facebook responses? Genuinely curious.

>>36379476
what's so wrong about falling for the LDR Trap?

>>36383453
I'm saying people like you came in here and made it this normie edgelord shit

>>36383450
>Is there like, anything at all you could see yourself getting into?
Probably music
Otherwise I just browse 4chan, watch the TV, or read hentai. That's all.

>>36383480
>LDR
Might as well jack off to more attractive traps and then talk to LDR friends for companionship.

>>36383500
Good job still not answering the question.

>>36383478
im a teen-aged girl who only speaks in emoji :Dc

>>36383480
I just feel like it wont work out
plus i might never meet them irl

>>36383509
Maybe an instrument?

>>36383529
Fair enough, no problem in trying tho. Not like u owe them to stay in it if it's not right. How've u been btw, haven't seen u in a while. Masters/job applications going well?

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>>36383051
Good job anon, I'm proud of you boy. Just make sure to read up on how to play their system to your advantage.

It's a good decision though, better than stagnating and wasting away. Maybe I'll see you on the battlefield once WW3 gets rolling.

>>36383529
>tfw a normalfag like this is the face of "depression" on r9k
I weep for robots.

>>36383051
I'm in the AF if you're actually considering and want to know basic stuff

>>36383616
Can I please have this thread anon

It's not like it's prime time on here

Just let me have this fucking thread

>>36383693
ignore them

>>36383560
Eh, not really lol
im in a bad time of my life rn

>>36383693
If you're a normalfag you have to stay in the normie boards. Why is this so hard to understand, retard?

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>>36383519
Do you know you're the one person in this thread who nobody would care about or even blink if you killed yourself?

I don't normally say this but you should strongly consider it if this board makes up the entirety of your persona to the point where you've become the memes, internalized them until you became this bitter, hateful, spiteful mass even to your own kin.

>>36379476
Tryin to keep my self from getting wasted or high
Have so much to do
Had great oppurtunities to do it today
Did nothing instead

>>36383845
>still not answering the question
lol cool insults

>>36383768
I have 0 friends

No job

I haven't talked to my family in 3 years

I barely passed HS because I was too scared to go

Last time I tried to order from mcdonalds I puked when I had to talk to the person to order

I get 2 hours or less of sleep everynight

I just want to post in this thread without you sperging every single fucking night

>>36383733
Dang I hope things get better. Wish I could stay in touch better somehow, but I've been going to sleep early so I miss these threads sometimes. Anyways, u prob don't remember me, but I'm doing ok. Military memes is probably the most likely future path for me. Don't give up hope skelly

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>>36383877
Even Kek himself approves of my judgement. You're done here pissant. Be gone.

>>36383885
This robot will be transcending his physical form at this rate. Seek help.

>>36383885
Tell that to the people posting on the wrong board, friend.

>>36383865
what all do you have to do?

>>36383927
Yeah, well its better to go to bed early. Good luck my dude with your path

>>36383937
>you're done here
Are you serious? Is this high school? Are you getting around to answering the question at some point? Ah, questions.

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>>36383885
>Last time I tried to order from mcdonalds I puked when I had to talk to the person to order

Kek not gonna lie that's pretty funny actually. I wish I could of seen and then comforted you, though. Funny and sad at the same time.

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>>36384002
The question is why are you here? But I know the answer is because you can only relate to people EXACTLY like you. You lack empathy for anyone who doesn't meet your imaginary "board culture" checklist.

How does feel being a 4chan sock puppet conditioned by memes to react to everyone you don't understand or relate to with hostility? I'm sure you ask yourself if you're even human anymore.

>LDR
Just date someone you like, online or not. It's okay.

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>>36379476
I feel that I'm done now.

I've taken inventory of myself and find little that I like. Things don't get better, I feel I've waited long enough for some magic turn around, but know every opportunity would only be half-assed. I don't want to be around other people anymore, because I don't desire the pain of trying to socialize while knowing they're forcing themselves to stay near me. I don't see a future, I'm displeased with the past and present.

I'm turning off the cable box.

>>36383885
What happened with your senpai anon?

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I have begun to embrace being smug and arrogant. I hate interacting with people. I got the dream part time job, enough money to drink alone. I passed HS a year late due to moving and fucking up internet HS. Don't want to work because I hate the idea of contributing to a shit society. I am khv, and I hate myself more and stress myself out over it since I am 22 and have had girls tell me in particular why don't I have a gf. Maybe I am just a failed normie. But I like fetish shit and feel like I will never be accepted or loved.

>>36384245
>when no one loves you, even online

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>>36384265
>tfw your soul died years ago and you're just waiting for your body to realize and close the gap

I wish it would fucking hurry up. It's gotten to the point where my eyes are so dead and lifeless I get asked "are you okay?" just going to the grocery store.

>>36384170
>still didn't answer the question
Ah well. Have fun imagining I ask myself if human- how stupid can you get? Is this what normalfags assume of all people who demand people stay in their appropriate boards?

>>36384245
they're so far away though

>>36384265
What things have you tried to turn your life around?

>>36384274
I mean there are other people out there who like fetish shit. Doesnt mean you'll be alone forever

>>36379476
>got expelled from my college for notifying them of their shitty security
>3 months later police break down my door and take all my shit, college wanted me "investigated"
>spent a night in jail for not opening the door
>broke 2 bones in my right leg

Living practically bed ridden with just a kindle while I await my fate. Doing great.

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>>36384371
Maybe the truth is that I fear falling out of love with someone and never accepting them and myself. I fear being hurt by being exposed.

>>36384433
what the hell thats outrageous
>notifying them of their shitty security
what does that mean?

>>36384446
opening up to people can be really scary, but it feels good when it works out

>>36383989
Bunch of schoolwork and its end of semester. I already had to drop two classes and pay the university 600+$ back - freakin out

>>36384510
Computer security, just reported issues to them trying to get my foot in the door. Did the same shit for the city and county I live in as well as big companies like dreamhost.

Never again.

>>36384579
well that was really shitty of them. fuck old people and their lack of computer knowledge

>>36384555
:( hope it works out my dude

taking meme pills my jew therapist prescribed me again
I don't know why I just don't want to hurt anymore
if I had the guts I would just end it instead of willingly putting on chemical handcuffs

>>36384579
In other words you're the hacker known as 4chan?

Today was okay, I guess.
I made a couple of sprites for a Fire Emblem rom hack I'm planning on making but probably never finishing.

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Forgive me if this sounds like a blogpost, or if it sounds like I'm searching for pats on the back:

>meet a friend on Discord in a chatroom I hang out in
>he's a great guy, wonderful to talk to, we've been talking every day after work for what seems like forever
>find out that he got shanghai'd into going to a for-profit college when he was 18, pushed by his parents and his school counselors when he didn't know any better
>degree is virtually useless due to the college being shit, up to his eyeballs in college debt
>taking a shitty job that can never hope to pay it off
>one of the few things he can sit back and enjoy is that he loves to draw
>offered to buy him a laptop or a nice drawing tablet to replace the shitty ones he has
>refuses, saying he doesn't want to "put you out like that"

>meanwhile I just took a job at a startup software company that's going to be making far more than what I need for a salary
>investing a large amount of cash in the same company where if things go right, fingers crossed, I might be able to make a million dollars
>the reason I'm doing this isn't because I want a huge house with a trophy wife and kids, or a nice car, or anything
>I just want to get him out of debt, and help put him on the right foot, and make it so he doesn't have to defer his dreams

Without him, I don't think I would have any reason to push myself. I wouldn't have any motivation. I wouldn't care about myself financially.

And this is all from someone I've never physically met.

Am I that starved for companionship?

>>36384603
Yep, not even the first time I've reported issues to them. But I became a student and thus was now violating the network acceptable use policy. What I was doing reached the ears of the wrong people/made someone look bad so they decided to turn my life upside down.

I will certainly never forget about them and what they've put me through.

>>36384618
I never got this meme. Like, they're just correcting brain chemicals

>>36384649
Hey cool, sounds fun

>>36384669
No, its super easy to get connected to people youve never met in the 21st century.
You're a good guy my dude, and he sounds like a good guy too.
I hope it all works out for you and him, i really do

>>36384710
Any way you could have a legal grounds to sue?

>>36384623
Yeah it was goodtimes. (Not the whitehat security fag shit that's just misguided good intention/desperation that I sometimes can't resist)

>>36384752
No idea if I could sue them or not, all I want to do is move on and to a country without such a scary/broken legal system.

Never thought I'd find myself sitting in a dirty/cold cell with bugs flying around and some hyper guy who was recently in prison for armed robbery.

Even beyond the mental shit at the bare minimum I need to pay for doors and my lawyer. It's been over 60 days since it happened and I've yet to be charged with a crime.

>>36384849
where do you live my dude? Not USA?

>>36384874
In Michigan. People in the USA don't realize what being incarcerated is actually like.

Horror stories abound, beyond the whole concept of the USA correction system being a blatant failure.

Look to countries like Sweden and Norway for systems that actually work and won't make things worse.

>>36379862
damn, I'm willing to bet your mother's emotional abuse is the source of most of your problems.
Unless she just recently started doing shit like this.

>>36384952
Gotcha. I was just hoping it wasn't the US, but when the prison system is a systemic system to oppress poors and minorities thats the shit you get.
Its not rehabilitation, its "revenge" or "justice", both flawed concepts in the justice system.

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>>36384669
You did good anon, and the fact that your friend turned your money down speaks volumes of him as well. You're both good people and deserve each other. Do nice things if you feel like it but just don't get caught up in paying someone's rent, ya know? I personally wouldn't want to see your generous kind heart taken advantage of. But I hope your relationship lasts for many years to come.

>>36384752
>Like, they're just correcting brain chemicals
>correcting
>implying
>he fell for the "chemical imbalance" meme
I know what I'm doing taking these pills. I'm not "fixing" anything. I'm letting myself be numbed out of existence.

>>36385082
dont clap use clap pills clap that clap numb clap you clap to clap death

>>36385016
Exactly, I could easily imagine what things would be like if this happened to someone less stable/less to live for/more scared.

You could push them over the edge and they may very kill themselves or even other people over a crime where the "victim" didn't get hurt at all.

>>36385107
The prison system in the US is god awful, and needs a massive overhaul that it will never get

>>36385101
I agree in principle but that puts me back at square one
>too anxious to get out of bed much less go see psychiatrist
>will kill myself sooner or later withering at home
I don't mean to be a downer, but this is /cripplingdepressiongeneral/, so here I am.
I felt like I was moving mountains scheduling an appointment, going there, filling pills. I don't think I have it in me to start over and try again.

>friends have a summer career opportunity in a faroff state
>i'll be left behind to feel like dying in a retail job with 90 year olds who retired and couldnt make it

I wish I could at least find a comfy little 2-3 day a week job that wouldn't make me feel so bad.

>>36385131
Sad but true. The politicians are too greedy and the people are too ignorant and easily swindled.

>>36385131
You're kidding, right? Prison serves as a deterrent to unlawful behavior by people. It isn't much of a deterrent if you know it will be safe and nice when you go there, like many European prisons. For the state's deterrent against unlawful actions to be effective it should be terrifying, which it is.

It is exactly the way it is for very good reason and the sooner you grow up and stop pitying horrible career criminals the better off you'll be.

>>36379476
I'm honestly considering hanging myself, where could I even do it from? I'm living at a university, and I thought about my sprinkler system. Or from the shower bar in my bathroom, and just fall so I snap my neck and suffocate. Is there anywhere else?

>>36379476
depression has given me a severe case of writer's block this semester.. but I am fairly certain I have a staph infection in my nose that is causing so much pain and discomfort, lethargy and apathy that I literally cannot find a care in the world to write my final papers this semester

my life is a slow car crash I get to witness first hand

>>36385145
Its okay to be a downer here, you are in the correct spot.
But yeah, depression makes all of that so much harder. You see the mountain before you and cant do any of the steps to get there. I'm the same way, had to have family do most of it ofr me.
Try taking it one step at a time. Do one thing one day, and another thing a few days from then, and so on. Se ehow that works out for you

>>36385154
thats what i want too

>>36385174
Everyone is just ignorant, either willfully or unknowingly.

>>36385189
(you)

>>36385230
My best friend did it in his closet with a belt. Why do you want to die anon?

>>36385232
WEW time to see a doctor my dude. And let your professors know you're sick as fuck

My whole life plan fell apart today, my only chance of becoming a successful person crashed and burned today, there's so much in my head right now that I can't feel anything I became numb..

>>36385189
Then why do something I believe over 70% of prisoners in the USA reoffend while in Norway its somewhere in the 20s.

How dumb do you have to be to think that taking troubled people and traumatizing them/treating them like animals then tossing them back onto the streets does anything good for anyone.

>>36385254
Thanks mane. I wanted one before bed. Appreciate you.

>>36385174
We are a Capilistist nation which means by it's nature if there is a profit to be made it will be capiltalized on. For profit prisons make up the vast majority of the network in America and so long as they do it will always be in their best interest to make it easier for you to land in prison. They have armies lobbyists behind them to do just that as well. It's disgusting what America has become even from that standpoint.

>>36385323
People might take you more seriously if you could spell capitalists right. It's not like the reply box doesn't have a spellcheck built in either.

>>36385254
>time to see a doctor my dude
my care providers have been notified and they granted me a visit with the ENT specialist.. 4 weeks out
>let your professors know you're sick as fuck
they know and still don't give a shit

last spring I had to drop two classes for (what I believe) is something totally unrelated to the symptoms I have now. who knows though

>>36385273
What happened?

>>36385296
no prob my dude, i usually respond to anyone so you dont really have to troll next time

>>36379476
Wrote so much about my shitty life and then my browser crashed. Fuck everything.

>>36385323
Also forgot to mention they have lobbyists trying to get longer sentences pushed to keep you there longer too because it's in their best financial interest to do so.

>>36385370
But I'm not trolling, skeleanon. Despite what you may believe people have a wide range of opinions to say the least and some of us don't care. In fact, almost no one really gives a shit about the horrible people that wind up filling our prisons. They're scum and lucky not to live in worse conditions.

Stop feeling sorry for people who would rape and beat you just for looking at them by accident.

>>36385366
THats strange, all of my professors have been super understanding when illness comes up
Sorry about that anon

>>36385398
Extension called lazarus can save that, its what i use

>>36385422
do you ever think about if dogs could vote? I think about it a lot

>>36385422
>not knowing how easy it is to turn law enforcement into politicians personal armies

You have a rude awakening coming if you ever get on the wrong side of a psociopathic liar. You don't have to look far for one these days either.

>>36385370

I overcame years of depression and neethood to follow my dream of becoming a diplomat, went back to college got a degree in international relations with only purpose of joining the foreign service, today I was noticed that I failed my psych evaluation and was no longer eligible. I now have a worthless degree and no work experience to show for, the only thing that kept me going has been shattered.

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>been crying off and on all day
>can't get over how lonely I am
>live on the other side of town from almost all the people I know
>can't afford a car and public transit here is unreliable

I feel so pathetic for wanting companionship, it's not something that people can just give you. Still, I don't even have a chance to work towards anything like that. To top it all off, I'm a weird looking fuck so that turns people away.

I'm not some kind of bitter or negative person IRL, but I can't really get people to want to spend time with me. I've always had that issue, and it's worse now that most people I know have their own friends, romantic partners, jobs, hobbies and are pretty much set in their ways. No one has time for a broke, pathetic loser like me. Why would they?

>>36385552
Can you not, retake it? Or join the US military? I'm sorry im so ignorant on the situation anon :(

>>36385585
My go to answer is hobbies, which ar ea good way to meet people near you.
Have any of those to connect to people thru?

You might find it strange to believe but people don't take lectures from children seriously. It's going to be a rough world for you.

>>36385552
>>36385585
hey. I believe in you. You can do it. You can make something of yourself. I know you can. Everyone is some kind of fuck up. Almost nobody does everything perfectly the first time, and absolutely nobody does everything perfectly.

remember that while your goals are important and achievable, if you are happy where you are, if you feel content with yourself, that's all you need.

I know all of you can do it. Every person has the capacity for so much. Don't let yourself be discouraged and pulled down by the apparent pure success of everyone around you. They're just as much of fuck ups as you are.

Just remember this: when you do make it, when you do succeed, wear your failures with pride. Every successful person owes it to their past fuck-up self struggling with depression and anxiety to project the truth to the world, that we are all failures in differing states of success.

>>36385674
who are you talking to, anon? Is something bothering you? :(

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>>36385624
I go to local anime cons, but I run into the same problem, which is people living far away. Besides that, none of my hobbies are really social--my biggest things is reading and no, there aren't any book clubs near me. My depression zaps my energy to do the things that I actually enjoy, never mind finding the motivation to try new things.

>>36385694
>if you are happy where you are
But I'm not happy, anon, and trying to be "happy" is what has made me so miserable. Well, that and the lack of human connection.

I also work weekends, which puts another damper on things.

>>36385715
I was trying to reply to >>36385539
but forgot to put it in there.

And yes I'm super mad I'm unemployed and without a car. I'm too old for this shit and it's making me angrier and angrier. All I ever want to do these days is drink and RRRREEEEEEE. I'm not even kidding. If I didn't think I'd get taken to the crazy house I'd RRRREEEEEEEEE for a couple hours straight then cry, get shitfaced, and play Metal Gear Solid on the PSX until I pass out awkwardly on the floor.

>>36385794
Thats a pretty shitty problem to have
is there anything you could see yourself liking?

Stats final in 2 days.

Haven't started studying

How fucked am I on a scale of 1-10 skelly? I currently have an A-

>>36385585
Same except I dont even have anyone across town that cares. Im good looking but for some reason not meant for this world.

>tfw addicted to 4chan but want to get into drawing

send help, i shitpost 8 hours a day. I'm addicted to artificial human contact.

>>36385953
block the website my dude

>>36385917
You should be fine? Study now my dude

>>36385694

It's worse than that I realized that what I thought that I could follow my goals while being true to myself, just by working hard was stupid, that in the real world you have to join the rat race and put on a mask if you want to achieve things, I can't think clearly anymore I haven't slept in 36 hours, but the truth is you have to be fake and get your hands dirty if you wanna achieve something in this world.

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>>36385892
Not really, I just want to focus on the things I do like; cooking, reading, watching films, listening to music, going to cons are all things I like and take up more than enough of my focus when I'm not depressed. They just don't really help me make friends.

>>36385927
That sucks, m8. I'd be your friend if we lived in the same town.

>>36385815
>I don't take lectures from children

But you're a self admitted man child yourself. Looks like you already are there kiddo. Keep remaining blissfully ignorant.

>normie girl adds me on facebook and starts messaging me
>despite catching on to my awkwardness she keeps talking to me
>follow friends advice and play the questions game with her, making my intentions clearer with her
>we have a pretty nice convo and I even feel a bit fuzzy when she wishes me a good night
>next day
>can't really be assed to write her
>can't find any reasons to besides her being a girl that's interested in me and my friends getting really pissed off if I let this opportunity get away
>just spend the evening playing Starcraft now that it's free

The fuck is wrong with me guys? I like girls and have fallen for them before, but now that someone actually is showing interest in me I just can't care. I've also started talking to a former crush again as friends who I probably could escalate things with but again, just can't give a fuck. Now that I think about it, my last crush who was perfect for me (she'd probably even like /r9k/ could be totally within my reach too but I just don't feel anything. I've finally swallowed the redpill of how it isn't really that hard to woo over girls where I live but have lost all motivation to.

>>36385975
I can't leave, I love your threads skellybro

>>36386179
filter all other threads but mine, easy

>>36386154
Maybe you're just in a part of your life where you dont want to be in a relationship or something? Or maybe force yourself to go for it and see how it works out

>>36386032
Gotcha gotcha. My only real advice is maybe make friends at the cons that you can just go ot cons with or something, iunno

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>>36386230
Again, everyone lives on the other side of town and most people at cons go with their own friends. Plus, it's not like cons are happening all the time.

>>36386230
My friends tell me to just talk to her, send her good morning messages, ask her about her day, but I honestly don't care much about her day. I don't wanna force it because wasting a girl's time is shitty but simultaneously this is a once in a lifetime opportunity for my forever alone beta ass.

whatever, I guess I have a day or so to think things through. one day without messaging her won't ruin it.

>>36386304
yeah, i feel ya. Not having a car really does fuck you over it seems

>>36386467
yeah. Just do whatever you feel is right in this situation

>>36386009
No anon, you misunderstand. Joining the rat race and facing some temporary suffering for a longer term goal is still being true to yourself.

The important thing is to always be trying to make yourself better. You will fail, everyone does. Every single person has a history of failures behind them. The difference is that some of them give up and others keep fighting.

You've got to keep fighting anon. I know you can do it. I'm sure of it.

I'm in a strange place tonight. I'm on the verge of finally finishing college but there's a very good chance that I will fail and not graduate on time.

I know it's just a temporary set back and will be at worst 8 months but school is unbearable. I feel like I'm drowning all the time. I just want to be done.

I'd pay so much money just to not have to deal with this anymore. It's actually terrible how poorly I function under stress. It's something I need to work on.

>>36386599

That's a very interesting take, I appreciate your insight thank you.

Wish me luck, robots. I have counseling today and am probably gonna be thrown in a mental hospital. How are you all doing?

>>36387047
Good luck, anon. Ot would be your first time in, I'm guessing? Has this been discussed already or do you just suspect?

>>36387164
I've been told multiple times by my counselor I should probably go to a mental hospital. My family thinks I should go but don't want me to get worse if I do go.

Will be the first time I'd be going to one. I've usually done a good job at avoiding them because I usually lie through my teeth about everything to people so they don't throw me in one. But I'm getting tired of keeping up with all of the lies and wearing all the different masks.