>care too much about loved ones to an hero
>too dysfunctional to do anything besides devolve into a mildly suicidal, anxious, and depressive wreck
>can function day-to-day normie wise - just enough to go day-to-day
how do i convince anybody i need in-patient treatment, or need intervention, or help beyond a therapist who has crystals telling me CBT will help me? i want to kill myself, but also know i will do nothing but wallow in self pity and thoughts of death because i have people who i'd rather have pity, or forget, me before i have them deal with that much pain
i'm lucky enough to live for people, but i want to slit my wrists
>>36307574
My advice is to stay close to your reason to live (your family) as you can. Find purpose and happiness through being with them.
strip naked and cut yourself all over until you're soaked in blood, then run through the house and out into the neighbourhood screaming "I WANT TO DIIIIIIIIIIIE"
>>36307664
i'm trying, but as i am now they're going to surpass me (ie personal growth) in a few years and there'll be me, just ol pathetic me, and we'll make food together and have a laugh and they'll send me home with left overs because that's what you do for the less fortunate
>family
family's what you make of it
>>36307738
Just keep doing what you're doing. I'm sure your family care more about having you just be there as yourself instead of being there ""succesfully""
>>36307812
while i appreciate the logic, what it spells out is living like a dog. eventually, they will die - so will i. i wish i could die now