>tfw the cringe memories are coming back

>>36267543
I also have flashbacks every other day.

>>36267543
i whip my forearm when i get the memories, i have a small whip on my desk so if i get anxious or whatever i just hit my forearm a bit. it helps a bit

>>36267543
god dammed Anon why did u have to remind me of the times I pissed in the sink :(((

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>>36267543
Happens every time I'm about to sleep. I have to leave the TV on at night just to drown out the thoughts.

>>36267543
its worse than fucking 'nam flashbacks

>>36267543

>I felt this feel of times gone by

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Stop anon-san, I was trying to forget it

My past is filled with failure

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>the attempted silent scream that always comes out as a soft AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Left butt carrot in the shower.

Dad found it.

>remember cringe
>punch self in face very hard

>I'm going to eat a bullet, I'm going to do it today. I just want to die. I just want to die, I just wanna die justwant to die justwanadie juswndie jasughnjklgnfjklgnasjklgfmfalkgmaflkmglkfg
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
NO I DON'T NO I DON'T NO I DON'T
shhhhshhhhhshhhhhshhhhshhhhh

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>>36267543
if you could time travel would you beat the shit out of your past self?
I know I would

>>36267543
I either
scream
curse
keep saying "I want to die I deserve death"
hit the wall
clench my fists
hold my face
when it's especially bad I bite my hand

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>told a bunch of people at school I knew where to get "Go-Fast"
>my term for meth
>showed a girl at school a hollowed out pen and said it was my "Go-Fast Spoon"
>saw a guy at school with a Raconteurs shirt and out of nowhere I blurted out to him
"YOU DONT LIKE THEM! THEY SUCK!"
>I didn't even know the guy, I just thought I would give him, his opinion

>watching sopranos with my dad
>poster of "perfect secretary" porn movie in their clubhouse
blurt out
"My friends step-dad gave us that DVD when we were in the 7th grade"
>thought it would make me cool and mature around my dad
>dad thinks I had a sexual proclivity with my friends step dad

>Hear people talking about selling weed in class
>tell them
"Maybe we can start a syndicate, I have a couple gallons at my house that I found in a tree, we can make serious scharole"
>they looked at me like I was dying of aids.

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>be 16
>first days of high school
>try to fit in
>there is this nice girl that seems to like me
>we are talking on online communicator sometimes
>one day, she's asking what I am doing right now
>try to be funny "Well, talking with certain cute girl"
>"wait, what if she thinks I didn't mean her"
>sperg out "If you want to see her, look at the mirror"
>after moment of silence she replies with awkward smile
>never talked with her ever since

hello darkness my old friend

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>See something funny, having a good time
>Cringe memory comes out of nowhere
>It's not funny anymore

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>elementary school
>be friends with this more popular kid
>playing with him at recess one day
>be sad because i had crushes on girls but obviously unrequited since nobody even cared about relationships at that age and plus i was just an annoying spaz
>tell friend "hey lets play a game where we list off things that dont exist"
>"uhhh okay"
>"you go first"
>"...i dont know...unicorns"
>"love"
>"..."
>"love doesn't exist, anonfriend"
>"okay anon"

>at his house one day
>see piano in living room
>tell his mom i can play piano to impress her
>dont actually play the piano
>start playing random shit
>his mother doesnt say anything
>dont get to go to his house anymore because his manchild dad thinks i stole his star wars figurines

>he eventually stops talking to me after i get suspended for telling him i was gonna hump his sister, because i just learned what the word "hump" was and wanted to use it

Jesus fucking christ its no wonder he would never make eye contact with me in high school

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>>36267543
>>36268469
>tfw you're forbid your friends to talk about your past anymore
>tfw it makes you feel physical pain
I know that feel.

>>36271799
that was smooth dude. she is a bitch

>>36271846

Iktf senpai-kun

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>The only time I was on a """ date""" with a girl I liked
>I didn't even tell her it was supposed to be a date because I was too scared, she probably thought I just wanted to be friends
>Didn't know what to say and was nervous so I forced out conversation awkwardly
>Rejected over text a week later