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>Wake up after another refreshing 3 hours of sleep.
>Mindlessly lurk 4chan, reddit, youtube, etc. for a while
>Nothing really that interesting, but it was worth a shot and killed some time
>Think about making breakfast or something, but decide against it out of laziness/apathy
>Try to work up the nerve and focus to play a computer game, but ultimately can't
>Watch an episode from a TV show; chuckle a few times and then the 22 minutes are over
>Go out for a walk while listening to some music; the music is alright, but I feel no better after coming back home
>Mindlessly browse the Internet some more
>Try to go back to sleep, but just end up lying in bed with negative thoughts endlessly swirling around in my brain
>Consider trying something different like going out and volunteering somewhere, but social anxiety kills any motivation to do so
>Wonder if I would feel any different if I were a billionaire; can't really think of anything it would enable me to do that would actually make me happy
It really feels like I'm slowly circling the drain; killing time before I can work up the nerve to off myself. It all feels pointless and unpleasant to me: work, hobbies, whatever.
I've tried countless anti-depressants, therapy, shit I even volunteered for ECT and let my brain be electrocuted like a dozen times. All that did was leave me with memory and cognitive issues.
What's left? Alcoholism to try and dull the existential angst? Better to just put a bullet in the brain, it seems.
IDK why I'm ranting about this here. Nothing better to do, I guess. Maybe some of you can relate.
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>>36236790
>it's a "do nothing but post on /r9k/ for like eight hours then go to bed" reel
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You lack purpose, try to find some. That's one of the benefits of being a wageslave, it gives me some sense of purpose.
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>>36236790
exercise and routine
I started jogging the stairs a few months ago and started feeling good, I am onto a kettlebell routine now
Just put a Chinese cartoon or pod cast on and walk the stairs for 30min, get a hot shower and see how you feel
I bet you after 10min and the blood is pumping you will feel sore but slightly euphoric
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>>36236790
I live like that too. Taking sleeping pills during the day just so I can be ''dead'' for a few hours.
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>>36236892
I tried working. I worked as a shelf stocker at a grocery store for a few months, but the monotony was driving me insane so I quit.
I then worked at a call center for a year, but quit because there was only so much autistic screeching I could endure from people blaming me for problems that I wasn't responsible for.
Neither gig really gave me a sense of purpose; even the one I managed to stay with for a year. To me, work just feels like unnecessary stress. Maybe if my life outside of work felt more meaningful my opinion would change, but sadly that is not the case.
If working a wageslave-tier job really does make you feel better then I'm happy for you. I wish it did the same for me.
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>>36236955
I did try a 5x5 stronglifts routine for a couple months about a year ago.
I didn't feel much euphoria; just fatigue. I was so frustrated at it not making me feel better that I simply stopped.
Maybe I should have stuck with it longer, but I look at /fit/ and it's basically r9k with a different coat of paint, so I'm not so sure.
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>>36237183
do cardio, I use the kettlebells now to get the same feel from cardio on the stairs but with more of a boost
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>>36236790
Muh social anxiety
>nobody cares about your anxiety faggot. I hate when anxiety is used as an excuse to be a lazy fuck.
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>>36237204
I'll admit I've never really tried cardio. I might try jogging instead of walking one of these days. I appreciate your suggestion in the face of my overwhelming apathy.
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>>36237231
Are you quoting someone?
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>>36237252
I personally enjoy cardio and high reps of bodyweight exercises way more than weightlifting. Sure I'm not getting swole, but I don't care. I'm still in good physical condition.
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