>drink three beers
>act like a normie for 2 hours
>severe existential depression for 6 hours
Theres got to be a better way
>>36136668
lel I was the same way for years. Thought I found the cure in just being drunk all the time. Fuck me that was one bad and expensive idea.
But there is a solution!
>>36136725
ok but what was the real solution
>>36136783
He just have you the solution, are you lost?
>>36136668
>I remember first few times getting drunk
>they were relatively nice, and I enjoyed it
>haven't been able to replicate a fraction of that experience 4 years later
>now drinking just makes me more depressed and suicidal so I stay away from it
>weed and most drugs also make me depressed and suicidal
>losing hope
>severe existential depression
"Severe" is a little overkill here. We get that you're really unhappy, you don't need to make it sound like you almost died.
>>36137894
desu im getting to the point of multisubstance abuse where i wanna kms constantly and no matter what amount i do it doesnt feel good and i wanna die even more. i cant sleep without drugs and i feel like i got hit by a bus in the morning until i take them. i wanna try quitting again
>>36136668
>get really fucking drunk and meet a girl
>hit of pretty good and we make out
>we spend most the night together
>but its getting late so i kiss her goodbye and get her snapchat
>dont snap her because im socially retarded when sober
>a few weeks later my friends wanna go out
>I just drink a few beers so im sober
>that girl is at the same club
>my friends push me to talk to her
>i do but can hardly say anything at all
>I buy her a beer and then i dont her again that night
>fast forward a to last week
>get decently drunk with my friends
>we go back to the same club from earlier
>She's there again
>I approach her and we talk alot
>She gets closer and closer to me
>But its getting late so we leave
>We start heading home
>talking alot during the way home
> suddenly i look at her
>she's giving me that smile
>I kiss her and we chill for awhile
> we split up though and I kiss her goodybye
>that same fucking smile again
A little more than a week has passed and I haven't said a word to her but I keep thinking of that smile. Why am I socially retarded when sober? Why cant I just talk to her?
>drink 6 beers in like 1.5 hrs
>feel nothing
>drink maybe like once a year or less
how many beers are you suppose to drink to get drunk
>>36139996
You met her at a club 3 times coincidentally?
>that smile
I wanna say you cucked yourself but it sounds to me like you found a slut famalam
>>36140261
First time was at a houseparty actually, probaly should've mentioned that. But you're probaly right,just feels weird having emotions again lel
>>36136668
>Theres got to be a better way
Keep drinking
>>36136668
taper off. there will still be existential depression but it will be more mild
>>36140163
Probably some good ol' american """"""beer""""""