how many times have you tought about it today be honest

>>36055942
I don't really notice when I do anymore, it's as much a normal part of the day as brushing my teeth.

>>36055942
holy shit i haven't Though of it today until now, thanks for reminding me

All day. I'm such a ridiculous failure, I picture the rest of my life with my awkward embarrasing self and I just want to end it.

>>36055942
>walking home
>wonder what it'd feel like to just throw myself in traffic
t-that's perfectly normal right?

Only once today when I looked in the mirror.

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when I was riding my motorbike home I closed my eyes for about 10 seconds and hoped I crashed

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>>36055942
I can't even count anymore

>>36056138
I've done that before. I've also thought about driving my car full speed into a solid wall to kill myself.

I held a gun to my head twice today

I decided that I wouldn't shoot myself at least because suicides are used in "gun violence" statistics and I don't want gun control fags using my death as ammo

>>36056757
Was just about to post this. I always envision driving into a brick wall at top speed when I drive or do something like Tyler did in fight club letting go of the steering wheel

>>36056870
Anon, I care about you as much as all the spergs on this board I feel a need to help so I'm reminded less of my own autism, but just admit you're a pussy and guns scare you

>>36057388

It's true though. If you've spent 10 minutes on /k/ reading about gun control it's an issue that comes up. Most firearm deaths in the USA are from suicides but they still get counted as "gun deaths" in ways that imply they're the result of violence.

>>36057484
Just don't kill yourself friendo
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>>36055976
You too. I like you fellow autists and there's always something you could do that's more productive than killing yourself. Go join the military or do dangerous jobs or something if you really wanna die.

>>36055942
Buying a gun in the next couple of days, hopefully hollow points work out

I've been thinking of it very seriously these last few days, but right now I stopped thinking of it. I'm a coward. Might get the desire to do it again in a few more days, dunno how long will it be until I go through with it.

>>36055942
Probably about 7.

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>>36055942
Not once actually.
I've honestly thought about murdering Jews multiple times, though.

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I think about it every day at least a few times. Especially in bed at night. I'm going to be homeless in June with no options and nowhere to go. I don't want to but I'll probably have to kill myself. I've been living in hell so long I'm not going to keep tolerating it.

Its become a reflexive thought whenever I have intrusive thoughts, remember a cringy memory, mess up, feel bad, etc.
Oops.