>grow up in strict conservative home
>go across the country for college
>start dating cute 8/10 hippie girl
>first and only relationship
>introduces me to Grateful Dead
>happiest four years of my life end too soon
>move away and lose contact
>I've now had a steady job as an uptight member of staff at a private Catholic school for several years
>still have dreams of hippie ex
>every day look forward to sleeping and dreaming
>dreams and memories have begun to fade and become a blur
At this point I don't know if I should kill myself or quit this job and go be a dirty hippie. I have strongly considered the latter but I know it won't be the same and I will never be able to capture the magic again.
>>35987405
Why not look her up? Maybe youll be able to at least find closure
you already posted this thread
OP just find the girl ffs
GO!!!
It's not not honorable to be poor.
You can always capture a new experience but you can't repeat old ones. Move forward and do something else, bro
New experiences, new times. Do something productive and good that makes you happy.
>>35987428
This happened a long time ago. We broke up when I was 23 and I'm 30 now.
I know she forgot me a long time ago.
You literally posted this same exact thread just changed the first part from Southern California from strict conservative home. Kill yourself shill.
>>35987452
She has a very generic name. Every few months I try to search her up on Facebook but find hundreds or thousands of girls with her same name.
I bet she does not even have a FB.
>>35987463
doesn't matter dude, hippies aren't the judgementsl type and you do need closure don't you?
>>35987466
>mfw OP is just making these threads to make us want to watch that fuckinng terrible PTA film
tfw no qt dirty hippie gf
>>35987610
Take off the nose ring and beads and shorter hair and it's basically her.
She had a very distinct smell. I liked the smell. Very earthy with a hint of flowers.
>>35987405
>be white
>live in India
>dress like a normal fucking human being
>wear regular jeans and loose button-down shirts when it's 110 degrees Fahrenheit outside
>brown people generally assume I'm not a tourist and leave me alone
>get a fair amount of attention from women
>have a few poor street-rat friends
>they point at white hippies and laugh at them
>ask me why "goras"/white people fly from across the world only to dress like peasants and rag-pickers
>mfw stupid hippie cunts play poverty for a few months while hiding their MacBooks and $2000 cameras in the bottoms of their $200 55L backpacks
>mfw stupid hippie cunts think poor people are happy because they're spiritually fulfilled or some shit
>mfw they fly back home and go back to being lawyers or whatever the fuck
I fucking hate hippies.
I guess if you're going to be a genuine dirty hippie then that's alright, but don't be a part-time hypocrite hippie.
>>35987405
I can't bring my gf home because she's black...
You should look her up OP if you dated for 4 years I'm sure she'd be happy to hear from you and catch up
>>35987731
That must be rough, man.
Do your parents not like black people?
>>35987777
Checked
And no they're colorblind they have trouble seeing black people...
>>35987719
>be white
>live in India
>>35987769
OP already mentioned he looks her up on FB from time to time but can't find her.
>>35987799
>not living in a cheapo third-world country where everyone wants to be your friend
>>35987810
Why it Russia?
Why not Romania?
Why not Argentina?
Why not literally anywhere else except for maybe Africa and the Mid East?
>>35987833
I like India.
>Delhi
>overnight bus to the Himalayas
>overnight bus to the desert
>overnight bus to the jungle
>overnight bus to vast plains
>overnight bus to the beach
>overnight bus to salt deserts
>overnight bus to Sikh-majority state
>overnight bus to Muslim-majority state
>short flight to Christian-majority state
>short flight to Buddhist-majority state
India is one of the most historically, geographically, culturally, ethnically, and linguistically diverse nations in the world.
You don't have to like it or have any interest in, though. Just my preference.
Pic related - from the Himalayan foothills near Manali.
>>35987810
>>35987897
How do you make money, is it original?
>>35988616
I make a few thousand dollars per month from freelance writing.
I'm going to wrap up my BSc at home in January and then enroll in a graduate program. Until I do that, the amount I earn from my writing contracts is more than enough to be comfortable in South Asia. Just one of my jobs pays $800 per month for about seven hours of work per week. $800 is what programmers and IT specialists with years' worth of experience earn in New Delhi.
Earning between $2,000 and $4,000 per month puts me in the Top 1% of earners in the country; I believe the cut-off for entry to the highest percentile is about $20,000 per year, with the median income in India being $616 p/a when I last checked.
>>35987405
Tell me more about your hippie ex.
Tell me about the drug experiences you shared.
>had hippie gf
>now have no one to get high with and have sex in a forest
>feels bad man...