Vent Thread

I'm pretty much in the same situation as you, man

How old are you? 19 here

>There's no painless, effortless way to kill myself

>>35983378
I'm 18.

>>35983424
If you actually wanted to die you would find a way.

>>35983424
>>35983711
Gee, that came off a lot meaner than I expected. Sorry.

>I only want to get a job so my parents will get off my back, I myself don't believe on materialism.
>always wanted to kill myself until recently where i stopped feeling depressed, I'm not happy either, just a weird state of nothingness.
>everyday i hope my father will die, fuck that piece of shit.

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>>35983129
Does anyone have tips on inducing crying? I feel a welt of emotions built up inside me, I feel a lingering sensation of exhaustion in my brain, I'm just tired of it all.
>majoring in chemistry; don't give a fuck about it
>2.2 gpa
>no friends for 3 years of college so far
>fat fuck
>virgin, never had gf
>I think I have an eating disorder?
I just want to cry so I can feel better. My Spring break just ended and I'm depressed to be back in my door. I got really involved playing Nier: Automata back home. I wish I at least had my PS4.

I also have a strong desire to binge on 2000 calories worth of junk, but I'll never change from being a fat Manlet if I don't stop these habits.

>>35983424
I guess apathy is the number one suicide prevention method

>19, turning 20
>no high school diploma/GED
>didn't even go to high school at all really, dropped out in the first few weeks of 9th grade
>leaves the house once a month for the past 5/6 years, no real experience dealing with people
>no desire or interest for employment

feels bad

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>>35984019
Try listening to sad music in the dark late at night.

>>35984233
Try getting into a hobby like gardening or something, idk. It can help take your mind off things and it can be therapeutic.

>>35984775
>>35984233
or maybe you should learn to drive, learn basic math, get your GED and a fucking job

>>35984886
I mean of course but he already knows that. I was giving him a coping mechanism to work with first.

>>35983129
I got deported from america and I'm living with an uncle im spain who wants to kick me out in a month, i dont have papers to work here and i can't go back to venezuela

>>35984775
i dont like the outdoors, i have hobbies but nothing i can earn a living on.

>>35984886
i know i could pass the GED without studying since my math skills are fine and the test is basically just paragraphs and questions, but they don't have a GED testing center in my area only TASC which i prefer not to do since it sounds like a load of bullshit and ive never met anyone whos done it. i have an opportunity soon to test in another state and i might do it to make my family happy but i dont think it will change my life

>20
>in school for a worthless meme degree, only because my parents are making me get it
>id be homeless if I weren't going to school
>been depressed my whole life, at the point where I can't feel anything
>ugly virgin and /everythinglet/
>go through cycles of binge eating/starving
>constantly either gaining or losing weight, never stable
>doing all of this for nothing, because life is pointless in the scheme of things
My entire outlook on life changes in drastic ways at random intervals. Some days I am feel somewhat motivated to exercise, eat right and finish school; other days I don't see the point in even opening my eyes. The lack of consistency has made it very difficult to get anything done. I don't know who I really or am what I truly believe

>>35984046
yes. this is how antidepressants work.

>>35983424
There's always helium and a bag over your head. However you have to seek of industrial helium canisters, since regular balloon ones now have 20% air added.

i am going now. see ya.

>>35984046
>>35985236
it's theorized that the increased risk of suicide associated with starting anti-depressants is because they eliminate just enough apathy that people feel motivated enough to kill themselves.

I'm 21 and still in cc because I can't pass math. Still work shitty retail because my parents don't pay for all my schooling and I was to lazy to fill out student aid forms. I don't really want anything except to live as a NEET. I'm also a closeted fag khhv with a fucked up dick that keeps me incel. I don't really know what to do. My family has high expectations but I just want to stay home and play vidiya and live in escapism.

>>35985401
>with a fucked up dick that keeps me incel
what do you mean fucked up?

pics?