Being me.

>>35945025
So a normal American childhood. Was your stepdad black?

I didn't know long I could make the post.

>Be me
>5 years old
>playing with younger half brother
>have him pinned and tapping him in the forehead
>mom comes in screams that I am trying to kill him
>grabs me by the neck and tosses me behind her
>hit wall HARD
>step dad comes in and I realize its the last time
>look him in the eyes and he sees the defiance
>grabs me and rips off belt
>starts hitting me with belt buckle on my spine
>feels like fire and lightning with every strike
>realize that I will die and come to peace with it
>world starts to shake and pain stops, but he keeps hitting me
>TFW in wake up 3 days later and find out I had a seizure.

He had hit me 27 times along my spine and base of my head. Had to learn to talk and balance myself to walk.

He had hit me in the ears making both my ear drums rupture when I wasn't responsive.

Neighbor called 911 when he threw me out of house like trash.

>>35945025
I would like to hear more, and I'd like to believe this isn't some elaborate b8.
Please, continue.

>>35945153
>So a normal American childhood. Was your stepdad black?


No he was white. I grew up in the early 80s so yes it was. I am adding more stories as I go as well. You can tell me if you feel it is normal.

>>35945153

Stepdad sounds white trash

>>35945165

Not bait just accounts from me growing up is all. I want to reply to everyone as I feel its important to answer questions.

So he hated you because you weren't his, right? Had a similar situation here, less extreme though. Did he and your mother do a lot of drinking?

>>35945165
>like to believe this isn't elaborate bait
I know what you mean by this, I find this fascinating too but there's a shitty deluded part of me who just wants to believe this stuff doesn't happen except in LARPs and Law and Order episodes and I still had the most uniquely fucked up childhood
please be real but don't be
do continue >>35945025
my stupid digression notwithstanding

>be me
>big day I am told no more training wheels
>I am scared because we lived in country so roads are not smooth
>step dad sees fear and begins to salivate.
>see his intent and become petrified
>he zipties my hands to handle bars
>ties rope from handlebars to rear of his mountain bike
>laughs and says better keep up

Unsure how long I stayed up. I went down and was dragged along road for some distance on my face.

>mom is laughing at me as I am writhing in pain unable to get up.
>step dad cuts me lose and I bolt towards mother.
>slaps me in the face and tells me to hold still so she can wash blood off
>dumps some of her vodka on my face and screams hold still!
>picks rocks out with her nails

>>35945025
How old are you? If I were you I'd probably god damn kill them. Nobody shoots my dog. Fucking nobody. These people are obviously damned scum.

>>35945202
Oh...
I am sorry for the accusation. I just didn't want to believe shit like this happens to children so young, on a regular basis. Again, I am sorry if I offended you.

>>35945294

Op here and of course you can't verify this, but way to hard to make shit like this up.

I will warn you it doesn't end and will get more unbelievable as it goes on, but I promise you there are more out there this shit happens to everyday.

that's fucked up, how are you doing now?

>>35945325

Late 30s now. I was a child back then and unable to defend myself.

>>35945348

Na you didn't at all. Seemed like people need to hear about stories like mine to remember the world for what it is.

>>35945353

I will get to it thru the submissions.

>>35945379
Did they ever end up paying for that shit later down the line?

>>35945379
I really hope the last greentext story ends with you brutally murdering them and getting away with it

>be me
>state has taken me into custody after stepdad hit me in the head with 2x4 in front of neighbors because I lost a tooth and spit blood on couch
>day of court hearing
>judge asks me what I want
>tell him I don't want to hurt anymore
>he speaks with my real father and smiles at me
>asks me if I was to be put back with my mother how would that make me feel
>tell him the hurting would not stop and I would cry
>he is about to speak his ruling
>mom speaks up and says she wishes she had done more drugs so I would have died inside her like I was supposed to.
>judge is shaking with fury and with tears in his eyes and everyone else's he says

>The hurt stops today....

>mfw he comes picks me up and hugs me after going over all the evidence and testimony from hospitals and photos of me.

It doesn't end Here you want me to keep going?

>>35945433

Ummm sort of but it won't be the justice boner you want.

>>35945485

Well he is dead now if that helps you. She isn't but might as well be

>>35945230

I never found out really. I was told that it was because I wasn't his.

They did more then drinking as they were usually on drugs as well.

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>>35945509
C o n t i n u e!
Things are looking less shit right now-i hope that it continues, albeit slowly, to go up from here on out.

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>>35945575
Shit I forgot I am on cuckchan, how do you spoiler here, test

>>35945025
>be me

Well who the fuck else would you be dipshit

>>35945163
So assuming this is true, what happened to your stepdad?

>>35945616
I experience deperzonalization quite often, so yes, there have been many cases in which I wasnt me

>>35945616
newfag detekted

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>>35945616
>being this new
stop posting and lurk moar

Being me

>dad remarried to another she bitch.
>starts off nice and no fury.
>dad works more and more because late 80s and shit sucked
>discipline time one day she says because I lied
>pulls out steak knife and cuts skin between my fingers
>hands me a tomato and says slice it
I will never forget this pain. Tomatoes are super acidic and the sting will go forever.

>says I thought you were a badass and laughs as I cry.

Time passes and I forget

>punishment time again
>takes me out into rear of the property and removes my socks and shoes.

>MFW I have to walk barefoot in seeds with barbs for 3 acres because every time I stop she hits my knuckles with a ruler.
>get back to house and about to pass put from pain.
>she smiles and says not so tough are you?
>MY FACE WHEN she dumps gasoline on my feet to tighten the skin and cut each barb out with her exacto knife.
>I scream in pain and she slaps me across the face with a spray paint can.

Need more?

>>35945692
Jesus fucking christ I wish one could go back to being a child for a few moments and kill those people, you could have easily done it with a knife but of course children wont just do that

>>35945653

He died from a drug overdose is what the "paperwork" says.

Step dads are almost universally shit human beings. It's like something about being the kind of cuck who would get with a used up whore who has kids just makes them fundamentally evil deep down.

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>>35945728
we need more greentext anon

>>35945684

I see you can't relate to it therefore it doesn't exist and I have to be lying for what reason is that exactly?

I have only a small bit of awareness to bring to this otherwise fucking weird place.

I am not asking for your money, time, or even your empathy.

>>35945692
>MY FACE WHEN she dumps gasoline on my feet to tighten the skin and cut each barb out with her exacto knife
gasoline can do that?

>>35945772
>fundamentally evil
you mean like people who see the world in terms of 'cucks' and 'used up whores'?

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OP how fucked psychologically are you now? Did you ever recover somehow?

>>35945788
He wasn't replying to you but the guy who got mad about >be me

>>35945808
>everything is black and white

>>35945802
Indeed it can and does, but when you have open wounds it will burn like a real mother fucker.

>>35945831

I don't have empathy for people at all. I don't feel bad for my actions, but I will listen to what others perceive as wrong so that if it will cause me issues later with other people I alter behavior.

I spent some time in the military. I excelled at that because I won't ask questions I watch behavior and never show emotion.

Unable to stop due to pain when doing a task. To me it is just an obstacle to overcome as its the bodies way to say I am doing something wrong and need to do it better.

I am married and have a son. He is going to be 8 next week. I have explained everything to him that has happened with me.

>>35945917
If you don't have empathy then how are you able to maintain a relationship with your wife? What keeps you from performing cruelty on your son?

>>35945917
I know from experience that having a parent that has been through some shit can somehow make you grow up a little faster. Your son will be more equipped to deal with harsh realities. Be careful though, too much knowledge can isolate him from sheltered peers. I hope you don't get too graphic with explaining the specifics as he's so young.

Go on OP, interesting read

>more green text for the one that posted the flashy pepe!

>step mommy dearest gets pissed one day and wakes me up by hooking up wires from a car alternator to me and twists it.

>I ride lightning for a moment.
>calls me worthless and cuts up every baseball card and book in my room.
>tells me I don't get to eat at the table brings me a waste basket full of scraps.
>time passes and neglect continues as well as he waistline.
>learn my power level as a fat people hate Margot
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I am getting a bit sleepy is it possible to come back and make a new post later or should I start a new thread?

My contacts are glazing in my eyes because it is dryer than a popcorn fart in my house. Just got home from work as well.

>>35945917
I really hope you don't beat your son, I heard most people who got beaten beat their children and you didn't just get beaten but lived through hell

>>35946017
why didn't your father step in? Did he not know?

>>35945967

You don't need empathy for morality. I know what is right and wrong.

As for the beating of my son I want you to think hard about this. I knew it was wrong back then. I lived thru it and experienced it.

Books and studies be damned I would never do it to another person. It is hard to explain if you never went thru it yourself. I am giving you a snippit of my childhood there is much more. This was something to make others aware of its existence.

>>35946021

I would never strike my son in anger or reprisal. With my history I try to get him to explain things to me and help me to understand where he is within his mind.

I will offer solutions or advise.

>>35946044

He didn't want to believe it is what I think. He is also of the generation that wife first and kids second.

With my childhood I have explained this isn't the case and she understands.

PS this capcha shit is really giving me the red ass. If I have to find one more goddamn street sign I will scream!

>>35946073
OK, that answers my second question. What about my first one? Do you even feel anything for your wife? Why did you enter into a relationship with her and how do you maintain it? I'm not calling you a monster here, I just don't understand the point of a romantic relationship without empathy.

>>35946156

I don't think there is need for an emotional bond. You ever just around someone and you know that you are supposed to be?

Some call it love I guess bit it isn't really a word per say it is just the way things are supposed to be. She says the same it is as if we are supposed to be together and that is that.

Hard to explain if you never had it.

>>35946223
I understand. Love isn't really anything but an alignment of goals over a duration of time.

>>35945509
Please keep going anon, this is interesting.

>>35946223
Sorry my dude, I really don't understand why your wife is with you unless she is also a sociopath.

>>35946238
Wrong, love is an emotion.

>>35946264
You don't understand how marriage/longterm relationships actually function. It has nothing to do with the chemical mixture that's recognized as love. Like I said, goals over time. How well you can tolerate another's flaws. Other aspects of coexistence. You sound like a romantic idealist, and I don't have the time to clarify what's incorrect with your viewpoint. It'll derail OPs thread

>>35946261

I am going to take a break, but I will continue some more with a retribution green text against my real mother.

Should I start a new thread with a link to this?

>>35946331
Assuming this thread is still in the catalog.

>op is a sociapath that got beaten as a kid daily
>still got a family
> i was a normal kid that just wanted some peace of mind instead of being bullied
>khv

guess video games and porn are worse than being beaten daily

>>35946304
Having been in a relationship for five years, I wouldn't call myself an expert, but I wouldn't call myself a naive idealist either. I hardly think it's crazy to call love an emotion. What's crazy is trying to claim it isn't.

>>35946350
Doing absolutely fucking nothing to improve yourself or achieve your goals are worse than being beaten daily, yes.

>>35945025
Op, if everything you say is true especially the way you treat your son then I habe nothing but respect for you. Keep it up

>>35946141
Yeah, captchas suck ass. You can avoid them if you buy a 4chan pass for a couple of dollars. Well worth it if you shitpost a lot.

Pls post moarrrrrrr op

>>35946141 you
So do you have any major, or small scars from the incidents? And if you do can you show some?

>>35945728
regardless, the motherfucker deserved it. Sorry for your lost childhood.