CRIPPLING LONELINESS GENERAL

>>35939805
>21, male
>i have """friends""" but I don't really connect with them, realized this about a year ago
>i am a 5'8 manlet who only knows a lot about music and geeky shit like warcraft or star wars (extended universe) lore, i have a very hard time connecting with people as well. my short height, acne and squeaky voice have broken my self-esteem, so i'm not sure on how to meet new people (hkv here)
>a bunch, but very few of them felt "real"
>today, just pretending that everything's fine
>last semester of uni
>i have 2 plush toys that I sleep with at night (gay I know), at least it's better than ruminating about failed chances or crying yourself to sleep
>i hope grad school will improve things

>Age and sex
18m
>How long have you been friendless and lonely
Since about grade 11. After I broke up with my girlfriend (I used to actually be somewhat of a cyborg) I went through a really rough patch and I never really came out the same. I was in a bad place already during that relationship, and right about then my mom was diagnosed with cancer and my parents split. It was really rough. Never really developed any personal relationships with people since, and I've developed some kind of avoidant personality disorder that really cripples my ability to actually maintain relationships
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
See above. Also, I seem to have a hard time communicating with a lot of people - especially normie males. I just can't make conversation very well. I've been working on it but fuck.
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet
This is a hard one. I've had "friends" per se, but I've never really connected to any of them on a personal level. It just feels artificial to me. My best (and, in my opinion, only) true friend is a guy I met on steam nearly 9 years ago. We maintain frequent contact.
>When was the last time you spokme with another human?
No family? Fuck me, probably 2 and a half weeks. I live in a dorm though and go to college.
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
see above
>How do you fight loneliness?
Keep myself busy, play vidya, masturbate, go for a drive. Really don't know what I'm going to do when my mom passes away though. She's really the only person that I can go to when I'm legitmately feeling lonely and talk to. When she's gone I won't have that anymore.
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
I want to turn shit around and eventually become an optometerist. I do well in school and could probably get in because I come off as a good and likable person in interviews and shit like that, but that has nothing to do with the difficulty I have in forming personal relationships. Hopefully it doesn't get in the way too much.

>>35939886
>>i have """friends""" but I don't really connect with them, realized this about a year ago
You sound like a fucking roastie.
>I haven't spoken to anyone besides my family and bf in a week, I'm forever alone!

>>35939930
hostility like that will never get you anywhere anon

>>35939930
I don't know, they're only superficial friendships or they're one-sided friendships (e.g. someone looking for homework help/solutions). I've always felt sad at the fact that I haven't been able to find an honest/interesting friendship. Take from it what you want

I'm not a roastie, just your average robot on /r9k/ on a Friday night

>>35940055
yeah anon, I get you. Literally all of my friendships are the same way. In other words, people don't contact you unless they want something from you.

>>35939805
>age and sex
25 male
>how long have I been lonely
I had one friend in highschool but haven't seen hike since I was 18
>alone for any reason
ugly NEET with no social skills
>spoke to another human
earlier this week applying for a job, although that's technically a cashier
>NEET or wageslave
NEET, trying to become a wageslave
>how do I fight loneliness
by visiting 4chan
>hopes for future
get a job. We'll see from there.

>Age and sex
31 m
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
Since early 20s
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
Multiple reasons
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
Yes
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
Yesterday at work
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
Wagie
>How do you fight loneliness?
Films
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
Be happy

>>35939805
>18, Male
>Since middle school, in college now
>People just generally don't like me, whether it's my personality or my looks, they simply don't like me
>Yes, but they didn't talk to me much, I scared them away
>Wageslave
>Do vidya, talk to people on Discord, watch anime, think about a future that certainly won't be mine
>I just want to live a simple life in a one bedroom apartment

>>35940102
No one under 30 can truly claim to be lonely.

>>35940026
Dgaf. Can't make it any worse for me.
>>35940055
Having friends is above-average to me.

>>35939805
>23
>Friendless for about 5 years now (outside internet friends I talk to)
>Because I am a NEET hermit, can't really have friends if you hardly exist outside your home.
>God I couldn't tell you the last time I spoke to another human being beside family. I don't remember anymore.
>NEET.
>Internet friends help, Tulpas (though that might just me having driven myself mad from lonliness), porn, music and writing stories inside my head, escaping the reality I live in, to another world.
>I hope to some how break this, get a decent job, find a decent woman, and have a decent famly. Sounds impossible honestly.

>>35940102
fuck I thought I was the only +30 friendless one here, every +30 thread is full of divorced guys or guys starting to change their lifes

Having friends have always feel like a job for me more than a joy, Im always the one that has to keep the other person interested and it frustrate me, real friendship should not supposed to be this way, thats why I dont even try anymore, I dont imagine myself not being alone someday, I guess Im better of this way

>>35939805

>24 M
>Not friendless. I do have 2 really close friends, though I'm afraid I might lose them soon.
>I feel lonely sometimes, mostly because I'm alone for a majority of the time.
>Yes, I've had friend(s) outside the internet.
>Today, friend called me.
>Neither. I trade.
>Take up an activity to keep myself busy.
>Graduate program and hopefully a career

i feel like i dont have a personality

like at all

i mean, i can talk to someone once and think we had a great time together - then they just never follow up on it. we can be at the same thing and they just dont acknowledge me

no matter how much "practice" i get, im still a wallflower.
i don't get it - i read, i try and broaden my music tastes, i think im a pretty smart, active guy, but i just have nothing interesting to say, apparently.

i mean, i see friends on social media who just ooze with personality, you know what i mean? i just dont get it, man.

it feels like im just destined to be alone. i just tank every date and friendship i have because of how fucking incorrigibly boring i am.

what do i even do guys

>Age and sex
22, girl(male)
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
Since I dropped out of uni 3 years ago.
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
Crippling social anxiety and depression.
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
When I was younger.
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
A couple of weeks ago.
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
neet
>How do you fight loneliness?
Youtube and video games and steam chat.
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
Maybe try uni again at some point.

[email protected] (send something here for discord)

>>35939805
>26, M
>Since December. My only friend and the person I talked to every day died.
>No irl friends anymore. Don't have online friends either.
>I talked to my therapist a few days ago, does that count?
>neet
>I drink a lot and shitpost.
>Maybe buy a rope and visit a forest preserve.

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>>35939805
>Age and sex
21, male
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
My whole life I suppose.
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
Can't make connections with people.
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
I'm not even sure what a friend is or how to know if I've had one. To me I've never had anyone I'd consider a friend.
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
My therapist, this Tuesday.
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
NEET
>How do you fight loneliness?
Hug my waifu, kiss my waifu, look at pictures of my waifu, talk to people on Steam or r9k.
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
Suicide.

>>Age and sex
21, male
>>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
I'm not friendless, but I enjoy meeting new people.
>>Are you alone for any particular reason?
I wouldn't know.
>>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
Yes, of course!
>>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
Today.
>>Are you a neet/wageslave?
Student
>>How do you fight loneliness?
I just play video games.
>>Any hopes or plans for the future?
I want to be successful.

Fuji#0553

>>35941666
I'm a boring fuck too. I tried to imitate my chad brother's personality to get friends, it worked for a while, but then they just drift off for no reason.
Well, I found out the reason when I had a talk with said chad aniki and he said everything about me feels fake and disgusting.

I stopped trying after that tbqh, some people are just destined to be alone I guess.

I'm a 29 male.
Basically, when I try to make new friends my friends all have other better long term friends

The other night I had this dream where I magically had lots of money and was trying to buy sex from this super sexy whore.
She turned me down because my dick was gross I looked down at my naked self and saw that my dick was all dieased and shredded up.
She gives me a wink and leaves me naked in this room.

I woke up hating life particularly bad that day.

>>35941666
>>35942500
Do you guys have these same "boring" complaints from people you talk to online?

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>>35939805
>>Age and sex
22 male

>>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
I got depressed in 2015 and never recovered. I didn't have friends before that either but I wasn't a hiki.

>>Are you alone for any particular reason?
Ugly, autism, manlet, anxiety, depression, inability to bond, years of rejection has left me traumatised, poorfag, helicopter parenting during school prevented me from learning how to socialise, agoraphobia


>>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
I think so. She was my friend but I don't know if I was hers. She cut all contact with me and deleted me off facebook when her boyfriend started hating me. Her boyfriend stabbed her and she's still with him so I guess the love of a stabber is worth more than my friendship.

>>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
I'm a /uni/ kid in Honours so I have to talk occasionally because it's a class of 12 so probably Thursday.

>>Are you a neet/wageslave?
No. uni

>>How do you fight loneliness?
porn addiction and weed addiction

>>Any hopes or plans for the future?
Nope, when I'm done writing my novel I'm going to kill myself. I'm aiming for my brithday (25 June) but realistically I'm looking at a Christmas day suicide.

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>18, F
>I've been lonely for a majority of the entire duration of my short life.
>I don't fucking know why. I've tried talking to so many different types of people, plebs, normies all walks alike. None stick with me or seem even fucking interested in my well-being.
>I guess. None that are here now.
>Four days ago. Casual conversation at school, I guess.
>Wageslave
>Play games. Listen to music. Nothing really significant.
>Joining the military.

>>35942607
None online actually said it to my face and I can't know since I can't physically see them messing with their phone while talking to me but I can't hold conversations worth shit even online and it will stop and I never talk to them again so I guess I am boring.

>Age and sex
23 male
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
a few years now
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
i don't know i'm a piece of shit i guess
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
in high school/college
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
just coworkers
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
wageslave
>How do you fight loneliness?
i don't
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
i am going to kill myself after my mom dies

>>35939805
31/ male
8 years
I hate myself but i hate everyone else more
yes
Today if you count coworkers
wageslave been with my company 6 going on 7 years
I drink
None

>>35942684
Sometimes people say things online that kinda just shut down the conversation and people do that to me sometimes I don't know if they're doing it on purpose or not or if I'm just paranoid.

Just certain phrases kill conversation and it's hard for me to move past them, I dunno.

>>35939805
i wish humans weren't hardwired to want to be social have friends and sex it ruins everything and also makes proof that there is no god and Darwinism seems more correct. the thing that is making us so upset on this board is because its hardwired in us biologically to want sex and friends to keep the race going. but since there is billions of people it doesn't matter anymore and we cant get rid of these feels.

29/M

Been lonely pretty much all of my life. I have to talk to a few people at work (but not many, since I do night shift IT work), and I have some Internet "friends" who I give tons of money so they don't abandon me like everyone else, but that's about it.

I thought life would be better as I got older. That's a lie, so, I basically drink and play vidya all the time so I don't have to live in my shorty miserable existence for a bit. It's not going to get any better.

My cats are probably the only reason I haven't taken some 12 gauge mouthwash already.

>>35942745
I know what you mean, it's like you know running in front of a train is a stupid ass idea but you instincts make you do it anyway. It's a vicious cycle.

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>>35942742
I'm so pathetic I read those "How to make small conversations" books and online articles.
It said to start a topic with a question that will get other people talking and automatically get you to chime back in and shit.
So I usually ask "How are you doing with your day so far?" and stuff in hope they'll start talking about what they did that day and ask me what I did, then we can talk about more things.
Then they answered "Good."
And we never talked again.

On my brother's chat, he could just say "how r u" and then it'd be a 7 paragraph essay as a reply.
I don't know how we could be so different.

>>35942770
Want to get in contact? You sound interesting, anon.

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>>35939805
>Age and sex
21, male
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
5 or 6 years
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
i never leave my house
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
during highschool
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
about a year ago i think
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
NEET
>How do you fight loneliness?
Video games or music. anything distracting really
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
suicide

Guys I smoked seemed the other day and that always gets me thinking about my life in a deeper way. Things are very very bad.

>>35939805
>24 male
>11 months
>11 months ago I developed an almost impossibly severe case of panic disorder. I could only fall asleep for 1-3 hours a night and barely eat because of nausea, both due to all the adrenaline constantly surging through my body. I literally wake up in the morning to panic attacks. I don't do anything.
>yes
>I texted a childhood friend about fire emblem earlier today if that counts
>neet
>prescription drugs
>to not want to kill myself or be in agony all day

>>35939805
>>Age and sex
28, Male
>>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
11 years
>>Are you alone for any particular reason?
Depression, anxiety, rural location, disability
>>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
I was actually popular when I was in middle school, but I moved across the country and struggled to make friends. I had 2 close friends in high school, and 2 others I would consider friends. Over 11 years ago.
>>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
Does my psychologist count? If so, 4 months ago. If not, if we're talking actual human contact where one of us isn't being paid, 1 year 6 months.
>>Are you a neet/wageslave?
NEET, on the bux
>>How do you fight loneliness?
I don't fight it, I embrace it. I don't care about anyone and they don't care about me. I'm nearly 30, I'm overweight, I'm ugly, I'm gross.
>>Any hopes or plans for the future?
I hope that my assessment for the bux goes well next month. I hope I die before my mother.

>>35942823
You'd find me boring eventually anon.
I don't have skype and I barely talk to anyone anymore.

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>friendless introvert all my life
>make friends first year of college
>drift away
>back to being a friendless introvert but now the pain is worse
>curse my once friends
>spend all my time thinking about them and whether they ever liked me to begin with

>>35942823

I'm really not. Despite being terribly lonely, I also hate socializing and being around people. And I think people can tell, so, they do not like being around me. So I both want people around but also want them to go away.

I make like 5-6x what I need for myself, so, I do random shit like giving the homeless guy on the side of the road $500 and then driving off, or going into a restaurant, paying for everyones' meals and then leaving. At least making other people happy temporarily makes the suicidal thoughts go away.

Material things don't fill that gaping sense of emptiness that I think most robots feel.

>>35942985
Oh, come on.
Grrr. I want friends. :(

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>>35939805
>Age and sex
20 M
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
Honestly since forever even when I made friends they were often in cities across half the country so any contact slowly ebbed away in time
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
yea getting bullied and having noone to talk to is kinda shit. It's the reason I now have tinnitus
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
I had and was on the way of making last year until my ear starting making weird noices
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
Yesterday I have a dogbro so I need to go outside , it's the only time I really enjoy myself
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
collegecuck
>How do you fight loneliness?
Dogbro and psychologist
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
Hoping to get my diploma and maybe a trip to Korea or Japan my family is giving my 2 houses and alot of dosh so at least I got that going for me.

Also mfw my psy says I have alot of trauma's and is amazed I can even function now without talking toalmost anyone for 10 years

I've never had friends.
only acquaintances.

at the time, maybe they seemed like friends, but looking back, they never really knew me.

26, financially independent, and I'm on the steady path to dying alone. bring it on. I have accepted my fate.

>>35940277
Wow, great attitude anon. I wonder why no one wants to be your friend - everyone but you must be chad or stacy, nothing to do with you being an entitled, cynical asshole. unironically kill yourself

>>35939928
I'm ausfag so idk exactly what age grade 11 is, but if it's around the same time as year 11 over here then it's around 16-17 -- if you say you're 18 now, then you're probably not "avoidant", you're most likely still heartbroken and just not ready to move on yet. What I've found is that it takes about 1x-1.5x the length of the relationship after the breakup to get over the person completely, depending on how much I liked them, so if you went out for this girl for a year or two, or even half a year, you're very likely still fully getting over her, meaning you'll be ready to date and socialize again soon enough. On top of all that, the 1x-1.5x thing is just for me, so it may take more or less time for you.

Basically what I'm trying to say is, you're 18 anon -- you've got a lot of life ahead of you and one bad breakup a year or two ago coupled with more bad circumstances isn't the end of the world -- you will move on.

good luck anon

>>35939805
>Age and sex
25 or 24 m
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
7 years
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
Crippling anxiety and probably autistic
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
I had a friend back in elementary school, for a couple of years. He stopped talking to me in highschool
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
I say hi to the bus driver and talk to my landlord for a few minutes when I pay the rent. But it's been probably over a year since I've had a real life conversation with someone.
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
NEET
>How do you fight loneliness?
I talk to myself and post on 4chan, also watch YouTube.
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
I'm basically unemployable, so the only real option moving forward, as I'm also broke and being sued over my debts ive racked up as a NEET is suicide.

>>35943008
Not that guy but I'm in a similar situation. I've been growing apart from people since my ealy 20s. I'm 30 now and unemployed but aiming to get into IT. Wouldn't mind nights since I'm a night owl.

Are you in a similar situation? I was hoping to find older robots to chat with who've struggled to make connections like I have. Maybe just share advice or stuff by email. I don't chat much with people online but would like to if I don't have to show my face

>>35939805
>>Age and sex
24 m
>>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
since 2006
>>Are you alone for any particular reason?
i dont understand humans and cant form bonds
>>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
in my childhood yes
>>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
maybe January for non family or store/restaurant workers
>>Are you a neet/wageslave?
neet for 5 months
>>How do you fight loneliness?
internet i guess. I stopped feeling lonely around 2014. I dont know anything else at this point.
>>Any hopes or plans for the future?
alien disclosure or societal collapse.

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>>35939805
>Age and sex
27 male
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
9 years
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
I was bullied in HS so I quit and become a neet
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
I had 3 or 4 friends when i was 16
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
I didn't talked to anyone for 9 years or so
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
I'm Neet and never worked before
>How do you fight loneliness?
I'm posting on /r9k/
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
Killing myself when i turn 30

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>>35939805
>Age and sex
26 M
>How long you have been friendless and lonely?
I never had many friends, but complete loneliness started at 17
>Are you alone for any particular reason?
Autism, mainly. I was never rejected, but I just couldn't fit in.
>Did you ever have any friend outside the internet?
Yes, in school.
>When was the last time you spoke with another human? (no cashiers or family)
In January, I think.
>Are you a neet/wageslave?
NEET
>How do you fight loneliness?
Get drunk, play vidya/guitar
>Any hopes or plans for the future?
Meh...