Lost all attraction to everything

>>35935405

You've developed into a sjw, time to an hero

>>35935434
I actually had a suicide note written up at one point, then I realized that I didn't give enough of a shit to actually go through the trouble of doing it.

I very much welcome the idea of death, though. I'm not even a person any more, I have nothing to live for.

>>35935632

I'm just being a sarcastic asshole, don't acutally an hero.

>>35935644
Now you're just sounding like my mother.

>>35935632
>>35935405

Also after re-reading your post, it sounds like you've gone deeper into depression, talk with a doctor if you can? Explains the lack of interest in anything, so you've started to question things you wouldn't normally.

>>35935405
just accept being gay

>>35935779
I'd be fine if I was gay, though; like I said, at one point I utterly convinced myself that I was, then I learned that I wasn't actually attracted to guys at all.

Once I figured that out, it suddenly shifted to thoughts of wanting to be a girl, instead.

>>35935836
gl wit that man sounds like you're in a wild ride of self discovery

>>35935881
Really, it's kind of par for the course.

In my late teenage years, it manifested itself as an extremely irrational paranoia about being monitored and constantly talked about behind my back, then it went away for a long time.

I just wish I could enjoy the same shit that I did a few weeks ago. I literally have no idea what my own thoughts and opinions are any more.

I just want my desire to fuck women and get a wife to come back, because without that, I have nothing to drive me to do anything.

Your brain is dying bro. I've seen this before.

File: 1488496442036s.jpg (5KB, 250x126px) Image search: [Google]

5KB, 250x126px

>>35935405
I have mild OCd and caught that hOCD, the fear of being gay and the intrusive thoughts of it. It's gotten much milder, less thoughts and such. You just didn't get treatment. I suggest seeing a therapist. I haven't since I'm a mild case but you really need it. Will pray for you my dude.

Sounds like ocd to me OP. But I'm going through a similar thing. Think ive figured out I'm just bisexual. Thought I was straight at first but then I started noticing guys after a gay guy said I seemed gay which made me think "maybe" but then I was like "but I still want to fuck women". But then I'm like " but I must be gay I want to suck a dick" but then I still want to fuck women. Its confusing as fuck desu. I'm basically just awkward around everyone now, on top of my autism. It just keeps stacking.

>>35936019
Same guy who wrote the post I'm responding too. I got over my OCD and paranoia of people secretly hating me/ plotting against me. The fear had to go somewhere. And since I've never had a girlfriend, that's where it went.

>>35936015
Wut a similar thing is happenign to me too not so extrme, what is it?

>>35936047
Making the OCD's idea your reality is bad too.

You're just in your own head man. Get off 4chan, go do other things even on the internet if you must. Place is hell for the sexual psyche.

>>35936096
I agree. Try to dodge porn as well. Just masturbate to your own thoughts. Resist the act of compulsions. It will be tough at first but it will soon become a much easier battle.

>>35936090
Isn't it just acceptance though over what I am. I don't think it's ocd in my case but I don't even know anymore. I've done this with a few things though where I get a thought in my head and start to believe I am that thing but then it passes.

File: 1486858052407.png (28KB, 354x286px) Image search: [Google]

28KB, 354x286px

I want to die every single day
If only there could be a way
to quickly end all the pain

File: 1489857318344s.jpg (6KB, 250x213px) Image search: [Google]

6KB, 250x213px

>>35936158
Oh yeah that's OCD. Many people give in because it's an easy way out. Majority of all homosexuals (Like 95%) know they're gay by early high school, late middle school. They had gay crushes through out their childhood. As a sufferer as hOCD (this is what it is), I meet no criteria for being gay. It's just a fear. Reply to me if you need any more info. I'll help anyone on this.

>>35936096
I haven't been on here since my problems started up, I'm pretty sure this place is to blame. That's why I came here, actually, because I was thinking that there'd be people around who also have experienced something similar, which it looks like there are.
>>35936130
That's another thing that I forgot to mention, masturbating is fucking unbearable now. Getting sexually aroused is impossible. My dick has become a useless thimble with no feeling. I can get semi-erect and ejaculate, but it no longer carries any feeling of enjoyment or pleasure.

>>35936065
Your brain slowly degenerates until you lose your sense of self and die.

>>35936215
Hhmm I'll have to research this hocd, thanks. Hope I am gay though, would be a lot easier.

>>35936237
How much porn do you look at?

>>35936268
Never wish that.

>>35935405
You should get your testosterone checked. This sounds like you stopped producing test.

>>35936324
Whatever. I see sexuality as like a character trait on a game that you can't change. Best I can do is figure it out then embrace whatever I am, its all arbitrary anyway. People only care because the stigma associated with it.

>>35936286
I've been a chronic masturbator since I was 11, probably averaging around three times a day. I don't think that I used actual porn regularly until I was 14ish, I was always too scared to look it up.

After turning 19 or so, porn became a way of life, basically. Went away for a few years when I finally got a girlfriend in my twenties, but even then I still looked it up. Sometimes when she was around, I'd even send her to the store for something so I could look at porn.

She left me a few months back, and I looked at it and masturbated probably five times a day since that point, up until a few weeks ago when my attraction to women suddenly disappeared out of the blue.

I've entirely abstained from porn and masturbation for the most part since that happened, but occasionally give in and look at it again to see if my attraction came back, like I did just before making this post, actually. It still definitely hasn't.

>>35936419
Keep staying away. Do you have any compulsions? Ways to remove intrusive thoughts.

>>35936419
Dude, this is definitely hormone related. Go see an endocrinologist. You could have a brain tumor.

>>35935405
Loldidntreadatleastnotreally

Society is repressive and degenerate as fuck. People are gross gmo monstrosities: the living dead.

If it's too difficult to fuck girls in their prime like I want (BIG NO-NO), then my only reprieve is to get into the gay club scene. Yup, the best way to kickstart my social life is to move somewhere trendy and start becoming a regular at gay bars I think. My become an apocalypse warlord thing ain't working out at the moment.

>>35936493
At first, the thoughts would make me gag and get to the point of throwing up, which made me feel better. I also found myself literally cringing my face at them in disgust every time that they'd occur. If my eyes were closed at the time, I'd always open them to banish the vision.

Eventually, when they became more commonplace, I moved on to causing myself physical pain any time that they'd occur. I haven't done either in a while.

I considered buying a shock collar for myself to help with this, actually, but that was the point where I started to say "This is getting out of hand" and stopped.

As I said, they've also jumped around from thoughts of being gay to wanting to date a transsexual to wanting to be a girl to wanting to be a lesbian girl, despite being entirely asexual at this point.

File: CE8tpXaUsAA0gtb-1.png (82KB, 516x362px) Image search: [Google]

82KB, 516x362px

OP you can become my eunuch scribe in the apocalypse (if it ever gets here) after I'm done fraternizing with my gay bros at the bar having a gay old time. They will tell legends of my deeds, indeed.

>>35936554
Holy fuck I hope that I have a brain tumor, that'd be awesome to die guilt free. I want my obsessive thoughts to shift to that, that sounds great.

Iktf bro, feeling confused right now.

Had several crushes on girls, earliest one I could remember was in 1st grade, then another major one in 4th + 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th + 9th, and 11th. Got erections at the drop of a hat from interactions.

At the around 16, I noticed I blushed around dudes as well.

Got blackout drunk, admitted I was bi-curious, and the people I was around laugh at me for it.

Gay porn doesn't do anything for me, and I don't get aroused by dudes.

I think I need a therapist.

>>35936635
I can say the same for the first paragraph. This is my second wave of this shit. First was in late October. I considered physical pain quickly but removed that thought. It also does sound like a hormone issue too. I recommend seeing someone ASAP at this point.

>>35936864
I've got a doctor appointment coming up, thankfully, so maybe they'll be able to point me in the right direction.

>>35936769
Get one ASAP

>>35936648
I appreciate the offer, but I'm kind of hoping the apocalypse takes me with it at this point.

Bro it's the excessive porn, your probably just getting ED, if you genuinely want to suck a dick than your probably bisexual. At one point when my libido was at an all time low I thought I was turning gay, it's completely irrational, and don't even entertain that trap shit, it's a fucking mental disorder. Just stop obssesing over sex and live your life. Iv'e been addicted to pornography masturbating almost daily since I was 15 and now i'm 21 and JUST came to terms with my addiction. I'm doing everything I can to fight it, porn is unhealthy in everyway and it's fucking with the natural course of your body.

>>35937151
I hope it's just the porn, I feel like I've lost my mind. My old self has literally died in the last three weeks.

>>35937669
Well, not too literally, I suppose.