god why do I always find myself here? (r9k) not good for my head

This place isn't exactly a source of corruption. It's just attractive to the corrupted.

I hate this board more and more every time I come here, but there's just no alternative to it.

seeing people worse off than me boosts my self esteem

you always end up here because you get some pleasure out of it not being good for your head. it's an endless cycle. i think i came to terms long ago that the only time i feel balanced is when i feel miserable about things. he's right though it's not the source of corruption, but it sure feels right to revel among the corrupted.

>>35918826
Whenever you're down, lost or confused you come to this place

By association your brain associates coming to /r9k/ with success and it releases dopamine

In reality you're just doing damage to yourself. There is nothing redeeming about this place and the less time you spend here the better.

Go find another hobby, even if only moderately less destructive.